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[0:00] hi guys so I'm going to move sights

[0:02] today in the same Campground I'm just

[0:05] going to move right across the just like

[0:06] I did at the first campground that's so

[0:08] funny this next one's a back ins sight

[0:12] um I'll manag there's not a lot of

[0:14] people here I'll manage and I'll spend

[0:16] the next week there just getting

[0:18] organized and adjusting

[0:21] and going through everything I'm going

[0:24] through you know and hopefully by the

[0:25] end of that life will be good cuz that's

[0:28] what I need um I talked to the park

[0:31] manager she's so cool I just absolutely

[0:33] love this person she's

[0:35] awesome um she's told me where to go and

[0:39] get propane and kind of gave me some

[0:42] tips on how to figure out where I could

[0:44] do that um apparently my situation isn't

[0:47] all that common most people TS come

[0:50] out so that kind of sucks but you know

[0:55] um she's like I don't even like dealing

[0:56] with it she she has the same situation

[0:58] she she external on to Tennessee 885

[1:02] West so I'm on my way to Walmart um cuz

[1:06] that's the only place I know where you

[1:08] know I think I'm going further than I

[1:09] have to I think there's like a dollar

[1:12] store

[1:14] somewhere

[1:16] um cuz I need some things I need

[1:19] Pop um take the next left onto Tennessee

[1:22] 85

[1:24] West not sure what else I need really I

[1:27] have to think about I knew I should have

[1:28] made a list but I need to get cleaned up

[1:31] in there because it is not good like so

[1:35] I didn't realize this but the litter box

[1:38] underneath of it it was leing Tennessee

[1:40] 85 West for 9 miles that's pretty gross

[1:43] think God it was on

[1:44] lolium um so I tore that out you know so

[1:49] I'm just going to everything cleaned up

[1:50] in there with the cats gone I do have

[1:53] more space that I can take advantage of

[1:56] kind of feel conflicted about that but

[1:59] you know you know it's for the best I

[2:02] just I'm not I it's for the best I did

[2:05] this I can't take back what I've done so

[2:08] now I got to make the best of it so

[2:10] that's what I'm doing I sneezed and this

[2:13] man said flash you to me it was really

[2:15] sweet so I am at

[2:19] Walmart another

[2:22] $300 this time it's mostly

[2:25] for um cleaning supplies so

[2:30] turns out my litter box I don't know

[2:33] what was going on with it but underneath

[2:35] of it was caked in here and fortunately

[2:38] was under

[2:40] lenium so I pulled that out you know and

[2:43] I dumped it all at the

[2:46] dumpster

[2:47] um just got a bunch of cleaning supplies

[2:50] let me get my camper cleaned

[2:52] up that's the first step to feeling

[2:55] like like you're living a normal life

[2:59] got some grape juice some granberry

[3:01] juice some orange

[3:03] juice some Mountain Dew

[3:06] Pepsi um you know brma Swiffer I got

[3:11] some um hot cup

[3:14] like cuz like if I don't have to clean

[3:16] my coffee cup every day that will help I

[3:18] don't like being that environmentally

[3:20] irresponsible but I don't know another

[3:23] way uh I talked to the um the park

[3:27] manager

[3:30] and she sent me up with the site across

[3:32] from where I'm at for the next week

[3:34] starting today I can move over there

[3:35] whenever I want

[3:37] to um cuz I kind of needed it I need the

[3:40] Leer of it I got to decide to you know

[3:42] today I'm going to go clean my tanks and

[3:44] then I'll move into that new

[3:45] site I don't know how long that'll take

[3:48] me it's feeling with draw it's not fun

[3:51] oh a lot of medications

[3:53] too that I could find it was hard to

[3:55] find anything in

[3:57] there so

[4:00] another $300 at Walmart that's

[4:06] $500 is what it

[4:10] is

[4:13] um unfortunate that that I'm doing

[4:17] okay and it's a little bit of

[4:21] time I think I'm going to get this this

[4:24] life

[4:25] together to figure it

[4:28] out I'm pretty good

[4:30] um emotionally I don't know that I would

[4:32] say physically feel very

[4:36] tired remember always put your plants

[4:39] away okay always just go for

[4:42] [Music]

