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good morning humans I think we we
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slipped all right I'm just checking out
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my ear here guess I'm not going to be
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able to show
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you yeah I don't know how to do that oh
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it is not a fun
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situation how do you look
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today
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wow I could feel it all
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night hey I said
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to go cotton ball wet and then just
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press it to it and hold it there for a
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couple minutes I'm using a back te
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spray um I feel like I could use a
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little
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more oh the things are
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whatever oh whatever I just woke up I
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ain't going to se it's upside down
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[Music]
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whatever oh feel
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that worth it by the way totally worth
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it slept pretty
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well um it's 8:00 in the
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morning I mostly sleep on this side so
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it was not a big
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deal um slept on my back a little bit
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kind of
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like positioning my ear in a way that
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didn't hurt too much that it didn't put
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any pressure on
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it um oh it is definitely sore
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yeah that definitely shows you I mean
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that my ear's a different color
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Wow worth it oh I have wanted these
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forever my pearcing down here so you're
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really not supposed to like wipe it you
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know like around the earring and stuff
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like that because you don't want it
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moving at all that's why they put these
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studs
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in
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um yeah
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that's why I'm not allowed to wear wear
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hoops right
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away yeah for the ones in the cartilage
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that could be a couple
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months think it could be like three
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months like quite a long time or six
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months even it'll take I don't remember
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what AI
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said up to a year for them to fully heal
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that's a long
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time um there's certain things you want
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to watch out for
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that you really don't know if you will
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experience or
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not until you experience them long story
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short piercing your cartilage is kind of
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a big
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deal and worth it so it's going to reach
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90
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today chance the
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thunderstorms so still pretty hot I
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wanted to take the reflects down today
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cuz I want to see out my windows but I'm
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just going to have to a settle for that
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one for
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now um tomorrow it starts getting into
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like the high 80s and then
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like you know it'll keep getting better
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so I guess we'll tolerate
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today and no no idea what I'm doing yet
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I want to see some fascinating feline
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Behavior watch this Mele I'll get him
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food and water we he eats a
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lot move over here very carefully
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you want to go
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outside you want to go
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outside of course you do such a good cat
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stay
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there very good cat
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wow I knew he'd do it we're going to
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take him
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outside he actually likes being in this
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carrier
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so um I don't know that I actually need
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to get more stuff for him he seems
