Departing Smith Ridge After 90 Days

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[0:01] good morning humans it's 7 in the

[0:03] morning it's 57° out there in

[0:08] here they have to bring the ceramic

[0:11] heater

[0:13] and soon cold kind of

[0:19] cold I want some blankets around his

[0:24] cave so that she would be warm and me's

[0:27] just getting cuddled up to me

[0:33] I like the Colder Weather

[0:35] though I think

[0:38] I I need my ceramer

[0:43] though today is one of those challenging

[0:46] days

[0:48] because you know I have to drive the RV

[0:51] and this time we're Towing my Jeep so

[0:54] there's a hill here it's like when I

[0:58] first got here 90 days ago when I

[1:00] detached my Jeep it started rolling

[1:02] backwards so I know better this

[1:05] time I'm not sure where I'm going to

[1:07] hook it up and I'd been thinking about

[1:09] it for

[1:10] days I think the best I can probably I'm

[1:13] wondering how other people do it but I

[1:15] hadn't noticed so I can't

[1:17] really um there's nobody here now so I

[1:20] wasn't paying

[1:23] attention I think down by the dump

[1:26] station maybe it's more flat so that's

[1:28] where I need to do it so it's probably

[1:30] what we're going to do

[1:32] today um a checkin time at the other

[1:35] place is um I think I think it's 2 it's

[1:39] 2: in the afternoon and and they an hour

[1:42] behind me so really

[1:45] 3 so I can't actually leave for like six

[1:48] hours kind of

[1:51] early that gives me time to you

[1:54] know take my time at this I like doing

[1:57] that I like I don't like crushing the

[1:59] part I like doing it

[2:02] slow can hardly believe it's been 90

[2:04] days something I'm on the same site

[2:08] where I started or something poetic

[2:09] about

[2:12] that of course I you

[2:15] know I made that choice a couple days

[2:18] ago

[2:23] but it's going to be a good

[2:26] day this is my sight there's nobody

[2:29] really here's over there so you know

[2:33] she's got a top part to her cage too so

[2:35] she's up

[2:36] there but yeah it's pretty

[2:40] cold nobody

[2:45] here me hanging

[2:53] out that's my other site when I moov

[2:56] from here to that one before going into

[2:58] the

[2:58] woods where that truck is at um those

[3:02] people have been there since I moved

[3:04] from

[3:09] there morning is

[3:12] here I'm sitting here in front of the

[3:15] ceramic eater woo it's cold just trying

[3:20] to think about what did I learn while I

[3:22] was here 90 days that's a long

[3:26] time as far as the RV lifestyle

[3:30] I don't feel like I learned a lot

[3:32] because I've been

[3:34] stationary um I did get more comfortable

[3:38] like living here this is

[3:40] home so that's a good thing probably

[3:42] needed that time to just acclimate and

[3:46] feel like this is definitely a home for

[3:47] me I learned a lot about myself other

[3:51] people I had

[3:53] my I was

[3:55] thinking I had my my views of be all

[4:00] kind of confirmed with Luna which is sad

[4:03] cuz I don't want to think that way I

[4:04] don't want to feel that

[4:07] way it's hard for

[4:10] me not to though

[4:13] because it's it's gets confirmed through

[4:16] all the different ways that I interact

[4:18] with the world

[4:20] and observe it you know so that

[4:25] part I would love to see the good in

[4:28] humanity but I don't see it I used to

[4:32] when I was younger but I don't see it

[4:35] anymore I just see a lot of selfish

[4:37] people who are just tuned out

[4:44] and it's just a very disappointing

[4:50] reality but I didn't learn a whole lot

[4:52] here I

[4:56] just I will you know now I'm going to be

[5:00] moving a lot

[5:02] so it's

[5:05] cold a lot did happen here I discovered

[5:08] like

[5:10] Cumberland I quit smoking I um quit

[5:14] talking to my parents I learn I'm alone

[5:16] in the world you

[5:18] know I guess not

[5:21] entirely there are a few of you out

[5:23] there

[5:25] that show an interest who

[5:28] care what you you know I'm just on a

[5:31] physical personal level I'm alone

[5:34] so

[5:38] um I'm okay with that you know I'm not

[5:42] really the type to complain I know that

[5:43] not everyone gets that I'm just

[5:46] recounting my thoughts and people seem

[5:49] to think

[5:51] that's um I just I process the world

[5:55] differently than other people and I'm

[5:57] okay with that too I actually like me I

[5:59] like the way I

[6:03] am so we're going to

[6:06] have it's going to be a busy day busy

[6:09] morning I got some cleaning to do back

[6:11] here I did the cab area but need to work

[6:14] around Luna's cage area and the floor

[6:17] here and the rugs

[6:19] and um I couldn't figure out where to

[6:22] put the rugs though I'm kind of run out

[6:25] of

[6:26] space in garbage Pags to put them in I

[6:29] feel

[6:30] like feel like they should be sealed up

[6:33] in case there's any fleas I haven't seen

[6:35] any

[6:37] though I don't know I'm cautiously

[6:40] optimistic about that situation I need

[6:42] to blow my

[6:45] nose Luna's having a rough morning she

[6:48] was up top I had

[6:50] a flannel shirt up there for her she

[6:53] pooped all over it had to throw that

[6:56] out um I'm not sure what to put up there

[7:00] because anything I put up there

[7:02] is just got to stay warm

[7:05] though it's best I can do for this

[7:08] morning she's not really

[7:13] eating I cleaned her

[7:17] around um guess we'll keep an eye on

[7:22] her I have some bad news guys I'm going

[7:25] to take Luna to an animal shelter this

[7:28] morning

[7:32] um I just I can't take care of her in

[7:35] this environment

[7:37] she's it's

[7:40] deeply difficult and problematic her

[7:42] situation

[7:45] and I just can't so I'm going to take

[7:48] her to an animal

[7:50] shelter uh the rescues wouldn't help her

[7:52] but I assume that the shelter will so

[7:55] I'm just going to go there this morning

[7:56] they open in an hour and going drive

[7:58] down there and talk to them

[8:01] um might have been different if people

[8:03] helped me more but I you know there's

[8:07] that and

[8:10] then

[8:12] she's she needs a different environment

[8:14] this one is too small she's in a cage

[8:17] again she's not using the letter box

[8:20] consistently I know she's young and she

[8:23] needs

[8:24] time it's just it's impossible for me to

[8:27] do it in this environment so

[8:31] I will miss her we can be proud of the

[8:33] fact that we got her healthy she's alive

[8:37] you know she's

[8:39] well um she's young someone will adopt

[8:42] her

[8:45] I I now know that this is not something

[8:49] I can do in this little tiny RV it

[8:51] simply can't be done so we got her

[8:54] healthy that's what

[8:56] matters this space is just too small to

[8:59] care for a kitten with her needs it just

[9:02] it can't be done I've

[9:06] tried there is no

[9:09] room there is no space for

[9:13] this I'm sorry

[9:16] Luna I really wanted to give you a good

[9:18] life with

[9:20] me I wish that I could I truly do but I

[9:23] don't think that I can I'm not

[9:27] capable I tried

[9:30] I genuinely

[9:32] tried not going to say that was a

[9:34] pleasant experience at first they're

[9:36] like you can release her out

[9:38] here and she'll be

[9:40] fed I'm at the local County

[9:44] shelter they took her inside though I