[4:43] me see

[4:45] that now

[4:47] admittedly Walmart is a little different

[4:51] cuz if you push too far that's what

[4:52] happened to me last time I push too far

[4:55] and they went right out the other so you

[4:58] don't want that

[5:00] but you know just try to put your card

[5:04] away

[5:07] so lots of people don't I don't know

[5:11] why just be

[5:14] considerate I know Caroline says be

[5:17] kind I don't know what I was saying I

[5:19] just say be

[5:21] considerate be

[5:25] kind there no reason not to be all right

[5:28] got gas that was 40 bucks this is an

[5:31] expensive life guys you just need to

[5:33] know

[5:34] that so I'm on my way back to the

[5:37] campground now I am so

[5:40] exhausted I have no energy I'm just so

[5:42] tired but that's withdrawal I know it is

[5:46] but that's you know life goes on you got

[5:49] to do the things you got to

[5:51] do so I I got the things I need to take

[5:54] care of my situation there and then

[6:00] I think I'll feel a lot better once I

[6:01] moov to campsites cuz I got a place for

[6:03] a week you know to just chill there I

[6:06] need to cancel on my other reservations

[6:07] probably lost some money on that

[6:10] but you know it is what it is I'm still

[6:15] new to this and trying to figure out

[6:17] exactly what it is I'm trying to want to

[6:18] do and you know how I'm going to feel

[6:21] about it I'm just trying I'm doing my

[6:23] best that's all I can

[6:25] do um eventually I'll get better at it

[6:28] you know eventually I'll be

[6:30] able to make plans and know that I'm

[6:31] going to keep

[6:34] them cuz yeah so I'm good and I will you

[6:38] know just going to leave it there I am

[6:41] not 100% sure what I've told you guys I

[6:43] made a few videos and I realized like

[6:46] there's one of them I don't think I'm

[6:47] posting so let me just might repeat

[6:50] myself sorry so I went up and I talked

[6:53] to the park manager she's cool I really

[6:55] like her a lot like she's awesome maybe

[6:58] I shouldn't say that

[7:00] going to have to cut that

[7:02] out um well it's that a secret it's

[7:05] pretty obvious too I don't know

[7:09] um this is like the craziest Road ever

[7:14] anyway she's really cool and she like

[7:16] from the very beginning like I told her

[7:18] I'm really knew at this and I think that

[7:19] they kind of endeared her to me a little

[7:22] bit like she just she's been real nice

[7:24] to me you know and like she she did tell

[7:28] me finally where to go go get propane

[7:30] that

[7:31] you you know that doesn't come out of

[7:33] your

[7:33] vehicle she told me about her propane

[7:36] setup she said she doesn't use hers

[7:38] either she doesn't like um having you

[7:42] know she's got some external ones she

[7:43] can use I got to figure that

[7:46] out I'm going to figure all this out um

[7:50] so anyways you know I'm just like can

[7:52] you find me a site for the next 5 to 7

[7:56] Days um

[8:01] so so you know I just need a place to

[8:02] jaill for a while and she found them

[8:06] right across from me or those one people

[8:08] were I like they have all that stuff and

[8:10] I I saw the comment somebody was like

[8:11] that's not a lot of stuff well first of

[8:14] all I didn't have my contacts in it just

[8:15] looked like a lot of stuff and second I

[8:18] know it could have been a lot worse but

[8:21] there still a lot of stuff anyways I'm

[8:24] going to be there for the next

[8:26] week and so I'm paying for both sites

[8:28] right now so that I can do it at my

[8:31] leisure because when I get back I got to

[8:33] do a lot of cleaning and

[8:36] then um you know pack up camp go and

[8:41] drain the tanks and then go to my new

[8:44] site which is a back in sight so you

[8:47] know a new challenge I mean I've already

[8:49] done that but it's still a challenge but

[8:52] it's a nice spot and it's you know I

[8:55] think I'll like it I think it'll be a

[8:56] great place to just relax for a week cuz

[8:58] that's what I need I need to give my

[9:00] body time to just recover from two

[9:05] months of

[9:07] craziness and 4 days of Hell basically

[9:11] you guys got to bear with me this is

[9:13] went out of the road oh my God this is

[9:18] something

[9:19] else there's a town here I want to just

[9:23] go there and

[9:24] just um I've been there a bunch of times

[9:26] now every time I have to drive into

[9:28] Kentucky I end up in

[9:30] Town it was built on this hill like like

[9:34] just rows and row like going down

[9:36] further and further and further like I

[9:38] just I've never seen anything like it

[9:39] that I can think of and it's just like

[9:42] wow people built a town here like on the

[9:45] Steep angle going it's just it's

[9:48] different I just want to go and chill

[9:49] there and show it to you guys one day

[9:51] feel like my Channel's going to have

[9:53] some of that going on you

[9:55] know um I'm just I got to get through

[9:58] everything you know my I am not at my

[10:00] best right now so yeah I'm just going to

[10:03] leave it there listen guys I just got to

[10:06] say this I know you're not getting

[10:08] behind the idea right you think Sam

[10:10] second a qu mile turn right onto Salt

[10:12] Lake Park Lane I know where I am lady

[10:15] all right let's turn this

[10:17] off let me try this again I know you're

[10:20] not all getting behind the

[10:23] idea of me changing my my channel name

[10:27] Sam second life just doesn't fit though

[10:29] because it's not my second life you know

[10:31] what I actually don't know where I am I

[10:33] think I turn

[10:35] here oh that is so

[10:37] funny I'm sorry lady for get mad at you

[10:41] so um I just think the world according

[10:45] to Sam is just a really cool name so I

[10:48] like him I here's the thing I've had

[10:50] like 20 lives I have started over so

[10:53] many times in my life that every single

[10:57] one of those was a new life truly