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perfectly satisfied with
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this we're going to let him hang out for
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a
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while I have a plan formulating for
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today there you go Bailey let me just
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make
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sure be a responsible pet
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odor
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Bailey all right he ain't even paying
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attention to me so we can get some stuff
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done in here
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I guess I keep the screening
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overo oh don't mind me I'm no expert at
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this
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stuff
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okay yeah we're going to let him hang
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out it's a little hot you know it's
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already
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like I don't even know well 72 in here
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so that's good you know keeping the door
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open it's not going to
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help okay let's see what are we doing
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today it's already 81 out here so I have
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a plan formulating we're going to go
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into scotsville and get some coffee at
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the gas station gas station
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coffee not baang out out
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here for a while I'm going to put some
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anti-ed cream on and then
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some um mosquito repellants and then
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we're going to go hiking at that Travis
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it's finally time to do that can't
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promise that's a good
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angle gu I could look at a little
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closer good
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enough this place is a mad house oh I
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touched my ear very bad that
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hurt can't even touch the thing
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um so we're going to go hiking in a mad
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house here they're juveniles everywhere
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they're obstacles in the
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road so we've got to do our detection
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avoidance system
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my God they've got like 10 people in
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that conf it's a mad house ow even my
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hat ow I cannot touch that here holy
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crap oh I love it worth it worth it
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we're going to go get some hot coffee
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from the gas
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station and that is 20 minutes away
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that's not so bad I guess and then we're
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going to go hiking at the core of
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engineer Trail that's one way I don't
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remember how many miles but it's like
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four to six and then you got to got to
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hike it back so that's what we're
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doing um there's not a whole lot I need
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to do in the camper I really not really
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I need to reorganize some of my storage
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base this person behind me is rude how
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about you slow
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[Music]
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down okay then I go8 ft turn right onto
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State Park
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I don't like people like you [ __ ]
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you I every a [ __ ] what you
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think I'll make your late I'll make your
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day hell so anyways we're going to go
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get some coffee and then I mentioned the
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hike oh Storage St Park Road so um I
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just need to organize my storage phase
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because when I take it into the shop
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they're going to need access to them
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one of them needs to be emptied out
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because in 800 turn you're going have to
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fix that one so there's just a lot I
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need to do with the storage phase I'm
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going to do that this weekend but you
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know it shouldn't be too the light turn
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right onto US31 East
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South those people are rude like
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tailgating me aggressive you can he US31
