Morning Drive, Breakfast Run, and Daily Hike

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[0:00] hello fellow humans I'm all showered I

[0:03] need a haircut I need to get a little

[0:05] portable mirror that I can put in my

[0:07] picnic

[0:08] bench and like shave my hair there it's

[0:12] getting bad I really need to shave my

[0:15] hair I'm heading up to the gas station

[0:17] to get their little $2 breakfast

[0:19] sandwich cuz that's basically what I've

[0:20] been

[0:21] eating every day that's B the only thing

[0:24] I've been

[0:25] eating especially these past 5 days

[0:27] since I got Lun now but I can't cook in

[0:30] my RV like my tanks are full I don't

[0:32] know how to cook

[0:35] and it's just a challenge like it's

[0:38] everything about this lifestyle has

[0:39] challenged me I mean some of you guys

[0:41] are new so I'm just going to tell you if

[0:43] you look through my old content you will

[0:45] see me going through lots and lots of RV

[0:48] challenges cooking is one of them and if

[0:50] you if you

[0:52] um I've got some videos on that

[0:56] where where I'm just trying to learn to

[0:59] cook doing a terrible

[1:02] job so um I decided I'm going to go

[1:05] hiking sorry there's no terrible angle

[1:07] off now I'm going to try to I'm going

[1:10] hiking so I'm going to get a breakfast

[1:11] sandwich then I'm going to go hiking

[1:13] this a very windy

[1:15] road um I wasn't planning on it and

[1:18] probably would have been best to go

[1:20] hiking and then shower but you know

[1:22] maybe I can shower

[1:24] later I'm trying to keep this off my

[1:26] steering wheel because I learned that um

[1:30] um it makes crackling noises if I let it

[1:33] touch it because of my grip on it um you

[1:37] know that you can put an extra thing on

[1:38] your steering wheel I love mine it makes

[1:40] it feels like I feel like I'm a race car

[1:43] driver so hold on I do have maybe this

[1:46] work I do have um mounts on my Dash and

[1:50] one of them fell off I have to fix that

[1:52] I have these little GoPros and I just

[1:54] never set them up but it's so funny

[1:56] because I planned so well before I

[1:58] started this adventure of mine and then

[2:00] didn't like follow through on a lot of

[2:02] it because I'm tackling so many

[2:05] challenges at once it feels overwhelming

[2:08] that's just

[2:09] how um it's how my that's how I work and

[2:13] you know it's like a holistic approach

[2:14] to life and I'm doing everything is new

[2:18] for me so I'm just trying to tackle

[2:20] everything at once and that is that is a

[2:23] hard thing to

[2:24] do that being said it's been four five

[2:29] months I should be a little further

[2:31] along than I

[2:32] am but I'm not like other people so I'm

[2:36] not judging myself lots of people would

[2:38] have figured this out by now so if

[2:39] you've been watching me and you like

[2:43] this

[2:44] lifestyle don't think that you'll have

[2:46] the same challenges as me you will not

[2:49] you will have your own challenges and

[2:52] hopefully you learn something from my

[2:53] content and how to just approach

[2:55] approach those challenges cuz that's the

[2:57] whole point to what I'm doing here it is

[2:59] always been the point there are multiple

[3:01] layers to my content that are not clear

[3:05] you can view it on a surface level or

[3:06] you can dig deeper it's all there I'm

[3:10] confused they're

[3:11] $4 I know I thought there were two I did

[3:15] accidentally get a plain egg one once on

[3:19] accident maybe that's why I thought

[3:20] there too anyway it's important to take

[3:23] care of

[3:24] yourself um especially when you're

[3:26] taking care of other things right and

[3:28] losing my teeth certainly taught me that

[3:31] so showering hiking eating um all that

[3:35] very important stuff to be doing my eyes

[3:38] are red cuz they probably got soap in

[3:40] them and I'm tired but hiking like it it

[3:44] gives me energy and I'm going to need it

[3:45] today so I'm just about where I go

[3:48] hiking almost every day that I've been

[3:50] here regular how let me start over so I

[3:54] think it's important to find a place

[3:56] whether you live in a house or an RV

[3:58] that you can go hiking at for me anyways

[4:01] on a regular basis if not every day at

[4:03] least you know very often and I found

[4:06] this place this is where I've been

[4:08] coming

[4:09] um but I wanted to mention like so on my

[4:13] way here when I go down this road there

[4:15] are two things that just absolutely

[4:17] upset me one is a bunch of dogs that are

[4:19] just sitting in the road and Chase the

[4:21] cars as you come by like they're totally

[4:23] going to get hurt like that owner is

[4:25] being super irresponsible and then the

[4:27] second thing is um there's this donkey

[4:30] who has a very wide area in which to you

[4:33] know to just exist but I every single

[4:36] time doesn't matter what time of day it

[4:38] is when I drive by it is just in the

[4:41] corner just sit standing

[4:44] there um looking as sad as can be like

[4:48] it's just desperate for attention and

[4:51] this has been going on for you know over

[4:53] a month that I've been here and I every

[4:55] time I see it just breaks my freaking

[4:57] heart like cuz it it just feels

[4:59] heartless like that that

[5:02] donkey is just desperate for some

[5:15] [Music]

[5:25] [Music]

