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good morning fellow humans so I thought
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we'd do something fun today I'm at a
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place called Cecil L Gorly naturalist
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Trail in Lebanon
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Kentucky um it's also called Fagan
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Branch I'm not sure why there are more
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titles there was a another one too um
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don't remember it off the top of my head
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but there's I think that the natural
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Trail name is the official one that
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you'd find on a
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map I'm a pretty good distance from
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where I'm camping so so I'm pretty
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comfortable just sharing that um just to
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explain that I've you know been kind of
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keeping my location a secret because I
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don't want to be ambushed by my parents
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I'm not saying they would do that to me
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but it's just a concern I have so I've
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been taking
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precautions um to explain that because
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you know people stumble on my videos
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they don't know my story I cut my
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parents out of my life about a month or
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two ago and
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that was hard but necessary
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and for my own mental health I just
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don't want to take any chances I don't
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want to see them I just think that it's
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not it wouldn't be healthy for me
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so I woke up this morning and I just
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wanted to get out in nature I mean I
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live in nature I guess but you know this
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is different I just want to be out in
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the woods I want to go hiking I there is
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a lake here so it's basically a trail
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around the lake that has 47
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Bridges I think it's 47 if I'm wrong
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I'll past it up on the
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screen um and that just sounded awesome
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that sounded fun right we get to go and
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walk over 47 Bridges like that sounds
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cool and I need to get in shape I
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haven't been hiking enough and Hiking
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definitely tones my body and makes me
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feel like um just makes me feel better
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and makes you know I know that I can
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handle more challenges like I would like
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to do bigger hikes i' like to go back up
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into um you know very tall Hills or
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mountains and you know just rugged drain
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and I know that I couldn't do that right
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now so I have to start
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somewhere um I forgot to bring my
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dentures so I'm sorry I just have to
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look at my ugly face I I actually meant
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to bring them you probably noticed I
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haven't been wearing them much
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lately um you know it's that's that's
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just a challenge that's a thing that
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takes time to get used to
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yeah the top ones are temporary ones my
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um and they just don't feel like they're
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fitting great and they kind of give me
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this gag reflex so they're harder to
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wear right now um I saw the dentist
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yesterday um about 2 weeks from now my
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next appointment I do get my permanent
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top ones and they just snap right into
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my into my mouth um because I got these
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implants um basically what those are
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there's these four rods that they just
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put right up into your into your skull U
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I think they're screwed in even it's you
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know it's pretty remarkable it sounds
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painful it actually wasn't
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shockingly um and then so they put these
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little tips that screw on and then the
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dentur just snap into those so you
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always have these four like little
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things in your mouth like I felt them
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cuz they put them in every time I go to
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the appointment where they can screw
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them off and
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on and it
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they're not big but they're you know
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anything in your mouth feels big so
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they're very
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noticeable and I think that will force
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me to have to wear them because you know
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otherwise I'm going to be feeling these
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four rods in my mouth all the time so um
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but the main reason for going that route
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was because they don't have a pallet
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piece and that's generally what causes
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gag reflexes in some people and they
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make some sturdy and you don't need to
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use
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um fix a dent and stuff like that to
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keep them in place and it just hopefully
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will make it feel a little more natural
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for me because wearing Dentures is
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really hard um you feel like you have a
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bunch of stuff in your mouth that
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doesn't belong there and you you can't
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eat like you nor you would have with
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with your normal teeth because uh you
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need to take smaller bites because your
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mouth is already full and so yeah that's
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been a struggle for me my bottom
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Dentures are permanent but they're not
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implants I can't afford it I hope to
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someday I
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think this will be in you know the top
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ones were more important those ones
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needed to just snap in but um and if I
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get used to that then maybe a year from
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now or something I come back here to
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Kentucky because I love my dentist she's
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awesome and I do the bottom ones
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and so yeah we're going to go for a hike
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I that
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sound
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rules okay you can see the little
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Bridges though wow there are a lot of
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them 47 47 of
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them there are just Bridges everywhere
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they're marked with a
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number all
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right this is peaceful
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looking these people are having a good
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time
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just
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chilling it's very cool to me that this
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thing is managed by a water
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works so that's what that's about
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water company manages
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this this looks like a very well-marked