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east south just not people I I don't
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respect people like that I
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don't so we're
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off all right I wanted to note I
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probably cannot get away with my hat for
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a while because the rim is getting right
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on my ear here oh that are just touching
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it is very sensitive
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today I need to get some
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saline saline water or something um you
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can't be using that vacing stuff all the
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time because it'll dry it out and that
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will harm the healing process
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um there's something in particular I'm
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looking for it's like a wound
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W make a U oh my God you're going to
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kill me um it's like a a wound cleanser
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or something we're in a parking lot take
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the next left toward US 231 South then
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turn right on us231 South yeah yeah
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we're in a parking lot why are you
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complaining about me just driving in a
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parking lot take the next ride onto
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us231 South did we go the way I thought
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we were closer not further away from
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that was part of my thinking
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process
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okay thought we would have been going
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left in A4 mile turn left on the US31
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East North New Glasgow Road I have to I
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was thinking already that we were going
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to end up like we're going to make a
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duck pund up here using vro or
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something wait a minute why are you have
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me going that way this
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okay feel like I should be orientated by
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now how am I
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not fam
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c yeah we're
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WR my coffee's getting everywhere I do
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that happened I did a very good job in
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there these things are there it
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is these aren't great little cup holder
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things whatever they are what are these
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called I don't know I don't
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care
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coffee so we're at the place with a good
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breakfast sandwiches but wasn't feeling
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that today so I got me a sub Italian sub
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that we'll eat a little bit
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later um and we're going to Pivot we're
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going to go to Mammoth Caves cuz that's
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where I want to
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be where is my phone
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at I'm so confused oh how did that
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happen okay we're going to go to Mammoth
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Caves and just take some Trails there
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it's going to be hot but if we're down
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in that one area we might actually have
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some cool breezes and stuff and I just
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and it's going to be busy you know but
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most people are going there are going
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there for the caves we're going there
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for the nature
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so oh it's an hour away thought it might
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turn right on I guess we're going that's
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where I want to go
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so make sure I got all the feel I
[11:03]
thought I was yeah okay we're
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good it's a little thrown off there for
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a minute cuz I don't know it seemed like
[11:10]
I need more gas than I did
[11:14]
so yeah we off I find quite
[11:17]
interesting so I'm getting more dislikes
[11:20]
than likes these days which I don't know
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why you guys are think that I'm
[11:25]
complaining cuz I'm not I turn left onto
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Kentucky 101 North am I here okay um a
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we're going to get stuck here okay
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that's okay um that's actually good
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[Music]
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really 101 interesting like Highway
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name anyways
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um all engagement is good engagement on
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YouTube you know it doesn't actually