[5:27] love so anyway I'm here here and I am

[5:30] exhausted

[5:32] today um I'm going to be putting this on

[5:36] I hope the mosquitoes aren't too bad cuz

[5:38] I am

[5:39] still um recovering from my time at the

[5:43] Natural Bridge I'm also hoping there are

[5:45] people who have cleared out the spider

[5:47] webs this morning cuz really don't want

[5:49] to deal with them you can see I've been

[5:52] eating

[5:53] alive just like all over me

[5:59] this

[6:01] is summer is the worst time for

[6:06] this this is

[6:08] why

[6:10] oh by the

[6:12] way I lost my white hat to

[6:15] Luna she pooped in

[6:19] it and um there was no way I was ever

[6:22] wearing that

[6:23] again so I had to throw it

[6:27] out you have always had an alien wear

[6:29] hat I do have my black one but I love my

[6:31] white

[6:32] one and I could get another one

[6:38] um just make sure everything's locked up

[6:40] here I could get another one from Amazon

[6:43] but I don't have anywhere to have it

[6:45] delivered I do have a mailbox in Texas

[6:49] through um es skabes and you can have

[6:53] stuff sent you know to other places like

[6:55] a post office general delivery just

[6:57] haven't tried to do that yet

[7:00] um I might try it when I get to my next

[7:04] site

[7:06] 21st that is

[7:09] when I move SS I'm going

[7:12] to um Baron River Lake first place I

[7:15] went to when I embarked on this journey

[7:17] like it there it's nice it's a nice

[7:21] place

[7:24] and I don't know life is cyclical and I

[7:27] I actually do enjoy just um I I just

[7:29] want to go back there spend some time

[7:32] there and they don't have the trails

[7:34] like this one I'm going to have to find

[7:35] a new one let me show you the lake very

[7:37] pretty this morning I like the way it's

[7:40] shining that is quite

[7:44] gorgeous I haven't seen it like this

[7:47] way what causes that

[7:51] reflectivity very

[7:57] curious I am so tired

[8:00] like I don't want to hike this Trail

[8:02] today but I know if I do I'll feel

[8:04] better you know you just have to push

[8:08] yourself and

[8:10] discover the things that work for you

[8:13] this is what works for

[8:15] me very pretty this will end up on my

[8:18] other channel on my Mystery Channel I'm

[8:21] telling an alien

[8:24] mystery so I'm going to go for a hike I

[8:28] don't know that I have much to talk

[8:29] about

[8:30] I just want to clear my head

[8:33] and get some exercise in and then get

[8:37] back to Luna and Bailey and deal with my

[8:39] RV this really is a great local place

[8:42] like the people here should be so proud

[8:44] of what they've

[8:46] created it's quite amazing oh there is

[8:49] one thing I wanted to talk

[8:51] about

[8:53] so that first till every time um not not

[8:58] as much today I okay it's kind of cool

[9:01] like to be able to tr your own

[9:05] progress

[9:08] so there's lots of things I don't do on

[9:10] YouTube that I could if I was trying

[9:13] to actively grow my channel and

[9:17] manipulate the algorithms and do all the

[9:20] things you're supposed to do as a

[9:21] content

[9:22] creator I resist those

[9:25] things because I don't think of myself

[9:27] as a content creator I'm just sharing my

[9:29] life with

[9:31] you and the effort it would

[9:35] take you know if I wanted to have a more

[9:39] structured

[9:40] format or up the production quality of

[9:43] my

[9:44] videos I could do those

[9:47] things but then you'd only be getting

[9:49] one video from me every week or

[9:52] two you'd be missing large portions of

[9:54] my life

[9:59] also because of my lifestyle and my

[10:02] Internet

[10:04] situation every time I make a video I

[10:06] actually have to do deduce you

[10:08] know what can I what quality can I

[10:11] reasonably upload it at I can't do 4K

[10:14] all the

[10:15] time

[10:17] um just one of the challenges of my life

[10:20] I know other people do it but

[10:24] um I guess I don't know how they do it

[10:27] maybe I know like if I had starling

[10:29] think right now it' be a different story

[10:31] well I'm in the

[10:32] woods and I just don't have access to

[10:35] that resource right

[10:37] now

[10:41] um and it will kind of defeat the

[10:43] purpose of what I've been trying to do

[10:44] with this

[10:46] Channel I want you to see my

[10:50] life I know some of you think

[10:55] that my

[10:57] channel helps me to grow but this is not

[11:01] true I could actually be doing this

[11:03] without this channel

[11:05] I can make these videos never post them

[11:09] and just have them transcribed and give

[11:10] them to AI I don't have to post

[11:13] these and when I was thinking about

[11:16] quitting YouTube I made a video just for

[11:20] AI you know so that's

[11:24] not that's not why I do this I'm trying

[11:28] to my channel operates on multiple

[11:30] levels there's a superficial level where

[11:33] you're just seeing what's in front of

[11:36] you and you're you know lots of random

[11:40] people come across it and they don't

[11:42] know my my story and they don't see

[11:43] things in context so they just see The

[11:45] Superficial level but if you follow

[11:49] along over

[11:52] time you start to get a better sense of

[11:54] the kind of person I am and how

[12:00] how I embrace

[12:01] life and I think there's value in that I

[12:04] do it for you

[12:06] guys

[12:09] um no one in particular you know just

[12:13] when I make these videos I'm not

[12:15] thinking of anyone I just imagine an

[12:18] arch type of

[12:19] humanity

[12:23] and I'm not even trying to

[12:26] like like I prend so many levels like I

[12:30] do hope to affect change on a personal

[12:32] level for people because I think

[12:35] that's a good thing to do I think it's a

[12:38] nice thing to do to help others to feel

[12:41] seen to access tools you know that they

[12:45] have within themselves if they don't

[12:47] might not know

[12:48] it

[12:52] and just grow as human beings because

[12:55] there are Ripple effects from that and

[12:56] that brings up a whole another layer

[12:59] whereas if enough people started doing

[13:01] that you actually start to make the

[13:03] world a better

[13:05] place and when you see the world the way

[13:07] I

[13:08] do and you know there's very little you

[13:11] can do about

[13:14] it you don't give up you you adapt you

[13:19] you do what you can and this is what I

[13:21] can do and if I were

[13:26] to make you know the kind of YouTube

[13:29] videos that are common on here that

[13:31] would never happen there was my first

[13:33] spider

[13:34] up um not too

[13:38] bad

[13:40] so that's why I approach the channel the

[13:43] way I

