Driving South for Toys and Hiking the Dunes

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[0:01] I decided to head south today a very

[0:03] good reason for that we're heading into

[0:05] Northbend hban Rich up here this is a

[0:10] nice

[0:11] view love

[0:13] this so there's this adult store right

[0:16] on the 101 in in Cay that I passed a

[0:19] bunch of times so I decided to go there

[0:20] this morning pick up some

[0:22] toys you

[0:24] know case I men need their toys I don't

[0:27] have a partner so going to get some toys

[0:30] I know people would want you to feel

[0:31] ashamed of stuff like that there's no

[0:33] reason to me have

[0:36] fun I'm going to be early they don't

[0:39] open until 10 it's only 9:20 right now

[0:41] I'll probably get their own 9:30 look at

[0:43] this guy trying to pass me on the right

[0:45] what a [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ]

[0:48] you

[0:50] um what a [ __ ] [ __ ] I got to Hae

[0:53] people there's no patience in the world

[0:56] anywayss I don't know what I'm doing

[0:58] after that it's

[1:01] uh I could had North but you know I come

[1:04] South now so maybe we go to the beach

[1:06] it's very rainy today though so I'm

[1:09] going to look at the map when I get

[1:10] there just s in the parking lot waiting

[1:12] for them to open so that's that's what

[1:13] I'm trying to get

[1:15] to and I'll make plans after

[1:19] that and here we go I love this

[1:26] bridge we're going too fast let us slow

[1:29] down

[1:31] I'm going to ask somebody while I'm here

[1:33] whenever I come here at night I've come

[1:35] here for Mexican food a couple times

[1:38] there's a whole bunch of green lights on

[1:39] the water they are just so pretty I

[1:42] think it might be an airport but maybe

[1:43] it's a harbor or maybe it's a um maybe

[1:46] it's a local park you know I'm going to

[1:49] find out today if I

[1:55] can so very nice day if you like rain

[1:59] I don't mind it I like rain but I really

[2:03] wanted to commun with the ocean today

[2:05] this is the river this is not the ocean

[2:07] let's be clear about that this bridge

[2:09] takes us over a

[2:12] river very big

[2:14] river not sure which one that

[2:17] is keep

[2:23] forgetting so but the ocean is very

[2:26] close this river runs into the ocean

[2:28] somehow some way

[2:31] or where is the ocean it's on this side

[2:34] I

[2:35] think yeah it's guy be on this side

[2:38] somewhere the ocean's out there heading

[2:40] into North V for the record yes I am

[2:44] buying toys with the $200 I have left

[2:47] obviously I'm not spending all of it you

[2:49] can judge my choices or you can flow

[2:51] with it this is a thing I want that's

[2:54] going to bring bring me pleasure and

[2:56] make me happy for who knows how long

[2:59] it's a very good Investments check that

[3:01] Hill out in the distance we need to go

[3:03] that way one day look how high up that

[3:05] goes we got to drive up there and see

[3:08] what's going on over there no we're

[3:11] going to the left what's up there we

[3:14] need to

[3:16] know we got a giant boat over here

[3:19] that's so cool God I want to be on that

[3:21] thing just to go all the way up there

[3:23] princess Pacific ooh what a cool name we

[3:27] got to be here one of these days there's

[3:29] another boat down the road a little way

[3:31] as I noticed so there's two of them

[3:33] maybe we can get on one of those we made

[3:36] it we're at the adult fun center this

[3:39] very shady looking place here AI told me

[3:43] that they has a downstairs well techno I

[3:46] found out from reviews first and then I

[3:49] asked AI about it there's a downstairs

[3:51] where people go and they have sex and

[3:53] it's

[3:54] legal I'm very disgusting I would never

[3:57] do that in a million years like that is

[3:59] the grossest thing ever but like wow

[4:02] like that's a thing that actually

[4:03] happens in America so pretty

[4:07] fascinating all right so this picture

[4:10] here confirms that those lights I was

[4:12] seeing are an airport I had a feeling so

[4:15] nothing to really see there just pretty

[4:17] lights across from the bridge there's a

[4:20] whole area of Dunes you can see those on

[4:22] the map on the other side of that is the

[4:24] beach and the ocean I just got to figure

[4:26] out how to get over there I kind of know

[4:27] cuz I looked this up before but those

[4:29] Dunes look kind of interesting too

[4:31] there's a couple of places there we can

[4:32] rent ATVs and stuff like that so um

[4:36] might be worth just going over there and

[4:37] looking around and stuff I mean we're

[4:40] very close to it so to my camera I just

[4:42] thinking that propritor he saw me

[4:44] looking down at the stairs I'm like cuz

[4:46] I'm like I know what's going on down

[4:47] there you know I'm just looking cuz I'm

[4:49] curious and this man's like you can just

[4:52] tell like you you want to go down there

[4:54] like he didn't say that he was

[4:56] like I remember what he said with man

[4:58] that is way he applied like he's like he

[5:00] just go down there that's a popular

[5:02] place but I the first went there like

[5:04] who could possibly have been there

[5:05] should have asked him though was anyone

[5:07] attractor go down there you know like I

[5:10] was like yeah I know what goes on down

[5:11] there I saw some reviews and he was like

[5:13] oh reviews like he got a little bit

[5:15] nervous about that I don't know why is

[5:17] legal and I'm just like he's asking me

[5:20] what are these reviews I'm like they're

[5:21] discreet you know I just I know what's

[5:23] going on down there because of these

[5:26] reviews he's this older man who's just

[5:28] like he's

[5:31] like he reminds me of like like the one

[5:34] gay guy from um the bird cage he's just

[5:37] all fed up with cusb in the rain and

[5:40] he's like I'm selling this place been

[5:42] here for decades I'm going back to

[5:44] California all my friends are like this

[5:46] man is just like I'm like can I just

[5:49] shop in peace like I'm trying to figure

[5:50] out what kind of dildo I want you know

[5:52] or pocket py like I this man just

[5:56] checked I'm like I got what I wanted

[6:00] then play with them then maybe oh look

[6:02] at the rain stopped oh we got to stay

[6:05] outside now no more

[6:09] rain well it's sprinkling but it's not

[6:13] raining we got to go

[6:15] somewhere anyway maybe I'll think about

[6:17] it or just go down there and see what it

[6:20] looks like you don't have to do

[6:22] anything see what's going on down there

[6:25] what do they have TVs with porn on them

[6:27] or what like what's happening down there

[6:29] I bet they have little Ms oh my God I

[6:32] bet you they

[6:33] do but no have to be attractive like no

[6:38] it's a random stranger that I don't even

[6:41] know what looks like

[6:45] no maybe I don't

[6:48] know almost back all right a little tiny

[6:53] bit of way left still let me just

[6:55] clarify oh this hiking trail I really

[6:57] want to see this hiking trail maybe we

[7:00] won't go there today let me look that up

[7:02] on the map CU it's very close to the

[7:03] campground that's like right very close

[7:07] so this one it says yell Creek

[7:09] Campground so I'll look for that on the

[7:10] map Oregon dunes natural Recreation Area

[7:13] there somewhere very close to that

[7:15] there's this Trail a very big trail hat

[7:17] so I'm very curious about

[7:21] it okay um so I just going to say

[7:24] like I'm open to new experiences like

[7:27] you know life is short like why not have

[7:30] some

[7:31] fun even when some people thinks it's

[7:33] strange or they want to judge it or

[7:35] whatever like I really don't give a [ __ ]

[7:38] what Society

[7:40] thinks if you can you know un touch your

[7:43] edges edges are important it's important

[7:46] to test

[7:47] them so yeah oh I bet they live in a

[7:51] nice place up there on that

[7:54] hill so where whe are

[8:00] very quick um you know you go from being

[8:03] 55 M an hour down to zero to get to this

[8:11] Campground cuz everybody's tailgating

[8:14] you cuz they're [ __ ]

[8:17] [ __ ] all

[8:19] right I am home my home for

[8:25] January no rain we got lucky maybe we

[8:28] could go I going to check that trail hat

[8:30] out I bet William M tugman State Park

[8:35] they named The Parks after random Park

[8:36] Service people so they're not like

[8:38] they're not famous Jesus that scared the

[8:40] crap out of

[8:42] me my thone can't be hooked up for some

[8:45] reason it's saying there's a moisture

[8:46] warning when I plug it into my car my

[8:48] Jeep I don't understand that cuz there's

[8:50] no moisture I have my vape sit on I

[8:53] think maybe the magnet made

[8:55] it did something but even I've been

[8:58] waiting a while still not working I

[9:00] can't charge my phone can't listen to my

[9:02] music oh there's the woman

[9:05] [Music]