[9:47] think that they're you know I just kept

[9:50] pushing I'm like look I found her on a

[9:52] campground she needs help you need to

[9:54] help her here's all of her things here's

[9:56] a dog kennel you know she needs you so I

[10:03] can't do it I'm sorry guys I wish I

[10:05] could this is very hard for me but I

[10:08] want you to see that I didn't just drop

[10:09] her off like somebody else she is at a

[10:13] shelter that is the best that I could do

[10:15] for her I got her healthy and I brought

[10:17] her to a

[10:22] shelter that these are the systems that

[10:24] humans have created for caring for these

[10:27] animals is unbelievable to

[10:30] me I get there and she's like you can

[10:32] just release her here there's a bunch of

[10:34] older cats out there who you you know

[10:36] probably been there forever there's food

[10:39] everywhere and I'm like this is a tiny

[10:42] kitten

[10:45] like I got her healthy take care of her

[10:49] I really had to keep pushing at her

[10:50] about

[10:52] this I'm not happy about the situation

[10:55] but you know what I cannot save

[10:59] I can't do it I can't I just I am not

[11:02] equipped to do it first of all I'm still

[11:04] struggling with this lifestyle like I'm

[11:06] literally having trouble living in an

[11:10] RV

[11:13] and I just it compounded the stress so

[11:16] much that I was crying yesterday like I

[11:18] literally cannot do

[11:20] it and the County shelter is like just

[11:23] release her right here just release her

[11:26] which I wouldn't do I made her take her

[11:29] made her get her name take her inside

[11:32] gave her the stuff you know the the dog

[11:35] kennel and all of her food and she took

[11:37] her inside I think they'll care for her

[11:39] I'm sure they have a Facebook page and

[11:41] all of that in fact I'm I'm pretty sure

[11:43] they do

[11:47] um I'm a little bit afraid to look at it

[11:49] you

[11:51] know I want to know that she turns out

[11:53] okay but I don't want to know if she

[11:55] doesn't you know so I don't know what to

[11:57] do about that well I've got to put my

[12:00] mind somewhere else right now because I

[12:02] do have to move SES today like I'm right

[12:04] here I'm at the campground I'm going

[12:06] into my spot

[12:10] and this was not something I wanted to

[12:13] do but something I felt I had no choice

[12:16] but to do and the local County shelter

[12:20] should

[12:24] have they

[12:25] should it's insufficient

[12:29] looks like I'll be putting air in the

[12:30] tires every time all right this is quite

[12:33] effective quite happy with

[12:35] [Music]

[12:38] it little concerned like they had

[12:41] already lost like 5 lbs in two days so

[12:45] and this one I just filled and then when

[12:47] I pulled the thing out the extender was

[12:50] losing

[12:51] air then I adjusted it and it stopped

[12:54] doing that so now I'm putting air back

[12:56] in it

[12:57] again learning proc

[13:00] process some point I'm going to have

[13:02] those tires I think I need to get

[13:04] different kind of tires like tires that

[13:06] can handle a whole ton of weight or

[13:08] something so this rear tire on the

[13:10] passenger side was down to 20 psi the in

[13:13] inner one of the dual tires I checked it

[13:16] with that and with the analog device

[13:20] when thing's overheating so I decided to

[13:22] stop for a minute that is not good I'm

[13:25] hoping it's just the extender somehow is

[13:28] causing it to lose air but I'm going to

[13:30] have to have them looked at again and

[13:31] this oh my God is is frustrating cuz

[13:34] this is the foundation of my life and I

[13:36] paid several thousand dollars for these

[13:38] tires I'm starting to wonder if I made a

[13:41] very big

[13:45] mistake and I I will have to replace

[13:48] them

[13:49] somehow I think I this is too stressful

[13:53] I need tires at work that I do not have

[13:55] to worry about like this the tires

[13:58] losing air because because the extender

[14:00] is leaking and it's the inside dual tire

[14:02] so I can't fix it myself I had to drive

[14:04] this into that big old tires and then

[14:07] have them fix that and then come back

[14:09] get my Jeep and be on our way so Bailey

[14:12] and I are chilling is over here at this

[14:16] big ass building that can actually fit

[14:18] an RV to fix one of my tires uh the

[14:21] extender was causing it to lose air it

[14:23] lost all its air and then my compressor

[14:25] blew out so I couldn't fix that and I

[14:28] just this was the close to this place

[14:31] and it was one

[14:32] that um I noticed after I bought the

[14:35] tires I would have brought it here first

[14:36] if IID realize I learned that mistake

[14:38] always bring it to a place it's you know

[14:39] can figure our read first of all

[14:44] so um they made me feel comfortable that

[14:46] the tires are good even with the little

[14:48] squishing that's I guess normal because

[14:51] of the weight but not an issue it's not

[14:53] going to kill the tires or anything

[14:57] um they're going to you know the fix my

[14:59] tire and then we can move on so finally

[15:01] get to the next side I got to go get my

[15:02] Jeep it's still at the campground this

[15:04] is stressful but it's getting better I'm

[15:06] I'm getting confident I'm getting better

[15:09] at this I guess more Bailey though right

[15:12] hey Bailey Bailey I think he kind of

[15:16] likes the experiences though in a sense

[15:17] he does like to be out and about don't

[15:20] you yeah so we're good this lifestyle is

[15:24] stressful man

[15:27] what it'll get better I think I believe

[15:30] it'll get better hang in there buddy

[15:33] we're good we're just having a little

[15:35] chill here we've got a hook up the Jeep

[15:37] when we get back and empty the tanks and

[15:40] then hey you're not going anywhere and

[15:43] then um it's like I got to get gas fuel

[15:47] I'll get fuel before it's like right

[15:49] down the street easy to get so I'll get

[15:50] fuel and I'll go back to the campground

[15:52] I'll grab my Jeep empty the tanks drive

[15:55] to our new campsite and hopefully the

[15:58] tires will be good when I have to get a

[15:59] new compressor the thing blew right out

[16:02] that thing was 100 bucks too I'm just

[16:03] like man but I don't have the Recine I

[16:06] don't have the box I you know I I don't

[16:09] have the space for stuff like

[16:12] that eventually I feel like the problems

[16:15] just level out and stop being problems

[16:18] like I'm dealing

[16:20] with I do feel good to that guys like

[16:23] your tires are fine you don't have to

[16:24] worry about that like I believed them I

[16:27] wanted to believe them though

[16:33] oh we're on the road again guys we are

[16:36] on the road again it's nice to see

[16:39] Bailey just chilling with me you know

[16:42] he's so calm he can be so calm when he

[16:44] wants to be he's just you're just

[16:46] stubborn aren't you yeah you're just a

[16:48] stubborn little you are you're

[16:50] you're

[16:52] stubborn she's ready to

[16:54] go looks so much better I can tell

[16:59] I still got little valve stems I got one

[17:02] uhoh all right I can understand them

[17:04] removing it though oh I can see a thing

[17:07] back there though I can reach that I bet

[17:11] they fixed that for

[17:13] me I bet they did

[17:16] [Music]