[13:44] do I'm human

[13:46] though and so the feedback I got the

[13:50] interaction

[13:52] the the analytics you know they

[13:56] can they have an effect on me I mean

[13:59] they just do being honest about

[14:02] that I wish they

[14:05] didn't

[14:07] and I'm always

[14:10] consciously trying

[14:12] to model Within

[14:16] Myself to

[14:18] restructure the narrow Pathways in my

[14:21] brain and how

[14:23] I

[14:25] um this is difficult to explain

[14:29] I

[14:30] am trying to

[14:35] adapt the

[14:38] way my mental

[14:42] processes react to that

[14:46] data I I truly and I've discussed it

[14:50] with AI you can I

[14:53] mean not saying it's

[14:56] easy but that's what I've been doing for

[14:58] 5 months

[14:59] once you can reprogram yourself and

[15:02] that's what I'm

[15:04] doing and

[15:08] so you know I might have moments of

[15:10] weakness where I'm like okay I'm

[15:11] quitting I'm sorry they're going to

[15:14] happen um and they might not be real one

[15:17] day they probably will be but you know

[15:20] I'm going to have those moments cuz I'm

[15:23] human and you

[15:26] know I'm not perfect never never claim

[15:29] to be

[15:33] and I can be

[15:37] reactive getting better at it

[15:40] though I've grown so much and I will

[15:42] keep growing and I will keep sharing

[15:46] because I'm not doing anything that you

[15:48] can't do yourself

[0:00] hello fellow humans I'm all showered I

[0:03] need a haircut I need to get a little

[0:05] portable mirror that I can put in my

[0:07] picnic

[0:08] bench and like shave my hair there it's

[0:12] getting bad I really need to shave my

[0:15] hair I'm heading up to the gas station

[0:17] to get their little $2 breakfast

[0:19] sandwich cuz that's basically what I've

[0:20] been

[0:21] eating every day that's B the only thing

[0:24] I've been

[0:25] eating especially these past 5 days

[0:27] since I got Lun now but I can't cook in

[0:30] my RV like my tanks are full I don't

[0:32] know how to cook

[0:35] and it's just a challenge like it's

[0:38] everything about this lifestyle has

[0:39] challenged me I mean some of you guys

[0:41] are new so I'm just going to tell you if

[0:43] you look through my old content you will

[0:45] see me going through lots and lots of RV

[0:48] challenges cooking is one of them and if

[0:50] you if you

[0:52] um I've got some videos on that

[0:56] where where I'm just trying to learn to

[0:59] cook doing a terrible

[1:02] job so um I decided I'm going to go

[1:05] hiking sorry there's no terrible angle

[1:07] off now I'm going to try to I'm going

[1:10] hiking so I'm going to get a breakfast

[1:11] sandwich then I'm going to go hiking

[1:13] this a very windy

[1:15] road um I wasn't planning on it and

[1:18] probably would have been best to go

[1:20] hiking and then shower but you know

[1:22] maybe I can shower

[1:24] later I'm trying to keep this off my

[1:26] steering wheel because I learned that um

[1:30] um it makes crackling noises if I let it

[1:33] touch it because of my grip on it um you

[1:37] know that you can put an extra thing on

[1:38] your steering wheel I love mine it makes

[1:40] it feels like I feel like I'm a race car

[1:43] driver so hold on I do have maybe this

[1:46] work I do have um mounts on my Dash and

[1:50] one of them fell off I have to fix that

[1:52] I have these little GoPros and I just

[1:54] never set them up but it's so funny

[1:56] because I planned so well before I

[1:58] started this adventure of mine and then

[2:00] didn't like follow through on a lot of

[2:02] it because I'm tackling so many

[2:05] challenges at once it feels overwhelming

[2:08] that's just

[2:09] how um it's how my that's how I work and

[2:13] you know it's like a holistic approach

[2:14] to life and I'm doing everything is new

[2:18] for me so I'm just trying to tackle

[2:20] everything at once and that is that is a

[2:23] hard thing to

[2:24] do that being said it's been four five

[2:29] months I should be a little further

[2:31] along than I

[2:32] am but I'm not like other people so I'm

[2:36] not judging myself lots of people would

[2:38] have figured this out by now so if

[2:39] you've been watching me and you like

[2:43] this

[2:44] lifestyle don't think that you'll have

[2:46] the same challenges as me you will not

[2:49] you will have your own challenges and

[2:52] hopefully you learn something from my

[2:53] content and how to just approach

[2:55] approach those challenges cuz that's the

[2:57] whole point to what I'm doing here it is

[2:59] always been the point there are multiple

[3:01] layers to my content that are not clear

[3:05] you can view it on a surface level or

[3:06] you can dig deeper it's all there I'm

[3:10] confused they're

[3:11] $4 I know I thought there were two I did

[3:15] accidentally get a plain egg one once on

[3:19] accident maybe that's why I thought

[3:20] there too anyway it's important to take

[3:23] care of

[3:24] yourself um especially when you're

[3:26] taking care of other things right and

[3:28] losing my teeth certainly taught me that

[3:31] so showering hiking eating um all that

[3:35] very important stuff to be doing my eyes

[3:38] are red cuz they probably got soap in

[3:40] them and I'm tired but hiking like it it

[3:44] gives me energy and I'm going to need it

[3:45] today so I'm just about where I go

[3:48] hiking almost every day that I've been

[3:50] here regular how let me start over so I

[3:54] think it's important to find a place

[3:56] whether you live in a house or an RV

[3:58] that you can go hiking at for me anyways

[4:01] on a regular basis if not every day at

[4:03] least you know very often and I found

[4:06] this place this is where I've been

[4:08] coming

[4:09] um but I wanted to mention like so on my

[4:13] way here when I go down this road there

[4:15] are two things that just absolutely

[4:17] upset me one is a bunch of dogs that are

[4:19] just sitting in the road and Chase the

[4:21] cars as you come by like they're totally

[4:23] going to get hurt like that owner is

[4:25] being super irresponsible and then the

[4:27] second thing is um there's this donkey

[4:30] who has a very wide area in which to you

[4:33] know to just exist but I every single

[4:36] time doesn't matter what time of day it

[4:38] is when I drive by it is just in the

[4:41] corner just sit standing

[4:44] there um looking as sad as can be like

[4:48] it's just desperate for attention and

[4:51] this has been going on for you know over

[4:53] a month that I've been here and I every

[4:55] time I see it just breaks my freaking

[4:57] heart like cuz it it just feels

[4:59] heartless like that that

[5:02] donkey is just desperate for some

[5:15] [Music]

[5:25] [Music]