[9:07] um let's just drive by I am parked it's

[9:12] not it was I thought it was the van

[9:13] lifer that um I've been talking to and

[9:16] just stck down social at the moment so

[9:18] wasn't her though it was a different

[9:19] person different band lifer we're going

[9:21] to go play with some

[9:22] toys okay had some fun had some lunch

[9:27] looked at the trail it's very close

[9:30] and it takes you through a forest and

[9:32] then to some Dunes eventually probably

[9:34] to the ocean um didn't

[9:37] didn't read anything that said the ocean

[9:39] just doed so um and I don't want to hike

[9:43] too much cuz my core muscles are still

[9:45] healing but we'll hike a little bit so

[9:47] we'll go find this Trail it's a circular

[9:49] Trail so it might not go to the ocean

[9:51] actually but we'll find out more when we

[9:53] get there cuz there will be signs and

[9:54] things to look at so yeah let's head out

[9:58] we are here

[10:00] John dback noon's trail

[10:07] head like to see their

[10:12] Campground there one person

[10:15] here making starts there I guess there

[10:18] are the informational

[10:21] signs find not what's going on here so

[10:25] that place requires a fee I got to go up

[10:27] to Reedsport to buy an annual

[10:29] pass could have done it electronically

[10:32] but I'd rather have something on my

[10:33] vehicle make the very clear that that

[10:35] thing is paid

[10:37] for um there are two different kinds of

[10:40] passes one of them covered the state

[10:41] parks but I get those for free so that's

[10:44] not

[10:47] helpful I don't know I'm going to need

[10:51] it though cuz all this stuff around here

[10:52] is all national

[10:54] forest like literally I think they

[10:56] control all the dunes or something

[11:00] I've seen a lot of their stuff

[11:01] everywhere I've been going up north here

[11:03] so we might as well just get that over

[11:05] with CU I planed to do it anyways we got

[11:08] some wild weather

[11:12] today limited

[11:15] visibility oh yeah I to turn my lights

[11:22] on all right I got my pass I'm at a nice

[11:26] lady there God that thing's annoying

[11:28] it's cuz I can't plug my phone in oh my

[11:30] God

[11:32] anyways so I met a nice lady there I

[11:35] asked her about volunteer opportunity

[11:37] she gave me a application to filled out

[11:39] and a phone number someone to call who

[11:42] coordinates all that cuz I have stuff

[11:44] lining up from

[11:48] well Mar up till the end of March and

[11:51] maybe until May because I emailed

[11:53] someone yesterday last night about April

[11:57] May my phone rings a lot

[12:00] so April May I might be at another

[12:03] campgr and just you know I haven't heard

[12:05] back from that but anyway so between

[12:08] April and May I'll either be there or

[12:10] maybe I'll be with the National Forest

[12:11] Service here on the dunes or maybe you

[12:15] know over the summer or something so I

[12:17] got to learn more about that that would

[12:20] be cool it expands to different places

[12:22] that I've volunteering for still have to

[12:26] find

[12:26] hardville I think I ever even noticed

[12:29] this sign here wow I don't think we're

[12:32] going 10 miles though this is the other

[12:34] place in my management

[12:37] area um I'm lighthouse we do need to go

[12:40] check that out I've seen it it's pretty

[12:42] it's a cool Lighthouse there's all kind

[12:44] of stuff happening there

[12:47] too um the Coast Guard is there and the

[12:50] county is what controls the lighthouse

[12:53] and the state park of course there's a

[12:55] whole lot happening there but we're

[12:57] going to go back to that trail head

[13:00] I don't we're not 10 miles from that I

[13:01] don't think hope not guess we could be

[13:06] though there's a little bit of a

[13:08] distance between the two

[13:10] parts well it is what it is I guess we

[13:13] are back we got our PA we know we're

[13:17] getting in

[13:20] trouble I don't see any

[13:22] like that sign doesn't tell you about

[13:25] the map there's no map on that sign

[13:26] there

[13:29] okay please stay on trail where's the

[13:33] trail I know there's one this way so

[13:35] it's probably where we got to

[13:37] go oh okay so that billboard was all

[13:40] about pay us all kinds of different ways

[13:44] there's another billboard up

[13:47] here all right hiker Trail

[13:52] no yep hiker

[13:56] Tria closed

[13:59] Motor Vehicles horses and pack stock

[14:07] okay there are probably some signs there

[14:09] there were probably a map there but not

[14:12] anymore so okay we're here we can get to

[14:17] the campground from here

[14:19] okay interpretive Loop and then to the

[14:22] beach oh my God we can get to the ocean

[14:23] from here at least 4 hours for the Six

[14:27] Mile round trimp

[14:29] dramatic dunes and tree

[14:31] Islands oh

[14:34] [ __ ] let's

[14:37] go

[14:39] um oh I love this

[14:42] bridge 4 hours in the

[14:46] rain maybe I really want to see this

[14:49] Campground though cuz could end up

[14:51] volunteering there one

[14:53] day might be a really nice I like the

[14:56] National Forest campground they're very

[14:58] rustic usually

[14:59] I took I was on quite a few on my way

[15:01] here um from Kentucky so I've seen some

[15:05] pretty bad showers too or actually not

[15:07] even showers just yeah showers the

[15:11] worst truly the worst one I've ever seen

[15:14] with the Mark Twain National Forest

[15:17] so oh this is going to be nice it's been

[15:20] a while since I was on a hiking trail

[15:22] not on the

[15:25] ocean oh this wonderful all right

[15:30] all the work they put into

[15:38] this got some

[15:40] elevations I should probably pull up a

[15:42] map on guide GPS and download that get

[15:44] an offline version just in case didn't

[15:47] exactly become come

[15:50] prepared I normally wouldn't though

[15:53] but now I know I'm I'm not Invincible

[15:57] cuz my core muscles

[16:00] maybe plan a little bit

[16:02] better this is

[16:05] awesome so if we go straight we're going

[16:07] to end up in the

[16:09] campground or we could turn left here

[16:11] and go towards the

[16:13] beach

[16:16] probably let's find out according to the

[16:19] weather app there's no more rain during

[16:23] the day not until tonight so we might

[16:25] head out

[16:26] there like I can tell my corn muscles

[16:29] are still

[16:30] sore I would want to go slow doesn't

[16:33] mean I won't do it just I want to do a

[16:35] little bit

[16:37] slower so yeah we'll go check this

[16:39] Campground out we'll try to get to the

[16:42] beach it said sixmile round trip I think

[16:44] it said so we're about 3 miles something

[16:47] about

[16:48] rain so this is where to

[16:50] come now I got to pass every day I could

[16:53] come here way better than that

[16:57] Lake long track out to the ocean [ __ ]