[17:18] that

[17:23] okay interesting so they got rid of this

[17:27] part on the other side cuz that's the

[17:29] one that was

[17:30] leaking but it looked like I maybe could

[17:33] reach it I think I might probably could

[17:35] cuz I have a tool now

[17:38] um these look good I feel so much better

[17:40] about this I

[17:42] do so let's see what we got back

[17:46] here we see the wow I bar it's not

[17:50] nearly as bad as it used to

[17:52] be so this is where we are a proper

[17:55] freaking place you know this is is where

[17:59] you got to go with an

[18:00] RV this is it guys we're leaving this is

[18:04] the end of my 90 days at Smith Ridge

[18:06] campground in campbellville Kentucky we

[18:08] are saying

[18:09] goodbye got my Jeep hooked

[18:12] up did the dump

[18:17] station we are good to

[18:21] go we are on our way to Baron River

[18:27] Lake this was a good place I needed it I

[18:31] am ready to move

[18:32] on I do feel pretty stressed out because

[18:35] after 90 days I feel like I've lost some

[18:37] of my skills so can't let that happen

[18:40] again because wow I really do feel that

[18:42] way so um it was difficult getting it

[18:45] the Jeep hooked out forgot to take the

[18:48] parking brake

[18:49] off

[18:51] um not too bad we had to go fix the

[18:54] tires you know I don't know if those

[18:57] would be an ongoing issue or not I guess

[18:58] we find

[18:59] out I got

[19:01] fuel and we're ready to go I got

[19:05] Bailey's over over here with me right

[19:07] Bailey I don't know that he's happy

[19:10] but um should grab a cold pop before we

[19:14] go and then we'll be out of here get

[19:17] some air going cuz I'm sure it's hot for

[19:19] Bailey

[19:20] too um I'm hoping he doesn't stress me

[19:22] out too much um normally I would I was

[19:25] thinking I'd put them back here but um I

[19:28] want them close to me if we can do that

[19:31] oh right in the lter

[19:33] Box okay that one is a

[19:37] problem um I'm going to run out of

[19:39] propane for sure like there's no way I

[19:42] can not running out propane at this

[19:44] point but it's cold for

[19:47] now um and I will figure the propane out

[19:50] at some point it's in Baron River I

[19:53] hope

[19:55] um maintenance I would like to get the

[19:58] oil changed and stuff like that have the

[20:01] brakes looked

[20:02] at so I need to find places for this

[20:06] stuff

[20:08] and I will because this is my life now

[20:13] and I want

[20:14] to want to master this

[20:17] shent you ready

[20:23] Bailey I am using this to get there um

[20:28] but I don't have

[20:30] my mount's up or anything but I'm going

[20:31] to deal with all that too while we're at

[20:32] Baron River I'm going to make a list of

[20:35] chores tasks that I need to get done

[20:37] because

[20:39] I you know every every place that I go

[20:42] to it's going to

[20:43] be another set of things that I can do

[20:47] to further my

[20:50] goals um I would like to have MS up here

[20:53] for my GoPro so we can talk so I can

[20:55] show like what's in front of me um as

[20:57] I'm driving stuff like that that not

[20:59] ready for that yet so I will end it here

[21:02] and I will see you guys when we get to

[21:03] Baron River we're here we made

[21:07] it um interesting drive those tires

[21:11] feel different than my other tires they

[21:15] the thing wobbles more and it's because

[21:18] they don't have as much surface

[21:20] traction so

[21:25] thinking I don't really like them

[21:27] they're altering tires which is nice but

[21:30] I didn't want them at the expense

[21:32] of stability so I'm going to look into

[21:36] that I'm actually going to make a list

[21:37] and then I'll tell you guys my plan for

[21:39] the next two weeks while I'm

[21:40] here um it it's okay though it's just um

[21:44] it felt harder to tow the Jeep this time

[21:47] and I don't think that was just cuz it's

[21:50] been a while I think it's just

[21:52] the

[21:55] um the tire situation so there's a lot

[21:58] of people here it's distracting me while

[22:00] I try to talk to

[22:03] you glad to be here though there's a lot

[22:05] of people

[22:07] here proba going to go get something to

[22:09] eat at their Lodge cuz I'm

[22:12] starving oh a lot of plants on here

[22:14] we'll get into that but here we are

[22:17] disconnected the Jeep in the

[22:19] road um we're level we're very level I

[22:23] just looked at it and um I put blocks up

[22:26] on the other side and then brought the

[22:27] slide out Bailey's inside he's doing

[22:31] good so we're all set up oh you know

[22:34] basically I got to do the power and

[22:36] stuff I'm decided I'm

[22:39] over letting other people dictate how I

[22:42] live like I will sit out here even if

[22:44] there are people around I

[22:46] know I'm going to I'm a campground rat

[22:50] now at least for now

[22:53] so I'm going to embrace

[22:55] it we have our first driving issue my

[23:00] external speaker has fallen

[23:03] out hanging there I don't know if you

[23:05] can see it I get like good Lighting on

[23:07] this thing but it's just dangling

[23:10] there stop that L to get me some food

[23:14] some take out fries and the burger it's

[23:18] not like the Natural Bridge they have

[23:20] the best ones I've had them here once

[23:22] and they're just not as good but I'm

[23:25] starving there is a Jeep over there a

[23:27] Jeep truck we're going to go give him a

[23:31] duck surely I am garnering some Goodwill

[23:34] and I will get my own duck soon right

[23:37] cuz I still only have one and that

[23:39] actually came from a different Jeep than

[23:40] this one didn't even know what it meant

[23:43] I was like why did someone give me a

[23:46] dock I forgot I moved them I put them

[23:49] back here somewhere okay it's a white or

[23:52] silver truck let's see what we can find

[23:54] I think this one ought to

[23:56] Do's go and give this

[24:01] I don't even know if it has any yet so

[24:03] we're about to find

[24:06] out everybody gets their first one

[24:11] eventually it's actually quite

[24:13] nice I didn't like the trucks at first

[24:16] but damn that one's pretty

[24:21] nice that is a nice Jeep truck

[24:26] wow yeah they don't have any do

[24:28] this will be their

[24:33] first Dave will see it

[24:37] there let's go get some food I'm so

[24:39] hungry let's go

[24:41] eat there she

[24:43] is that's her up

[24:46] there there's a car behind me I would

[24:49] have stopped and gave a proper

[24:51] look guess they didn't know though did

[24:55] they it's awfully nice to be level in a

[24:59] while some

[25:01] food

[25:02] yummy I'm going to eat that up so I'm

[25:06] going to wrap this video up and get us

[25:08] unpacked I haven't even put the mattress

[25:09] on the bed yet may he just chilling over

[25:12] there on the bed platform

[25:15] so have stuff to do and pretty tired

[25:20] going to chill the rest of the night you

[25:22] guys enjoyed our travel day it

[25:24] was you

[25:26] know stress little bar

[25:29] good it was pretty

[25:31] good um I was also Sunny no rain first

[25:35] time

[25:36] right one other thing I wanted to

[25:39] mention I had quite a few chats with my

[25:41] neighbor at the other campsite before I

[25:44] left she was very nice we kind of

[25:46] connected

[25:48] and I hope I meet more people like that

[25:51] on the road you have a good Wednesday

[25:53] it's Wednesday right

[0:01] good morning humans it's 7 in the

[0:03] morning it's 57° out there in

[0:08] here they have to bring the ceramic

[0:11] heater

[0:13] and soon cold kind of

[0:19] cold I want some blankets around his

[0:24] cave so that she would be warm and me's

[0:27] just getting cuddled up to me

[0:33] I like the Colder Weather

[0:35] though I think

[0:38] I I need my ceramer

[0:43] though today is one of those challenging

[0:46] days

[0:48] because you know I have to drive the RV

[0:51] and this time we're Towing my Jeep so

[0:54] there's a hill here it's like when I

[0:58] first got here 90 days ago when I

[1:00] detached my Jeep it started rolling

[1:02] backwards so I know better this

[1:05] time I'm not sure where I'm going to

[1:07] hook it up and I'd been thinking about

[1:09] it for

[1:10] days I think the best I can probably I'm

[1:13] wondering how other people do it but I

[1:15] hadn't noticed so I can't

[1:17] really um there's nobody here now so I

[1:20] wasn't paying

[1:23] attention I think down by the dump

[1:26] station maybe it's more flat so that's

[1:28] where I need to do it so it's probably

[1:30] what we're going to do

[1:32] today um a checkin time at the other

[1:35] place is um I think I think it's 2 it's

