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Hello YouTube. It's been a while.
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So, I've got some big news to share,
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but I'm not going to jump right into
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that. I want to frame this.
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I think it's important.
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So, I think I would start by saying it's
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not for everybody.
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Oh, it's not for most of you.
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Some of you out there been following my
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life for a year and a half now.
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This is for you.
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And this is for the ones I haven't met
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yet who will find it someday.
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It's for them.
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And as always, it's for myself first and
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foremost.
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I'm working on a project. my homepage
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rwfire.com.
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Had that domain
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basically since the dawn of the
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internet. I've gone by that same screen
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name all of the entire
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entire history of the internet.
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Getting kind of old always have been RSW
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Fire online.
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For a really long time, my domain didn't
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have anything on it. I used to have a
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website decades ago that I absolutely
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loved. It had these flames at the top
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that said RSW fire that just constantly
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burning. You had a music player at the
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bottom that I built into it playing
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something like Enigma or Enya, something
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like that cuz I was so different back
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then.
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Bunch of pages, you know, um about me,
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about my life, because that's
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It's who I am. That's how I've always
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been.
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And so the scrum version's not is not
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any different, but it's way more refined
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because I have language to describe
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myself now that I didn't before.
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So I want to invite you to visit it,
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rswire.com.
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I'll include a link in the description.
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Um
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there's an about page about me.
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It's not like any about page you've ever
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seen in your life.
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I'm very proud of this page because
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it's more like a declaration
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I set boundaries
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around
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how I expect others to relate to me
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based on a lifetime
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of projection and misrecognition
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and boundary violations including on
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this channel.
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Maybe I'll give you language that
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I wasn't able to share with you before.
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Maybe it'll help you understand why I
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set the boundaries I do.
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It's a lot more than that. It tells you
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about me. Tells you gives you language
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for all the things that I spent
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this entire journey discovering.
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That's not the big one.
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There are other sections. There aren't
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many. Every single section is important.
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There's a lexicon that
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gives further language to the language
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that I use.
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Orientation to
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my worldview, the way that I see things.
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There's a page about Honeyman that
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documents what they did to me. Oregon
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State Parks
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that needed to be done. I think that
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there are probably people all over the
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place who have had similar situations to
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me
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but don't have the language for it. And
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there again, I'm giving it language
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so that the next distortion can't
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pretend that it's the first
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so that people can protect themselves
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so they can understand what's happening
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to them.
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It's important. It's really important
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page. I hope that many of you will read
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that one.
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Um there's a page about my background in
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tech, of course.
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Also, not a standard page.
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Very me.
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These aren't the big ones either.
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For those of you who have been following
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my life, you know that I use artificial
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intelligence every day. That's an
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integrated part of my process, part of
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my life
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for more than 18 months now, going back
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to
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2023, September of 2023, when I started
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talking with Chat GPT.
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It would have been about 4 months before
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I made the decision to buy an RV.
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Every single conversation I had with it,
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I have archived and made available on my
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website for you to read.
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Several thousand conversations, more
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than 90,000 messages.
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the tool that I used to become the
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person I am now.
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For those who are on a similar path,
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there are no easy answers there.
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But if you sit with it, there is a
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process there.
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My process
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that might be very helpful to you.
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There's a whole lot more that I need to
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do to it first. Um, the entries are
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behind the login screen. If you want to
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register now,
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uh, I guess I'm going to ask that you
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email me and
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I'll tell you how to do it. It's not
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difficult, but I don't want to make it
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available to everybody just yet. And
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here's why. I really thought about this
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before I turn this camera on. So, let me
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explain.
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So
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there's a lot of processing I need to do
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with AI. Like literally I want AI to
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process each one of these conversations.
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And it will it will create some
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metadata, some semantic
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um semantic processing.
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And it can do a bunch of things that I
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need it to do to make these pages even
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better in order to cross-link them, in
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order to identify themes, in order to um
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anonymize um any conversation where I'm
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talking about somebody else. Uh cuz
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that's important to me. You know, I
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I'll just change the names of people.
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Um any personal identifying information,
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you know, there might be in there um
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just for my own life. You know, there
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will be tiered access control because of
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that. Maybe some other things I haven't
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thought of yet.