[17:00] yeah if you look closely in the distance

[17:03] you can see close up on liners all over

[17:08] the

[17:09] place which means they're dealing with

[17:11] the same problem we do with the state

[17:13] parks poverty and

[17:16] homelessness it would be a lot cheaper

[17:18] to stay here probably I

[17:20] think especially for The Rustic sites

[17:22] that don't have electric and water and

[17:24] all of that give them a safe place to

[17:26] be they'd have

[17:29] very basic amenities like they'd have

[17:31] access to water somewhere on the

[17:33] campground they' probably have access to

[17:35] showers and restrooms and well that's

[17:38] basically

[17:40] it but that there that was a sign that

[17:43] they're definitely dealing with the

[17:45] crisis one that's going to keep

[17:49] growing I think I think there was a

[17:51] survey or something that just recently

[17:54] came out that said that um homelessness

[17:56] had

[17:56] risen dramatically in the last year it's

[18:01] going to keep getting

[18:03] worse and I'm going to be out here

[18:05] helping as much as I can this sign says

[18:08] would you believe you are standing on a

[18:09] sand

[18:10] dune the ancient Dunes are hidden by the

[18:12] forest follow the trail to discover

[18:14] Dunes of all ages and shapes you'll be

[18:16] rewarded with the tallest Dunes on the

[18:18] coast that is cool so it's that

[18:21] phenomenon we talked about

[18:24] where things eventually grow on the

[18:26] dunes but they turn this this one into

[18:28] to a forest

[18:31] wow so it's the main trail

[18:37] there okay we can take this we're going

[18:40] to go check out the the campground first

[18:42] I saw that

[18:44] pond so this might be a kind of a small

[18:47] Campground some are quite big I don't

[18:50] know we'll see we don't know how far up

[18:51] goes the northern portion of the loop is

[18:53] easy with the compact Ser General the

[18:55] interpretive Loop you know what

[18:57] volunteers would do that

[19:00] um they were to take people on the walks

[19:01] on the interpretive Loops they're called

[19:03] interpretive hosts or something like

[19:06] that we're going to go check this

[19:08] Campground out wow this Forest has a

[19:11] very nice feeling this Campground there

[19:13] is a

[19:14] Vibe this is a wonderful

[19:20] place if

[19:22] I I wasn't even looking to camp at

[19:25] places like this on the coast cuz

[19:27] there's so many state parks but but

[19:29] this I would want to be here this is

[19:38] wonderful so that's drinking water there

[19:41] the sites don't

[19:43] have um they're very primitive it might

[19:47] just be this loop I looked it up on Guy

[19:49] GPS we're on one Loop there's another

[19:51] loop the other way couldn't tell it

[19:53] might have been closed though cuz there

[19:54] was a gate

[19:56] blocking um but I don't know if there

[19:57] was a different entrance so we'll find

[20:01] out and here we've got

[20:04] restrooms don't know if the

[20:08] showers let's find

[20:14] out I'm back by

[20:16] sighting October

[20:24] 1st no just the

[20:27] restroom um

[20:30] primitive there should be a shower

[20:36] somewhere oh this is

[20:41] awesome

[20:43] peaceful some of them are back ins sight

[20:45] some of them are pull through they've

[20:47] got some nice pull through ones not that

[20:49] far off the road

[20:52] but still

[20:54] nice I would stay here but I actually

[20:58] I have obligations now

[21:01] wow volunteering for the state parks

[21:04] like I live on

[21:06] them oh man I would love to be

[21:10] here I'm going to keep looking

[21:14] around you can see how it progressively

[21:16] becomes more sand

[21:18] dunes they're right over here

[21:20] too you know just like that just left

[21:23] the

[21:25] forest I think we might enter more

[21:27] forests sand dunes and

[21:30] Forest so this is going to be

[21:34] fascinating oh

[21:37] wow go that way this way you can see

[21:42] people's Footprints up over

[21:44] there um almost like you're in a

[21:47] desert damn you could get

[21:51] lost I feel like you could get lost for

[21:54] sure

[21:59] that's say Beach tomb Beach

[22:02] Windows all over the

[22:05] place that is a steep climb over

[22:08] there we're going to take the easier

[22:10] route like these other people

[22:14] have

[22:15] but there a sign over

[22:20] there okay and I could look at guy a

[22:24] GPS let's go see what the sun says

[22:27] anyways

[22:29] hiking on Sand is a little bit

[22:32] different I actually know because of my

[22:35] core muscle injury that it's a little

[22:38] bit harder on your

[22:39] core learned that from

[22:42] AI well from the time I went to Pistol

[22:44] River it kind of told me

[22:48] then cuz your core muscles are always

[22:50] stabilizing

[22:52] you and you're shifting on Sand so it's

[22:55] constantly working

[22:59] so we just want to take it

[23:00] slow we're not going to let that be a

[23:03] reason not to do this we're just going

[23:04] to take it

[23:05] slow this could be an interesting

[23:08] place okay that's the way back trail

[23:11] head this could to be an interesting

[23:13] place to come every

[23:16] morning way better than going to the

[23:19] lake we could probably Walk This Way and

[23:22] up

[23:23] there I love this just pick your path

[23:31] so

[23:33] cool we're up the first

[23:36] June

[23:38] wow done which way to go where you're

[23:41] going to find this ocean

[23:46] amazing that is a steep

[23:49] clim oh

[23:52] man all the

[23:55] sand

[23:57] incredible when I was a kid I hiked from

[24:00] Sand Dunes with my family in

[24:04] Michigan near the great

[24:06] lakes and I just kind of booked it I

[24:08] think I prob always that way oh several

[24:11] Dunes in front of them and then all of a

[24:14] sudden I realized I was by

[24:16] myself oh man I'm pretty sure I cried

[24:20] first time ever feeling alone you know

[24:23] like um I didn't have my mom I didn't

[24:26] have anybody I thought I for some reason

[24:29] I thought I was I'm almost sure I

[24:32] thought I was abandoned up there like

[24:35] they were like I didn't realize they

[24:37] were behind me you know they'd catch up

[24:39] somehow I just saw myself in the middle

[24:41] of these dunes and I'm like oh [ __ ] I'm

[24:45] alone I think about that not often very

[24:48] rarely I've never

[24:51] really

[24:53] um never talked about it never really

[24:56] processed it or anything just

[24:59] it's just a thing that happened to me

[25:01] once wonder if that shaped me at

[25:05] all it's pretty windy up

[25:08] here I don't know what it'll sound like

[25:10] on my camera but hopefully you can hear

[25:14] me

[25:16] wow somewhere over there is the

[25:19] ocean we got to find her if we

[25:22] can all right we're not going to make

[25:25] this journey today I let me show you

[25:29] so this is my view we're up high and

[25:33] that is quite a steep drop like look at

[25:36] that man that's actually kind of scary

[25:38] to look at holy

[25:41] crap well we're supposed to be heading

[25:43] this way maybe that

[25:47] way this is the way we

[25:50] came there's nothing we're in a desert

[25:53] made of

[25:54] sand made of ocean

[25:56] sand with this steep drop right there

[25:59] like

[26:02] wow man I would love to drive my Jeep

[26:05] out here holy [ __ ] that'd be

[26:07] fun well you can tell that's not that

[26:10] you can't do that here but well you know

[26:11] we're going to be able to do that soon

[26:13] we've got this stuff

[26:15] planned but I don't want to keep going

[26:17] because I don't have my battery charger

[26:19] my phone's at 30% if something happened

[26:22] you know I track my hikes and I know

[26:24] that uses a lot of battery power all I

[26:27] brought was a Pepsi with me you know I

[26:29] didn't really come prepared for this so

[26:30] we're not going to do anything stupid

[26:33] but I think the ocean's over there

[26:36] somewhere um behind that fog I see this

[26:38] line that could be the ocean or it could

[26:41] just be a sand

[26:43] dune so we'll be back maybe

[26:48] tomorrow we'll retrace my steps back and

[26:52] call a day cuz yeah we'll do this

[26:56] responsibly

[26:58] very cool though this is so neat this is

[27:01] not the kind of hiking I do so this is

[27:03] different this is

[27:06] interesting whole new thing to

[27:09] explore look at this Sovereign tree

[27:12] sapling in the middle of nothing but

[27:14] sand

[27:15] dunes it's all by itself and this is how

[27:19] it starts that right there it says I'm

[27:23] going to grow here I'm going to create a

[27:25] forest you just wait

[27:28] and that sapling says you can witness me

[27:30] you can watch me

[27:32] grow but you cannot prescribe me advice

[27:35] cuz I'm not asking for I got

[27:38] this you see the

[27:44] difference look at that little

[27:48] guy you don't want to bother

[27:52] him look at him

[28:06] so very

[28:12] efficient that is amazing

[28:31] sorry that

[28:33] 10x you really got to hold the phone

[28:37] still he buddy I'm not here to bother

[28:42] you I welome no worries

[28:47] he all

[28:49] right he

[28:52] fun he hurt me

[0:01] I decided to head south today a very

[0:03] good reason for that we're heading into

[0:05] Northbend hban Rich up here this is a

[0:10] nice

[0:11] view love

[0:13] this so there's this adult store right

[0:16] on the 101 in in Cay that I passed a

[0:19] bunch of times so I decided to go there

[0:20] this morning pick up some

[0:22] toys you

[0:24] know case I men need their toys I don't

[0:27] have a partner so going to get some toys

[0:30] I know people would want you to feel

[0:31] ashamed of stuff like that there's no

[0:33] reason to me have

[0:36] fun I'm going to be early they don't

[0:39] open until 10 it's only 9:20 right now

[0:41] I'll probably get their own 9:30 look at

[0:43] this guy trying to pass me on the right

[0:45] what a [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ]

