Piercing Ears in Bowling Green on Labor Day Weekend

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[0:00] good morning humans it's 10:00 in the

[0:02] morning here I stayed up till 5: in the

[0:06] morning so I only got 5 hours sleep at

[0:08] the

[0:10] most but it's a new day and I have to

[0:12] get up I opened up the back window all

[0:16] the others still have reflec tis in them

[0:19] I have to put it in that one too later

[0:21] in the day but just wanted to get a

[0:23] sense of what's going on out there

[0:25] because you know it's Labor Day weekend

[0:27] I have a neighbor behind me um we looked

[0:31] at their I thought their Camp was a lot

[0:34] longer than it is I don't know why it

[0:37] seems so long to me yesterday but it

[0:40] fits in there you

[0:41] know I don't know what else is going on

[0:44] all my windows are shut

[0:47] so I've been thinking I've been out for

[0:50] a couple minutes just

[0:52] thinking through my day and really just

[0:55] comes down to cleaning and

[0:58] organizing I think it just need to be

[1:00] super practical today and get prepared

[1:03] for when we take this camper in to get

[1:08] some repairs done to it so it's

[1:12] Friday I guess there's still four days

[1:15] but um Monday which is official holiday

[1:19] I'll be at a cottage so I just want to

[1:22] have everything done before then so that

[1:24] I can just hang out there for a couple

[1:26] days and really enjoyed that time

[1:31] um so there are many things I love about

[1:33] this Camp room my bed is not one of them

[1:36] my back is hurting again this has been

[1:38] an ongoing issue for 6 months

[1:43] now it had gotten better so I thought

[1:47] maybe I had adjusted to the situation

[1:52] but since I got here and we are Level we

[1:56] are super level right

[1:58] now like my back is just really killing

[2:01] me in the

[2:02] mornings so that's forcing me to

[2:04] reassess what is going on

[2:06] here when I was

[2:09] at the other camps my last campsite

[2:12] before this one we were not

[2:15] level and I didn't really have this

[2:17] problem as much

[2:19] so I'm so confused about it I think my

[2:24] thinking now is maybe the bed platform

[2:27] itself literally the wood it sits on not

[2:30] on the mattress sits on maybe that's the

[2:33] problem maybe it's not level and now

[2:35] that we're

[2:37] level whatever issues are going on with

[2:39] that bed

[2:41] platform like the angle that right in

[2:45] the middle where my my back

[2:49] is it's causing some kind of physical

[2:52] stress that you know so I wake up with

[2:54] this back

[2:55] pain

[2:57] so I'm going to have to p pull off the

[3:00] mattress M's trying to get over here

[3:03] come on ba lay down

[3:09] stop so I'm going to have to pull

[3:12] off the mattress and get out like a

[3:15] measuring tour and just just investigate

[3:21] like I'm starting to run out of ideas I

[3:25] don't know so we're driving 20 miles

[3:29] away

[3:30] to get coffee oh my God it's um it's a

[3:34] 40 minute drive but we're going to a

[3:36] Starbucks I just really need coffee

[3:38] today and I've been adapting by just

[3:41] drinking cold coffee but I just really

[3:43] want real coffee today so we're going to

[3:46] go do

[3:47] that and you know we're pretty far out

[3:50] in the middle of nowhere I guess but I'm

[3:53] sure there are local coffee shops I

[3:55] probably could have searched for those

[3:57] I'm very curious you know why I'm

[4:00] actually thinking this through I'm

[4:01] wondering if like I make decisions like

[4:04] this because it it minimizes the

[4:07] cognitive load that I go through like

[4:09] it's it's a convenience thing it's like

[4:11] okay I need coffee we're going to

[4:12] Starbucks don't care how far away it

[4:14] is when a normal person probably just

[4:18] looks for a coffee shop you know I adapt

[4:21] it's like okay we have to go into

[4:22] Bowling Green to get coffee I might as

[4:24] well do some other things while I'm

[4:25] there and it's a real City and then um

[4:30] you know I'll come back and we'll just

[4:32] start our day for real like doing stuff

[4:34] in the camper I was thinking

[4:38] um this morning about last night I was

[4:41] talking about how I'm trying to stop

[4:44] drinking Mountain Dew it's just an

[4:46] ongoing thing with me but how I don't

[4:48] judge myself for still drinking it like

[4:52] this morning I the reason I was thinking

[4:53] it is because I had to go to the store

[4:56] and that's what got me into the mindset

[4:58] of let's get coffee I needed to go to

[5:00] the store to get some I would do and I

[5:03] was just thinking you

[5:05] know I'm trying to

[5:08] explain how how I think and like my

[5:12] behavior and all of these things because

[5:14] I think it could help some people and

[5:17] like I don't judge myself for still

[5:19] doing a thing that's actually brought me

[5:20] a great deal of harm I lost my teeth

[5:22] partly because among you was a big part

[5:24] of it but I don't judge myself for still

[5:28] drinking it

[5:30] what I do do and I didn't say this in

[5:33] the video because I wasn't thinking

[5:34] about it at the time

[5:37] is I do I'm always working on it so I'm

[5:40] going to get Mountain Dew at the

[5:43] store um but I'll try to get other

[5:45] things too I'll pick up some orange

[5:47] juice or I'll get some Pepsi and you

[5:49] know I try to substitute it for other

[5:52] things as part of my process and like

[5:55] that's an ongoing thing I'll do that for

[5:57] a long time probably but but

[6:01] slowly I'm altering my behavior without

[6:04] judging myself I think that's really

[6:07] important think looks beautiful

[6:11] today maybe well I don't know we did

[6:15] just pass the trail the core of engineer

[6:18] Trail I haven't been on it yet maybe we

[6:20] will visit that today I don't know I I

[6:22] do have a lot to do but I do have time I

[6:24] have like 3 days you know what that's

[6:27] probably a coffee shop

[6:31] that would save me I don't know if I

[6:33] want to get coffee there but it would

[6:34] save me a lot of

[6:36] time now I'm wondering if maybe I should

[6:38] get coffee there like I do want to I

[6:42] want to embrace things like that where I

[6:44] explore like local

[6:48] things but that didn't really look like

[6:50] a coffee shop to me but I didn't stop

[6:52] and look at it we're not going to do it

[6:55] this time but I'm going to I'm getting

[6:57] myself into the mindset where that's a

[6:58] thing I'm going to be doing because I

[7:01] don't want to travel to Bowling Green

[7:02] for coffee if this wasn't so rare for me

[7:06] you

[7:08] know I'm considering it but I

[7:11] just just not today I actually do need

[7:15] to head into Bing green there's some

[7:16] things I really need to do so

[7:20] um and I had already gotten Starbucks

[7:23] into my head I'm noticing some of these

[7:25] trees are starting to change

[7:27] color so we might actually be here for

[7:30] the right part of Autumn and it's

[7:36] happening we just need to give it a

[7:38] couple weeks we're going to go explore

[7:40] man caves the Natural Bridge we made it

[7:44] that was a very stressful drive people

[7:46] are driving like maniacs today

[7:49] everywhere we made it though and I was

[7:52] thinking on the way here since I'm in