[11:49]
sound like a problem I just find it
[11:51]
interesting the dynamic cuz I am
[11:53]
changing my channel and I guess that is
[11:56]
upsetting some people and their way of
[11:58]
reacting to that is by you know using
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dislike rather than just unsubscribing
[12:03]
or moving on you know just an
[12:05]
interesting little Behavior thing 101 so
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we're going to take a dour I'm going to
[12:10]
stop at a drugstore and pick up some
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supplies for my ear um because like
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sweat and stuff
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can you know cause bacteria to get in
[12:18]
there and you just got to keep it clean
[12:21]
so I need I need supplies for hiking too
[12:25]
I need to try to find a saling water or
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whatever because
[12:29]
I can't be putting backing in there all
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the time but I'm going to keep the I
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really love these things and it's very
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very tender but it is so worth it and I
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just we're going to take good care of
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them we
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are going back the way we
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came guess I should have planned that a
[12:49]
little better have no idea yeah we're
[12:51]
right next to Bar R Lake again what oh
[12:54]
my God we truly went the wrong way here
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but oh well I oh my God bet it's taking
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me to the same Walgreens I was
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at that's not helpful they didn't have
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what I
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needed
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oh oh well I'm going to get something
[13:11]
I've still got some processes to work
[13:13]
out I was going to shave today I forgot
[13:15]
to do that and I do have hiking clothes
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that are for this kind of weather and I
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didn't wear them and they got you know
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that nice insec repon stuff on them
[13:23]
thinking about it cuz I am covered in
[13:25]
insect rep like I really prepared myself
[13:27]
this morning why I M miss a few steps so
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that's an ongoing process we made a full
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circle like we're at a Dollar General
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that I had passed like 40 minutes ago so
[13:39]
I'm just going to try here maybe they
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got what I need and then we can just
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just head
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out it's a good
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day it fell
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off you go here wait you're not even
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going to stick
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there
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why H
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interesting so they got they had a quite
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a good Supply in there got some wipes
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cuz I love
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wipes some Q-tips thinking maybe I can
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get a round I don't know you got to be
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careful you're really not supposed to
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touch them needed a new LOF couldn't
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find cotton balls but these might
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actually work better because I can wet
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these down and then fold it you know
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around we're gonna do that now got me
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some very intense healing
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lotion could you probably use it but
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this was the only thing I could find
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that I was saine wound wash and it's
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like a
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spring but we're going to use it now
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because I feel like I need
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to experiment here see how this does I
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have a mirror here
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yay yeah oh
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wow going on up
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there I think that's probably the ink
[15:10]
dots that he
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made I hope it's not a I hope I hope
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that's what it is let's just put it that
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way use nothing about wait before and
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after blah blah
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blah okay nothing about shaking it up
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that's what I wanted to check okay so
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we're just going to spray
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this
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oo okay very powerful stuff it's all
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over my Jeep now we're just going to do
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this which is going to be very
[15:44]
painful yes it is
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oo very painful um AI says to just do
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this for a couple minutes I just hold it
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there I won't make you watch the whole
[15:58]
time but I am I'm going to do this I
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think for a while