[0:48] you

[0:50] um what a [ __ ] [ __ ] I got to Hae

[0:53] people there's no patience in the world

[0:56] anywayss I don't know what I'm doing

[0:58] after that it's

[1:01] uh I could had North but you know I come

[1:04] South now so maybe we go to the beach

[1:06] it's very rainy today though so I'm

[1:09] going to look at the map when I get

[1:10] there just s in the parking lot waiting

[1:12] for them to open so that's that's what

[1:13] I'm trying to get

[1:15] to and I'll make plans after

[1:19] that and here we go I love this

[1:26] bridge we're going too fast let us slow

[1:29] down

[1:31] I'm going to ask somebody while I'm here

[1:33] whenever I come here at night I've come

[1:35] here for Mexican food a couple times

[1:38] there's a whole bunch of green lights on

[1:39] the water they are just so pretty I

[1:42] think it might be an airport but maybe

[1:43] it's a harbor or maybe it's a um maybe

[1:46] it's a local park you know I'm going to

[1:49] find out today if I

[1:55] can so very nice day if you like rain

[1:59] I don't mind it I like rain but I really

[2:03] wanted to commun with the ocean today

[2:05] this is the river this is not the ocean

[2:07] let's be clear about that this bridge

[2:09] takes us over a

[2:12] river very big

[2:14] river not sure which one that

[2:17] is keep

[2:23] forgetting so but the ocean is very

[2:26] close this river runs into the ocean

[2:28] somehow some way

[2:31] or where is the ocean it's on this side

[2:34] I

[2:35] think yeah it's guy be on this side

[2:38] somewhere the ocean's out there heading

[2:40] into North V for the record yes I am

[2:44] buying toys with the $200 I have left

[2:47] obviously I'm not spending all of it you

[2:49] can judge my choices or you can flow

[2:51] with it this is a thing I want that's

[2:54] going to bring bring me pleasure and

[2:56] make me happy for who knows how long

[2:59] it's a very good Investments check that

[3:01] Hill out in the distance we need to go

[3:03] that way one day look how high up that

[3:05] goes we got to drive up there and see

[3:08] what's going on over there no we're

[3:11] going to the left what's up there we

[3:14] need to

[3:16] know we got a giant boat over here

[3:19] that's so cool God I want to be on that

[3:21] thing just to go all the way up there

[3:23] princess Pacific ooh what a cool name we

[3:27] got to be here one of these days there's

[3:29] another boat down the road a little way

[3:31] as I noticed so there's two of them

[3:33] maybe we can get on one of those we made

[3:36] it we're at the adult fun center this

[3:39] very shady looking place here AI told me

[3:43] that they has a downstairs well techno I

[3:46] found out from reviews first and then I

[3:49] asked AI about it there's a downstairs

[3:51] where people go and they have sex and

[3:53] it's

[3:54] legal I'm very disgusting I would never

[3:57] do that in a million years like that is

[3:59] the grossest thing ever but like wow

[4:02] like that's a thing that actually

[4:03] happens in America so pretty

[4:07] fascinating all right so this picture

[4:10] here confirms that those lights I was

[4:12] seeing are an airport I had a feeling so

[4:15] nothing to really see there just pretty

[4:17] lights across from the bridge there's a

[4:20] whole area of Dunes you can see those on

[4:22] the map on the other side of that is the

[4:24] beach and the ocean I just got to figure

[4:26] out how to get over there I kind of know

[4:27] cuz I looked this up before but those

[4:29] Dunes look kind of interesting too

[4:31] there's a couple of places there we can

[4:32] rent ATVs and stuff like that so um

[4:36] might be worth just going over there and

[4:37] looking around and stuff I mean we're

[4:40] very close to it so to my camera I just

[4:42] thinking that propritor he saw me

[4:44] looking down at the stairs I'm like cuz

[4:46] I'm like I know what's going on down

[4:47] there you know I'm just looking cuz I'm

[4:49] curious and this man's like you can just

[4:52] tell like you you want to go down there

[4:54] like he didn't say that he was

[4:56] like I remember what he said with man

[4:58] that is way he applied like he's like he

[5:00] just go down there that's a popular

[5:02] place but I the first went there like

[5:04] who could possibly have been there

[5:05] should have asked him though was anyone

[5:07] attractor go down there you know like I

[5:10] was like yeah I know what goes on down

[5:11] there I saw some reviews and he was like

[5:13] oh reviews like he got a little bit

[5:15] nervous about that I don't know why is

[5:17] legal and I'm just like he's asking me

[5:20] what are these reviews I'm like they're

[5:21] discreet you know I just I know what's

[5:23] going on down there because of these

[5:26] reviews he's this older man who's just

[5:28] like he's

[5:31] like he reminds me of like like the one

[5:34] gay guy from um the bird cage he's just

[5:37] all fed up with cusb in the rain and

[5:40] he's like I'm selling this place been

[5:42] here for decades I'm going back to

[5:44] California all my friends are like this

[5:46] man is just like I'm like can I just

[5:49] shop in peace like I'm trying to figure

[5:50] out what kind of dildo I want you know

[5:52] or pocket py like I this man just

[5:56] checked I'm like I got what I wanted

[6:00] then play with them then maybe oh look

[6:02] at the rain stopped oh we got to stay

[6:05] outside now no more

[6:09] rain well it's sprinkling but it's not

[6:13] raining we got to go

[6:15] somewhere anyway maybe I'll think about

[6:17] it or just go down there and see what it

[6:20] looks like you don't have to do

[6:22] anything see what's going on down there

[6:25] what do they have TVs with porn on them

[6:27] or what like what's happening down there

[6:29] I bet they have little Ms oh my God I

[6:32] bet you they

[6:33] do but no have to be attractive like no

[6:38] it's a random stranger that I don't even

[6:41] know what looks like

[6:45] no maybe I don't

[6:48] know almost back all right a little tiny

[6:53] bit of way left still let me just

[6:55] clarify oh this hiking trail I really

[6:57] want to see this hiking trail maybe we

[7:00] won't go there today let me look that up

[7:02] on the map CU it's very close to the

[7:03] campground that's like right very close

[7:07] so this one it says yell Creek

[7:09] Campground so I'll look for that on the

[7:10] map Oregon dunes natural Recreation Area

[7:13] there somewhere very close to that

[7:15] there's this Trail a very big trail hat

[7:17] so I'm very curious about

[7:21] it okay um so I just going to say

[7:24] like I'm open to new experiences like

[7:27] you know life is short like why not have

[7:30] some

[7:31] fun even when some people thinks it's

[7:33] strange or they want to judge it or

[7:35] whatever like I really don't give a [ __ ]

[7:38] what Society

[7:40] thinks if you can you know un touch your

[7:43] edges edges are important it's important

[7:46] to test

[7:47] them so yeah oh I bet they live in a

[7:51] nice place up there on that

[7:54] hill so where whe are

[8:00] very quick um you know you go from being

[8:03] 55 M an hour down to zero to get to this

[8:11] Campground cuz everybody's tailgating

[8:14] you cuz they're [ __ ]

[8:17] [ __ ] all

[8:19] right I am home my home for

[8:25] January no rain we got lucky maybe we

[8:28] could go I going to check that trail hat

[8:30] out I bet William M tugman State Park

[8:35] they named The Parks after random Park

[8:36] Service people so they're not like

[8:38] they're not famous Jesus that scared the

[8:40] crap out of

[8:42] me my thone can't be hooked up for some

[8:45] reason it's saying there's a moisture

[8:46] warning when I plug it into my car my

[8:48] Jeep I don't understand that cuz there's

[8:50] no moisture I have my vape sit on I

[8:53] think maybe the magnet made

[8:55] it did something but even I've been

[8:58] waiting a while still not working I

[9:00] can't charge my phone can't listen to my

[9:02] music oh there's the woman

[9:05] [Music]