[11:00] so this ain't my second life this I

[11:03] don't even know what I I lost count if

[11:05] you guys knew how many places I've lived

[11:07] in my life just from childhood just my

[11:11] childhood years not even counting the

[11:12] adult

[11:13] ones it's a big number all right it is

[11:17] dozens and dozens and dozens of

[11:21] places so this isn't my second life it's

[11:24] just a new life and it just made sense

[11:27] to call it that you hope I'm going the

[11:29] right way and I just think the world

[11:32] according to Sam it's just you know it's

[11:36] this is me experiencing the

[11:39] world love that Squad everyone heard

[11:44] um yeah it's been a good portion of my

[11:47] life on the internet and but not all of

[11:50] it that's what I'm talking about

[11:53] experienced a lot in

[11:55] life I just want a channel that's just

[11:58] from my perspective back to that's all

[12:00] this

[12:01] is

[12:03] so yeah think I'm going to change my

[12:06] channel name guys really hope you'll get

[12:08] behind it cuz I think it's a cool name I

[12:11] found my way back without that little

[12:14] machine I mean I wasn't far from here so

[12:18] shouldn't give myself too much

[12:21] credit I am going to go back to my

[12:24] camper and

[12:27] then possibly just lay down and go to

[12:30] sleep I am so

[12:32] exhausted or eat something I need to eat

[12:35] and then at some point

[12:38] though it's noon right

[12:40] now um just you

[12:43] know do the task I need to do in order

[12:46] to move sights so that's what we'll do

[12:49] and we'll start a new week guys I swear

[12:52] I have the worst beted on Earth and I

[12:54] got to find something better

[12:56] because good sleep is important right so

[12:59] I just I got to figure that out I hate

[13:02] that man I freaking hate it

[0:00] hi guys so I'm going to move sights

[0:02] today in the same Campground I'm just

[0:05] going to move right across the just like

[0:06] I did at the first campground that's so

[0:08] funny this next one's a back ins sight

[0:12] um I'll manag there's not a lot of

[0:14] people here I'll manage and I'll spend

[0:16] the next week there just getting

[0:18] organized and adjusting

[0:21] and going through everything I'm going

[0:24] through you know and hopefully by the

[0:25] end of that life will be good cuz that's

[0:28] what I need um I talked to the park

[0:31] manager she's so cool I just absolutely

[0:33] love this person she's

[0:35] awesome um she's told me where to go and

[0:39] get propane and kind of gave me some

[0:42] tips on how to figure out where I could

[0:44] do that um apparently my situation isn't

[0:47] all that common most people TS come

[0:50] out so that kind of sucks but you know

[0:55] um she's like I don't even like dealing

[0:56] with it she she has the same situation

[0:58] she she external on to Tennessee 885

[1:02] West so I'm on my way to Walmart um cuz

[1:06] that's the only place I know where you

[1:08] know I think I'm going further than I

[1:09] have to I think there's like a dollar

[1:12] store

[1:14] somewhere

[1:16] um cuz I need some things I need

[1:19] Pop um take the next left onto Tennessee

[1:22] 85

[1:24] West not sure what else I need really I

[1:27] have to think about I knew I should have

[1:28] made a list but I need to get cleaned up

[1:31] in there because it is not good like so

[1:35] I didn't realize this but the litter box

[1:38] underneath of it it was leing Tennessee

[1:40] 85 West for 9 miles that's pretty gross

[1:43] think God it was on

[1:44] lolium um so I tore that out you know so

[1:49] I'm just going to everything cleaned up

[1:50] in there with the cats gone I do have

[1:53] more space that I can take advantage of

[1:56] kind of feel conflicted about that but

[1:59] you know you know it's for the best I

[2:02] just I'm not I it's for the best I did

[2:05] this I can't take back what I've done so

[2:08] now I got to make the best of it so

[2:10] that's what I'm doing I sneezed and this

[2:13] man said flash you to me it was really

[2:15] sweet so I am at

[2:19] Walmart another

[2:22] $300 this time it's mostly

[2:25] for um cleaning supplies so

[2:30] turns out my litter box I don't know

[2:33] what was going on with it but underneath

[2:35] of it was caked in here and fortunately

[2:38] was under

[2:40] lenium so I pulled that out you know and

[2:43] I dumped it all at the

[2:46] dumpster

[2:47] um just got a bunch of cleaning supplies

[2:50] let me get my camper cleaned

[2:52] up that's the first step to feeling

[2:55] like like you're living a normal life

[2:59] got some grape juice some granberry

[3:01] juice some orange

[3:03] juice some Mountain Dew

[3:06] Pepsi um you know brma Swiffer I got

[3:11] some um hot cup

[3:14] like cuz like if I don't have to clean

[3:16] my coffee cup every day that will help I

[3:18] don't like being that environmentally

[3:20] irresponsible but I don't know another

[3:23] way uh I talked to the um the park

[3:27] manager

[3:30] and she sent me up with the site across

[3:32] from where I'm at for the next week

[3:34] starting today I can move over there

[3:35] whenever I want

[3:37] to um cuz I kind of needed it I need the

[3:40] Leer of it I got to decide to you know

[3:42] today I'm going to go clean my tanks and

[3:44] then I'll move into that new

[3:45] site I don't know how long that'll take

[3:48] me it's feeling with draw it's not fun

[3:51] oh a lot of medications

[3:53] too that I could find it was hard to

[3:55] find anything in

[3:57] there so

[4:00] another $300 at Walmart that's

[4:06] $500 is what it

[4:10] is

[4:13] um unfortunate that that I'm doing

[4:17] okay and it's a little bit of

[4:21] time I think I'm going to get this this

[4:24] life

[4:25] together to figure it

[4:28] out I'm pretty good

[4:30] um emotionally I don't know that I would

[4:32] say physically feel very

[4:36] tired remember always put your plants

[4:39] away okay always just go for

[4:42] [Music]