[1:39] 2: in the afternoon and and they an hour

[1:42] behind me so really

[1:45] 3 so I can't actually leave for like six

[1:48] hours kind of

[1:51] early that gives me time to you

[1:54] know take my time at this I like doing

[1:57] that I like I don't like crushing the

[1:59] part I like doing it

[2:02] slow can hardly believe it's been 90

[2:04] days something I'm on the same site

[2:08] where I started or something poetic

[2:09] about

[2:12] that of course I you

[2:15] know I made that choice a couple days

[2:18] ago

[2:23] but it's going to be a good

[2:26] day this is my sight there's nobody

[2:29] really here's over there so you know

[2:33] she's got a top part to her cage too so

[2:35] she's up

[2:36] there but yeah it's pretty

[2:40] cold nobody

[2:45] here me hanging

[2:53] out that's my other site when I moov

[2:56] from here to that one before going into

[2:58] the

[2:58] woods where that truck is at um those

[3:02] people have been there since I moved

[3:04] from

[3:09] there morning is

[3:12] here I'm sitting here in front of the

[3:15] ceramic eater woo it's cold just trying

[3:20] to think about what did I learn while I

[3:22] was here 90 days that's a long

[3:26] time as far as the RV lifestyle

[3:30] I don't feel like I learned a lot

[3:32] because I've been

[3:34] stationary um I did get more comfortable

[3:38] like living here this is

[3:40] home so that's a good thing probably

[3:42] needed that time to just acclimate and

[3:46] feel like this is definitely a home for

[3:47] me I learned a lot about myself other

[3:51] people I had

[3:53] my I was

[3:55] thinking I had my my views of be all

[4:00] kind of confirmed with Luna which is sad

[4:03] cuz I don't want to think that way I

[4:04] don't want to feel that

[4:07] way it's hard for

[4:10] me not to though

[4:13] because it's it's gets confirmed through

[4:16] all the different ways that I interact

[4:18] with the world

[4:20] and observe it you know so that

[4:25] part I would love to see the good in

[4:28] humanity but I don't see it I used to

[4:32] when I was younger but I don't see it

[4:35] anymore I just see a lot of selfish

[4:37] people who are just tuned out

[4:44] and it's just a very disappointing

[4:50] reality but I didn't learn a whole lot

[4:52] here I

[4:56] just I will you know now I'm going to be

[5:00] moving a lot

[5:02] so it's

[5:05] cold a lot did happen here I discovered

[5:08] like

[5:10] Cumberland I quit smoking I um quit

[5:14] talking to my parents I learn I'm alone

[5:16] in the world you

[5:18] know I guess not

[5:21] entirely there are a few of you out

[5:23] there

[5:25] that show an interest who

[5:28] care what you you know I'm just on a

[5:31] physical personal level I'm alone

[5:34] so

[5:38] um I'm okay with that you know I'm not

[5:42] really the type to complain I know that

[5:43] not everyone gets that I'm just

[5:46] recounting my thoughts and people seem

[5:49] to think

[5:51] that's um I just I process the world

[5:55] differently than other people and I'm

[5:57] okay with that too I actually like me I

[5:59] like the way I

[6:03] am so we're going to

[6:06] have it's going to be a busy day busy

[6:09] morning I got some cleaning to do back

[6:11] here I did the cab area but need to work

[6:14] around Luna's cage area and the floor

[6:17] here and the rugs

[6:19] and um I couldn't figure out where to

[6:22] put the rugs though I'm kind of run out

[6:25] of

[6:26] space in garbage Pags to put them in I

[6:29] feel

[6:30] like feel like they should be sealed up

[6:33] in case there's any fleas I haven't seen

[6:35] any

[6:37] though I don't know I'm cautiously

[6:40] optimistic about that situation I need

[6:42] to blow my

[6:45] nose Luna's having a rough morning she

[6:48] was up top I had

[6:50] a flannel shirt up there for her she

[6:53] pooped all over it had to throw that

[6:56] out um I'm not sure what to put up there

[7:00] because anything I put up there

[7:02] is just got to stay warm

[7:05] though it's best I can do for this

[7:08] morning she's not really

[7:13] eating I cleaned her

[7:17] around um guess we'll keep an eye on

[7:22] her I have some bad news guys I'm going

[7:25] to take Luna to an animal shelter this

[7:28] morning

[7:32] um I just I can't take care of her in

[7:35] this environment

[7:37] she's it's

[7:40] deeply difficult and problematic her

[7:42] situation

[7:45] and I just can't so I'm going to take

[7:48] her to an animal

[7:50] shelter uh the rescues wouldn't help her

[7:52] but I assume that the shelter will so

[7:55] I'm just going to go there this morning

[7:56] they open in an hour and going drive

[7:58] down there and talk to them

[8:01] um might have been different if people

[8:03] helped me more but I you know there's

[8:07] that and

[8:10] then

[8:12] she's she needs a different environment

[8:14] this one is too small she's in a cage

[8:17] again she's not using the letter box

[8:20] consistently I know she's young and she

[8:23] needs

[8:24] time it's just it's impossible for me to

[8:27] do it in this environment so

[8:31] I will miss her we can be proud of the

[8:33] fact that we got her healthy she's alive

[8:37] you know she's

[8:39] well um she's young someone will adopt

[8:42] her

[8:45] I I now know that this is not something

[8:49] I can do in this little tiny RV it

[8:51] simply can't be done so we got her

[8:54] healthy that's what

[8:56] matters this space is just too small to

[8:59] care for a kitten with her needs it just

[9:02] it can't be done I've

[9:06] tried there is no

[9:09] room there is no space for

[9:13] this I'm sorry

[9:16] Luna I really wanted to give you a good

[9:18] life with

[9:20] me I wish that I could I truly do but I

[9:23] don't think that I can I'm not

[9:27] capable I tried

[9:30] I genuinely

[9:32] tried not going to say that was a

[9:34] pleasant experience at first they're

[9:36] like you can release her out

[9:38] here and she'll be

[9:40] fed I'm at the local County

[9:44] shelter they took her inside though I

[9:47] think that they're you know I just kept

[9:50] pushing I'm like look I found her on a

[9:52] campground she needs help you need to

[9:54] help her here's all of her things here's

[9:56] a dog kennel you know she needs you so I

[10:03] can't do it I'm sorry guys I wish I

[10:05] could this is very hard for me but I

[10:08] want you to see that I didn't just drop

[10:09] her off like somebody else she is at a

[10:13] shelter that is the best that I could do

[10:15] for her I got her healthy and I brought

[10:17] her to a

[10:22] shelter that these are the systems that

[10:24] humans have created for caring for these

[10:27] animals is unbelievable to

[10:30] me I get there and she's like you can

[10:32] just release her here there's a bunch of

[10:34] older cats out there who you you know

[10:36] probably been there forever there's food

[10:39] everywhere and I'm like this is a tiny

[10:42] kitten

[10:45] like I got her healthy take care of her

[10:49] I really had to keep pushing at her

[10:50] about

[10:52] this I'm not happy about the situation

[10:55] but you know what I cannot save

[10:59] I can't do it I can't I just I am not

[11:02] equipped to do it first of all I'm still

[11:04] struggling with this lifestyle like I'm

[11:06] literally having trouble living in an

[11:10] RV

[11:13] and I just it compounded the stress so

[11:16] much that I was crying yesterday like I

[11:18] literally cannot do

[11:20] it and the County shelter is like just

[11:23] release her right here just release her

[11:26] which I wouldn't do I made her take her

[11:29] made her get her name take her inside

[11:32] gave her the stuff you know the the dog

[11:35] kennel and all of her food and she took

[11:37] her inside I think they'll care for her

[11:39] I'm sure they have a Facebook page and

[11:41] all of that in fact I'm I'm pretty sure

[11:43] they do

[11:47] um I'm a little bit afraid to look at it

[11:49] you

[11:51] know I want to know that she turns out

[11:53] okay but I don't want to know if she

[11:55] doesn't you know so I don't know what to

[11:57] do about that well I've got to put my

[12:00] mind somewhere else right now because I

[12:02] do have to move SES today like I'm right

[12:04] here I'm at the campground I'm going

[12:06] into my spot

[12:10] and this was not something I wanted to

[12:13] do but something I felt I had no choice

[12:16] but to do and the local County shelter

[12:20] should

[12:24] have they

[12:25] should it's insufficient

[12:29] looks like I'll be putting air in the

[12:30] tires every time all right this is quite

[12:33] effective quite happy with

[12:35] [Music]