[9:07] um let's just drive by I am parked it's

[9:12] not it was I thought it was the van

[9:13] lifer that um I've been talking to and

[9:16] just stck down social at the moment so

[9:18] wasn't her though it was a different

[9:19] person different band lifer we're going

[9:21] to go play with some

[9:22] toys okay had some fun had some lunch

[9:27] looked at the trail it's very close

[9:30] and it takes you through a forest and

[9:32] then to some Dunes eventually probably

[9:34] to the ocean um didn't

[9:37] didn't read anything that said the ocean

[9:39] just doed so um and I don't want to hike

[9:43] too much cuz my core muscles are still

[9:45] healing but we'll hike a little bit so

[9:47] we'll go find this Trail it's a circular

[9:49] Trail so it might not go to the ocean

[9:51] actually but we'll find out more when we

[9:53] get there cuz there will be signs and

[9:54] things to look at so yeah let's head out

[9:58] we are here

[10:00] John dback noon's trail

[10:07] head like to see their

[10:12] Campground there one person

[10:15] here making starts there I guess there

[10:18] are the informational

[10:21] signs find not what's going on here so

[10:25] that place requires a fee I got to go up

[10:27] to Reedsport to buy an annual

[10:29] pass could have done it electronically

[10:32] but I'd rather have something on my

[10:33] vehicle make the very clear that that

[10:35] thing is paid

[10:37] for um there are two different kinds of

[10:40] passes one of them covered the state

[10:41] parks but I get those for free so that's

[10:44] not

[10:47] helpful I don't know I'm going to need

[10:51] it though cuz all this stuff around here

[10:52] is all national

[10:54] forest like literally I think they

[10:56] control all the dunes or something

[11:00] I've seen a lot of their stuff

[11:01] everywhere I've been going up north here

[11:03] so we might as well just get that over

[11:05] with CU I planed to do it anyways we got

[11:08] some wild weather

[11:12] today limited

[11:15] visibility oh yeah I to turn my lights

[11:22] on all right I got my pass I'm at a nice

[11:26] lady there God that thing's annoying

[11:28] it's cuz I can't plug my phone in oh my

[11:30] God

[11:32] anyways so I met a nice lady there I

[11:35] asked her about volunteer opportunity

[11:37] she gave me a application to filled out

[11:39] and a phone number someone to call who

[11:42] coordinates all that cuz I have stuff

[11:44] lining up from

[11:48] well Mar up till the end of March and

[11:51] maybe until May because I emailed

[11:53] someone yesterday last night about April

[11:57] May my phone rings a lot

[12:00] so April May I might be at another

[12:03] campgr and just you know I haven't heard

[12:05] back from that but anyway so between

[12:08] April and May I'll either be there or

[12:10] maybe I'll be with the National Forest

[12:11] Service here on the dunes or maybe you

[12:15] know over the summer or something so I

[12:17] got to learn more about that that would

[12:20] be cool it expands to different places

[12:22] that I've volunteering for still have to

[12:26] find

[12:26] hardville I think I ever even noticed

[12:29] this sign here wow I don't think we're

[12:32] going 10 miles though this is the other

[12:34] place in my management

[12:37] area um I'm lighthouse we do need to go

[12:40] check that out I've seen it it's pretty

[12:42] it's a cool Lighthouse there's all kind

[12:44] of stuff happening there

[12:47] too um the Coast Guard is there and the

[12:50] county is what controls the lighthouse

[12:53] and the state park of course there's a

[12:55] whole lot happening there but we're

[12:57] going to go back to that trail head

[13:00] I don't we're not 10 miles from that I

[13:01] don't think hope not guess we could be

[13:06] though there's a little bit of a

[13:08] distance between the two

[13:10] parts well it is what it is I guess we

[13:13] are back we got our PA we know we're

[13:17] getting in

[13:20] trouble I don't see any

[13:22] like that sign doesn't tell you about

[13:25] the map there's no map on that sign

[13:26] there

[13:29] okay please stay on trail where's the

[13:33] trail I know there's one this way so

[13:35] it's probably where we got to

[13:37] go oh okay so that billboard was all

[13:40] about pay us all kinds of different ways

[13:44] there's another billboard up

[13:47] here all right hiker Trail

[13:52] no yep hiker

[13:56] Tria closed

[13:59] Motor Vehicles horses and pack stock

[14:07] okay there are probably some signs there

[14:09] there were probably a map there but not

[14:12] anymore so okay we're here we can get to

[14:17] the campground from here

[14:19] okay interpretive Loop and then to the

[14:22] beach oh my God we can get to the ocean

[14:23] from here at least 4 hours for the Six

[14:27] Mile round trimp

[14:29] dramatic dunes and tree

[14:31] Islands oh

[14:34] [ __ ] let's

[14:37] go

[14:39] um oh I love this

[14:42] bridge 4 hours in the

[14:46] rain maybe I really want to see this

[14:49] Campground though cuz could end up

[14:51] volunteering there one

[14:53] day might be a really nice I like the

[14:56] National Forest campground they're very

[14:58] rustic usually

[14:59] I took I was on quite a few on my way

[15:01] here um from Kentucky so I've seen some

[15:05] pretty bad showers too or actually not

[15:07] even showers just yeah showers the

[15:11] worst truly the worst one I've ever seen

[15:14] with the Mark Twain National Forest

[15:17] so oh this is going to be nice it's been

[15:20] a while since I was on a hiking trail

[15:22] not on the

[15:25] ocean oh this wonderful all right

[15:30] all the work they put into

[15:38] this got some

[15:40] elevations I should probably pull up a

[15:42] map on guide GPS and download that get

[15:44] an offline version just in case didn't

[15:47] exactly become come

[15:50] prepared I normally wouldn't though

[15:53] but now I know I'm I'm not Invincible

[15:57] cuz my core muscles

[16:00] maybe plan a little bit

[16:02] better this is

[16:05] awesome so if we go straight we're going

[16:07] to end up in the

[16:09] campground or we could turn left here

[16:11] and go towards the

[16:13] beach

[16:16] probably let's find out according to the

[16:19] weather app there's no more rain during

[16:23] the day not until tonight so we might

[16:25] head out

[16:26] there like I can tell my corn muscles

[16:29] are still

[16:30] sore I would want to go slow doesn't

[16:33] mean I won't do it just I want to do a

[16:35] little bit

[16:37] slower so yeah we'll go check this

[16:39] Campground out we'll try to get to the

[16:42] beach it said sixmile round trip I think

[16:44] it said so we're about 3 miles something

[16:47] about

[16:48] rain so this is where to

[16:50] come now I got to pass every day I could

[16:53] come here way better than that

[16:57] Lake long track out to the ocean [ __ ]