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like I I want to go in there and I want
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to use Q-tips and all that but I'm going
[16:08]
to go with what AI has told me just
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think you know trust the
[16:16]
technology when it makes sense to do
[16:22]
that so what's the temperature
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tell me the temperature Jeep what's
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going on
[16:33]
here do you have to be on to do that
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it's
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interesting why do you have to be on to
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do that it says
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80° do not turn off on me it has this
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feature I have to press a button to make
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it not do it oh this hurts actually kind
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of hurts oh my God so worth
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it I cannot wait to turn
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my God that's painful I cannot wait to
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turn this
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into
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[Music]
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Hoops I mean I'm going to be doing this
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a lot so we're probably good for now
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there let's try
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to get this bottom one cuz I'm kind of
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neglecting that one because they're so
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common like I already got two down there
[17:20]
I'm thinking like I'm not not being very
[17:23]
responsible with this one so
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we're just going to do this a few times
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today
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and I'm out
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hiking we are much closer to my campsite
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than we are
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to Mammoth Caves do think it's a little
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crazy me to drive all the way there but
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well not really cuz that is where I want
[17:48]
to be I just I love Mammoth Caves I want
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to go there
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so so that's what we're
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doing coffee l why the hell could I
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think of that earlier that is so funny
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to me I just I just love that about
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me
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again so I'm going to have to experiment
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with that
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mountains
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um that word just came to me while I'm
[18:16]
just driving right it's like I I'll
[18:19]
never be able to explain myself to you
[18:21]
guys there's this ephemeris like aspect
[18:24]
to my cognition like it's all in there
[18:28]
just swimming around
[18:31]
and you know I obviously moved on from
[18:35]
that but I just finished my coffee and I
[18:37]
was going
[18:39]
to just trashed it over there and Coffee
[18:42]
Lid came into my
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hand I know you guys don't necessarily
[18:49]
like let me just try to explain I've
[18:50]
been thinking about
[18:52]
something I am truly unique in this
[18:55]
world like I might actually be my my
[18:57]
cognitive and I don't I don't want to
[18:59]
use the word style every time I do I
[19:01]
Flinch internally because it's not a
[19:03]
style it is who I am I actually started
[19:06]
exploring that with AI
[19:08]
yesterday
[19:11]
um I think the closest we we couldn't
[19:13]
come up with the word for it because it
[19:15]
just there isn't
[19:17]
one I am a fully integrated human being
[19:22]
and it is the result of trauma
[19:25]
and
[19:27]
um evolutionary pressure because of that
[19:30]
trauma you know just a certain
[19:31]
environment that I grew up in and how to
[19:34]
adapt
[19:35]
to and the world that I'm a part of um
[19:39]
all of these factors like there's a
[19:41]
bunch of them I recognize how it shaped
[19:44]
my cognitive style and it's very
[19:46]
unique and now that I truly understand
[19:50]
myself I no longer
[19:53]
feel I'm free I don't feel any need to
[19:57]
like
[20:01]
what am I trying to say
[20:02]
here like I don't I don't need you to
[20:05]
believe
[20:05]
me I'm telling you this
[20:08]
because you're never going to totally
[20:12]
understand my content or my Channel or
[20:14]
what I'm trying to say to you and a lot
[20:16]
of people take things that I say
[20:18]
personally dealing with a situation like
[20:20]
that now and I'm talking to a camera
[20:23]
right now I'm not talking to any
[20:26]
individual so it doesn't make a lot of
[20:29]
sense to me why people would get so
[20:32]
invested in my videos that they think
[20:36]
they
[20:36]
have this deep understanding of me and
[20:40]
connection to
[20:41]
me when that's not possible it's not
[20:45]
possible I'm talking to a camera my
[20:48]
relationship is with a
[20:51]
camera and so I'm trying to set
[20:53]
boundaries in my life because I know
[20:56]
what works for me I don't don't like
[20:59]
getting unsolicited
[21:00]
advice this person will not let it
[21:03]
go I I tried explaining it as best I
[21:09]
can they're not letting it go so they're
[21:11]
disrupting my day right now by making me
[21:14]
have to keep addressing this and I don't
[21:17]
like it I want to live my best life I
[21:21]
want to share my life with you I don't
[21:23]
want
[21:25]
people disrupting the holistic inter
[21:28]
graded system that I
[21:30]
have I know that that statement makes
[21:33]
zero [ __ ] sense to you guys it
[21:35]
doesn't need to make sense you just need
[21:37]
to respect the
[21:39]
boundary you know I've been trying for 6
[21:42]
months to as sensitively as I can
[21:46]
explain my uniqueness so that
[21:51]
you don't apply your own logic to
[21:55]
things but it's never going to happen
[21:57]
and I'm at a point in my life now where
[21:59]
I just don't care anymore like I don't
