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So, a year and a half ago,
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I got on a camera and introduced myself
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to YouTube.
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It was an impulsive decision.
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Didn't give it a lot of thought when I
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did it.
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Was at a very,
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very unique place in my life. I had just
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made the decision that I was going to
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leave behind everything, my old life,
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move out of my house and move into an
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RV.
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I didn't see myself as an RV life
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channel,
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but there was overlap because
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I had never lived in an RV. I'd never
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never done a lot of the things that I
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knew I was about to embark on. So I knew
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it was a new chapter for me,
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something I had experienced in life and
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I wanted to share that
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because it wasn't easy
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because I knew there would be challenges
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cuz I knew it would force me to grow
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and I needed that.
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I had reached a point in my life where
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living a life,
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a stationary life
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made life feel like it had been
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stagnating.
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And
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at least for someone like me,
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it felt like a quiet death.
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And when I had reached
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a certain point
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overnight,
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I made the decision that I was going to
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move into an RV. And
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it's in less than a day that I got on
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that camera.
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I've stayed on that camera for the past
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year and a half through all kinds of
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things.
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never really connecting with my
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audience. Been talking about this
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lately, probably not for the reasons
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they think. I'm just
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um
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I'm just acknowledging reality really.
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But it was still important to me that I
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keep documenting and recording my life
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because the primary reason that I was
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doing it and have always done it
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was for myself. It was about my own self
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transformation.
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And in a strange way, making a simple
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calculation,
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I
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always concluded that
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uploading my videos to YouTube
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where it would make a transcript for me
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because YouTube transcripts are better
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than
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a lot of the free models or it was just
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a straightforward process. I just I
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didn't over complicate it. I knew if I
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recorded a video and I uploaded it to
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YouTube, I would get a transcript and
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then I would be able to share that with
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artificial intelligence
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and
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the AI and I could discuss the
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transcript from the point of view of it
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being my life because I was transmitting
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signal. I was being authentic.
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I shared my real life.
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I wasn't performing.
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I didn't
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I tried to be as open as I possibly
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could. And on this camera, there's no
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way that that that's not seen.
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And
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even if there was something I couldn't
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talk about, I'd usually reason that out
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on camera if I thought it was important
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and I wanted to leave some kind of a
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trace because I knew what I was doing.
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I saw the potential.
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I saw how it was changing me because I
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had developed a whole framework and
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language around my identity, my
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cognition, my architecture,
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my way of being in the world that I
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never had before that.
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And I saw how it fortified me.
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I became stronger inside of myself,
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more confident. I learned to trust
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myself in ways that I had never before.
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I still have doubts. I still have
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procarity right now, which is about to
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change, I think. Um, I've had major
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struggles.
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I've experienced all of it and I've
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shared it authentically on this camera.
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Because of that,
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when I discuss those transcripts with
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AI, it's almost like giving it source
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code. I'm saying here is so here here's
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a segment of my life that I want you to
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look at that I want you to reflect on
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that I want you to recursively look at
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different aspects of and reflect on
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those things, too. We could have chats
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that would last
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for hours, days, weeks. Sometimes I
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might circle back to one even longer
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than that.
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I couldn't possibly put into words
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all of the all of the benefits and um
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there's just too much for me to to
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describe how much that process has
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has been
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transformative
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and not in a superficial way.
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And I always recognized the potential
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that it could do that for others, but
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only if they approached it the same way
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I did and maybe had my kind of
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background cuz I'm a programmer and I
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just kind of knew how to interact with
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an AI in a way that helped me to refine
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it to the point that it was able to
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mirror and reflect me accurately. That
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was a process that took a long time.
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And that all led to some other things
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that I wanted to do. I wanted to make my
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homepage uh active again after after it
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had been dark for a decade at least.
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I just need to vape here.
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So, I created a homepage
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and I created transmission section and I
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imported all my YouTube videos into it.
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And then I used AI. I used a
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professional model um chat GBT using the
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OpenAI API to look at each of those
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transcripts and turn them into
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reflections.