[4:43] me see

[4:45] that now

[4:47] admittedly Walmart is a little different

[4:51] cuz if you push too far that's what

[4:52] happened to me last time I push too far

[4:55] and they went right out the other so you

[4:58] don't want that

[5:00] but you know just try to put your card

[5:04] away

[5:07] so lots of people don't I don't know

[5:11] why just be

[5:14] considerate I know Caroline says be

[5:17] kind I don't know what I was saying I

[5:19] just say be

[5:21] considerate be

[5:25] kind there no reason not to be all right

[5:28] got gas that was 40 bucks this is an

[5:31] expensive life guys you just need to

[5:33] know

[5:34] that so I'm on my way back to the

[5:37] campground now I am so

[5:40] exhausted I have no energy I'm just so

[5:42] tired but that's withdrawal I know it is

[5:46] but that's you know life goes on you got

[5:49] to do the things you got to

[5:51] do so I I got the things I need to take

[5:54] care of my situation there and then

[6:00] I think I'll feel a lot better once I

[6:01] moov to campsites cuz I got a place for

[6:03] a week you know to just chill there I

[6:06] need to cancel on my other reservations

[6:07] probably lost some money on that

[6:10] but you know it is what it is I'm still

[6:15] new to this and trying to figure out

[6:17] exactly what it is I'm trying to want to

[6:18] do and you know how I'm going to feel

[6:21] about it I'm just trying I'm doing my

[6:23] best that's all I can

[6:25] do um eventually I'll get better at it

[6:28] you know eventually I'll be

[6:30] able to make plans and know that I'm

[6:31] going to keep

[6:34] them cuz yeah so I'm good and I will you

[6:38] know just going to leave it there I am

[6:41] not 100% sure what I've told you guys I

[6:43] made a few videos and I realized like

[6:46] there's one of them I don't think I'm

[6:47] posting so let me just might repeat

[6:50] myself sorry so I went up and I talked

[6:53] to the park manager she's cool I really

[6:55] like her a lot like she's awesome maybe

[6:58] I shouldn't say that

[7:00] going to have to cut that

[7:02] out um well it's that a secret it's

[7:05] pretty obvious too I don't know

[7:09] um this is like the craziest Road ever

[7:14] anyway she's really cool and she like

[7:16] from the very beginning like I told her

[7:18] I'm really knew at this and I think that

[7:19] they kind of endeared her to me a little

[7:22] bit like she just she's been real nice

[7:24] to me you know and like she she did tell

[7:28] me finally where to go go get propane

[7:30] that

[7:31] you you know that doesn't come out of

[7:33] your

[7:33] vehicle she told me about her propane

[7:36] setup she said she doesn't use hers

[7:38] either she doesn't like um having you

[7:42] know she's got some external ones she

[7:43] can use I got to figure that

[7:46] out I'm going to figure all this out um

[7:50] so anyways you know I'm just like can

[7:52] you find me a site for the next 5 to 7

[7:56] Days um

[8:01] so so you know I just need a place to

[8:02] jaill for a while and she found them

[8:06] right across from me or those one people

[8:08] were I like they have all that stuff and

[8:10] I I saw the comment somebody was like

[8:11] that's not a lot of stuff well first of

[8:14] all I didn't have my contacts in it just

[8:15] looked like a lot of stuff and second I

[8:18] know it could have been a lot worse but

[8:21] there still a lot of stuff anyways I'm

[8:24] going to be there for the next

[8:26] week and so I'm paying for both sites

[8:28] right now so that I can do it at my

[8:31] leisure because when I get back I got to

[8:33] do a lot of cleaning and

[8:36] then um you know pack up camp go and

[8:41] drain the tanks and then go to my new

[8:44] site which is a back in sight so you

[8:47] know a new challenge I mean I've already

[8:49] done that but it's still a challenge but

[8:52] it's a nice spot and it's you know I