[7:54] Bowling Green I'm going to find a place

[7:55] to finally pierce my air cartilage up

[7:57] here hopefully there's some kind of new

[8:00] rules in Kentucky that seem to be making

[8:02] that harder for a lot of places to do

[8:04] but it is possible if I can find the

[8:05] right place we're going to do

[8:07] that give me something to

[8:13] drink help you say good morning I would

[8:16] like a vinty hazelnut mocha please

[8:22] hot it was I'm sorry your up for me

[8:26] venty hazelnut mocha

[8:30] hot okay anything else for you today

[8:32] that's it thanks all right 7:47 today

[8:35] thank

[8:37] you I mean I thought I was being polite

[8:40] by you know highlighting every

[8:43] word think you took it a little rude

[8:46] though I finally did it guys I got my

[8:49] ears pierced I pierced this one one more

[8:51] time and two up here they got to heal um

[8:54] before I can put Hoops in them but I got

[8:56] a whole bunch of Hoops the people who

[8:57] did this were amazing I'm actually going

[8:59] to shout them out in this video um but

[9:02] he gave

[9:04] me where did I put

[9:07] them oh here they are okay 10

[9:12] Hoops so that I can replace them all and

[9:15] they all be the same so I'll have let's

[9:18] see there's three four five six I was

[9:20] thinking about maybe piercing this a

[9:21] second time but I just like the Elegance

[9:24] of it

[9:26] and this is amazing I been wanting to do

[9:30] this for months I finally got it done I

[9:32] have to wait like I don't even know

[9:34] probably a month or something they took

[9:36] a video before I can put the Hoops in

[9:38] they took a video of me doing it I

[9:40] handled it like a a true Pro it was not

[9:44] bad at all I didn't know what it would

[9:46] feel like I guess everybody's different

[9:47] but I

[9:49] um I

[9:51] mean very temporary pain you know I've

[9:54] had all my teeth pulled out it was you

[9:56] know just it was totally cool I am so

[9:59] happy we're going back to the camground

[10:01] now you should know that the recovery

[10:03] process that's the painful part like

[10:05] this is not going to be that fun I can't

[10:08] sleep on that side of my face I'm a side

[10:09] sleeper I think I actually do sleep that

[10:11] way so I'm going to have to adjust and

[10:14] um possibly for a couple of months like

[10:16] it's a slow healing process got to take

[10:19] good care of them

[10:20] and um I'm just so happy about it

[10:52] let's see what we're dealing with here

[10:55] it's probably my worst

[10:57] nightmare my worst nightmare come

[11:01] true but we've had a couple days to

[11:03] prepare we knew it was coming we

[11:06] mentally prepared ourselves for this

[11:09] what are we about to see oh God help

[11:16] us where is everybody

[11:19] what we got one new

[11:22] camper all right they're not here yet

[11:26] they're coming today we know they are

[11:28] they're coming

[11:32] see what we got over

[11:35] here let's see it is 2: in the afternoon

[11:38] on Friday that's getting packed down

[11:41] there holy crap I'm so glad we're not in

[11:43] that Loop wow oh my God it is packed

[11:46] over there too oh wow that was empty

[11:49] yesterday that's where we went hiking

[11:53] empty well we know people are coming

[11:55] here

[11:56] okay um yeah that's new

[12:00] there's going to be all kinds of

[12:02] everybody's going to be all of these

[12:04] sites are going to be taken like all of

[12:06] them it's going to be packed over here

[12:09] also but we're going to make the best

[12:11] event we are we're going to go look

[12:14] around and stuff let's just go and have

[12:16] some fun and like you know we'll see how

[12:18] everybody lives I guess how they Camp my

[12:21] ear already hurts it's already hurting

[12:23] it's going to get worse I love it though

[12:26] I am so freaking happy about it like

[12:28] there are there's no words I I

[12:30] absolutely love it I've been wanting to

[12:31] do it for months finally got it done I

[12:34] love it so I'm back Bailey's just

[12:37] chilling down

[12:38] here he seems to be having a good

[12:41] time you seem pretty happy we got to get

[12:45] you some treats

[12:46] though maybe refresh your water but yeah

[12:49] I got to do some work in here but you

[12:51] know it can wait it's kind of hot I

[12:53] forgot I left the back window open

[12:54] without reflecting the 77 over

[12:57] here and

[12:59] oh stand up 80 over here probably like

[13:03] 85 in the cab are that's where Bailey

[13:05] was but he likes heat so doesn't bother

[13:09] him shooting it'll get a little it'll

[13:11] probably will get hotter

[13:13] actually it gets pretty hot you know but

[13:16] this should be the last day like the

[13:18] temperature start dropping after this

[13:21] it'll still be pretty hot but it'll

[13:23] it'll get better every week we'll get

[13:24] better

[13:26] so I'm thinking about just taking a walk

[13:30] around the campgrounds just seeing what

[13:32] you know there's so many people here

[13:34] maybe we just go around and see what the

[13:37] atmosphere is like but I don't want to

[13:39] be walking around my camera like too

[13:41] obviously like I don't want

[13:44] to just

[13:47] my my brain doesn't like the idea like I

[13:51] would rather have some not not I'm not

[13:54] trying to like be stealth but just you

[13:57] know less obvious so if I'm going to be

[14:00] walking around with the camera recording

[14:01] everything I kind of just want maybe

[14:03] something on my chest or something but I

[14:05] don't know how I could do that without

[14:07] my

[14:08] backpack I had been thinking about it

[14:11] cuz I don't always want to take my

[14:13] backpack hiking either you know the

[14:15] little hikes that are just you know 4 or

[14:17] eight miles like I don't really need a

[14:19] backpack for that so maybe I will be

[14:22] able to come up with something today

[14:25] like I'm going to think about it so I am

[14:27] off to the drugstore or to get some

[14:29] stuff to keep my ears clean you know so

[14:32] they don't get dis infect infected or

[14:34] whatever and I just noticed I have a

[14:36] neor I have a neighbor and that got me

[14:39] thinking because other stuff's going on

[14:42] today that you know I'm not going to

[14:43] really talk about but um it's got I've

[14:46] been thinking about some stuff and it's

[14:49] kind of related so I'm not sure I should

[14:52] really care about other people observing

[14:54] me because they don't see what I see I

[14:57] am tr stopped because of some stupid

[14:59] phone anyways most people like for me

[15:04] when I'm observing something I see all

[15:06] kinds of interconnections and you know

[15:08] like my mental

[15:10] map it just it connects all kinds of

[15:12] things I'm not even going to try to

[15:14] explain that but I think that most

[15:16] people probably don't do that if I was

[15:18] out there spraying my clothes with

[15:20] mosquito repellants well this could be a

[15:22] good example so if I was out there

[15:24] spraying if somebody else was out there

[15:26] spraying mosquito repellants on their

[15:28] clothes

[15:29] I'd make connections I'd understand they

[15:31] probably like hiking and blah blah blah

[15:33] like I just a whole whole bunch of

[15:35] would go through my head right I don't