[12:38] it little concerned like they had

[12:41] already lost like 5 lbs in two days so

[12:45] and this one I just filled and then when

[12:47] I pulled the thing out the extender was

[12:50] losing

[12:51] air then I adjusted it and it stopped

[12:54] doing that so now I'm putting air back

[12:56] in it

[12:57] again learning proc

[13:00] process some point I'm going to have

[13:02] those tires I think I need to get

[13:04] different kind of tires like tires that

[13:06] can handle a whole ton of weight or

[13:08] something so this rear tire on the

[13:10] passenger side was down to 20 psi the in

[13:13] inner one of the dual tires I checked it

[13:16] with that and with the analog device

[13:20] when thing's overheating so I decided to

[13:22] stop for a minute that is not good I'm

[13:25] hoping it's just the extender somehow is

[13:28] causing it to lose air but I'm going to

[13:30] have to have them looked at again and

[13:31] this oh my God is is frustrating cuz

[13:34] this is the foundation of my life and I

[13:36] paid several thousand dollars for these

[13:38] tires I'm starting to wonder if I made a

[13:41] very big

[13:45] mistake and I I will have to replace

[13:48] them

[13:49] somehow I think I this is too stressful

[13:53] I need tires at work that I do not have

[13:55] to worry about like this the tires

[13:58] losing air because because the extender

[14:00] is leaking and it's the inside dual tire

[14:02] so I can't fix it myself I had to drive

[14:04] this into that big old tires and then

[14:07] have them fix that and then come back

[14:09] get my Jeep and be on our way so Bailey

[14:12] and I are chilling is over here at this

[14:16] big ass building that can actually fit

[14:18] an RV to fix one of my tires uh the

[14:21] extender was causing it to lose air it

[14:23] lost all its air and then my compressor

[14:25] blew out so I couldn't fix that and I

[14:28] just this was the close to this place

[14:31] and it was one

[14:32] that um I noticed after I bought the

[14:35] tires I would have brought it here first

[14:36] if IID realize I learned that mistake

[14:38] always bring it to a place it's you know

[14:39] can figure our read first of all

[14:44] so um they made me feel comfortable that

[14:46] the tires are good even with the little

[14:48] squishing that's I guess normal because

[14:51] of the weight but not an issue it's not

[14:53] going to kill the tires or anything

[14:57] um they're going to you know the fix my

[14:59] tire and then we can move on so finally

[15:01] get to the next side I got to go get my

[15:02] Jeep it's still at the campground this

[15:04] is stressful but it's getting better I'm

[15:06] I'm getting confident I'm getting better

[15:09] at this I guess more Bailey though right

[15:12] hey Bailey Bailey I think he kind of

[15:16] likes the experiences though in a sense

[15:17] he does like to be out and about don't

[15:20] you yeah so we're good this lifestyle is

[15:24] stressful man

[15:27] what it'll get better I think I believe

[15:30] it'll get better hang in there buddy

[15:33] we're good we're just having a little

[15:35] chill here we've got a hook up the Jeep

[15:37] when we get back and empty the tanks and

[15:40] then hey you're not going anywhere and

[15:43] then um it's like I got to get gas fuel

[15:47] I'll get fuel before it's like right

[15:49] down the street easy to get so I'll get

[15:50] fuel and I'll go back to the campground

[15:52] I'll grab my Jeep empty the tanks drive

[15:55] to our new campsite and hopefully the

[15:58] tires will be good when I have to get a

[15:59] new compressor the thing blew right out

[16:02] that thing was 100 bucks too I'm just

[16:03] like man but I don't have the Recine I

[16:06] don't have the box I you know I I don't

[16:09] have the space for stuff like

[16:12] that eventually I feel like the problems

[16:15] just level out and stop being problems

[16:18] like I'm dealing

[16:20] with I do feel good to that guys like

[16:23] your tires are fine you don't have to

[16:24] worry about that like I believed them I

[16:27] wanted to believe them though

[16:33] oh we're on the road again guys we are

[16:36] on the road again it's nice to see

[16:39] Bailey just chilling with me you know

[16:42] he's so calm he can be so calm when he

[16:44] wants to be he's just you're just

[16:46] stubborn aren't you yeah you're just a

[16:48] stubborn little you are you're

[16:50] you're

[16:52] stubborn she's ready to

[16:54] go looks so much better I can tell

[16:59] I still got little valve stems I got one

[17:02] uhoh all right I can understand them

[17:04] removing it though oh I can see a thing

[17:07] back there though I can reach that I bet

[17:11] they fixed that for

[17:13] me I bet they did

[17:16] [Music]