[8:55] think I'll like it I think it'll be a

[8:56] great place to just relax for a week cuz

[8:58] that's what I need I need to give my

[9:00] body time to just recover from two

[9:05] months of

[9:07] craziness and 4 days of Hell basically

[9:11] you guys got to bear with me this is

[9:13] went out of the road oh my God this is

[9:18] something

[9:19] else there's a town here I want to just

[9:23] go there and

[9:24] just um I've been there a bunch of times

[9:26] now every time I have to drive into

[9:28] Kentucky I end up in

[9:30] Town it was built on this hill like like

[9:34] just rows and row like going down

[9:36] further and further and further like I

[9:38] just I've never seen anything like it

[9:39] that I can think of and it's just like

[9:42] wow people built a town here like on the

[9:45] Steep angle going it's just it's

[9:48] different I just want to go and chill

[9:49] there and show it to you guys one day

[9:51] feel like my Channel's going to have

[9:53] some of that going on you

[9:55] know um I'm just I got to get through

[9:58] everything you know my I am not at my

[10:00] best right now so yeah I'm just going to

[10:03] leave it there listen guys I just got to

[10:06] say this I know you're not getting

[10:08] behind the idea right you think Sam

[10:10] second a qu mile turn right onto Salt

[10:12] Lake Park Lane I know where I am lady

[10:15] all right let's turn this

[10:17] off let me try this again I know you're

[10:20] not all getting behind the

[10:23] idea of me changing my my channel name

[10:27] Sam second life just doesn't fit though

[10:29] because it's not my second life you know

[10:31] what I actually don't know where I am I

[10:33] think I turn

[10:35] here oh that is so

[10:37] funny I'm sorry lady for get mad at you

[10:41] so um I just think the world according

[10:45] to Sam is just a really cool name so I

[10:48] like him I here's the thing I've had

[10:50] like 20 lives I have started over so

[10:53] many times in my life that every single

[10:57] one of those was a new life truly

[11:00] so this ain't my second life this I

[11:03] don't even know what I I lost count if

[11:05] you guys knew how many places I've lived

[11:07] in my life just from childhood just my

[11:11] childhood years not even counting the

[11:12] adult

[11:13] ones it's a big number all right it is

[11:17] dozens and dozens and dozens of

[11:21] places so this isn't my second life it's

[11:24] just a new life and it just made sense

[11:27] to call it that you hope I'm going the

[11:29] right way and I just think the world

[11:32] according to Sam it's just you know it's

[11:36] this is me experiencing the

[11:39] world love that Squad everyone heard

[11:44] um yeah it's been a good portion of my

[11:47] life on the internet and but not all of

[11:50] it that's what I'm talking about

[11:53] experienced a lot in

[11:55] life I just want a channel that's just

[11:58] from my perspective back to that's all

[12:00] this

[12:01] is

[12:03] so yeah think I'm going to change my

[12:06] channel name guys really hope you'll get

[12:08] behind it cuz I think it's a cool name I

[12:11] found my way back without that little

[12:14] machine I mean I wasn't far from here so

[12:18] shouldn't give myself too much

[12:21] credit I am going to go back to my

[12:24] camper and

[12:27] then possibly just lay down and go to

[12:30] sleep I am so

[12:32] exhausted or eat something I need to eat

[12:35] and then at some point

[12:38] though it's noon right

[12:40] now um just you

[12:43] know do the task I need to do in order

[12:46] to move sights so that's what we'll do

[12:49] and we'll start a new week guys I swear

[12:52] I have the worst beted on Earth and I

[12:54] got to find something better

[12:56] because good sleep is important right so

[12:59] I just I got to figure that out I hate

[13:02] that man I freaking hate it

36:41