[15:37] know that other people are like that

[15:40] maybe I shouldn't care so much maybe I

[15:41] should just be myself and not care

[15:43] anymore I think that's where we're

[15:44] heading I am a programmer and I just get

[15:47] so frustrated with technology on my RV

[15:51] life like it's just

[15:53] not not functioning the way I wanted to

[15:57] it's annoying

[15:59] at the same time I'm sitting there

[16:00] thinking in my head Park ro

[16:03] oh um you know it's interrupting us

[16:06] you're interrupting us

[16:08] Google um at the same time I was

[16:11] thinking in my head as I was saying that

[16:13] well lots of things don't work in

[16:15] programming too that's a big part of the

[16:17] job so why does it bother me so much

[16:19] that um you know my RV life

[16:24] technology oh my God I knew if I turn

[16:26] that would happen too I knew I anyways

[16:28] we're going to the drugstore I

[16:30] absolutely love this song I have been

[16:32] listening to it on repeat for whenever I

[16:35] first discovered it and I played it on

[16:37] my channel that one day this song Just

[16:41] Just speaks to me and it's got such a

[16:42] great beat behind it and everything I'm

[16:45] not going to play it though because you

[16:47] know that stuff gets you in trouble with

[16:48] YouTube

[16:50] beautiful always so beautiful I just

[16:53] love the way that the

[16:56] sun reflects on water I'm very

[16:59] distracted I shouldn't be doing this but

[17:01] it's beautiful Google's going to

[17:04] interrupt us in a mile less than a mile

[17:07] but let's talk about something

[17:11] so I'm running out of money like fast

[17:14] like I'm not even sure if I can pay on

[17:16] my bills anymore I think it's like real

[17:18] close so you'll probably notice that I'm

[17:22] not too stressed about that and that's

[17:23] because I believe in myself I truly

[17:25] believe in myself I can handle any

[17:27] situation that comes my way I believe

[17:28] believe that I live that reality so I'm

[17:32] going back into programming I'm going to

[17:34] do some freelancing starting next week

[17:35] I'm going to start building up my

[17:36] profiles and all that stuff and I'll

[17:39] take on some freelance

[17:40] jobs and I'll do that continue straight

[17:43] to stay on US31 East South I'll do that

[17:46] for as long as I need to and then while

[17:48] I work on trying to get a job at the

[17:50] park service cuz that's what I really

[17:51] want so just felt it was time to

[17:53] acknowledge that understand that this

[17:56] doesn't mean I have all the answers I

[17:59] don't have all the answers I just trust

[18:01] in my ability to navigate any situation

[18:05] and to work through challenges and to

[18:07] get the answers I need when I need them

[18:10] that's what I've been trying to show you

[18:11] guys for 6

[18:13] months this is how I navigate the world

[18:16] this is how I have made it to 47 years

[18:18] old how I was able to save up enough

[18:21] money to live for 6 months and my RV

[18:25] while I worked on

[18:27] myself you are cap capable of so much

[18:30] you

[18:31] are I mean this has to be like the

[18:34] hundredth time I've listened to this

[18:35] song at

[18:37] least Baron River

[18:40] Lake we're very

[18:43] close to our temporary

[18:47] home really want to get out there and

[18:51] experience that little peninsula there

[18:54] that would be so

[18:56] fabulous I don't know how you get to it

[18:58] though

[19:01] we really need to hike that

[19:03] trail I'm starving so we're going to the

[19:06] lodge first campground's that

[19:09] way where I was the other day there's

[19:12] the little um that little spot I went to

[19:14] and there's a trail over there that's

[19:15] where the bus is at we're just going to

[19:17] go down here it's very long

[19:19] road uh there's like a little horse

[19:22] stables and Villas and Cottages we'll be

[19:26] in the Cottages come Monday golf of

[19:29] course um a marina I've never seen that

[19:32] it's down further than I've ever gone

[19:35] so nice State Park very nice place all

[19:39] my friends are heathens take it

[19:43] slow I am just so obsessed with this

[19:46] song it's just

[19:48] ridiculous food we need food so

[19:53] hungry wow they're not even busy that is

[19:55] so awesome I thought they'd be like

[19:57] packed but I guess not are there any

[19:59] Jeeps around that require duckies I

[20:02] don't see

[20:05] any let's see no no Jeeps okay let's go

[20:09] get some food I don't know I guess

[20:13] maybe people are you know they're work

[20:16] today maybe did do they work on the

[20:18] Friday before Labor Day and they just

[20:21] can't come yet I don't know like maybe

[20:23] we'll see them all

[20:25] tomorrow they're not I'm really shocked

[20:27] I mean there's a lodge here

[20:32] so this is the pub they have a pub here

[20:35] and a

[20:35] restaurant they gave me permission to

[20:38] sit out here and

[20:40] eat very nice no

[20:43] pool it's summer time so that's

[20:45] confusing to

[20:49] me

[20:51] H oh look at that the Lake's over there

[20:54] I didn't know that did not know the lake

[20:57] was so close

[21:00] interesting this place is getting busy

[21:03] there's chaos

[21:05] everywhere but it's also a very new

[21:10] experience um it's Unique and I like

[21:13] stuff like that so I'm going to embrace

[21:15] it I'm going to go check out the

[21:17] campground after I get my stuff inside

[21:20] and we'll probably just go for a walk

[21:23] check things out but I move my Jeep up

[21:26] to the front in front of my RV cuz

[21:28] there's just freaking chaos around

[21:31] here this cat is experiencing pure Bliss

[21:35] right now he is exactly where he wants

[21:37] to be he's in his

[21:39] element like for an hour now this cat

[21:42] has just been completely content just

[21:46] watching all the people

[21:48] around I've been sitting out here doing

[21:51] stuff putting and anti-itch cream on all

[21:55] my mosquito bites I must have like 50 of

[21:57] them

[21:59] just letting him chill waiting on him

[22:01] now pretty much and I'm going to go for

[22:03] a walk and check the park out

[0:00] good morning humans it's 10:00 in the

[0:02] morning here I stayed up till 5: in the

[0:06] morning so I only got 5 hours sleep at

[0:08] the

[0:10] most but it's a new day and I have to

[0:12] get up I opened up the back window all

[0:16] the others still have reflec tis in them

[0:19] I have to put it in that one too later

[0:21] in the day but just wanted to get a

[0:23] sense of what's going on out there

[0:25] because you know it's Labor Day weekend

[0:27] I have a neighbor behind me um we looked

[0:31] at their I thought their Camp was a lot

[0:34] longer than it is I don't know why it

[0:37] seems so long to me yesterday but it

[0:40] fits in there you

[0:41] know I don't know what else is going on

[0:44] all my windows are shut

[0:47] so I've been thinking I've been out for

[0:50] a couple minutes just

[0:52] thinking through my day and really just

[0:55] comes down to cleaning and

[0:58] organizing I think it just need to be

[1:00] super practical today and get prepared

[1:03] for when we take this camper in to get

[1:08] some repairs done to it so it's

[1:12] Friday I guess there's still four days