[17:18] that

[17:23] okay interesting so they got rid of this

[17:27] part on the other side cuz that's the

[17:29] one that was

[17:30] leaking but it looked like I maybe could

[17:33] reach it I think I might probably could

[17:35] cuz I have a tool now

[17:38] um these look good I feel so much better

[17:40] about this I

[17:42] do so let's see what we got back

[17:46] here we see the wow I bar it's not

[17:50] nearly as bad as it used to

[17:52] be so this is where we are a proper

[17:55] freaking place you know this is is where

[17:59] you got to go with an

[18:00] RV this is it guys we're leaving this is

[18:04] the end of my 90 days at Smith Ridge

[18:06] campground in campbellville Kentucky we

[18:08] are saying

[18:09] goodbye got my Jeep hooked

[18:12] up did the dump

[18:17] station we are good to

[18:21] go we are on our way to Baron River

[18:27] Lake this was a good place I needed it I

[18:31] am ready to move

[18:32] on I do feel pretty stressed out because

[18:35] after 90 days I feel like I've lost some

[18:37] of my skills so can't let that happen

[18:40] again because wow I really do feel that

[18:42] way so um it was difficult getting it

[18:45] the Jeep hooked out forgot to take the

[18:48] parking brake

[18:49] off

[18:51] um not too bad we had to go fix the

[18:54] tires you know I don't know if those

[18:57] would be an ongoing issue or not I guess

[18:58] we find

[18:59] out I got

[19:01] fuel and we're ready to go I got

[19:05] Bailey's over over here with me right

[19:07] Bailey I don't know that he's happy

[19:10] but um should grab a cold pop before we

[19:14] go and then we'll be out of here get

[19:17] some air going cuz I'm sure it's hot for

[19:19] Bailey

[19:20] too um I'm hoping he doesn't stress me

[19:22] out too much um normally I would I was

[19:25] thinking I'd put them back here but um I

[19:28] want them close to me if we can do that

[19:31] oh right in the lter

[19:33] Box okay that one is a

[19:37] problem um I'm going to run out of

[19:39] propane for sure like there's no way I

[19:42] can not running out propane at this

[19:44] point but it's cold for

[19:47] now um and I will figure the propane out

[19:50] at some point it's in Baron River I

[19:53] hope

[19:55] um maintenance I would like to get the

[19:58] oil changed and stuff like that have the

[20:01] brakes looked

[20:02] at so I need to find places for this

[20:06] stuff

[20:08] and I will because this is my life now

[20:13] and I want

[20:14] to want to master this

[20:17] shent you ready

[20:23] Bailey I am using this to get there um

[20:28] but I don't have

[20:30] my mount's up or anything but I'm going

[20:31] to deal with all that too while we're at

[20:32] Baron River I'm going to make a list of

[20:35] chores tasks that I need to get done

[20:37] because

[20:39] I you know every every place that I go

[20:42] to it's going to

[20:43] be another set of things that I can do

[20:47] to further my

[20:50] goals um I would like to have MS up here

[20:53] for my GoPro so we can talk so I can

[20:55] show like what's in front of me um as

[20:57] I'm driving stuff like that that not

[20:59] ready for that yet so I will end it here

[21:02] and I will see you guys when we get to

[21:03] Baron River we're here we made

[21:07] it um interesting drive those tires

[21:11] feel different than my other tires they

[21:15] the thing wobbles more and it's because

[21:18] they don't have as much surface

[21:20] traction so

[21:25] thinking I don't really like them

[21:27] they're altering tires which is nice but

[21:30] I didn't want them at the expense

[21:32] of stability so I'm going to look into

[21:36] that I'm actually going to make a list

[21:37] and then I'll tell you guys my plan for

[21:39] the next two weeks while I'm

[21:40] here um it it's okay though it's just um

[21:44] it felt harder to tow the Jeep this time

[21:47] and I don't think that was just cuz it's

[21:50] been a while I think it's just

[21:52] the

[21:55] um the tire situation so there's a lot

[21:58] of people here it's distracting me while

[22:00] I try to talk to

[22:03] you glad to be here though there's a lot

[22:05] of people

[22:07] here proba going to go get something to

[22:09] eat at their Lodge cuz I'm

[22:12] starving oh a lot of plants on here

[22:14] we'll get into that but here we are

[22:17] disconnected the Jeep in the

[22:19] road um we're level we're very level I

[22:23] just looked at it and um I put blocks up

[22:26] on the other side and then brought the

[22:27] slide out Bailey's inside he's doing

[22:31] good so we're all set up oh you know

[22:34] basically I got to do the power and

[22:36] stuff I'm decided I'm

[22:39] over letting other people dictate how I

[22:42] live like I will sit out here even if

[22:44] there are people around I

[22:46] know I'm going to I'm a campground rat

[22:50] now at least for now

[22:53] so I'm going to embrace

[22:55] it we have our first driving issue my

[23:00] external speaker has fallen

[23:03] out hanging there I don't know if you

[23:05] can see it I get like good Lighting on

[23:07] this thing but it's just dangling

[23:10] there stop that L to get me some food

[23:14] some take out fries and the burger it's

[23:18] not like the Natural Bridge they have

[23:20] the best ones I've had them here once

[23:22] and they're just not as good but I'm

[23:25] starving there is a Jeep over there a

[23:27] Jeep truck we're going to go give him a

[23:31] duck surely I am garnering some Goodwill

[23:34] and I will get my own duck soon right

[23:37] cuz I still only have one and that

[23:39] actually came from a different Jeep than

[23:40] this one didn't even know what it meant

[23:43] I was like why did someone give me a

[23:46] dock I forgot I moved them I put them

[23:49] back here somewhere okay it's a white or

[23:52] silver truck let's see what we can find

[23:54] I think this one ought to

[23:56] Do's go and give this

[24:01] I don't even know if it has any yet so

[24:03] we're about to find

[24:06] out everybody gets their first one

[24:11] eventually it's actually quite

[24:13] nice I didn't like the trucks at first

[24:16] but damn that one's pretty

[24:21] nice that is a nice Jeep truck

[24:26] wow yeah they don't have any do

[24:28] this will be their

[24:33] first Dave will see it

[24:37] there let's go get some food I'm so

[24:39] hungry let's go

[24:41] eat there she

[24:43] is that's her up

[24:46] there there's a car behind me I would

[24:49] have stopped and gave a proper

[24:51] look guess they didn't know though did

[24:55] they it's awfully nice to be level in a

[24:59] while some

[25:01] food

[25:02] yummy I'm going to eat that up so I'm

[25:06] going to wrap this video up and get us

[25:08] unpacked I haven't even put the mattress

[25:09] on the bed yet may he just chilling over

[25:12] there on the bed platform

[25:15] so have stuff to do and pretty tired

[25:20] going to chill the rest of the night you

[25:22] guys enjoyed our travel day it

[25:24] was you

[25:26] know stress little bar

[25:29] good it was pretty

[25:31] good um I was also Sunny no rain first

[25:35] time

[25:36] right one other thing I wanted to

[25:39] mention I had quite a few chats with my

[25:41] neighbor at the other campsite before I

[25:44] left she was very nice we kind of

[25:46] connected

[25:48] and I hope I meet more people like that

[25:51] on the road you have a good Wednesday

[25:53] it's Wednesday right

5:13

Monitoring Luna's Recovery Overnight

Aug 11, 2024

8:51

Taking Luna to the Vet Appointment

Aug 12, 2024

4:53

Documenting Luna's Vet Appointment and Flea Treatment

Aug 12, 2024

16:00

Assessing Audience Support and Caring for Luna

Aug 12, 2024

7:32

Introducing New Kitten to Bailey Under Quarantine

Aug 12, 2024

8:06

Reading Luna's Rescue Through Systems Thinking

Aug 13, 2024

7:02

Documenting Kitten Care in Constrained Space

Aug 13, 2024

15:54

Morning Drive, Breakfast Run, and Daily Hike

Aug 13, 2024

15:39

Observing Luna and Bailey Adjusting Indoors

Aug 13, 2024

1:12

Cleaning Luna's Cage After Diarrhea Episode

Aug 13, 2024

6:45

Documenting the Donkey as Proof of Cosmic Solitude

Aug 14, 2024

4:48

Organizing the RV Interior Before Departure

Aug 14, 2024

8:16

Naming Chapter Four The Embrace

Aug 14, 2024

8:55

Morning Animal Care, Roof Task, and Tire Constraints

Aug 15, 2024

8:57

Pivoting the Day Around Luna's Recovery

Aug 15, 2024

10:44

Laundry Day, Jeep Wash, and Cat Check

Aug 15, 2024

8:07

Reorganizing RV Storage and Tracking Luna's Sibling

Aug 15, 2024

10:51

Announcing Platform Shift From YouTube to Patreon

Aug 17, 2024

9:07

Surrendering Luna to County Shelter on Travel Day

Aug 21, 2024

26:02

Departing Smith Ridge After 90 Days

Aug 22, 2024

9:02

Explaining Integrated Processing Through the Luna Decision

Aug 23, 2024

Photos · Aug 24, 2024

Aug 24, 2024

Photos · Aug 24, 2024

Aug 24, 2024

31:20

Testing Camera Gear on Peters Creek Trail

Aug 25, 2024

8:56

Explaining Integrated Processing Through Luna Decision

Aug 25, 2024

58:03

Scouting Kentucky Campgrounds and Testing GoPro Mounts