Rain, Power Loss, and First Weeks in the Camper

Apr 26, 2024

9:26

Recovering Journals, Driving to Carthage Walmart

Apr 26, 2024

21:31

Cooking First Chili in the Camper on a Windy Day

Apr 27, 2024

5:43

Explaining Why Tapering Is Not Available

Apr 27, 2024

3:23

Clearing the House, Recovering the Journals

Apr 27, 2024

21:34

Assessing Camper Level While Tapering Off Opioids

Apr 28, 2024

3:14

Waking to an Emptied Campground, Recalibrating the Day

Apr 28, 2024

2:11

Leveling the RV, Weighing Travel Pace

Apr 28, 2024

2:53

Day One of Withdrawal at the Campground

Apr 29, 2024

4:23

Documenting First Night Off Opioids

Apr 29, 2024

20:41

Walking the Campground on Site 77

Apr 29, 2024

3:19

Setting Up Twitch Stream Without Sleep

Apr 29, 2024

6:08

Addressing Trolls, Gray Tank, and Cat Housing Decision

Apr 30, 2024

2:55

Relocating Cats to Parents Early in Camper Life

Apr 30, 2024

6:58

Handing Off Cats and Leaving the House

Apr 30, 2024

5:29

Recalibrating Route Plan Mid-Drive Through Tennessee

May 1, 2024

12:08

Day 21 Systems Check and Final Walkthrough

May 1, 2024

13:46

Moving Sites, Restocking, Renaming the Channel

May 1, 2024

17:15

Dumping Tanks and Repositioning to New Site

May 2, 2024

2:07

Acknowledging Loneliness as Structural Recalibration

May 2, 2024

12:20

Recording Post-Withdrawal Day at New Campground Site

May 2, 2024

8:07

Recounting the Land Deal and Choosing the Camper

May 2, 2024

0:50

Rerouting Travel Plans at Lake Cumberland

May 3, 2024

6:33

Addressing Tramadol Withdrawal Timeline and Channel Direction

May 4, 2024

3:28

Morning Camper Routine and Tramadol Withdrawal Notes

May 4, 2024

1:34

Reassigning Freed Storage Space Under the Bed

May 4, 2024

1:28

Sharing Wooden Book-Folding Hobby on Camera

May 4, 2024

11:00

Organizing Camper, Naming Land and Cabin Goal

May 4, 2024

37:19

Preparing Travel Day With Cats and Withdrawal Plan

May 5, 2024

8:16

Documenting Withdrawal Recurrence and Severing Medical Trust

May 5, 2024

13:28

Morning Camper Check-In on Cooking, Creativity, Change

May 5, 2024

2:21

Planning a Store Run and Learning to Cook

May 5, 2024

13:07

Trying Tea for the First Time After Showers

May 5, 2024

1:08

Recording Birdsong at Siltcoos

May 6, 2024

6:06

Building a Fire and Stating Motivations

May 6, 2024

2:55

Recording Empty Campground at Siltcoos

May 6, 2024

7:27

Recording a 6 AM Walk at the Campsite

May 6, 2024

7:53

Revisiting Spirituality and Agnosticism at Camp

May 6, 2024

40:00

Scouting Lake Cumberland, Visiting Family and Cats

May 7, 2024

11:01

Morning Fog Walk, BetterHelp Exit, Substitution Plans

May 7, 2024

1:26

Recording Road Incident After Braking for Squirrel

May 7, 2024

PUBLIC

May 1, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp -0.30

Density 0.60

Energetic Quality

low-voltage, task-steady

Journey Phase

transitional — mid-relocation, mid-reset

Directional Vector

toward a stabilized week in one place and a self-chosen name

Narrative

The morning began with a decision already made: he would move sites without leaving the campground. The new spot was directly across the way — a back-in this time — and he'd hold both for a stretch so the move could happen at his own pace. He said it plainly to the camera from the driver's seat, the way a person states a plan they've already turned over enough times to stop turning: a week in one place, organized, adjusted, gone through. Hopefully by the end of that life will be good, cuz that's what I need. The park manager had set it up. He described her as cool, awesome, someone who had been good to him since he told her outright that he was new at this. She was also the one who finally told him where to get propane that didn't come out of the vehicle, and mentioned she didn't use hers either — external tanks, her own workaround. He noted that his situation wasn't common. Most people's tanks come out. That was information, and he took it as information.