[22:01]
need you to understand me I just don't I
[22:04]
do need you to respect my
[22:07]
boundaries I am open to receiving
[22:10]
comments those comments should focus
[22:13]
on being supportive in a very generic
[22:16]
way like say hello to me
[22:21]
or it was cool seeing Bailey or you know
[22:25]
be really [ __ ]
[22:26]
superficial because
[22:30]
you are you I just don't think that
[22:33]
anything more than that will ever
[22:36]
work and I'm okay with that now I'm not
[22:39]
trying to build a community here anymore
[22:42]
I'm just sharing my life now that's why
[22:44]
ianded myself I have
[22:47]
evolved my channel must evolve with it
[22:50]
because there is no separation between
[22:52]
them I am myself in all instances of
[22:56]
life you guys will never
[23:00]
understand so stop trying to and
[23:05]
just embrace it just you know I don't
[23:10]
know I don't know we'll figure this out
[23:13]
one day I
[23:14]
guess I'm just going to keep sharing my
[23:16]
life because I enjoy sharing my life I
[23:19]
enjoy this this is good for me I love
[23:22]
this I do this for me first and foremost
[23:26]
I keep saying this
[23:29]
because I'm trying to reinforce that in
[23:31]
your
[23:32]
minds this is about me if you want to
[23:35]
follow my journey
[23:38]
great but be very mindful of the fact
[23:41]
that to me you are strangers I am
[23:44]
talking to a camera right now I don't
[23:47]
see you you are watching a YouTube video
[23:51]
of a person talking to a camera I don't
[23:54]
know how more explicit to make
[23:56]
that I just remember remembered that
[23:59]
there's supposed to be thunderstorms
[24:01]
this afternoon we might get stuck in a
[24:02]
thunderstorm at Mammoth case how cool
[24:04]
would that be I hope that happens we're
[24:07]
off so let's light in the mood shall
[24:10]
we um so I didn't I couldn't really
[24:15]
record anything last night cuz it was
[24:16]
super dck I didn't go looking um around
[24:19]
the campsites but I wanted to but I
[24:21]
realized that it's so dark there like if
[24:24]
walking down the roads and stuff would
[24:25]
have felt unsafe it just didn't feel I
[24:29]
wanted to do it I was willing to do it
[24:30]
like I was willing to expand my comfort
[24:33]
zone but it didn't
[24:35]
feel it didn't feel like a good idea so
[24:38]
I just hung out inside on my picnic and
[24:42]
I know I say this all the time picnic
[24:43]
bench I know it's a picnic table I I get
[24:46]
that I say picnic bench I see it every
[24:48]
time I say it like on video it's I think
[24:50]
it's funny I'm I'm a weird person so I
[24:54]
just hung out there for a while and the
[24:57]
mosquito to E up so I went back inside
[24:59]
but I gu I got a mosquito candle thing
[25:02]
those things don't really work I don't
[25:03]
feel but I just hung out there for a
[25:06]
while it was enjoyable and there were
[25:07]
people around and it was very hard for
[25:11]
me to ignore them like cuz I just can't
[25:13]
they're in my awareness I'm conscious of
[25:15]
them but I did my best to just exist out
[25:19]
there listening to my music and looking
[25:21]
up at the stars and just enjoying the
[25:24]
weather and the
[25:26]
moments you know so I see myself I see
[25:28]
myself evolving I see myself growing and
[25:32]
I really like that direction I'll
[25:35]
never
[25:40]
like I mean it was enjoyable to an
[25:44]
extent but I just can't find true
[25:48]
enjoyment when there are a bunch of
[25:50]
people around me doing their own
[25:52]
activities and we're like 5 10 ft away
[25:54]
from each other in this weird
[25:55]
environment that we've created as a
[25:58]
Society you know like I need more space
[26:02]
than that I need to be in my own mental
[26:04]
space and I recognize that about me so I
[26:09]
look for those spaces but I'm not
[26:12]
letting the limitations of this world
[26:16]
prevent me from finding a middle ground
[26:18]
when I have
[26:20]
to so I'm just going to try to explain
[26:23]
this there is someone who follows my
[26:26]
channel who I've been interacting with
[26:28]
over
[26:29]
email
[26:32]
and they wouldn't let something go my
[26:36]
need
[26:38]
to
[26:40]
limit certain kinds of Engagement like
[26:42]
giving me unsolicited advice it
[26:45]
escalated today and
[26:48]
now my internal state is in chaos like I
[26:53]
am not happy I have to detox this
[26:55]
negativity out of my body so I can can
[26:58]
get back to the internal State I like
[27:00]
being in we are at Mammoth Cave I am
[27:03]
about to get to the visitor parking
[27:06]
lot and my experience is very different
[27:09]
now because of this
[27:13]
interaction I am a fully integrated
[27:16]
human being I take in all the input from
[27:19]
my
[27:20]
life and synergize it
[27:25]
instantly I cannot explain this to you I
[27:28]
don't even really want to like I don't
[27:32]
care that you don't get it what I do
[27:34]
care is that my boundaries are respected
[27:35]
this is why I turn comments off
[27:37]
sometimes because I'm trying to protect
[27:40]
myself from this kind of toxicity even
[27:43]
if you don't see it that way that is how
[27:46]
I experience it I'm not like
[27:52]
you I need people to just
[27:55]
try you know just enjoy my journey
[27:58]
because I don't I really don't even need
[28:00]
your feedback I really
[28:03]
don't I just that's the point I'm at now
[28:07]
because I Now understand myself really
[28:10]
well and I am very comfortable with who
[28:13]
I
[28:14]
am I'm not looking for external
[28:16]
validation I don't need it I don't want
[28:19]
it positive or negative I truly don't
[28:22]
care
[28:23]
anymore that is not how I work my
[28:27]
validation comes from from
[28:29]
within and that's where it should come
[28:31]
from for everybody honestly in my
[28:35]
opinion but you know we're all different
[28:38]
so maybe I'm wrong about that I don't
[28:39]
pretend to you know have all the answers
[28:42]
I just know what works for me I'm trying
[28:44]
to set boundaries for
[28:46]
myself so we're here I think this place
[28:49]
is probably going to be it might be very
[28:51]
difficult to find a place to park um but
[28:53]
I was thinking I know some extra areas
[28:56]
we can drive to
[28:58]
so if this is truly like and I expected
[29:02]
this right so so fascinating some cars
[29:05]
are so small that you can't even tell
[29:06]
they're in the parking space until you
[29:08]
get close I do know okay so there's the
[29:12]
yeah those are
[29:13]
the um residential buildings and I know
[29:18]
that we
[29:19]
can travel that way to get to the hiking
[29:23]
trail that I've taken a couple of times
[29:25]
now and there is parking that way
[29:29]
but yeah that's what we're going to do
[29:31]
cuz I'm I know where that I know that
[29:32]
trail I know that area we're just going
[29:34]
to go and um but I wanted to take some
[29:37]
other the other trails that I still
[29:39]
haven't managed to
[29:41]
do but we'll figure that out like while