[1:15] but um Monday which is official holiday

[1:19] I'll be at a cottage so I just want to

[1:22] have everything done before then so that

[1:24] I can just hang out there for a couple

[1:26] days and really enjoyed that time

[1:31] um so there are many things I love about

[1:33] this Camp room my bed is not one of them

[1:36] my back is hurting again this has been

[1:38] an ongoing issue for 6 months

[1:43] now it had gotten better so I thought

[1:47] maybe I had adjusted to the situation

[1:52] but since I got here and we are Level we

[1:56] are super level right

[1:58] now like my back is just really killing

[2:01] me in the

[2:02] mornings so that's forcing me to

[2:04] reassess what is going on

[2:06] here when I was

[2:09] at the other camps my last campsite

[2:12] before this one we were not

[2:15] level and I didn't really have this

[2:17] problem as much

[2:19] so I'm so confused about it I think my

[2:24] thinking now is maybe the bed platform

[2:27] itself literally the wood it sits on not

[2:30] on the mattress sits on maybe that's the

[2:33] problem maybe it's not level and now

[2:35] that we're

[2:37] level whatever issues are going on with

[2:39] that bed

[2:41] platform like the angle that right in

[2:45] the middle where my my back

[2:49] is it's causing some kind of physical

[2:52] stress that you know so I wake up with

[2:54] this back

[2:55] pain

[2:57] so I'm going to have to p pull off the

[3:00] mattress M's trying to get over here

[3:03] come on ba lay down

[3:09] stop so I'm going to have to pull

[3:12] off the mattress and get out like a

[3:15] measuring tour and just just investigate

[3:21] like I'm starting to run out of ideas I

[3:25] don't know so we're driving 20 miles

[3:29] away

[3:30] to get coffee oh my God it's um it's a

[3:34] 40 minute drive but we're going to a

[3:36] Starbucks I just really need coffee

[3:38] today and I've been adapting by just

[3:41] drinking cold coffee but I just really

[3:43] want real coffee today so we're going to

[3:46] go do

[3:47] that and you know we're pretty far out

[3:50] in the middle of nowhere I guess but I'm

[3:53] sure there are local coffee shops I

[3:55] probably could have searched for those

[3:57] I'm very curious you know why I'm

[4:00] actually thinking this through I'm

[4:01] wondering if like I make decisions like

[4:04] this because it it minimizes the

[4:07] cognitive load that I go through like

[4:09] it's it's a convenience thing it's like

[4:11] okay I need coffee we're going to

[4:12] Starbucks don't care how far away it

[4:14] is when a normal person probably just

[4:18] looks for a coffee shop you know I adapt

[4:21] it's like okay we have to go into

[4:22] Bowling Green to get coffee I might as

[4:24] well do some other things while I'm

[4:25] there and it's a real City and then um

[4:30] you know I'll come back and we'll just

[4:32] start our day for real like doing stuff

[4:34] in the camper I was thinking

[4:38] um this morning about last night I was

[4:41] talking about how I'm trying to stop

[4:44] drinking Mountain Dew it's just an

[4:46] ongoing thing with me but how I don't

[4:48] judge myself for still drinking it like

[4:52] this morning I the reason I was thinking

[4:53] it is because I had to go to the store

[4:56] and that's what got me into the mindset

[4:58] of let's get coffee I needed to go to

[5:00] the store to get some I would do and I

[5:03] was just thinking you

[5:05] know I'm trying to

[5:08] explain how how I think and like my

[5:12] behavior and all of these things because

[5:14] I think it could help some people and

[5:17] like I don't judge myself for still

[5:19] doing a thing that's actually brought me

[5:20] a great deal of harm I lost my teeth

[5:22] partly because among you was a big part

[5:24] of it but I don't judge myself for still

[5:28] drinking it

[5:30] what I do do and I didn't say this in

[5:33] the video because I wasn't thinking

[5:34] about it at the time

[5:37] is I do I'm always working on it so I'm

[5:40] going to get Mountain Dew at the

[5:43] store um but I'll try to get other

[5:45] things too I'll pick up some orange

[5:47] juice or I'll get some Pepsi and you

[5:49] know I try to substitute it for other

[5:52] things as part of my process and like

[5:55] that's an ongoing thing I'll do that for

[5:57] a long time probably but but

[6:01] slowly I'm altering my behavior without

[6:04] judging myself I think that's really

[6:07] important think looks beautiful

[6:11] today maybe well I don't know we did

[6:15] just pass the trail the core of engineer

[6:18] Trail I haven't been on it yet maybe we

[6:20] will visit that today I don't know I I

[6:22] do have a lot to do but I do have time I

[6:24] have like 3 days you know what that's

[6:27] probably a coffee shop

[6:31] that would save me I don't know if I

[6:33] want to get coffee there but it would

[6:34] save me a lot of

[6:36] time now I'm wondering if maybe I should

[6:38] get coffee there like I do want to I

[6:42] want to embrace things like that where I

[6:44] explore like local

[6:48] things but that didn't really look like

[6:50] a coffee shop to me but I didn't stop

[6:52] and look at it we're not going to do it

[6:55] this time but I'm going to I'm getting

[6:57] myself into the mindset where that's a

[6:58] thing I'm going to be doing because I

[7:01] don't want to travel to Bowling Green

[7:02] for coffee if this wasn't so rare for me

[7:06] you

[7:08] know I'm considering it but I

[7:11] just just not today I actually do need

[7:15] to head into Bing green there's some

[7:16] things I really need to do so

[7:20] um and I had already gotten Starbucks

[7:23] into my head I'm noticing some of these

[7:25] trees are starting to change

[7:27] color so we might actually be here for

[7:30] the right part of Autumn and it's

[7:36] happening we just need to give it a

[7:38] couple weeks we're going to go explore

[7:40] man caves the Natural Bridge we made it

[7:44] that was a very stressful drive people

[7:46] are driving like maniacs today

[7:49] everywhere we made it though and I was

[7:52] thinking on the way here since I'm in

[7:54] Bowling Green I'm going to find a place

[7:55] to finally pierce my air cartilage up

[7:57] here hopefully there's some kind of new

[8:00] rules in Kentucky that seem to be making

[8:02] that harder for a lot of places to do

[8:04] but it is possible if I can find the

[8:05] right place we're going to do

[8:07] that give me something to

[8:13] drink help you say good morning I would

[8:16] like a vinty hazelnut mocha please

[8:22] hot it was I'm sorry your up for me

[8:26] venty hazelnut mocha

[8:30] hot okay anything else for you today

[8:32] that's it thanks all right 7:47 today

[8:35] thank

[8:37] you I mean I thought I was being polite

[8:40] by you know highlighting every

[8:43] word think you took it a little rude

[8:46] though I finally did it guys I got my

[8:49] ears pierced I pierced this one one more

[8:51] time and two up here they got to heal um

[8:54] before I can put Hoops in them but I got

[8:56] a whole bunch of Hoops the people who

[8:57] did this were amazing I'm actually going

[8:59] to shout them out in this video um but

[9:02] he gave

[9:04] me where did I put

[9:07] them oh here they are okay 10

[9:12] Hoops so that I can replace them all and

[9:15] they all be the same so I'll have let's