[5:27] love so anyway I'm here here and I am

[5:30] exhausted

[5:32] today um I'm going to be putting this on

[5:36] I hope the mosquitoes aren't too bad cuz

[5:38] I am

[5:39] still um recovering from my time at the

[5:43] Natural Bridge I'm also hoping there are

[5:45] people who have cleared out the spider

[5:47] webs this morning cuz really don't want

[5:49] to deal with them you can see I've been

[5:52] eating

[5:53] alive just like all over me

[5:59] this

[6:01] is summer is the worst time for

[6:06] this this is

[6:08] why

[6:10] oh by the

[6:12] way I lost my white hat to

[6:15] Luna she pooped in

[6:19] it and um there was no way I was ever

[6:22] wearing that

[6:23] again so I had to throw it

[6:27] out you have always had an alien wear

[6:29] hat I do have my black one but I love my

[6:31] white

[6:32] one and I could get another one

[6:38] um just make sure everything's locked up

[6:40] here I could get another one from Amazon

[6:43] but I don't have anywhere to have it

[6:45] delivered I do have a mailbox in Texas

[6:49] through um es skabes and you can have

[6:53] stuff sent you know to other places like

[6:55] a post office general delivery just

[6:57] haven't tried to do that yet

[7:00] um I might try it when I get to my next

[7:04] site

[7:06] 21st that is

[7:09] when I move SS I'm going

[7:12] to um Baron River Lake first place I

[7:15] went to when I embarked on this journey

[7:17] like it there it's nice it's a nice

[7:21] place

[7:24] and I don't know life is cyclical and I

[7:27] I actually do enjoy just um I I just

[7:29] want to go back there spend some time

[7:32] there and they don't have the trails

[7:34] like this one I'm going to have to find

[7:35] a new one let me show you the lake very

[7:37] pretty this morning I like the way it's

[7:40] shining that is quite

[7:44] gorgeous I haven't seen it like this

[7:47] way what causes that

[7:51] reflectivity very

[7:57] curious I am so tired

[8:00] like I don't want to hike this Trail

[8:02] today but I know if I do I'll feel

[8:04] better you know you just have to push

[8:08] yourself and

[8:10] discover the things that work for you

[8:13] this is what works for

[8:15] me very pretty this will end up on my

[8:18] other channel on my Mystery Channel I'm

[8:21] telling an alien

[8:24] mystery so I'm going to go for a hike I

[8:28] don't know that I have much to talk

[8:29] about

[8:30] I just want to clear my head

[8:33] and get some exercise in and then get

[8:37] back to Luna and Bailey and deal with my

[8:39] RV this really is a great local place

[8:42] like the people here should be so proud

[8:44] of what they've

[8:46] created it's quite amazing oh there is

[8:49] one thing I wanted to talk

[8:51] about

[8:53] so that first till every time um not not

[8:58] as much today I okay it's kind of cool

[9:01] like to be able to tr your own

[9:05] progress

[9:08] so there's lots of things I don't do on

[9:10] YouTube that I could if I was trying

[9:13] to actively grow my channel and

[9:17] manipulate the algorithms and do all the

[9:20] things you're supposed to do as a

[9:21] content

[9:22] creator I resist those

[9:25] things because I don't think of myself

[9:27] as a content creator I'm just sharing my

[9:29] life with

[9:31] you and the effort it would

[9:35] take you know if I wanted to have a more

[9:39] structured

[9:40] format or up the production quality of

[9:43] my

[9:44] videos I could do those

[9:47] things but then you'd only be getting

[9:49] one video from me every week or

[9:52] two you'd be missing large portions of

[9:54] my life

[9:59] also because of my lifestyle and my

[10:02] Internet

[10:04] situation every time I make a video I

[10:06] actually have to do deduce you

[10:08] know what can I what quality can I

[10:11] reasonably upload it at I can't do 4K

[10:14] all the

[10:15] time

[10:17] um just one of the challenges of my life

[10:20] I know other people do it but

[10:24] um I guess I don't know how they do it

[10:27] maybe I know like if I had starling

[10:29] think right now it' be a different story

[10:31] well I'm in the

[10:32] woods and I just don't have access to

[10:35] that resource right

[10:37] now

[10:41] um and it will kind of defeat the

[10:43] purpose of what I've been trying to do

[10:44] with this

[10:46] Channel I want you to see my

[10:50] life I know some of you think

[10:55] that my

[10:57] channel helps me to grow but this is not

[11:01] true I could actually be doing this

[11:03] without this channel

[11:05] I can make these videos never post them

[11:09] and just have them transcribed and give