[29:43]
we're on the trails I
[29:47]
think
[29:49]
so lots and lots of people today very
[29:52]
busy
[29:54]
Place very
[29:57]
busy which is
[30:00]
understandable so we
[30:04]
are I think yeah okay so we're just
[30:06]
going to head this way
[30:09]
[Music]
[30:11]
again cuz it's definitely busy we knew
[30:13]
it would be
[30:20]
though I wonder how I you know a lot of
[30:22]
them you just know that they're in the
[30:24]
caves right that's where they're at
[30:26]
they're in the caves but not us it's not
[30:30]
why we're
[30:42]
here see that person has the right
[30:47]
idea same idea I
[30:53]
had oh yeah lots and lots of people
[30:56]
today
[31:02]
hello we're going to park over here see
[31:05]
most people don't they're not thinking
[31:07]
about it so there's bases over
[31:10]
here
[31:20]
yay I'm bringing my backpack cuz I got
[31:23]
all kinds of
[31:24]
stuff um to keep my ear cleaned um um
[31:28]
put more insect repelling on if I need
[31:30]
to my sub so we can eat out here
[31:34]
somewhere well I don't have the gear to
[31:36]
hook my GoPro up to it so going have to
[31:39]
start planning a little bit better on
[31:41]
that
[31:43]
front you could see them over there the
[31:45]
little residential
[31:47]
buildings I am so intrigued by
[31:51]
them just to experience that Community
[31:54]
would be very rewarding
[31:59]
something I want to
[32:13]
experience we're
[32:20]
back
[32:23]
Pleasant no stopping today let's find
[32:26]
something new
[32:28]
branching Trail we've explored that way
[32:31]
quite fully we've been on this Trail um
[32:34]
temporarily in order to get to that one
[32:37]
but this will take us to the trails we
[32:38]
have not seen yet and so
[32:42]
onward we've seen this so we move
[32:46]
on onward to the next thing it's open
[32:50]
May open the trail that was broke time
[32:52]
to go
[32:59]
[Music]
[33:01]
we didn't get hike this last
[33:09]
time oh what is that that looks
[33:15]
amazing I like
[33:20]
this oh those people were walking so
[33:22]
damn slow I felt like a [ __ ]
[33:25]
Turtle I could really get around them
[33:29]
let's go get
[33:31]
lost oh this is awesome there's a person
[33:35]
down there person detected how did they
[33:37]
get
[33:43]
there we're going to ask
[33:51]
her this will be fun this will be fun
[33:55]
going to enjoy this
[34:00]
oh hello person down there hello is this
[34:04]
going to get me there you want the
[34:06]
picture oh no no no like I just wondered
[34:09]
how you got down
[34:10]
there side that side oh I see him okay
[34:14]
very
[34:16]
steep yeah oh I'm going to see if I can
[34:20]
get through though
[34:28]
yeah this is a very thin
[34:38]
Trail this is the trail that was close
[34:41]
so they're not maintaining it oh I
[34:44]
see it doesn't go
[34:48]
through okay let's find another
[34:51]
Trail I just want to hike I don't want
[34:53]
to
[34:55]
stop just want to hike
[35:00]
we have encountered a
[35:02]
roadblock we could travel no
[35:05]
further very cool cave over there I just
[35:07]
kind of passed by that's where that
[35:09]
woman is she's so
[35:13]
cool
[35:15]
so very steep to get back up like that's
[35:18]
going to be
[35:22]
interesting navigate it with some care
[35:28]
I'll show you this cave when we get to
[35:37]
it they had this Trail closed off
[35:41]
steep
[35:43]
hot half a
[35:46]
mile just the way we like it
[36:02]
oh
[36:05]
interesting we're up a little bit
[36:07]
further from that
[36:10]
cave I bet it's cool here oh nice
[36:15]
Bridge we can rest
[36:23]
here yeah
[36:35]
that was a work out well worth
[36:41]
it you what let's keep going I don't
[36:45]
want to stop
[36:54]
onward cave was down there
[36:59]
isn't very
[37:00]
cool um thought we might get some cool
[37:04]
air but
[37:12]
nope it almost looks like a natural
[37:15]
stepping up there I R so heavy I do it
[37:19]
humans
[37:21]
detected have adapted a new Behavior
[37:25]
I've noticed in the past couple days
[37:27]
I've been giving everybody peace signs
[37:30]
Jeep
[37:32]
owners yeah people on the trail just
[37:35]
droping PE signs while I listening to my
[37:38]
music I don't think we've been here
[37:41]
probably walk down there and have to
[37:42]
walk back and then go that way so we got
[37:45]
many miles to
[37:53]
go all right I'm going to slow my
[37:54]
breathing down now
[38:01]
be deliberate about
[38:07]
it
[38:21]
wonderful perfect day to be out here I
[38:25]
still don't feel it full equilibrium yet
[38:28]
but I'm getting
[38:29]
there people don't
[38:33]
understand you never
[38:35]
will I don't need you
[38:37]
to I probably am going to start
[38:40]
disabling
[38:41]
comments I don't need to interact with
[38:43]
you guys you can observe my life that is
[38:46]
good enough for
[38:56]
me yeah
[38:59]
that's where my brain is
[39:00]
setting keep the comments
[39:06]
off
[39:08]
abandon any small hope of
[39:12]
connection that's not in the works for
[39:16]
you I'm too
[39:20]
different and I embrace it now I'm not
[39:24]
like
[39:25]
you I'm like me and know
[39:28]
me and that's
[39:32]
enough it was always
[39:35]
enough hold up what have we found here
[39:40]
in the
[39:41]
woods there is a human
[39:46]
structure looks
[39:48]
like no I don't see a fire
[39:53]
pit what are
[39:55]
you I'll just go investigate at
[39:58]
this oh I got love
[40:04]
exploring what are
[40:06]
you out
[40:08]
here oh everything looks overgrown
[40:11]
around
[40:12]
it
[40:14]
interesting I don't there's a path right
[40:19]
here tempted don't care for the
[40:23]
mosquitoes what's it
[40:25]
doing what are are you and the spider
[40:28]
webs that's a big one yeah very
[40:31]
overgrown we will investigate this
[40:33]
another day like I'm not so interested
[40:36]
that I want
[40:37]
to um tolerate all the other things I'd
[40:40]
have
[40:41]
to so very cool though it's abandoned
[40:45]
clearly whatever it
[40:51]
was and where are we
[40:53]
now I love this place oh there is a
[40:57]
trail leading there let's take the easy
[41:01]
one oh even more what's going on
[41:05]
here Sunset Point okay we're going to go
[41:07]
that way when we leave so we're not
[41:09]
going that way yet Mammoth
[41:13]
Dome we're not going that way yet but we
[41:15]
will go that
[41:17]
way so we're going this way
[41:19]
first we're going to go chill and I'm
[41:21]
going to edit my video
[41:24]
and there might be a second part to it
[41:26]
later in the day
[41:28]
but I need to compile these clips
[41:29]
together before they get too complicated
[41:31]
for me it's a lot of effort staring my
[41:35]
life with you
[41:36]
guys
[41:38]
but you know primarily it's for myself
[41:41]
so worth every
[41:46]
moment it's quite wonderful
[41:58]
I'm not even pulling my GoPro out or
[42:00]
anything just my
[42:07]
phone why I came here I would have had
[42:09]
this kind of an experience at the other
[42:11]
Trail I don't think it's a different
[42:16]
here we've
[42:18]
been you know basically