[9:18] see there's three four five six I was

[9:20] thinking about maybe piercing this a

[9:21] second time but I just like the Elegance

[9:24] of it

[9:26] and this is amazing I been wanting to do

[9:30] this for months I finally got it done I

[9:32] have to wait like I don't even know

[9:34] probably a month or something they took

[9:36] a video before I can put the Hoops in

[9:38] they took a video of me doing it I

[9:40] handled it like a a true Pro it was not

[9:44] bad at all I didn't know what it would

[9:46] feel like I guess everybody's different

[9:47] but I

[9:49] um I

[9:51] mean very temporary pain you know I've

[9:54] had all my teeth pulled out it was you

[9:56] know just it was totally cool I am so

[9:59] happy we're going back to the camground

[10:01] now you should know that the recovery

[10:03] process that's the painful part like

[10:05] this is not going to be that fun I can't

[10:08] sleep on that side of my face I'm a side

[10:09] sleeper I think I actually do sleep that

[10:11] way so I'm going to have to adjust and

[10:14] um possibly for a couple of months like

[10:16] it's a slow healing process got to take

[10:19] good care of them

[10:20] and um I'm just so happy about it

[10:52] let's see what we're dealing with here

[10:55] it's probably my worst

[10:57] nightmare my worst nightmare come

[11:01] true but we've had a couple days to

[11:03] prepare we knew it was coming we

[11:06] mentally prepared ourselves for this

[11:09] what are we about to see oh God help

[11:16] us where is everybody

[11:19] what we got one new

[11:22] camper all right they're not here yet

[11:26] they're coming today we know they are

[11:28] they're coming

[11:32] see what we got over

[11:35] here let's see it is 2: in the afternoon

[11:38] on Friday that's getting packed down

[11:41] there holy crap I'm so glad we're not in

[11:43] that Loop wow oh my God it is packed

[11:46] over there too oh wow that was empty

[11:49] yesterday that's where we went hiking

[11:53] empty well we know people are coming

[11:55] here

[11:56] okay um yeah that's new

[12:00] there's going to be all kinds of

[12:02] everybody's going to be all of these

[12:04] sites are going to be taken like all of

[12:06] them it's going to be packed over here

[12:09] also but we're going to make the best

[12:11] event we are we're going to go look

[12:14] around and stuff let's just go and have

[12:16] some fun and like you know we'll see how

[12:18] everybody lives I guess how they Camp my

[12:21] ear already hurts it's already hurting

[12:23] it's going to get worse I love it though

[12:26] I am so freaking happy about it like

[12:28] there are there's no words I I

[12:30] absolutely love it I've been wanting to

[12:31] do it for months finally got it done I

[12:34] love it so I'm back Bailey's just

[12:37] chilling down

[12:38] here he seems to be having a good

[12:41] time you seem pretty happy we got to get

[12:45] you some treats

[12:46] though maybe refresh your water but yeah

[12:49] I got to do some work in here but you

[12:51] know it can wait it's kind of hot I

[12:53] forgot I left the back window open

[12:54] without reflecting the 77 over

[12:57] here and

[12:59] oh stand up 80 over here probably like

[13:03] 85 in the cab are that's where Bailey

[13:05] was but he likes heat so doesn't bother

[13:09] him shooting it'll get a little it'll

[13:11] probably will get hotter

[13:13] actually it gets pretty hot you know but

[13:16] this should be the last day like the

[13:18] temperature start dropping after this

[13:21] it'll still be pretty hot but it'll

[13:23] it'll get better every week we'll get

[13:24] better

[13:26] so I'm thinking about just taking a walk

[13:30] around the campgrounds just seeing what

[13:32] you know there's so many people here

[13:34] maybe we just go around and see what the

[13:37] atmosphere is like but I don't want to

[13:39] be walking around my camera like too

[13:41] obviously like I don't want

[13:44] to just

[13:47] my my brain doesn't like the idea like I

[13:51] would rather have some not not I'm not

[13:54] trying to like be stealth but just you

[13:57] know less obvious so if I'm going to be

[14:00] walking around with the camera recording

[14:01] everything I kind of just want maybe

[14:03] something on my chest or something but I

[14:05] don't know how I could do that without

[14:07] my

[14:08] backpack I had been thinking about it

[14:11] cuz I don't always want to take my

[14:13] backpack hiking either you know the

[14:15] little hikes that are just you know 4 or

[14:17] eight miles like I don't really need a

[14:19] backpack for that so maybe I will be

[14:22] able to come up with something today

[14:25] like I'm going to think about it so I am

[14:27] off to the drugstore or to get some

[14:29] stuff to keep my ears clean you know so

[14:32] they don't get dis infect infected or

[14:34] whatever and I just noticed I have a

[14:36] neor I have a neighbor and that got me

[14:39] thinking because other stuff's going on

[14:42] today that you know I'm not going to

[14:43] really talk about but um it's got I've

[14:46] been thinking about some stuff and it's

[14:49] kind of related so I'm not sure I should

[14:52] really care about other people observing

[14:54] me because they don't see what I see I

[14:57] am tr stopped because of some stupid

[14:59] phone anyways most people like for me

[15:04] when I'm observing something I see all

[15:06] kinds of interconnections and you know

[15:08] like my mental

[15:10] map it just it connects all kinds of

[15:12] things I'm not even going to try to

[15:14] explain that but I think that most

[15:16] people probably don't do that if I was

[15:18] out there spraying my clothes with

[15:20] mosquito repellants well this could be a

[15:22] good example so if I was out there

[15:24] spraying if somebody else was out there

[15:26] spraying mosquito repellants on their

[15:28] clothes

[15:29] I'd make connections I'd understand they

[15:31] probably like hiking and blah blah blah

[15:33] like I just a whole whole bunch of

[15:35] would go through my head right I don't

[15:37] know that other people are like that

[15:40] maybe I shouldn't care so much maybe I

[15:41] should just be myself and not care

[15:43] anymore I think that's where we're

[15:44] heading I am a programmer and I just get

[15:47] so frustrated with technology on my RV

[15:51] life like it's just

[15:53] not not functioning the way I wanted to

[15:57] it's annoying

[15:59] at the same time I'm sitting there

[16:00] thinking in my head Park ro

[16:03] oh um you know it's interrupting us

[16:06] you're interrupting us

[16:08] Google um at the same time I was

[16:11] thinking in my head as I was saying that

[16:13] well lots of things don't work in

[16:15] programming too that's a big part of the

[16:17] job so why does it bother me so much

[16:19] that um you know my RV life

[16:24] technology oh my God I knew if I turn

[16:26] that would happen too I knew I anyways

[16:28] we're going to the drugstore I

[16:30] absolutely love this song I have been

[16:32] listening to it on repeat for whenever I

[16:35] first discovered it and I played it on

[16:37] my channel that one day this song Just

[16:41] Just speaks to me and it's got such a

[16:42] great beat behind it and everything I'm

[16:45] not going to play it though because you