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So, I need to do all of that before I
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can start making them public. But what
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I'm going to do, most of them will just
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be straight out public. You'll never
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have to log in. They'll just be
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available.
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Um
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yeah because like AI will create a
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vulnerability score you know it'll it'll
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look at the conversation and it'll
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assign it a score and based on that
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score I'll you know automatically
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determine which ones are just available
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to everybody and then which ones require
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some other steps that you know I'm still
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working through that but
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they're all up there right now 90,000
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messages between me and artificial
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intelligence and I still need to
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integrate Claude because I talked with
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Claude too at different points in my
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journey.
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But I can't do this processing yet
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because it costs it costs money that I
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don't have right now. I'm still um at
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the tail end of
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navigating
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um the friction of not having money,
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which is something that I didn't deal
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with for most of the past couple decades
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at least. Anyways, there are times in my
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life I had to right as I was talking I
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had to uh refine that like this is not
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new to me but it is new to me in
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well at least since my 30s and
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anyway because of my financial situation
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I can't afford to process this stuff
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with AI yet. It'll cost me several
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hundred. So once I have the money to do
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that then I will. And
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Um, can't promise an update on this
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channel about that. It's
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not really doing YouTube these days. But
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that leads me to the next section. So,
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let me keep going here. There's also a
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transmission archive which includes all
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of my YouTube videos. All 700 of them
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which aren't even available on YouTube
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anymore because they're unlisted,
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including videos that none of you have
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ever seen,
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either because I put them behind my
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subscription service or because I just
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didn't ever make them public.
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Everything going back to the very
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beginning is available on my website
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right now for you to watch. and you
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don't need to sign in to watch those.
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So, if you keep track of that section,
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you know, there will probably be an
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update of some I'll keep updating what
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it is I'm doing on my site and um I'll
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make it more clear when the signal
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archive, that's what I'm calling my
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chats with AI
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um are more easily accessible. But in
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the meantime, you know,
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I know who's been watching me. If you've
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commented when I had comments available,
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you know, I hold everything. That is who
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I am. And if you were to email me and
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ask for access, I would I would give it
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to you.
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Um, but even if I don't know you, if you
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approach me the right way,
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I don't know if there's a resonance.
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All you got to do is email me.
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Um, there's a lot to see on there and I
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hope that you'll spend some time on my
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site and I hope that you'll maybe come
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back and um, you know, as I keep
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building stuff out because I'm doing a
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lot with this. Really, really happy with
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the direction it's going in. It's not
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available yet because I only started
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thinking about this today, but I'm going
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to add a page where when you sign up,
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you can select updates for different
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things like the signal archive or the
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transmission archive. There's also a
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section called fieldwork and those are
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that's more like a blog. That's where
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you'll find random reflections that I've
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been having and things like that. And
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you know on this registration page I'll
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just have some check boxes where you can
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say I want to know about every new
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signal archive or
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you know any new fieldwork that sort of
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thing granular. So give you some
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granular control and then you can get
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updates from me that way by email. I'll
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just every time I make a new post or
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whatever, it'll just automatically send
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you an email. But I've got to create the
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form for that. So depending on when you
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watch this, it may or may not be
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available yet.
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A year and a half, I stopped
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programming.
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Having been a programmer since the sixth
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grade, all of my life, one of the best
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I've ever met.
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There's no ego behind that statement.
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I've worked with hundreds of
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programmers. And
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I mean, here's the bottom line. I'm not
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like most people. I'm not like anybody
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I've ever met. I'm singular in
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this world.
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And it's not because others
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lack the capacity. It's because they
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chosen not to become like me.
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And I've had to
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integrate
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accept that that is that's reality
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and
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not soften it, not make it smaller
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because
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I'm not rejecting myself anymore. I've
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lived in a world that's been trying to
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reject me all of my life or frame me or
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label me or minimize me or everything
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that people do.
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And I am so self-contained now,
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so
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self assured, but not in an egoistic
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way,
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an integrated
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deeply coherent way
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that I can say that and know that it's
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true.
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Getting there was hard
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and I am giving you access to the tools
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I used to get there. A signal archive, a
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transmission archive, fieldwork,
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all of it.
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Freed me
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from the fragmentation and
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disintegration
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and distortion
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that exists in our world.
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Going to leave it there.