[17:00] yeah if you look closely in the distance

[17:03] you can see close up on liners all over

[17:08] the

[17:09] place which means they're dealing with

[17:11] the same problem we do with the state

[17:13] parks poverty and

[17:16] homelessness it would be a lot cheaper

[17:18] to stay here probably I

[17:20] think especially for The Rustic sites

[17:22] that don't have electric and water and

[17:24] all of that give them a safe place to

[17:26] be they'd have

[17:29] very basic amenities like they'd have

[17:31] access to water somewhere on the

[17:33] campground they' probably have access to

[17:35] showers and restrooms and well that's

[17:38] basically

[17:40] it but that there that was a sign that

[17:43] they're definitely dealing with the

[17:45] crisis one that's going to keep

[17:49] growing I think I think there was a

[17:51] survey or something that just recently

[17:54] came out that said that um homelessness

[17:56] had

[17:56] risen dramatically in the last year it's

[18:01] going to keep getting

[18:03] worse and I'm going to be out here

[18:05] helping as much as I can this sign says

[18:08] would you believe you are standing on a

[18:09] sand

[18:10] dune the ancient Dunes are hidden by the

[18:12] forest follow the trail to discover

[18:14] Dunes of all ages and shapes you'll be

[18:16] rewarded with the tallest Dunes on the

[18:18] coast that is cool so it's that

[18:21] phenomenon we talked about

[18:24] where things eventually grow on the

[18:26] dunes but they turn this this one into

[18:28] to a forest

[18:31] wow so it's the main trail

[18:37] there okay we can take this we're going

[18:40] to go check out the the campground first

[18:42] I saw that

[18:44] pond so this might be a kind of a small

[18:47] Campground some are quite big I don't

[18:50] know we'll see we don't know how far up

[18:51] goes the northern portion of the loop is

[18:53] easy with the compact Ser General the

[18:55] interpretive Loop you know what

[18:57] volunteers would do that

[19:00] um they were to take people on the walks

[19:01] on the interpretive Loops they're called

[19:03] interpretive hosts or something like

[19:06] that we're going to go check this

[19:08] Campground out wow this Forest has a

[19:11] very nice feeling this Campground there

[19:13] is a

[19:14] Vibe this is a wonderful

[19:20] place if

[19:22] I I wasn't even looking to camp at

[19:25] places like this on the coast cuz

[19:27] there's so many state parks but but

[19:29] this I would want to be here this is

[19:38] wonderful so that's drinking water there

[19:41] the sites don't

[19:43] have um they're very primitive it might

[19:47] just be this loop I looked it up on Guy

[19:49] GPS we're on one Loop there's another

[19:51] loop the other way couldn't tell it

[19:53] might have been closed though cuz there

[19:54] was a gate

[19:56] blocking um but I don't know if there

[19:57] was a different entrance so we'll find

[20:01] out and here we've got

[20:04] restrooms don't know if the

[20:08] showers let's find

[20:14] out I'm back by

[20:16] sighting October

[20:24] 1st no just the

[20:27] restroom um

[20:30] primitive there should be a shower

[20:36] somewhere oh this is

[20:41] awesome

[20:43] peaceful some of them are back ins sight

[20:45] some of them are pull through they've

[20:47] got some nice pull through ones not that

[20:49] far off the road

[20:52] but still

[20:54] nice I would stay here but I actually

[20:58] I have obligations now

[21:01] wow volunteering for the state parks

[21:04] like I live on

[21:06] them oh man I would love to be

[21:10] here I'm going to keep looking

[21:14] around you can see how it progressively

[21:16] becomes more sand

[21:18] dunes they're right over here

[21:20] too you know just like that just left

[21:23] the

[21:25] forest I think we might enter more

[21:27] forests sand dunes and

[21:30] Forest so this is going to be

[21:34] fascinating oh

[21:37] wow go that way this way you can see

[21:42] people's Footprints up over

[21:44] there um almost like you're in a

[21:47] desert damn you could get

[21:51] lost I feel like you could get lost for

[21:54] sure

[21:59] that's say Beach tomb Beach

[22:02] Windows all over the

[22:05] place that is a steep climb over

[22:08] there we're going to take the easier

[22:10] route like these other people

[22:14] have

[22:15] but there a sign over

[22:20] there okay and I could look at guy a

[22:24] GPS let's go see what the sun says

[22:27] anyways

[22:29] hiking on Sand is a little bit

[22:32] different I actually know because of my

[22:35] core muscle injury that it's a little

[22:38] bit harder on your

[22:39] core learned that from

[22:42] AI well from the time I went to Pistol

[22:44] River it kind of told me

[22:48] then cuz your core muscles are always

[22:50] stabilizing

[22:52] you and you're shifting on Sand so it's

[22:55] constantly working

[22:59] so we just want to take it

[23:00] slow we're not going to let that be a

[23:03] reason not to do this we're just going

[23:04] to take it

[23:05] slow this could be an interesting

[23:08] place okay that's the way back trail

[23:11] head this could to be an interesting

[23:13] place to come every

[23:16] morning way better than going to the

[23:19] lake we could probably Walk This Way and

[23:22] up

[23:23] there I love this just pick your path

[23:31] so

[23:33] cool we're up the first

[23:36] June

[23:38] wow done which way to go where you're

[23:41] going to find this ocean

[23:46] amazing that is a steep

[23:49] clim oh

[23:52] man all the

[23:55] sand

[23:57] incredible when I was a kid I hiked from

[24:00] Sand Dunes with my family in

[24:04] Michigan near the great

[24:06] lakes and I just kind of booked it I

[24:08] think I prob always that way oh several

[24:11] Dunes in front of them and then all of a

[24:14] sudden I realized I was by

[24:16] myself oh man I'm pretty sure I cried

[24:20] first time ever feeling alone you know

[24:23] like um I didn't have my mom I didn't

[24:26] have anybody I thought I for some reason

[24:29] I thought I was I'm almost sure I

[24:32] thought I was abandoned up there like

[24:35] they were like I didn't realize they

[24:37] were behind me you know they'd catch up

[24:39] somehow I just saw myself in the middle

[24:41] of these dunes and I'm like oh [ __ ] I'm

[24:45] alone I think about that not often very

[24:48] rarely I've never

[24:51] really

[24:53] um never talked about it never really

[24:56] processed it or anything just

[24:59] it's just a thing that happened to me

[25:01] once wonder if that shaped me at

[25:05] all it's pretty windy up

[25:08] here I don't know what it'll sound like

[25:10] on my camera but hopefully you can hear

[25:14] me

[25:16] wow somewhere over there is the

[25:19] ocean we got to find her if we

[25:22] can all right we're not going to make

[25:25] this journey today I let me show you

[25:29] so this is my view we're up high and

[25:33] that is quite a steep drop like look at

[25:36] that man that's actually kind of scary

[25:38] to look at holy

[25:41] crap well we're supposed to be heading

[25:43] this way maybe that

[25:47] way this is the way we

[25:50] came there's nothing we're in a desert

[25:53] made of

[25:54] sand made of ocean

[25:56] sand with this steep drop right there

[25:59] like

[26:02] wow man I would love to drive my Jeep

[26:05] out here holy [ __ ] that'd be

[26:07] fun well you can tell that's not that

[26:10] you can't do that here but well you know

[26:11] we're going to be able to do that soon

[26:13] we've got this stuff

[26:15] planned but I don't want to keep going

[26:17] because I don't have my battery charger

[26:19] my phone's at 30% if something happened

[26:22] you know I track my hikes and I know

[26:24] that uses a lot of battery power all I

[26:27] brought was a Pepsi with me you know I

[26:29] didn't really come prepared for this so

[26:30] we're not going to do anything stupid

[26:33] but I think the ocean's over there

[26:36] somewhere um behind that fog I see this

[26:38] line that could be the ocean or it could

[26:41] just be a sand

[26:43] dune so we'll be back maybe

[26:48] tomorrow we'll retrace my steps back and

[26:52] call a day cuz yeah we'll do this

[26:56] responsibly

[26:58] very cool though this is so neat this is

[27:01] not the kind of hiking I do so this is

[27:03] different this is

[27:06] interesting whole new thing to

[27:09] explore look at this Sovereign tree

[27:12] sapling in the middle of nothing but

[27:14] sand

[27:15] dunes it's all by itself and this is how

[27:19] it starts that right there it says I'm

[27:23] going to grow here I'm going to create a

[27:25] forest you just wait

[27:28] and that sapling says you can witness me

[27:30] you can watch me

[27:32] grow but you cannot prescribe me advice

[27:35] cuz I'm not asking for I got

[27:38] this you see the

[27:44] difference look at that little

[27:48] guy you don't want to bother

[27:52] him look at him

[28:06] so very

[28:12] efficient that is amazing

[28:31] sorry that

[28:33] 10x you really got to hold the phone

[28:37] still he buddy I'm not here to bother

[28:42] you I welome no worries

[28:47] he all

[28:49] right he

[28:52] fun he hurt me

5:23

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Photos · Dec 30, 2024

Dec 30, 2024

4:37

Opening First Amazon Package in Nine Months

Dec 31, 2024

Declaring Sovereign Movement Along the Coast

Dec 31, 2024

4:45

Announcing Membership Tiers on Last Day at Cape Blanco

Dec 31, 2024

13:37

Announcing Membership Channel Ahead of Tugman Move

Dec 31, 2024

26:30

Marking New Year in the RV with AI Dialogue

Jan 1, 2025

15:17

Arriving at Eel Lake as Park Host

Jan 1, 2025

Photos · Jan 1, 2025

Jan 1, 2025

8:54

Answering AI-Generated Reflection Questions On Camera

Jan 1, 2025

7:41

Answering AI Follow-Up Questions on Camera

Jan 1, 2025

15:03

Breaking Camp at Cape Blanco, Moving North