[16:47] know that stuff gets you in trouble with

[16:48] YouTube

[16:50] beautiful always so beautiful I just

[16:53] love the way that the

[16:56] sun reflects on water I'm very

[16:59] distracted I shouldn't be doing this but

[17:01] it's beautiful Google's going to

[17:04] interrupt us in a mile less than a mile

[17:07] but let's talk about something

[17:11] so I'm running out of money like fast

[17:14] like I'm not even sure if I can pay on

[17:16] my bills anymore I think it's like real

[17:18] close so you'll probably notice that I'm

[17:22] not too stressed about that and that's

[17:23] because I believe in myself I truly

[17:25] believe in myself I can handle any

[17:27] situation that comes my way I believe

[17:28] believe that I live that reality so I'm

[17:32] going back into programming I'm going to

[17:34] do some freelancing starting next week

[17:35] I'm going to start building up my

[17:36] profiles and all that stuff and I'll

[17:39] take on some freelance

[17:40] jobs and I'll do that continue straight

[17:43] to stay on US31 East South I'll do that

[17:46] for as long as I need to and then while

[17:48] I work on trying to get a job at the

[17:50] park service cuz that's what I really

[17:51] want so just felt it was time to

[17:53] acknowledge that understand that this

[17:56] doesn't mean I have all the answers I

[17:59] don't have all the answers I just trust

[18:01] in my ability to navigate any situation

[18:05] and to work through challenges and to

[18:07] get the answers I need when I need them

[18:10] that's what I've been trying to show you

[18:11] guys for 6

[18:13] months this is how I navigate the world

[18:16] this is how I have made it to 47 years

[18:18] old how I was able to save up enough

[18:21] money to live for 6 months and my RV

[18:25] while I worked on

[18:27] myself you are cap capable of so much

[18:30] you

[18:31] are I mean this has to be like the

[18:34] hundredth time I've listened to this

[18:35] song at

[18:37] least Baron River

[18:40] Lake we're very

[18:43] close to our temporary

[18:47] home really want to get out there and

[18:51] experience that little peninsula there

[18:54] that would be so

[18:56] fabulous I don't know how you get to it

[18:58] though

[19:01] we really need to hike that

[19:03] trail I'm starving so we're going to the

[19:06] lodge first campground's that

[19:09] way where I was the other day there's

[19:12] the little um that little spot I went to

[19:14] and there's a trail over there that's

[19:15] where the bus is at we're just going to

[19:17] go down here it's very long

[19:19] road uh there's like a little horse

[19:22] stables and Villas and Cottages we'll be

[19:26] in the Cottages come Monday golf of

[19:29] course um a marina I've never seen that

[19:32] it's down further than I've ever gone

[19:35] so nice State Park very nice place all

[19:39] my friends are heathens take it

[19:43] slow I am just so obsessed with this

[19:46] song it's just

[19:48] ridiculous food we need food so

[19:53] hungry wow they're not even busy that is

[19:55] so awesome I thought they'd be like

[19:57] packed but I guess not are there any

[19:59] Jeeps around that require duckies I

[20:02] don't see

[20:05] any let's see no no Jeeps okay let's go

[20:09] get some food I don't know I guess

[20:13] maybe people are you know they're work

[20:16] today maybe did do they work on the

[20:18] Friday before Labor Day and they just

[20:21] can't come yet I don't know like maybe

[20:23] we'll see them all

[20:25] tomorrow they're not I'm really shocked

[20:27] I mean there's a lodge here

[20:32] so this is the pub they have a pub here

[20:35] and a

[20:35] restaurant they gave me permission to

[20:38] sit out here and

[20:40] eat very nice no

[20:43] pool it's summer time so that's

[20:45] confusing to

[20:49] me

[20:51] H oh look at that the Lake's over there

[20:54] I didn't know that did not know the lake

[20:57] was so close

[21:00] interesting this place is getting busy

[21:03] there's chaos

[21:05] everywhere but it's also a very new

[21:10] experience um it's Unique and I like

[21:13] stuff like that so I'm going to embrace

[21:15] it I'm going to go check out the

[21:17] campground after I get my stuff inside

[21:20] and we'll probably just go for a walk

[21:23] check things out but I move my Jeep up

[21:26] to the front in front of my RV cuz

[21:28] there's just freaking chaos around

[21:31] here this cat is experiencing pure Bliss

[21:35] right now he is exactly where he wants

[21:37] to be he's in his

[21:39] element like for an hour now this cat

[21:42] has just been completely content just

[21:46] watching all the people

[21:48] around I've been sitting out here doing

[21:51] stuff putting and anti-itch cream on all

[21:55] my mosquito bites I must have like 50 of

[21:57] them

[21:59] just letting him chill waiting on him

[22:01] now pretty much and I'm going to go for

[22:03] a walk and check the park out

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58:03

Scouting Kentucky Campgrounds and Testing GoPro Mounts

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19:06

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Aug 26, 2024

2:19

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Aug 26, 2024

4:37

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Aug 27, 2024

47:39

Hiking Mammoth Cave and Scheduling RV Repairs

Aug 27, 2024

34:37

Deciding on Park Service Work at Mammoth Cave

Aug 28, 2024

12:41

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12:32

Driving to Dental Appointment, Reconnecting With Mother

Aug 29, 2024

34:33

Preparing RV Systems Ahead of Labor Day Crowd

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11:40

Announcing Channel Rename Toward Nomadic Thinker Direction

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6:06

Walking to the Campground Shower in Pajamas

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10:31

Clarifying Reflection Without Self-Judgment

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22:10

Piercing Ears in Bowling Green on Labor Day Weekend

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50:40

Aftercare, Mammoth Cave Trails, and Boundary Statements

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13:24

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Distinguishing Integrated Cognition from Fragmented Processing

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2:50

Changing Ear Piercings While Speaking on Integration

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August 31, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

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Energetic Quality

steady, wide-bandwidth

Journey Phase

operating and recalibrating

Directional Vector

toward embodied self-authorship and self-directed resource recovery

Narrative

Morning arrived at ten, after five hours of sleep. rswfire opened the back window — the only one without a reflectix panel — to get a read on the campground before deciding anything. The neighbor's rig behind him fit its site better than he had estimated the day before. He sat with the day for a couple of minutes and it resolved into something practical: cleaning, organizing, preparing the camper for the repairs ahead. Monday he would be in a cottage. Four days to have everything done so those days could be spent doing nothing.