Aug 26, 2024

19:06

Diagnosing Chassis Battery Drain and RV Maintenance Backlog

Aug 26, 2024

2:19

Sitting at Green River Overlook

Aug 26, 2024

4:37

Addressing Audience Misalignment and Ending the Bridge Attempt

Aug 27, 2024

47:39

Hiking Mammoth Cave and Scheduling RV Repairs

Aug 27, 2024

34:37

Deciding on Park Service Work at Mammoth Cave

Aug 28, 2024

12:41

Sharing Trail Space With Deer for an Hour

Aug 28, 2024

12:32

Driving to Dental Appointment, Reconnecting With Mother

Aug 29, 2024

34:33

Preparing RV Systems Ahead of Labor Day Crowd

Aug 29, 2024

11:40

Announcing Channel Rename Toward Nomadic Thinker Direction

Aug 30, 2024

6:06

Walking to the Campground Shower in Pajamas

Aug 30, 2024

10:31

Clarifying Reflection Without Self-Judgment

Aug 30, 2024

22:10

Piercing Ears in Bowling Green on Labor Day Weekend

Aug 31, 2024

50:40

Aftercare, Mammoth Cave Trails, and Boundary Statements

Aug 31, 2024

1:00

Documenting Cartilage Piercing Aftercare

Sep 1, 2024

13:24

Removing Window Reflectors, Deploying Duckies Across Campground

Sep 1, 2024

PUBLIC

August 22, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp 0.50

Density 0.70

Energetic Quality

steady under load

Journey Phase

transitional

Directional Vector

toward mobile operation and self-mastery

Narrative

At seven in the morning it was fifty-seven degrees at Smith Ridge Campground outside Campbellsville, Kentucky, and rswfire had the ceramic heater running. He'd draped blankets around Luna's cage so she'd stay warm. Bailey had cuddled up against him. He said he liked the colder weather. Outside, the site was empty — the neighbors gone, the truck in the woods still parked where it had been since he'd moved off that pad — and he sat in front of the heater and took stock. Ninety days. He was leaving from the same site he'd arrived at, a return he'd chosen a couple of days earlier and named as poetic. Check-in at the next place was two in the afternoon their time, three in his, which gave him six hours. He said he liked doing it slow. He didn't like crushing the parts.

The hill was the first problem, and he'd been thinking about it for days. Ninety days ago, when he'd detached the Jeep on that grade, it had started rolling backwards. He knew better this time. He'd hook up down by the dump station where the ground was flatter — he'd have watched how other people did it, but there was no one here to watch. Then he turned to the morning's work: the cab was clean, the area around Luna's cage was not, the rugs needed sealing in garbage bags in case of fleas he hadn't actually seen. He'd run out of bags. He'd run out of space to put the rugs.

What he had learned in ninety days, he said, was not much about the RV lifestyle, because he'd been stationary. He'd learned the rig was home. He'd discovered Cumberland. He'd quit smoking. He'd quit talking to his parents. He said he'd had his views of humanity confirmed, and that he didn't want to feel that way — that he used to see the good when he was younger and no longer did, that he saw selfish people tuned out from each other. He said he was alone on a physical, personal level, and that he was okay with that. He said he processed the world differently than other people, and he was okay with that too. He said he actually liked himself. He liked the way he was.

Luna was having a rough morning. She'd been up top on a flannel shirt he'd put there for her and had soiled it; he threw it out and had nothing to replace it with that would keep her warm. She wasn't eating. And then he said it plainly: he was taking her to an animal shelter. He couldn't care for her in this environment. The rescues wouldn't help. The space was too small, she was caged again, the litter box wasn't holding, and he named the compounding — that he was still struggling to live in an RV at all, that the stress of it had him crying the day before. There is no room, he said. There is no space for this. He said he was sorry to her, that he had genuinely tried, and that he was not capable of it here.

At the county shelter they told him he could release her outside, where a colony of older cats was being fed. He refused. He kept pushing — she was a kitten, he'd found her at a campground, he'd gotten her healthy, here was her dog kennel and here was her food, and they needed to help her. They took her name and took her inside. Afterward he said what he thought of it: that the systems humans had built for caring for these animals were unbelievable to him, that the county shelter's answer was insufficient. He wanted to know she turned out okay and was afraid to look at their Facebook page in case she didn't. Then he set it down, because the rig still had to move.

The tires went next. The rear passenger inner dual had dropped to twenty psi, the extender leaking, the gauge overheating in his hand. He'd already lost five pounds of pressure in two days. He filled it, pulled the extender, watched it bleed, adjusted it, filled it again. He called the tires the foundation of his life, said he'd paid several thousand dollars for them, and said he was starting to wonder if he'd made a very big mistake. His compressor blew — a hundred dollars, and no room to carry a spare. He drove to an indoor shop big enough to hold an RV and sat with Bailey while they worked, noting the lesson: bring it somewhere that can actually fit the rig, first. They told him the tires were fine, that the squish was normal for the weight and wouldn't hurt them. He said he believed them, and that he wanted to believe them. When they finished, he found they'd pulled the leaking extender entirely and left the other reachable — he had the tool for it now. He said he felt so much better about this. He said he was getting better at this.

Then fuel, back to the campground for the Jeep, the parking brake he forgot to release, the dump station, and out. Saying goodbye, he called Smith Ridge a good place he had needed and said he was ready to move on — and also that after ninety days stationary he felt he'd lost some of his skills, and that he couldn't let that happen again. The drive to Barren River Lake felt harder than towing had before; the rig wobbled more, less surface traction, and he named the tires as the cause and put it on the list. He knew he'd run out of propane. He'd sort it there. He'd get the oil changed, the brakes looked at, mounts up for the GoPro so he could show what was in front of him while he drove. Every place he went would be another set of things that moved him toward his goals. This is my life now, he said, and I want to master this.

He made it. He unhooked the Jeep in the road, put blocks under one side, came out level — very level, he said, and it was nice to be level again — and ran the slide out with Bailey inside doing fine. The campground was full of people, distracting him while he talked, and he decided he was over letting other people dictate how he lived; he'd sit outside anyway. He was a campground rat now, and he'd embrace it. The external speaker had shaken loose and was dangling. He found a Jeep truck across the way, dug a duck out of wherever he'd stashed them, and left it on the hood — their first one, he figured, since he'd only ever received one himself and hadn't known what it meant at the time. Then the lodge, a burger and fries, not as good as the ones at Natural Bridge but he was starving. The mattress still wasn't on the bed. Bailey was on the platform. It had been sunny — no rain, the first time. Before he closed the video he mentioned his neighbor at the old site, the chats they'd had, how they'd connected, and said he hoped to meet more people like that on the road.

Summary

rswfire records a travel day ending a 90-day stay at Smith Ridge Campground in Campbellsville, Kentucky, moving to Barren River Lake with the Jeep towed behind the RV.

The morning opens at 57°F with the ceramic heater running. He plans where to hook up the Jeep on level ground near the dump station, noting a prior rollback incident when he arrived. He reviews the 90 days: he states he grew comfortable in the RV as home, quit smoking, quit talking to his parents, and states he is alone on a physical, personal level and is okay with that. He states he likes how he is and processes the world differently than others.

He documents the decision to surrender Luna, the kitten, to the local county shelter, stating the RV is too small for her needs, rescues declined to help, and shelter staff initially suggested releasing her outside. He pushed until they took her in with her kennel and supplies, and states he got her healthy.

A tire failure follows — a rear inner dual dropping to 20 psi from a leaking valve extender, a blown-out compressor, and a shop repair before departure. He states the new tires wobble and he will reassess them.

At Barren River Lake he sets up level, gives a Jeep duck to a neighboring truck, gets food, and plans a two-week task list including propane, oil change, brakes, and GoPro mounts.

Environment

Recorded across a full travel day in an RV, beginning at a campsite at Smith Ridge Campground near Campbellsville, Kentucky at 7am, 57°F, ceramic heater running, the same site occupied at the start of a 90-day stay.