[42:20]
just exploring all these branching
[42:23]
Trails we would not have experienced
[42:25]
that just see what's out
[42:31]
here very
[42:41]
pleasant oh I
[42:44]
should yesterday I noted some changes in
[42:46]
the trees and thought maybe that my
[42:47]
Autumn was coming but I realized today
[42:49]
when I was looking at them it's just the
[42:52]
heat basically killing
[42:54]
them so not the same thing not the same
[42:58]
process um hard to know when when AUM is
[43:01]
going to be here cuz that definitely
[43:04]
isn't what I
[43:06]
saw I was just hopeful for it I
[43:24]
guess you know I really am going to turn
[43:26]
the comments off now
[43:28]
on and I actually see it as a challenge
[43:31]
like could I grow a channel without
[43:34]
comments' be fascinating
[43:37]
experiment and if it doesn't work out
[43:39]
that's okay cuz I am a non-dualistic
[43:41]
thinker I don't I have not attached
[43:44]
anything to that
[43:46]
statement I'm simply acknowledging
[43:49]
different
[43:50]
paths that are possible
[43:54]
and I guess you could call that
[43:55]
dialectical reasoning
[43:58]
um I'm
[44:01]
just I'm exploring the potentialities of
[44:03]
my life I am open to whatever comes I
[44:07]
always am always have been I think
[44:10]
that's been deeply misunderstood by you
[44:12]
guys I don't attach myself to outcomes I
[44:15]
never have I don't do
[44:19]
that let's see what's up here let's have
[44:21]
a moment in silence J
[44:35]
I think I'm seeing another branching
[44:37]
Trail
[44:38]
actually that's why there signs
[44:41]
here
[44:46]
okay hum's
[44:49]
detected time foot cuz I'm seeing
[44:53]
shimmering like from a vehicle or me or
[44:57]
let's see what comes
[44:59]
up oh I
[45:02]
think huh I think we're going to end up
[45:04]
at a
[45:06]
road people are parked up
[45:09]
there
[45:11]
okay that's no
[45:13]
fun that's no
[45:16]
fun supposed to be in the woods you just
[45:19]
broke my
[45:21]
immersion
[45:24]
okay let's see here
[45:30]
sorry a little bit hot and tired where
[45:33]
is the you are here son there we are way
[45:35]
down here
[45:37]
cool
[45:39]
okay
[45:42]
Road Fair is very close to here it's not
[45:44]
working but that's where the ferry is
[45:46]
which means we if we kept walking we'd
[45:48]
end up with this parking lot there if we
[45:53]
go
[45:55]
h so we're going to head back and then
[45:58]
we're going to get on that trail that we
[46:00]
saw I remember something
[46:03]
about um Mammoth Dome so let's look for
[46:09]
that might not be on here because I
[46:11]
think they're just referring to the
[46:13]
whole land is just over the
[46:15]
cave um unless I'm missing it but Sunset
[46:18]
Point's up here and I know that that was
[46:20]
on the
[46:22]
sign so what did we get here
[46:27]
that's an interesting thought we must
[46:29]
have been over here all right so this is
[46:32]
the visitor center
[46:34]
I let's see here let's figure it out so
[46:37]
they call them historic cabins but we
[46:38]
know that those are residential so we
[46:41]
got on here we
[46:43]
probably and this is okay where's the
[46:47]
river there's up
[46:49]
here let me think this
[46:52]
through Woodland Cottages what where
[46:55]
those are
[46:58]
we didn't come here but we did end up
[47:01]
here like I think I think we were over
[47:04]
here we probably yeah that makes sense
[47:06]
these are the road so we probably walk
[47:07]
down
[47:10]
here um I'm honestly not sure I guess
[47:13]
maybe we could have gone this way but
[47:15]
that doesn't no cuz we're going to go
[47:16]
that
[47:17]
way um I think we probably went
[47:19]
something like this
[47:22]
somehow so we might have even seen the
[47:25]
Sunset Point dark already don't even
[47:27]
know it we're just
[47:31]
exploring we're going to try to get over
[47:33]
here though we'll look for a thing this
[47:34]
a sinkhole and
[47:36]
then I mean this Trail doesn't have a
[47:38]
name what's up with that River Valley
[47:40]
Trail
[47:41]
maybe
[47:44]
um I guess it could be sinkhole
[47:47]
Trail we would want to I mean we could
[47:50]
take either really oh we'll end up at
[47:53]
the campground I heard about this one
[47:55]
let's go find that sinkhole to the white
[47:57]
cage tra will end up at the campground
[47:58]
and then we'll have to walk back to my
[48:00]
Jeep which is somewhere over here so
[48:02]
let's do
[48:04]
that we got a lot of hiking ahead of us
[48:06]
oh there's two paths
[48:08]
here oh I don't want to get
[48:12]
confused okay two Springs
[48:16]
Trail we want to that's two Springs
[48:19]
Trail we want to get onto
[48:21]
the
[48:23]
okay bring River echo echo down there's
[48:27]
a human
[48:28]
coming so it was the woman who was down
[48:31]
at that cave that we saw that I was
[48:33]
talking to from up high she's cool she's
[48:35]
from
[48:36]
Germany um and she had this app on her
[48:38]
phone she was using and she told me to
[48:40]
go the way that I thought would take us
[48:42]
to the parking lot so um I think she was
[48:45]
right too cuz it's parking lot that way
[48:48]
I had to get get better at that start
[48:49]
using apps and stuff um would have gone
[48:54]
the wrong way I don't know if that's it
[48:56]
or not cuz it's like the white something
[48:59]
Trail that's a sink Trail it probably
[49:01]
takes us to it I think we get on that
[49:03]
and then turn left there's a spot over
[49:05]
here we're going to go hang out for a
[49:07]
minute I'm just going to rest and start
[49:10]
compiling my video it's a lot of
[49:15]
work see what this
[49:20]
says quite hot it's probably in the mid
[49:24]
to high 90s
[49:27]
what do we have down
[49:30]
there oh that's so
[49:43]
awesome I don't know who they are but I
[49:45]
think they work here or you know they're
[49:47]
like ecologist or something like that
[49:49]
like that sign over there it says
[49:51]
fragile Waters hidden life talking about
[49:54]
shrimp and
[49:57]
crayfish Cave Fish I didn't know that
[50:00]
was a thing cool and they're just I
[50:04]
think they're I don't know what they're
[50:06]
doing I'm fascinated with their lives I
[50:09]
truly am I'm going to end it
[50:12]
here so I'm almost back to my Jeep about
[50:15]
ready to leave I just wanted to end this
[50:18]
something I think is kind of
[50:19]
profound I am fascinated by how
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disconnected people are from each other
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these days even out here they don't
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acknowledge each
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other they're
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just completely disconnected I don't
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know what kind of world you guys think
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you're living in but it's a pretty
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shitty one