His back was hurting again. Six months of this, and it had improved enough that he had assumed he'd adapted — but here, on a site that was level, genuinely level, the mornings had gotten worse. He worked the contradiction out loud: at the previous campsite they had not been level and the pain had been less. Which turned the suspicion away from the mattress and toward the platform underneath it, the wood itself, some angle running through the middle where his back lands. The plan became a measuring tape and a pulled mattress. He said he was starting to run out of ideas. Bailey climbed over him while he said it.

He drove forty minutes for coffee. On the way he examined the decision rather than defending it — noting that going straight to a Starbucks twenty miles out probably minimized cognitive load, that another person would have searched for something local, that his adaptation was to fold the coffee into a larger trip because Bowling Green was a real city and he had other things to do there. He passed something that might have been a coffee shop and said he was building toward the mindset where he would stop at places like that. Not today. The trees along US-31E were beginning to turn; he noted they might be here for the right part of autumn if they gave it a couple weeks. He talked through the Mountain Dew, too — that he was still drinking it, that it had cost him teeth, that he does not judge himself for it, and that the method is substitution: buy it, but buy orange juice too, buy Pepsi, keep altering the behavior across a long horizon without the correction turning moral. The drive was tense with other people's driving. He ordered a venti hazelnut mocha, hot, enunciating each word, and afterward wondered whether the politeness had landed as rudeness.

Somewhere on that drive the second decision formed: since he was in Bowling Green, he would find a place to pierce the cartilage. Kentucky's rules had made it harder for some studios, but not impossible if he found the right one. He found it. He came back to the camera with one more piercing in the lobe and two in the cartilage, ten identical hoops in hand so that when the healing allowed, the whole configuration could be replaced at once and match. He counted the piercings aloud — three, four, five, six — and said he had considered a second on the other side but liked the elegance as it stood. He had wanted this for months. He said it was very temporary pain, that he'd had all his teeth pulled, that this was nothing. The studio filmed him getting it done. The recovery would be the harder part: no sleeping on that side, and he is a side sleeper, possibly for months. Within the hour the ear was already hurting. He said he loved it, that there were no words, that he was so freaking happy about it.

Back at Barren River Lake the campground was filling exactly as predicted. He drove the loops narrating what he found — one new camper here, the lower loop packed, the site where he had hiked yesterday now occupied, empty ground that would not be empty by nightfall. He had prepared for this mentally, called it his worst nightmare and then decided to make the best of it, to walk around and see how everybody camps. Inside, he had left the back window open without reflectix: 77 degrees at one end, 80 at the other, probably 85 in the cab where Bailey had been lying, because Bailey likes heat. This should be the last day of it, he said. After this the temperatures start dropping, a little better each week.

The afternoon ran through errands and adjacent thinking. A drugstore run for aftercare supplies, so the piercings stayed clean. A design problem posed and left open — some kind of chest mount for the camera, so walking the loops with it didn't read as obvious, and so short hikes wouldn't require the backpack. A neighbor appeared and prompted a reconsideration of being watched: he described how, observing someone spraying mosquito repellent on their clothes, he would build out a whole map of connections and inferences, and said he doesn't assume others do that. If they don't see what he sees, the observation isn't symmetrical, and he said maybe he should stop caring so much and just be himself. Google Maps interrupted him repeatedly. He caught himself being frustrated that the technology in his RV life doesn't work the way he wants, then noted that plenty doesn't work in programming either — that's most of the job — and asked himself why this frustrates him differently. A song he has been playing on repeat since he found it played through all of it, unplayed on camera because of YouTube.

Then, driving beside water with the sun on it, he named the thing directly: he is running out of money, fast, close to not being able to pay his bills. He pointed out that he did not sound stressed, and gave the reason — he believes in himself, he can handle any situation, he lives that reality. Starting next week he goes back into programming, builds up the freelance profiles, takes on work for as long as it takes, and works in parallel toward the park service job, which is what he actually wants. He said this doesn't mean he has the answers. He doesn't have the answers. He trusts his ability to navigate the situation and to get the answers when he needs them, and said that is what he has been showing for six months, that it is how he has made it to forty-seven, how he saved enough to live in the RV while he worked on himself. He ate at the lodge pub, given permission to sit outside, surprised by how empty it was, noting the marina and the cottages where he'd be come Monday and the lake closer than he'd realized. He came back to chaos in the campground, moved the Jeep up in front of the RV, and sat outside applying anti-itch cream to something like fifty mosquito bites while Bailey watched the crowd for an hour in what he described as pure bliss. Then he got up to walk the park.

Summary

rswfire opens the day at 10:00 AM on five hours of sleep, surveying the campground ahead of Labor Day weekend and setting a practical agenda: cleaning and organizing the camper before it goes in for repairs, and before a planned stay at a cottage on Monday.

He describes a six-month pattern of morning back pain that intensified after arriving at a fully level site, and proposes a new hypothesis — that the bed platform itself, not the mattress, may be causing the stress. He plans to pull the mattress and measure.

He drives roughly 40 minutes to Bowling Green for Starbucks, noting he chooses the known option to minimize cognitive load, and states an intention to start using local coffee shops. He describes his approach to Mountain Dew as ongoing behavioral alteration without self-judgment — substitution rather than prohibition — and connects it to losing his teeth.

In Bowling Green he gets three new ear piercings, including cartilage, and receives ten hoops to install once healed. He notes the healing period and side-sleeping adjustment.

He states directly that he is running out of money and may not be able to pay bills, and announces a decision: return to freelance programming next week while pursuing a Park Service job. He states he trusts his ability to navigate any situation.

He returns to a filling campground, eats at the lodge pub, and sits outside with Bailey.

Environment

Recorded across a single day at a Kentucky state park campground near Barren River Lake, moving between an RV interior, a Jeep in transit, and public commercial space in Bowling Green. The camper is parked and leveled at a wooded campground filling for Labor Day weekend; windows are closed with reflectix panels except one, interior temperatures run 77–85°F, and Bailey the cat is present throughout.

Travel segments cover a 40-minute drive on US-31E with Google Maps navigation interrupting, a Starbucks drive-through, a piercing studio, a drugstore run, and the Barren River Lake State Resort Park lodge and pub, where he eats outdoors. Cottages at the park are booked for the coming Monday.