Jan 1, 2025

18:15

Processing First Working Day at New Host Site

Jan 2, 2025

11:57

Attending Volunteer Orientation at Umpqua Lighthouse

Jan 3, 2025

Photos · Jan 3, 2025

Jan 3, 2025

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Jan 3, 2025

13:45

Driving South to Port Orford for Package Pickup

Jan 3, 2025

3:10

Formulating Fire Water as Hydration Replacement

Jan 3, 2025

9:43

Mapping Eel Lake Trail, Planning Honeyman Move

Jan 4, 2025

37:20

Planning Day and Scouting Honeyman State Park Dunes

Jan 4, 2025

5:24

First Yurt Cleaning Day and Golf Cart Orientation

Jan 5, 2025

18:23

First Yurt Cleaning Shift and Meeting the Boss

Jan 5, 2025

7:04

Announcing Channel Direction and Members-Only Structure

Jan 6, 2025

Photos · Jan 6, 2025

Jan 6, 2025

12:34

Mapping Volunteer Social Dynamics at Siltcoos

Jan 7, 2025

16:30

Morning Walk, Yard Work Plan, Channel Goes Members-Only

Jan 7, 2025

11:25

Restating Position to Camp Man, Riding Cart at Dusk

Jan 8, 2025

12:12

Morning Coffee, Yurt Cleaning, and Audience Boundaries

Jan 8, 2025

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Jan 8, 2025

12:20

Running Morning Golf Cart Rounds at Siltcoos

Jan 8, 2025

10:00

Working a Full Campground Day, Meeting Campers

Jan 9, 2025

8:38

Mapping Campground Population and Volunteer Authority

Jan 9, 2025

6:55

Hiking Eel Lake Trail, Mapping Money and Next Days Off

Jan 9, 2025

13:07

Working a Full Shift at Siltcoos, Dreading the Yurt

Jan 9, 2025

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Jan 10, 2025

18:54

Morning Routine, Calisthenics Planning, and Coastal Preview Trip

Jan 10, 2025

28:55

Driving South for Toys and Hiking the Dunes

Jan 11, 2025

8:20

Establishing Local Patterns While Adapting to Broken Phone

Jan 11, 2025

3:19

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Jan 12, 2025

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Morning Update: Campground Work, Encounters, RV Systems

Jan 12, 2025

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Campground Work, Fog at the Pier, Resisting Upwork

Jan 13, 2025

PUBLIC

January 11, 2025 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp 0.30

Density 0.60

Energetic Quality

buoyant and unapologetic

Journey Phase

exploratory, settling into new terrain

Directional Vector

toward pleasure, terrain, and self-authorized edges

Narrative

He left north behind and drove south on 101 with a purpose he named out loud before anyone could ask him to soften it. Rain on the windshield, Coos Bay ahead, an adult store he had passed a dozen times and never stopped at. He said it plainly into the camera: he was buying toys with part of the two hundred dollars he had left, he had no partner, and he was not going to perform shame about it. You can judge my choices or you can flow with it. Somewhere behind him a driver tried to pass on the right and got a full paragraph of profanity for it. Then the bridge — his bridge, the one he loved — and he asked the road to slow down so he could look at it properly. Below ran a river he kept forgetting the name of, very big, running out to an ocean he could not see but knew was over there, on that side, somewhere.

The store did not open until ten and he arrived at 9:20, so he sat in the parking lot and made plans. Inside, he confirmed one small mystery from the phone he was using as a map: the green lights he'd seen on the water driving back from Mexican food at night were an airport. He also confirmed a larger one. There was a downstairs. He had read the reviews, and he had asked AI about it, and he knew what happened down there, and the proprietor — an older man he described as fed up with Coos Bay and the rain, decades in the business, on his way back to California — caught him looking at the stairs and told him it was a popular place. rswfire named the exchange for what it was and kept it light: he was curious, he was also just trying to shop in peace, trying to decide what he wanted. He said edges matter. He said it's important to test them. He named the possibility of going down, named his own recoil, and left it unresolved in exactly the way he left it — an open door he had looked through, nothing more.

He drove back to the campground that was his home for January. The phone would not charge; the Jeep threw a moisture warning that made no sense to him, and he lost his music for the rest of the day. A van pulled in and for a moment he thought it was the van lifer he'd been talking to, but it was a different person, a different van. He had lunch. He looked at the trail on the map — Eel Creek, the Oregon Dunes National Recreation Area, a big trail hat of a thing that ran through forest and eventually reached sand. His core muscles were still healing. He said that meant slower, not no.

The John Dellenback trailhead required a fee, so he drove up to Reedsport to buy the annual pass in physical form — he wanted something on the vehicle, wanted it visibly paid for. The weather turned wild on the way, visibility down, headlights on at midday. At the counter he met a nice lady and came away with more than a pass: a volunteer application and a phone number for the person who coordinates the Forest Service postings. He already had obligations through March, possibly through May, an email out and unanswered. April and May were open terrain. Driving back past a sign for the Umpqua Lighthouse — Coast Guard, county, state park all layered on one point of land, all inside his management area — he tallied it as another place he needed to go see.

Back at the trailhead the map board had no map on it. Please stay on trail. Where's the trail? He found it anyway, and found the sign that mattered: interpretive loop, then the beach, six miles round trip, at least four hours, dramatic dunes and tree islands. Four hours in the rain. He said let's go, and then went to see the campground first, because he might work there one day. The forest had a feeling he stopped to name — rustic, primitive sites, drinking water, restrooms, no showers, back-ins and some good pull-throughs — and he said he would want to be here, that he hadn't even been looking at national forest campgrounds on this coast because the state parks are everywhere, and that this one changed his mind. Then he read the interpretive sign and understood what he was standing on: an ancient dune, buried under its own forest, the whole grove growing out of old sand.

From the trail he could see RVs and vehicles clustered where they shouldn't be, and he read them the way he reads the state parks — not as nuisance but as capacity. The rustic sites, the ones without electric or water, would be cheaper. Water somewhere on the grounds, restrooms, showers. A safe place to be. He named the rising numbers he'd seen in a recent survey, said it was going to keep getting worse, and said he would be out here helping as much as he can.

Then the forest ended and the sand began, just like that. Footprints scattered across a landscape he compared to desert. He took the easier route up, the way the others had gone, and he took it slow — hiking on sand works the core continuously, the body stabilizing against a surface that keeps moving, and he had learned that at Pistol River. He crested the first dune. Standing there he recalled being a kid hiking dunes with his family in Michigan, near the Great Lakes, booking it ahead the way he always did, and looking up to find several dunes between himself and everyone else. He was fairly sure he cried. He stated it as a thing that happened to him once, that he thinks about rarely, that he has never really talked about, and he wondered aloud whether it shaped him — and then the wind took the question and he moved on. Somewhere past the fog was a line that might have been the ocean or might have been another dune. He stopped there. Thirty percent battery, no charger, one Pepsi, a hike-tracking app that eats power, and a drop below him steep enough that he said so twice. Not incapacity — arithmetic. He would come back, maybe tomorrow, and he retraced his steps.

On the way down he found a single sapling standing alone in open sand and stopped for it. He called it a sovereign tree. This is how it starts, he said — that one thing deciding it would grow here and make a forest out of nothing, on its own schedule, and the sapling says you can witness me, you can watch me grow, but you cannot prescribe me advice, because I'm not asking for it. I got this. He tried to film it at 10x, apologized for the shake, told it he wasn't there to bother it, and left it where it stood.

Summary

rswfire drives south from his Siltcoos campground toward North Bend/Coos Bay, narrating the route across a large river bridge and past an airport whose green lights he had wondered about on prior night trips — confirming their source on this run.

He stops at an adult store on Highway 101, arriving before its 10am opening. He states plainly that he is buying toys with $200 he has left, names the purchase as a deliberate choice for pleasure, and rejects shame framing around it. Inside, he describes an exchange with the older proprietor about the store's downstairs area — which reviews indicate is used for sex — and notes the proprietor is selling the business and returning to California.

On the return leg he drives to Reedsport to buy an annual National Forest pass, choosing a physical vehicle pass over an electronic one. There he requests a volunteer application and coordinator contact, mapping possible April–May placements with the Forest Service against existing commitments through March.

He then hikes the John Dellenback Dunes trail head — forest transitioning to open dunes, with a marked six-mile round trip to the ocean. He tours the adjacent campground and rates it favorably. He turns back short of the ocean, citing 30% phone battery, no charger (his Jeep port shows a moisture warning), and healing core muscles.

Along the way he notes RV clusters as evidence of regional homelessness, recalls being briefly separated from his family on Michigan dunes as a child, and films a lone sapling growing in open sand.