[11:10] them to AI I don't have to post

[11:13] these and when I was thinking about

[11:16] quitting YouTube I made a video just for

[11:20] AI you know so that's

[11:24] not that's not why I do this I'm trying

[11:28] to my channel operates on multiple

[11:30] levels there's a superficial level where

[11:33] you're just seeing what's in front of

[11:36] you and you're you know lots of random

[11:40] people come across it and they don't

[11:42] know my my story and they don't see

[11:43] things in context so they just see The

[11:45] Superficial level but if you follow

[11:49] along over

[11:52] time you start to get a better sense of

[11:54] the kind of person I am and how

[12:00] how I embrace

[12:01] life and I think there's value in that I

[12:04] do it for you

[12:06] guys

[12:09] um no one in particular you know just

[12:13] when I make these videos I'm not

[12:15] thinking of anyone I just imagine an

[12:18] arch type of

[12:19] humanity

[12:23] and I'm not even trying to

[12:26] like like I prend so many levels like I

[12:30] do hope to affect change on a personal

[12:32] level for people because I think

[12:35] that's a good thing to do I think it's a

[12:38] nice thing to do to help others to feel

[12:41] seen to access tools you know that they

[12:45] have within themselves if they don't

[12:47] might not know

[12:48] it

[12:52] and just grow as human beings because

[12:55] there are Ripple effects from that and

[12:56] that brings up a whole another layer

[12:59] whereas if enough people started doing

[13:01] that you actually start to make the

[13:03] world a better

[13:05] place and when you see the world the way

[13:07] I

[13:08] do and you know there's very little you

[13:11] can do about

[13:14] it you don't give up you you adapt you

[13:19] you do what you can and this is what I

[13:21] can do and if I were

[13:26] to make you know the kind of YouTube

[13:29] videos that are common on here that

[13:31] would never happen there was my first

[13:33] spider

[13:34] up um not too

[13:38] bad

[13:40] so that's why I approach the channel the

[13:43] way I

[13:44] do I'm human

[13:46] though and so the feedback I got the

[13:50] interaction

[13:52] the the analytics you know they

[13:56] can they have an effect on me I mean

[13:59] they just do being honest about

[14:02] that I wish they

[14:05] didn't

[14:07] and I'm always

[14:10] consciously trying

[14:12] to model Within

[14:16] Myself to

[14:18] restructure the narrow Pathways in my

[14:21] brain and how

[14:23] I

[14:25] um this is difficult to explain

[14:29] I

[14:30] am trying to

[14:35] adapt the

[14:38] way my mental

[14:42] processes react to that

[14:46] data I I truly and I've discussed it

[14:50] with AI you can I

[14:53] mean not saying it's

[14:56] easy but that's what I've been doing for

[14:58] 5 months

[14:59] once you can reprogram yourself and

[15:02] that's what I'm

[15:04] doing and

[15:08] so you know I might have moments of

[15:10] weakness where I'm like okay I'm

[15:11] quitting I'm sorry they're going to

[15:14] happen um and they might not be real one

[15:17] day they probably will be but you know

[15:20] I'm going to have those moments cuz I'm

[15:23] human and you

[15:26] know I'm not perfect never never claim

[15:29] to be

[15:33] and I can be

[15:37] reactive getting better at it

[15:40] though I've grown so much and I will

[15:42] keep growing and I will keep sharing

[15:46] because I'm not doing anything that you

[15:48] can't do yourself

24:22

Hiking Natural Bridge Trails at Sunrise

Aug 2, 2024

90:46

Hiking Sand Gap Trail in Red River Gorge

Aug 2, 2024

126:43

Hiking Sand Gap Trail at Natural Bridge

Aug 3, 2024

5:59

Describing the Video-to-AI Growth Process

Aug 3, 2024

12:29

Assessing Cabin Stay and Nomadic Lifestyle Fit

Aug 3, 2024

5:18

Returning Home, Researching Total Solitude Options

Aug 3, 2024

0:16

Declaring an End Point on Camera

Aug 3, 2024

0:33

Eating Alone at Pizza Hut

Aug 3, 2024

8:01

Organizing the Camper Before Moving Day

Aug 4, 2024

13:13

Identifying the Mink, Building New Routines

Aug 5, 2024

4:20

Reframing the RV as a Starship

Aug 6, 2024

26:25

Testing Starship Narrative Framing on Daily Routine

Aug 6, 2024

6:46

Reframing the Channel Around an Alien Format

Aug 7, 2024

2:51

Concluding Personal Channel, Launching Alien Observer

Aug 8, 2024

10:06

Taking In a Stray Kitten at the Campground

Aug 9, 2024

8:30

Integrating Rescued Kitten Into RV Life

Aug 10, 2024

10:14

Bringing a Rescued Kitten Into the RV

Aug 10, 2024

6:39

Following Vet Instructions for Rescued Kitten