The drive to Walmart ran nine miles out on Tennessee 85 West, past the 885 split, the GPS voice cutting across his sentences with instructions he didn't need — a quarter mile, turn right onto Salt Lake Park Lane — until he told her, out loud and with some affection, that he knew where he was. He was going further than he had to. There was a dollar store somewhere, he thought. But Walmart was the store he knew, so Walmart was where he went. He hadn't made a list and said so. Somewhere in the middle of the errand a man told him bless you after he sneezed, and he mentioned it because it was sweet.

What he needed was cleaning supplies, and the reason was specific. Under the litter box, something had been leaking, and it had caked underneath — fortunately onto linoleum, which meant he could tear the linoleum out, which he had, and haul it to the dumpster. Now there was a bare patch where the floor had been and open space where the cats had been. He said he felt conflicted about the extra room. Then he said it was for the best. Then he said the thing he came back to twice: I did this, I can't take back what I've done, so now I got to make the best of it. The cart filled with grape juice, cranberry, orange, Mountain Dew, Pepsi, Swiffer refills, disposable hot cups — the cups because not having to wash a coffee mug every day would help, and he named the environmental cost of that out loud and said he didn't know another way. Medications, hard to find in that store. Three hundred dollars. Another three hundred on top of the last three hundred. Forty at the pump. This is an expensive life, guys. You just need to know that.

In the parking lot he put his cart away and made a small point of it — push it too far in a Walmart corral and it rolls out the other side, he'd learned that the hard way — and said that lots of people don't, and there's no reason not to. I know Caroline says be kind. I say be considerate. Be kind. There's no reason not to be. Then back onto the road toward the campground with no energy left. He named it directly: exhausted, no reserves, and he attributed it to withdrawal. He reported himself as doing okay emotionally and very tired physically, and held both statements without reconciling them.

The plan for the rest of the day stacked up in order: get back, clean, pack up camp, drain the tanks, pull across the road into the back-in site. He would have to cancel the other reservations and would probably lose money on that. It is what it is. I'm still new to this. He said that eventually he'd be able to make plans and know he'd keep them. For now he was doing his best, and that was the whole of the claim. He wanted the week in one place so his body could recover — from two months of craziness, he said, and four days of hell.

The road into Kentucky kept pulling him past a town built down the side of a hill, rows descending one below the next, steeper than anything he could remember seeing. He'd passed through it several times now. He wanted to go there on purpose sometime, just to sit in it, and show it to the people watching. He said he figured the channel would end up having some of that in it. Which brought him to the name. He knew not everyone was behind the change. Sam Second Life didn't fit, because it wasn't his second life — he'd had twenty of them, lost count, started over more times than he could tally, dozens and dozens of places just in childhood, before the adult ones. So not a second life. A new one. The World According to Sam — the world as he's experiencing it, from his perspective, which was the only thing he was claiming the channel to be.

He found his way back without the GPS and gave himself only partial credit, since he hadn't been far. It was noon. The tasks were waiting in their order. He said he might eat, or lie down and sleep first, and then do what he needed to do to move sites and start a new week. The last thing he said was about the mattress — the worst bed on Earth, and good sleep matters, and he had to figure that out. He hated it. He said so twice, and left it there.

Summary

rswfire records a driving and errand sequence from a campground in the Tennessee/Kentucky border area. He states he is moving to a back-in site across from his current one, arranged with the park manager, whom he describes repeatedly as cool and helpful. He is paying for both sites simultaneously so the move can happen at his own pace, and plans to spend the next week there getting organized.

Operational items covered:

Propane — the park manager told him where to fill external tanks rather than the vehicle-mounted one.
Litter box cleanup — he found buildup underneath it, tore out the affected linoleum, and dumped it.
Walmart run — roughly $300 in cleaning supplies, juices, soda, disposable cups, and medications, bringing recent spending to about $500, plus $40 in gas. He notes this is an expensive life.
Reservations — he states he needs to cancel other bookings and will likely lose money.

He states his cats are gone, that the added space feels conflicting, and that the decision was for the best and cannot be undone. He describes withdrawal and exhaustion, and says he is doing okay emotionally but tired physically.

He proposes renaming his channel from "Sam's Second Life" to "The World According to Sam", stating he has started over dozens of times and lived in dozens of places, so "second life" does not fit. He closes noting his bed is poor and sleep needs solving.

Environment

A moving vehicle and a retail errand loop in rural Tennessee, near the Kentucky line. The recording is captured in fragments from behind the wheel on Tennessee 85/885 West, with GPS voice prompts (Salt Lake Park Lane) cutting across the audio, and from the parking lot of a Walmart roughly nine miles out — the only large-format store the speaker knows in the area.