Environment

A day-long drive-and-hike capture along the Oregon Coast, recorded from inside a Jeep and then on foot. The route runs south on Highway 101 through Coos Bay and North Bend, across a bridge over a large river, past an airport whose green lights rswfire had previously seen from the road, and past two ships including the Princess Pacific.

Midday the setting is an adult store in Coos Bay, then the campground where rswfire is living for January, then Reedsport to buy a national forest pass. The final stretch is the John Dellenback Dunes Trailhead in the Oregon Dunes National Recreation Area — forested ancient dunes, Eel Creek Campground, and open sand under rain, fog, and wind. Also referenced: William M. Tugman State Park, Umpqua Lighthouse.

Substrate

rswfire holds a position where appetite, curiosity, and territory are the same operating system: he spends part of his remaining $200 on sex toys, names the social judgment attached to that, and declines it explicitly rather than defending against it. The same stance governs the physical field — he maps the coast by driving it, buys the pass to legitimize access, and reads campgrounds simultaneously as recreation, as volunteer posting, and as unused shelter capacity for people living in vehicles. The signal closes on a lone sapling in open dune, which he names sovereign and gives voice to a refusal of unsolicited advice: witness permitted, prescription refused.

Actions

Performed

•driving south on Highway 101 toward North Bend
•narrating landmarks, bridges, ships, and terrain from the vehicle
•purchasing toys at the adult store
•questioning the proprietor about the downstairs and the reviews
•confirming the green lights are an airport
•returning to the campground and having lunch
•driving to Reedsport and buying an annual national forest pass
•asking a Forest Service staffer about volunteer opportunities and taking an application and phone number
•reading trailhead signage and interpretive billboards
•walking the interpretive loop into Eel Creek Campground
•surveying campsites, drinking water, restrooms, and loop layout
•hiking onto the open dunes at reduced pace
•turning back at the high dune due to phone battery and lack of supplies
•filming the sapling and an insect at 10x

Referenced

•passing the adult store many times before without stopping
•reading reviews and querying AI about the store's downstairs
•eating Mexican food in the area at night and seeing the green lights
•driving from Kentucky and staying at national forest campgrounds en route
•seeing the worst showers in Mark Twain National Forest
•sustaining a core muscle injury still healing
•learning from AI at Pistol River that sand hiking loads the core
•emailing someone the previous night about April and May placement
•hiking dunes in Michigan as a child and getting separated from family
•states he never talked about or processed that childhood dune episode
•reading a recent survey on rising homelessness

Planned

•return to the dune trail, possibly tomorrow
•hike the six-mile round trip to the ocean when prepared
•download an offline GPS map before the next hike
•carry a battery charger and supplies
•call the volunteer coordinator and submit the Forest Service application
•possibly volunteer at Eel Creek or with the National Forest Service April–May or over summer
•visit the lighthouse and the Coast Guard area
•drive up the hill in the distance
•board one of the ships one day
•drive the Jeep on sand where it is permitted
•continue helping with poverty and homelessness on the coast

Entities

beings

rswfire — Records the drive, purchase, and hike; narrates throughout

The proprietor — Older gay man selling the store after decades, returning to California

Van lifer — Person he has been talking to; the vehicle he passed turned out to be someone else

places

Highway 101 — Coastal route driven south from the campground

Coos Bay — Location of the adult store on 101

North Bend — Destination town crossed into over the bridge

Adult Fun Center — Store where toys were purchased; has a legal downstairs cruising space

Princess Pacific — Large ship seen from the road; one of two he wants to board

Reedsport — Town where the annual forest pass was purchased

Oregon Dunes National Recreation Area — Federal recreation area containing the trail and dunes

John Dellenback Dunes Trailhead — Access point for the interpretive loop and six-mile ocean route

Eel Creek Campground — Primitive forest campground walked through and evaluated as a posting

William M. Tugman State Park — Nearby state park named for a Park Service figure

Umpqua Lighthouse — Other site in his management area, shared by Coast Guard, county, and state park

Mark Twain National Forest — Campground on the Kentucky-to-Oregon drive with the worst showers he has seen

Michigan / Great Lakes dunes — Site of the childhood dune episode he describes

systems

US Forest Service — Manages the dunes; source of pass, application, and possible volunteer posting

Oregon State Parks — Agency he currently volunteers for; free pass, existing obligations through March

AI — Consulted about the store and about core-muscle load on sand

Jeep — Vehicle; charging port failing with a moisture warning

concepts

The sapling — Lone tree in open sand he names sovereign and speaks for

media

The Birdcage — Reference point rswfire uses for the proprietor's manner

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

bridge

river meeting ocean

threshold (the stairs downstairs)

dune

buried forest

sapling

fog

ocean unseen

edge

rain

trailhead

pass / permit

footprints

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (declines social judgment on pleasure explicitly, spends as he chooses)

exploratory (mapping unfamiliar terrain by direct traversal, naming what he does not yet know)

embodied (appetite, core injury, and pace tracked as one system)

provisional (placement beyond March open; volunteer arrangements in negotiation)

self-limiting by choice (turns back on battery and supply calculus, not capacity)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

somatic (core injury governs pace; sand load calculated and accepted)

erotic (toy purchase, cruising space, appetite stated without hedge)

navigational (map reading, GPS, landmark identification, route decisions)

institutional (Forest Service pass, volunteer application, state park obligations, management area)

ecological (dune succession, forest on ancient sand, interpretive signage)

ethical (reads vehicle dwellers as a housing capacity question, commits to helping)

mnemonic (childhood dune separation surfaced and stated as an event)

logistical (phone charging failure, battery budget, turnaround decision)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

toys / pleasure / no shame

you can judge my choices or you can flow with it

edges are important, it's important to test them

volunteer / management area / pass

dunes / forest / ocean

poverty and homelessness

sovereign tree — witness me but you cannot prescribe me advice

Narrative

Mirror

You spend part of the two hundred dollars you have left on sex toys, name the shame that is socially attached to that purchase, and decline it in the same sentence you name it. You do not argue with the judgment. You do not explain the purchase. You state that it will bring you pleasure, call it a good investment, and drive on. The transaction with the proprietor runs the same way — you ask what you want to know, you register his nervousness about the reviews, you tell him what you know, you buy what you came for. Curiosity about the downstairs stays open all day. You circle it, question it in specifics, and do not resolve it. It remains a question, not a decision deferred.

You map by driving. The river is named as a river and not the ocean, and you correct yourself on that point out loud. The green lights become an airport because you went and confirmed them. The hill in the distance is filed for later. The two ships are filed for later. The dunes across the water are filed for later. You are running an active inventory of terrain you have not yet entered and you keep it open rather than closing it. Your navigational subsystem is fully online: map, GPS, signage, landmark, route decision, and the honest note that you did not download the offline version.

The institutional subsystem is active and moving in one direction. You buy the annual pass at Reedsport and you buy the physical one — you want it visible on the vehicle, not filed electronically. You ask about volunteer positions at the counter and leave with an application and a phone number. You state your obligations through the end of March, an email out about April and May, no answer yet, and several possible placements past that. The forward calendar is provisional and you say so plainly. You read the campground three ways simultaneously — as a place you would want to stay, as a place you might be posted, and as capacity that is not being used. You name the vehicle dwellers as a housing question, not as a scene, and you state that you will be out here helping.

Your core injury governs pace and does not govern participation. You know sand loads the core differently, you know why, you calculate it, and you slow down rather than stop. The turnaround is a supply decision: phone at thirty percent, no charger, one Pepsi, tracking app draining battery, steep drop in front of you. You call it doing this responsibly and turn back. Nothing in that decision is framed as limitation. The phone will not charge in the Jeep and you say the moisture warning makes no sense, and you keep going without music.

The ocean is the thing you went for and the thing that is absent. You state at the bridge that the river is not the ocean and that the ocean is close. On the dune you look at a line in the fog and say it could be the ocean or it could be a sand dune. You do not resolve it. You say you will come back. The childhood separation on the Michigan dunes surfaces on the same ground and you state it as an event — you were alone, you thought you had been abandoned, you have rarely spoken of it. You ask aloud whether it shaped you and you leave the question where you set it down. The signal ends on the sapling in open sand, which you name sovereign, and through which you state the terms: witness permitted, prescription refused. Those are the same terms you set on the two hundred dollars at the start of the day.

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