Aug 11, 2024

5:13

Monitoring Luna's Recovery Overnight

Aug 11, 2024

8:51

Taking Luna to the Vet Appointment

Aug 12, 2024

4:53

Documenting Luna's Vet Appointment and Flea Treatment

Aug 12, 2024

16:00

Assessing Audience Support and Caring for Luna

Aug 12, 2024

7:32

Introducing New Kitten to Bailey Under Quarantine

Aug 12, 2024

8:06

Reading Luna's Rescue Through Systems Thinking

Aug 13, 2024

7:02

Documenting Kitten Care in Constrained Space

Aug 13, 2024

15:54

Morning Drive, Breakfast Run, and Daily Hike

Aug 13, 2024

15:39

Observing Luna and Bailey Adjusting Indoors

Aug 13, 2024

1:12

Cleaning Luna's Cage After Diarrhea Episode

Aug 13, 2024

6:45

Documenting the Donkey as Proof of Cosmic Solitude

Aug 14, 2024

4:48

Organizing the RV Interior Before Departure

Aug 14, 2024

8:16

Naming Chapter Four The Embrace

Aug 14, 2024

8:55

Morning Animal Care, Roof Task, and Tire Constraints

Aug 15, 2024

8:57

Pivoting the Day Around Luna's Recovery

Aug 15, 2024

10:44

Laundry Day, Jeep Wash, and Cat Check

Aug 15, 2024

8:07

Reorganizing RV Storage and Tracking Luna's Sibling

Aug 15, 2024

10:51

Announcing Platform Shift From YouTube to Patreon

Aug 17, 2024

9:07

Surrendering Luna to County Shelter on Travel Day

Aug 21, 2024

26:02

Departing Smith Ridge After 90 Days

Aug 22, 2024

9:02

Explaining Integrated Processing Through the Luna Decision

Aug 23, 2024

Photos · Aug 24, 2024

Aug 24, 2024

Photos · Aug 24, 2024

Aug 24, 2024

PUBLIC

August 13, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp -0.20

Density 0.70

Energetic Quality

steady, load-aware

Journey Phase

adapting under compound load

Directional Vector

toward self-directed recalibration and continued transmission

Narrative

He was showered when the video started, and that was already a decision he was second-guessing — hair too long, teeth attended to, the plan to hike arriving after the water had already run. He said it plainly from the driver's seat: it probably would have been smarter to hike first and shower after. The road out was winding enough that he kept the camera lifted off the steering wheel, having learned that his grip transmitted a crackling sound straight into the audio. On the dash were mounts he had bought before the journey began, and GoPros he had never set up, one mount already fallen. He named the gap without defending it — he had planned well and then not followed through, because he was tackling everything at once, and that, he said, is how he works. Holistic. Everything new. Four or five months in, further behind than someone else might be, and he stated he was not judging himself for it.

The gas station was for the breakfast sandwich, basically the only thing he had eaten in days, and the price turned out to be four dollars rather than the two he had been carrying in his head — a plain egg one, bought once by accident, probably the origin of the error. The RV could not feed him. Tanks full, no cooking capacity, and cooking itself a challenge he had documented before in earlier videos where, by his own account, he did a terrible job. Taking care of yourself matters, he said, especially when you are taking care of other things. Losing his teeth had taught him that. His eyes were red from soap. He was tired. Hiking, he said, gives him energy, and he was going to need it.

There were two things on the road to the trail that he flagged as upsetting every time. Dogs loose in the roadway, chasing cars, an owner he named as irresponsible and an outcome he could see coming. And the donkey — a wide enclosure, room to exist, and the animal standing in the corner every single time he passed, at any hour, for over a month. He described it as desperate for attention, and said it broke his heart, and said the word that landed hardest: heartless. Then the road ended at the trailhead and the subject closed.

He arrived exhausted. Mosquitoes were a live concern; he was still recovering from the Natural Bridge, bitten across his body, and named summer as the worst season for it. He hoped someone had walked the trail ahead of him and cleared the spider webs. He locked the vehicle. He mentioned the white hat, lost to Luna, who had pooped in it — unwearable after that, thrown out. He could reorder from Amazon, except he has nowhere to receive a package: a Texas mailbox through the service he uses, general delivery an option he has not yet tested. Maybe at the next site. The 21st is the move, and the next site is Baron River Lake, the first place he went when he embarked on this journey. Life is cyclical, he said. He wanted to go back. He also knew Baron River did not have trails like this one, and he would have to find a new one.