The environment then moves: a local county animal shelter, a roadside stop for tire pressure, an indoor RV-capable tire shop, fuel and dump station, and finally a new site at Barren River Lake — leveled, slide out, Jeep unhooked, with a lodge food run and a populated campground.

Substrate

The architecture held is that of a mobile life-system being tested at its foundations — tires, propane, space, animal care capacity — with rswfire operating as both operator and diagnostician of that system. The 90-day stationary interval closes and a moving interval opens; he names the limits of the RV envelope directly and acts on those limits rather than extending past them. Sovereign self-assessment runs alongside infrastructural troubleshooting: he states his own operating constraints, states his read on human systems and human behavior, and states his intent to master the lifestyle rather than adapt his standard downward.

Actions

Performed

•running ceramic heater in cold RV
•narrating travel-day plan and Jeep hookup location
•walking and filming the campsite
•conducting a 90-day retrospective on camera
•cleaning the cab and Luna's cage area
•checking Luna's condition and food intake
•announcing the decision to surrender Luna
•driving to the county shelter
•refusing the shelter's offer to release her outdoors
•pushing shelter staff to intake her with her kennel and food
•checking and inflating tire pressure with digital and analog gauges
•stopping roadside for an overheating tire
•driving to an RV-capable tire shop
•inspecting the removed valve extender and repaired tires
•hooking up the Jeep, dumping tanks, fueling
•driving RV with Jeep in tow to Barren River Lake
•leveling with blocks, extending slide, unhooking Jeep
•placing a Jeep duck on a Jeep truck
•getting takeout at the lodge

Referenced

•occupied Smith Ridge Campground for 90 days
•rolled Jeep backward when detaching 90 days prior
•chose the original site for the final days
•quit smoking
•stopped talking to his parents
•discovered Lake Cumberland
•got Luna healthy
•contacted rescues who would not help
•stated he was crying the previous day
•paid several thousand dollars for the tires
•blew out a $100 air compressor
•held conversations with a campground neighbor
•received a Jeep duck from another Jeep owner

Planned

•look into replacing the tires for stability
•get a new air compressor
•resolve propane before running out
•schedule oil change and brake inspection
•make a two-week task list at Barren River
•mount the GoPro for driving footage
•sit outside regardless of other campers
•meet more people on the road
•decide whether to check the shelter's Facebook page

Entities

beings

Luna — Kitten found at the campground, restored to health, surrendered to a county shelter during this signal

Bailey — Dog traveling in the cab; present through the tire repair and drive

His parents — Named in the 90-day accounting as contact he ended

Campground neighbor — Woman he spoke with repeatedly before departure; named as a connection he wants more of

places

Smith Ridge Campground — 90-day stationary base in Campbellsville, Kentucky; departure point

Campbellsville, Kentucky — Location of the departing campground

Barren River Lake — Destination campsite; arrival, leveling, and two-week plan

Lake Cumberland — Named as something discovered during the 90 days

Natural Bridge — Comparison point for lodge food quality

systems

County animal shelter — Intake point for Luna; staff initially offered outdoor release, described as insufficient

Animal rescues — Contacted previously and declined to assist

RV — Primary dwelling and vehicle; its spatial envelope is the stated limit on kitten care

Jeep — Towed vehicle; hookup and detachment are the day's technical operations

Tires and valve extenders — Failure point; extender leak drained an inner dual tire, described as the foundation of his life

RV tire shop — Indoor RV-capable facility that removed the leaking extender and cleared the tires

Ceramic heater — Heat source in the 57° morning; propane supply is running down

concepts

Jeep duck — Reciprocal Jeep-owner marker; he places one on a Jeep truck at the new campground

media

GoPro — Camera he intends to mount for forward-facing driving footage

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

threshold

return to origin site

fire (ceramic heater against cold)

foundation (tires as the base of the life)

leak

cage

road

level ground

shelter

duck (token of exchange)

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

transitional (90-day stationary interval closing, mobile interval opening on the same site where it began)

sovereign (states his own operating limits and acts on them; states he likes how he is and processes the world differently)

alone by his own accounting (states he is alone on a physical personal level and states he is okay with it)

load-bearing infrastructure under test (tires, propane, compressor, space named as the substrate of the life)

capacity-bounded (states directly what the RV envelope can and cannot support)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

infrastructural (tire pressure, extenders, compressor, propane, tanks, leveling blocks)

logistical (hookup sequencing, timezone-adjusted check-in, fuel, dump station, task lists)

ethical (refusing outdoor release, insisting on formal intake, naming the shelter system as insufficient)

somatic (cold, hunger, fatigue, stated stress and crying, physical handling of the rig)

relational (Luna, Bailey, neighbor, viewers, parents, Jeep-owner exchange)

cognitive (90-day retrospective, causal diagnosis of tire behavior, forward planning)

domestic (cleaning, rug and flea containment, mattress, cage arrangement)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

90 days

I can't do it / not equipped

this is my life now / master this

the foundation of my life

there is no room / no space

getting better at this

insufficient systems

Narrative

Mirror

You begin the day on the same site where the ninety days began, at 7am, 57°, with the ceramic heater running and blankets arranged around a cage. You name the hill you are parked on and the fact that the Jeep rolled backward here ninety days ago, and you have already decided the dump station is the flatter ground where the hookup will happen. Check-in at the next place is 2pm in a timezone an hour behind you, which gives you six hours of margin, and you state you will use that margin slowly rather than compress it. The interval closes on the coordinates where it opened. You mark that as poetic and then move on to the task list.

You surrender Luna to the county shelter. You state the reason as envelope: the space is too small, there is no room, you are not equipped, you tried. When the shelter offers outdoor release among the cats already living there, you refuse and keep pushing until she is taken inside, named, logged, and handed over with her kennel and her food. You state you did not just drop her off like somebody else. You name the shelter system as insufficient. You state you are afraid to look at their Facebook page because you want to know if she turns out okay and do not want to know if she does not, and you do not look. You state you were crying yesterday and that the stress compounded. Then you drive.

The infrastructure runs under test all day and you operate as both the load and the diagnostician. A rear inner dual at 20 psi. An extender leaking, adjusted, leaking again, then all the air gone. A $100 compressor blown with no receipt, no box, and no space to store the replacement. You call the tires the foundation of your life, state you paid several thousand dollars for them, and state you are starting to wonder if you made a very big mistake. At the indoor shop you are told the tires are fine, and you state that you believed them and that you wanted to believe them — both, in the same breath, without collapsing one into the other. On the road afterward you register the rig wobbling more, attribute it to surface traction, and say you do not really like these tires. The diagnosis continues after the reassurance.

Your read on people is stated flatly and without softening: you would love to see the good in humanity, you do not, you used to when you were younger, you see selfish and tuned-out. You state you are alone on a physical personal level and that you are okay with it. You state you process the world differently and that you like the way you are. You state you stopped talking to your parents and quit smoking during this interval. You state you did not learn much about the RV lifestyle here because you were stationary, and that ninety days cost you some of the skills, and that you cannot let that happen again. Alongside that: a neighbor you connected with, viewers you name as showing interest, and a duck left on a Jeep truck you do not know the owner of.

By evening the rig is level on blocks, the slide is out, the Jeep is unhooked in the road, the tanks are empty, the fuel is in, Bailey is inside on the bed platform. The mattress is not on the bed. The external speaker is dangling. The propane will run out and you say so directly. The GoPro mounts are not up yet. You name oil, brakes, and a chores list for the next two weeks. You state you are over letting other people dictate how you live and that you will sit outside regardless of who is around. You state that this is your life now and that you want to master it. Nothing in the day is stated as a lowering of the standard — the animal left the system, the tires stayed under review, and the schedule you set for yourself held.

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Departing Smith Ridge After 90 Days

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