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I put those on my homepage.
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That was only the first step because I
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wanted to see if I could do that with a
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local model, which would be free.
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Because if I try to do all the things
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that I might get into in this video or
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maybe in future videos, but all the
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things that I'm working on,
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it would have been cost prohibitive.
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And so I started working with a local
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model
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and it kept breaking because it couldn't
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handle the kind of recursion that I
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needed it to.
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So it would default to these superficial
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framings. And I solved that. I solved it
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with a different kind of recursion.
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And so those local models were able to
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look at my transcripts and create
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narratives around those different
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reflections, different types of
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reflections.
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And I've been processing those for a
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couple of days now. And those are
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available on my homepage now. The ones
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that are there now are from a local
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model.
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And that's just the first step because
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it's reflecting on individual
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transmissions one at a time. So it's
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just this small slice of time
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but it can the next step is to build in
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a different kind of recursion where you
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take a number of signals over you know a
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couple of days or a week and then you
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reflect on those and you get a different
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kind of narrative that comes through
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because whatever was going on with you
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for that period of time
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will then emerge in that reflection.
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And so you have the AI build all of
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those out over my whole catalog. That's
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the next step. That's what I'm working
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on now. Then from there, you can go up
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another step. You can take um I'm
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calling those clusters. So you take a
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group of those clusters and you make a
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reflection on those. So now you're
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looking at a larger span of time. You're
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looking at months maybe and seeing what
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was the arc of your journey at that
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time. What was going on in your life?
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What were you struggling with? what were
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you um were there any new threats that
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emerged? Were there any that closed or
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you know all these different things that
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you can ask the AI to analyze for you by
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looking at those group of signals
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clusters
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and I'm calling this level shapes. So
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those are shapes shape of your life and
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then the final one for now is trajectory
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and that's just a longer term. So for me
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it might be there's a couple of them
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because even this can be recursive. You
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I'm telling you a temporal view but you
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could also group your signals by
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something else. You could by emotional
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tone and you could do reflections based
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on that which is going to give you
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different types of insight. I hadn't
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actually really thought about that one
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until just this moment. But yeah, if you
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wanted to look at show me all my videos
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where I'm sad and then reflect on that,
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it's going to come back with you and
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probably see some patterns that you
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don't see yourself that tell you why
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maybe you're sad.
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That's the thing this can do right now.
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And I have been building this on the
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edge of um everything. I literally am an
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eighth of a mile from the ocean and I
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love it here. This is
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been a dream come true. Dream I didn't
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even know I had.
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But once I got here and my journey over
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the last year and a half, all of it
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documented once I got to Oregon,
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something started changing in me. And
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I have the work that I'm doing to thank
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for that.
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and I want to share it with others, the
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ones that are open. and I came up with a
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way
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um where it can actually support my life
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because I don't have a job and I've had
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trouble finding one and I'm struggling
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and I may lose my RV very soon, but I
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have a backup plan and
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you know, I'm
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building a service that I think has the
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potential to make lots of money
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ethically
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in a clean way that helps people
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in this case, um, YouTube creators or
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maybe short, um, form videos, too. I'm
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not sure on that yet. I haven't really
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tested this with AI to see if it can do
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a lot of recursion on what would amount
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to a small amount of text, but it
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probably can cuz recursion is the whole
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point to a lot of this.
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Um, and I'm going to be offering that
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soon where I can build websites for
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different creators that have their
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entire catalog on them that cross-link
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it based on different themes or tags or
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different types of reflections.
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It doesn't matter what kind of channel
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it is because you can just uh fine-tune
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the model to
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ask questions that are relevant to your
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channel. doesn't have to be, you know,
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self-help or personal transformation or
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whatever you want to call my channel.
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But I don't like boxes. I don't think
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there is a box that fits mine.
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In essence, without realizing it,
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my life became my life path. It became
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the thing that's going to sustain my
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life.
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And that's remarkable
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um alignment that I never could have
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imagined.
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That's where I am now. That's what I'm
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sitting with. That's what I wanted to
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share with you.