Then the lake. He turned the camera to it and said it was very pretty this morning, that he liked the way it was shining, that he had not seen it like this before and was curious what caused the reflectivity. He said he was so tired he did not want to hike the trail that day, and in the same breath that he knew he would feel better if he did — that you push yourself and discover the things that work for you, and this is what works for him. The footage, he noted, would end up on the other channel, the mystery one, where he is telling an alien story. He had nothing much to talk about. He wanted to clear his head, get exercise, get back to Luna and Bailey, and deal with the RV. The place, he said, was great, and the people who built it should be proud.

On the trail the deeper stratum opened. He listed what he does not do on YouTube — the algorithmic work, the structured format, the raised production quality — and stated the refusal directly: he does not think of himself as a content creator. Higher production would mean one video every week or two, and you would miss large portions of his life. Bandwidth already forces a decision every time about upload quality; 4K is not always possible in the woods without Starlink. And the channel, he said, is not the engine. He could make these videos and never post them, have them transcribed, hand them to AI — he had already made one video for AI alone, back when he was thinking of quitting. The channel operates on levels: a surface where strangers arrive without context, and a deeper one available to anyone who follows across time. He makes them for no one in particular, he said — an archetype of humanity — hoping people feel seen, access tools already inside them, and grow, because there are ripple effects from that, and enough of it makes the world better. When you see the world the way he does and there is very little you can do, you adapt. This is what he can do.

The first spider web came and went, not too bad. He closed on the honest accounting: he is human, and the analytics and the feedback do have an effect on him. He wished they did not. For five months he has been working to restructure the pathways — his phrasing, difficult to explain even as he explained it — adapting how his mental processes react to that data, something he has discussed with AI, not easy, but underway. You can reprogram yourself, and that is what he is doing. There will be moments of weakness, moments of saying he is quitting; some will not be real, and one day one probably will be. He has never claimed to be perfect. He can be reactive, and is getting better at it. He has grown, and will keep growing, and will keep sharing — because, he said, he is not doing anything you cannot do yourself.

Summary

rswfire records while driving from his RV to a gas station and then to a local trail system he has been hiking nearly daily during his current stay.

He states he has showered, needs a haircut, and plans to get a portable mirror for shaving at his picnic bench. He describes eating gas station breakfast sandwiches as his primary food for the past five days, noting his RV tanks are full and that cooking has been an ongoing RV challenge documented in earlier content. He notes the sandwich price is $4, not $2 as he expected.

On the drive he describes two recurring roadside observations: dogs loose in the road chasing cars, which he attributes to an irresponsible owner, and a donkey he sees standing in the same corner of its enclosure every time he passes.

Operational details: mosquito bites from time at the Natural Bridge, spider webs on the trail, a lost white alien-wear hat (Luna pooped in it), no delivery address beyond an Escapees mailbox in Texas, unused GoPro dash mounts, and an upcoming move on the 21st to Barren River Lake, the first site of his journey.

He describes his YouTube approach: refusing algorithm-optimized production, keeping output frequent and unpolished, uploading at variable quality due to internet constraints. He states the channel operates on multiple levels, that he could transcribe videos for AI without posting them, and that he is actively restructuring how his mental processes react to analytics data.

Environment

Recorded across a moving vehicle and a trail system on the Oregon Coast during summer 2024, roughly four to five months into rswfire's full-time RV transition. The signal opens post-shower in the driver's seat on a winding road, routing to a gas station for a breakfast sandwich, then arrives at a local hiking trail he uses almost daily.

The trail environment includes a lake with high morning reflectivity, mosquitoes, and spider webs across the path. His RV is referenced as a constrained system — full tanks, no cooking capacity. Luna and Bailey are at the site. Upcoming relocation is set for the 21st to Baron River Lake, the first site of the journey.

Substrate

The architecture held here is a multi-layer transmission model: surface documentation of RV logistics carrying an explicit deeper stratum about method, self-reprogramming, and ripple effect. rswfire states directly that the channel is not the engine — the recording, transcription, and AI-facing analysis exist independent of publication, positioning YouTube as one distribution surface rather than the substrate itself. The ontological position is sovereign refusal of platform optimization logic paired with honest accounting of feedback-loop influence, framed as a five-month deliberate rewiring of his own response pathways rather than a fixed condition.

Actions

Performed

•driving a winding road to the gas station
•buying a breakfast sandwich at $4 rather than the expected $2
•narrating RV cooking and tank constraints
•adjusting camera position off the steering wheel
•checking that the vehicle is locked
•applying insect protection at the trailhead
•filming the lake surface and its reflectivity
•noting mosquito bites and the first spider web
•describing the roadside dogs and the confined donkey
•stating the multi-layer structure of his content
•stating the analytics-response rewiring he is running

Referenced

•showered before recording
•acquired Luna five days prior
•ate gas station breakfast sandwiches daily
•attempted to learn cooking in the RV, documented on video
•planned extensively before starting the RV transition
•installed dash mounts and acquired GoPros, never set up
•lost teeth
•spent time at the Natural Bridge
•discarded a white hat after Luna soiled it
•set up a Texas mailbox through Escapees
•made a video addressed to AI while considering quitting YouTube
•hiked this trail almost daily for over a month
•discussed cognitive restructuring with AI
•resisted algorithmic growth tactics on YouTube