Substrate

rswfire holds a position of non-judgmental self-modification: behavior is altered through substitution and iteration rather than through moral correction, and the same method is applied to a physical symptom, a habit, a consumption pattern, and a depleting income stream. The architecture being built is a self-trusting navigation system — he states that he does not have answers but trusts his capacity to obtain them — with the body treated as instrumented terrain (bed platform geometry, cartilage healing, mosquito bites, temperature) rather than as a problem to be resolved. Financial depletion and returning to freelance programming are placed inside that same operating frame as adjustable variables, not rupture.

Actions

Performed

•opening the back window of the camper
•assessing the neighboring campsite
•planning the day aloud from inside the RV
•diagnosing back pain against bed platform level
•driving 40 minutes to Bowling Green
•ordering a venti hazelnut mocha at Starbucks
•getting three ear cartilage piercings
•displaying ten hoops received from the studio
•surveying campground loops filling for the weekend
•reading interior temperatures (77°, 80°, ~85° in cab)
•checking on Bailey and noting his water and treats
•driving to a drugstore for piercing aftercare supplies
•stating financial depletion on camera
•eating at the state park lodge pub outdoors
•applying anti-itch cream to mosquito bites
•moving the Jeep in front of the RV

Referenced

•stayed up until 5 a.m., slept five hours
•six months of ongoing back pain
•previous campsite was not level, less pain there
•adapting by drinking cold coffee
•documenting for six months on the channel
•saved money to live six months in the RV
•had all teeth pulled
•ongoing effort to reduce Mountain Dew intake
•substituting orange juice and Pepsi for Mountain Dew
•hiked a nearby loop the previous day
•passed the Corps of Engineers Trail
•studio recorded video of the piercing

Planned

•cleaning and organizing the camper
•preparing the camper for repairs
•pulling the mattress and measuring the bed platform
•putting reflectix in the open window
•staying at a park cottage Monday
•replacing piercings with hoops after healing (~1 month)
•adjusting side-sleeping during healing
•seeking out local coffee shops instead of Starbucks
•devising a chest-mounted camera rig
•walking the campground to observe the weekend crowd
•hiking the peninsula trail
•building freelance profiles and taking programming jobs next week
•pursuing a park service job

Entities

beings

Bailey — cat traveling with rswfire; described as content watching campground activity

places

Barren River Lake — lake adjacent to the campground; peninsula he wants to reach

Barren River Lake State Resort Park — state park containing the campground, lodge, pub, marina, stables, cottages

Bowling Green — Kentucky city 20 miles out; site of Starbucks, piercing studio, drugstore

Corps of Engineers Trail — trail passed but not yet hiked

Mammoth Cave / Natural Bridge — named as exploration destinations en route

US-31E — route driven back from Bowling Green

systems

Starbucks — default coffee destination; cited as a cognitive-load-minimizing choice

Kentucky piercing regulations — state rules constraining which studios perform cartilage piercing

Park Service — stated employment target

Freelance programming — income channel being reactivated

Google Maps — navigation voice repeatedly interrupting the transmission

YouTube — publication platform; copyright constraint on playing music

Jeep — tow/transport vehicle; repositioned in front of the RV

concepts

Labor Day weekend — structural pressure filling the campground with visitors

Mountain Dew — consumption pattern he is altering by substitution without self-judgment

media

'Heathens' — song on repeat during driving segments

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

level / out-of-level

threshold (piercing as marked passage)

window

road

water reflecting sun

healing wound

hoops (ten identical, replacement set)

arriving crowd

turning leaves

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (states financial depletion and responds with self-trust and a work plan rather than appeal)

embodied (cartilage piercing, back pain diagnostics, tooth loss, mosquito bites tracked as first-order data)

iterating (behavior modified by substitution over long horizons without judgment)

transitional (six-month RV interval closing; income model shifting back toward programming)

observed (registers being watched by neighbors and by the camera, and decides observation asymmetry is not binding)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

somatic (back pain diagnostics, piercing pain and healing protocol, sleep position, heat load)

infrastructural (bed platform geometry, reflectix, camper repairs, RV technology failures)

cognitive (explicit modeling of cognitive load, mental mapping, interconnection-seeing)

behavioral (substitution method applied to Mountain Dew without self-judgment)

economic (funds nearing depletion; freelance reactivation; park service target)

documentary (camera operation, chest-mount rig design, YouTube constraints)

relational-domestic (Bailey's water, treats, comfort, and contentment)

environmental (campground occupancy, temperature readings, seasonal turn, mosquitoes)

aesthetic (piercing configuration, elegance of asymmetry, song on repeat)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

level / not level

I don't judge myself

cognitive load

I believe in myself / trust my ability to navigate

finally got it done

running out of money

how I navigate the world

Narrative

Mirror

You wake on five hours of sleep and open one window. The rest still hold reflectix. You are level — precisely level, and you say so twice — and your back hurts more than it did when you were not level. You do not resolve this. You state the contradiction, name the bed platform as the next variable to measure, and note that you are starting to run out of ideas. The mattress is still on the platform. The measuring tape has not come out yet. You have three days and you have already assigned them to cleaning and organizing.

You drive forty minutes for coffee and narrate the decision while making it. You pass what may be a local coffee shop, register it, decline it, and place it in a future you describe as a mindset you are getting yourself into. You track the same mechanism in the Mountain Dew: substitute, do not judge, run it long. You name the tooth loss as consequence and do not attach it to blame. The method is identical across the coffee, the soda, the ear, and the income — you alter a variable and keep operating while it changes.

You get the cartilage pierced. You have wanted this for months and you say finally got it done three times. You carry ten identical hoops so the replacement set will match. You decline the second piercing on the other side because you prefer the elegance as it stands. You state that the pain was minimal, that the recovery is the hard part, that you sleep on that side and will have to stop for a month or two. Your ear is already hurting by mid-afternoon and you report both facts in the same breath: it hurts, you love it.

You register being watched — the neighbor, the arriving weekend crowd, the camera you would rather mount on your chest than carry visibly. You think through the asymmetry directly: when you observe someone, you see interconnections, mental maps, chains of inference. You conclude that others likely do not, and that the observation is therefore not binding. Maybe I should just be myself and not care anymore. You do not resolve this either; you say that is where you are heading.

You say you are running out of money fast, that you may not be able to pay your bills, and you say it while driving on US-31E with navigation cutting in. You name your own lack of stress about it and give the reason: you believe in yourself, you do not have the answers, you trust your capacity to get them. The plan is stated flat — freelance programming starting next week, profiles built up, jobs taken for as long as needed, park service as the actual target. The six-month interval is named as what it was and as closing.

Present: temperature readings, mosquito bite counts, the cat's water and treats and contentment, the turning leaves, the sun on the lake, the song on its hundredth repeat, the peninsula you cannot yet find the route to. Absent: any appeal, any request, any account of what else was going on today that you said you were not going to talk about. You end the day sitting outside applying anti-itch cream, waiting on Bailey before you walk the campground.

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