The anchor point is a campground where the speaker occupies one site and has reserved a second, back-in site directly across from it for the coming week. The interior of the RV is a secondary environment referenced throughout: linoleum torn out beneath a former litter box, cats no longer present, tanks awaiting drainage. The signal is published-facing — addressed to a YouTube audience as "guys" and "Squad."

Substrate

The architecture being held is a rebuild of baseline conditions from the ground up: clean interior, drained tanks, one site held long enough to stop moving, a body given time to recover. The speaker takes an explicitly non-reversible ontological position — "I did this, I can't take back what I've done, so now I got to make the best of it" — locating agency in the decision rather than in circumstance, and refusing to re-litigate it. The second architecture is naming: he rejects "second life" as a false count and proposes "the world according to Sam," asserting that his history contains dozens of restarts and that the frame must be perspectival rather than sequential.

Actions

Performed

•recording while driving
•narrating the errand run
•reporting the Walmart total
•addressing the audience about the channel name
•commenting on cart-return etiquette
•correcting himself for snapping at the GPS
•acknowledging possible repetition across unposted videos

Referenced

•talked to the park manager
•secured a second site across from the current one
•paid for both sites simultaneously
•discovered residue caked under the litter box
•tore out the linoleum and dumped it at the dumpster
•bought ~$300 of cleaning supplies, juices, soda, paper cups, medications
•spent ~$500 total, plus $40 gas
•moved sites once before at the first campground
•rehomed the cats
•drove into Kentucky multiple times and passed through a hillside town
•read a viewer comment about the neighboring site
•navigated back without GPS

Planned

•clean the camper interior
•drain the tanks
•pack up camp and move to the back-in site
•stay a week to get organized
•cancel remaining reservations
•eat and sleep
•sort out an external propane setup
•change the channel name to 'The World According to Sam'
•return to the Kentucky hill town and film it
•replace the mattress

Entities

beings

Sam — The speaker; names himself in the proposed channel title

park manager — Campground staff who located the second site, advised on propane sourcing, and shares the same non-onboard-tank setup

Caroline — Cited as the source of the phrase 'be kind'

the cats — No longer present; their absence yields interior space and is described as conflicting

places

Walmart — Only known supply point; site of the ~$300 purchase and cart-etiquette aside

Tennessee 85 / 885 West — Route driven during recording, announced by GPS

Kentucky — Adjacent state crossed repeatedly on drives

hillside town — Unnamed Kentucky town built in descending rows on a steep grade; flagged as future filming subject

Salt Lake Park Lane — GPS-announced turn near the campground

the campground — Current base; holds both the occupied site and the reserved back-in site

systems

propane system — Unresolved infrastructure; onboard tank unusable, external setup to be sourced

reservation system — Prior bookings to be cancelled at partial financial loss

concepts

withdrawal — Stated by the speaker as the source of exhaustion and low energy

media

'Sam's Second Life' — Current channel name, rejected as an inaccurate count

'The World According to Sam' — Proposed channel name framed as perspectival rather than sequential

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

threshold

road

the site across the way

torn-out floor

dumpster

supplies / cargo

tanks and drainage

empty space where the cats were

naming

descending rows on a hillside

bed

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

transitional (occupying two sites at once, mid-move, paying for overlap to control pacing)

irreversible-choice ownership ('I did this, I can't take back what I've done' — agency located in the decision, not the aftermath)

self-naming (rejecting the imposed sequence of 'second life' in favor of a perspectival frame)

novice-in-system (explicitly new to RV logistics; propane, tanks, and back-in sites still being learned)

somatic depletion as stated condition (physically tired, emotionally reported as okay)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

logistical (site move, tank drainage, propane sourcing, reservation cancellation)

financial (running tally: $300 + $300 + $40; 'this is an expensive life')

somatic (exhaustion, sleep, mattress quality, need for bodily recovery time)

domestic/infrastructural (cleaning as the first step to 'living a normal life')

relational-institutional (park manager as the functional access point to local knowledge)

narrative/identity (channel renaming, count of lives, perspectival framing)

navigational (GPS prompts, wrong turns, self-recovery of route)

ethical (cart returns, environmental cost of disposable cups, 'be considerate')

audience-facing (direct address, response to comments, acknowledgment of unposted takes)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

move sites / back-in site

get cleaned up / cleaning supplies

withdrawal / exhausted

figure it out / doing my best

it's for the best / can't take back what I've done

not my second life, a new life

expensive life

Narrative

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Moving Sites, Restocking, Renaming the Channel

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