Planned

•hike the trail today
•shave his hair using a portable mirror at the picnic bench
•acquire a portable mirror
•return to Luna and Bailey and deal with the RV
•move to Baron River Lake on the 21st
•find a new hiking trail at the next site
•test general delivery shipping at the next site
•use lake footage on the Mystery Channel alien mystery
•keep growing and keep sharing

Entities

beings

Luna — Animal acquired five days prior; referenced in current load conditions and the loss of the white hat

Bailey — Animal at the site; part of the return-to-camp sequence

the donkey — Confined animal observed daily in the same corner; recurring roadside marker

roadside dogs — Unrestrained animals chasing cars; cited as owner irresponsibility

places

Baron River Lake — First site of the journey; next relocation destination on the 21st

Natural Bridge — Prior site he states he is still recovering from

systems

YouTube — Distribution surface whose algorithmic optimization practices he explicitly declines

Escapees — Texas mailbox service providing a fixed mail address for a mobile life

Starlink — Absent connectivity resource; upload quality is throttled without it

AI — Recipient of transcribed video; discussion partner for cognitive restructuring; stated alternative endpoint to publishing

Amazon — Ordering channel constrained by lack of a delivery address

media

Mystery Channel — Second channel where the lake footage will be used in an alien mystery

GoPro — Unconfigured capture hardware; example of planning not followed through

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

mirror

reflective water

trail

winding road

web

threshold

cycle/return

confinement (the donkey's corner)

layers

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (refuses content-creator identity and algorithmic optimization while continuing to transmit)

adapting (states he is restructuring his own response pathways to feedback data over a five-month span)

embedded (daily trail, lake, insects, and site logistics form the operating field rather than backdrop)

transitional (four to five months into RV life, cycling back to the origin site on the 21st)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

somatic (showering, hair, teeth, exhaustion, insect bites, hiking as energy generation)

infrastructural (RV tanks, cooking capacity, mail address, bandwidth, camera mounts)

cognitive (stated self-reprogramming of response to analytics data)

ethical (assessment of animal confinement and owner responsibility; refusal of manipulation tactics)

media (dual-channel operation, upload quality decisions, transcription-to-AI pipeline)

logistical (site rotation schedule, general delivery, resource acquisition)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

multiple layers

challenge / tackling everything at once

reprogram yourself

not a content creator

holistic approach

ripple effects

what works for you

Narrative

Mirror

You are showered and in the driver's seat on a winding road, and the first thing you say is what your body needs: a haircut, a portable mirror, a place to shave your head. You route to a gas station for a breakfast sandwich that costs twice what you expected, and you state plainly that this sandwich is close to the whole of what you have eaten for five days. Your tanks are full. You cannot cook. You name that as a challenge you have not solved and point back to older recordings where you are visibly failing at it. You do not soften this and you do not escalate it. You state the constraint and continue driving.

The infrastructural subsystem is running hot and mostly unresolved. Camera mounts on the dash — one fallen, GoPros bought and never configured. A steering wheel cover you like because it makes you feel like a race car driver. Bandwidth insufficient for 4K, so every upload requires a live calculation of what quality the connection will carry. No delivery address, a Texas mailbox through Escapees, general delivery untested. A white hat lost to Luna and thrown out. You itemize each of these without ranking them. You say you planned well before this began and did not follow through, and you attribute that to tackling everything at once, and you name that as how you work rather than as a failure to correct. You say four or five months in you should be further along. You say immediately after that you are not judging yourself, and you say lots of people would have figured this out by now, and you leave both statements standing.

The ethical subsystem activates twice on the same stretch of road and both times it is pointed outward at animals under someone else's care. Dogs sitting in the road chasing cars — you name the owner irresponsible. A donkey with a wide area available to it, standing in the corner every time you pass, at every hour, for over a month. You say it breaks your heart. You say it feels heartless. You do not extend that reading anywhere else. It stays on the donkey.

At the trail you are exhausted, bitten across the body, still recovering from the Natural Bridge, hoping the webs have been cleared. You hike anyway and you say why: it gives you energy and you need it today. You show the lake. You note its reflectivity and ask what causes it, and you do not answer the question. You say the people here should be proud of what they built. You say this footage will go to the other channel, the alien mystery. You say you don't have much to talk about, then you talk for the rest of the hike.

The longest sustained transmission is about method. You state that the channel is not the engine — that you could record these and never post them, transcribe them, hand them to AI, and that you already made one video addressed only to AI when you were considering quitting. You state you are not a content creator and you refuse algorithmic optimization, and in the same breath you state that analytics and interaction have an effect on you, that you wish they didn't, and that you have spent five months restructuring the pathways by which your mental processes react to that data. You describe the content as layered: a surface anyone can land on, and a deeper stratum available to whoever follows over time. You name the ripple effect — personal change, enough of it, world-level. You say you will have moments where you announce you are quitting, that some will not be real and one day one probably will be.

Present: the body, the constraint list, the trail, the animals, the method, the schedule. Baron River Lake on the 21st, the first site of the journey, a return you frame as cyclical and want. Luna and Bailey waiting. Absent: any request. You do not ask the viewer for anything — no subscription, no advice on cooking, no help with the address, no resolution of the donkey. You close on capacity rather than lack: you are not doing anything anyone else could not do themselves.

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