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Trail William
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moly we can learn about his life somay
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this is amazing I like
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this oh I could learn to go fishing
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here we are
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off this is the kind of nature I
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like don't know how I'm going to f in
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Nevada there some steep tra it's already
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pretty
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steep oh this reminds me of Raven
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Run number one I knew they'd be like
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this you know they're not all going to
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be spectacular
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that's a beautiful color you don't often
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see that in Kentucky
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um a lot of
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ours are brown um this probably just a
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little
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Overlook e
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spider wow this place is
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awesome yeah it
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is lots of places just hang out and
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chill
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I'm loving this all
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righty that's beautiful
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water this place is a hi and
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Gem I'm going to need um definitely need
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to bring my other camera
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um maybe my GoPro or something I can
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just attach to myself cuz I go hiking
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you know number one for
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myself
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and it's a little challenging if I have
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to hold this thing up all the
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time really need to do something about
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that number two this is so cool 47
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Bridges I love that
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I mean you can just pick any spot you
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want and just go hang out and have lunch
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or something just chill
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o 3 and a/4
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Miles number three I'm not going to
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pretend that's you know
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remarkable
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um it's going to be remarkable for me
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today because I am out of
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shape but I'll
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manage should have brought some
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snacks picnic
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bench nice
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one absolutely love this place
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wow I love how they Mark the bridges
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like that number
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four oh here comes number
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five I bet it is awesome here after it's
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been raining for a couple days
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you would see all kinds
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of little streams and
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things probably feeding that Lake there
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just checking my screen here make sure
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I'm not might have to take this cover
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off hopefully it's not poking out at the
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bottom randomly cuz I'm not really
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watching my screen I'm just holding it
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um about wayist
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high I love this
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find a spot pick a
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spot hang
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out it's a good place to just get away
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pretty red
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flowers they look like like jili Peppers
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kind
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of obviously they're not number
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six I don't know they look like little
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Chili Peppers to me on the vine
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wow we found a hidden J this place is
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awesome managed by some local Water
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Department
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is
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think we might go hang out over here for
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a little
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bit I'm not in a
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hurry just want to chill
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today there's a bridge over
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there can probably get on down to the
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beach from
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there you call it a beach I don't
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know it's every Waters that
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Beach number seven I was thinking of a
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different
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Bridge not this one coming up either so
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it must be number
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nine unless these two are counted
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separately number
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eight number nine
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I think I might have been looking at
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that one I'm not sure though oh no this
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one
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No Easy Way
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Down um from this one number
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10 I was thinking we'd just chill over
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there for a
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bit um we'll find a place
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we're coming back here I like this place
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number
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11 I like that number
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H that's
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confusing because you know we didn't
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hike no three miles so what's that
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about
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huh let's see what's over here though
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some kind of little
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Overlook Passover
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whatever is there a place for us to
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chill
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oh
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wow yes there
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is oh this is
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awesome hell
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yeah see sit over
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here some of my Fondest Memories are
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just hanging out in the woods all day by
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myself often just exploring
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and taking it in
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and I'd bring friends with me sometimes
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I used to um always and I'd invite my
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friends to come hiking with me they none
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of them were into
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it but they do it for me and it was fun
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had some good times like to do that
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again I don't want to be alone all the
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time do do like my solitude but I you
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know I like to socialize too probably
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surprise some of
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you um i' definitely go hiking with some
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of my subscribers if you who you're
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around
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and yeah why not could be
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fun oh yeah I hear
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you what makes a noise like that it's
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not a cricket is it what is
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that is this is it a Sado I mean cuz
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those only come out like you know for a
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little
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while not even annually
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so I don't know I don't know much about
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insects I don't like insects at all so
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um I don't really know much about
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animals either that's not the stuff that
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gets me it's not it's not why I come
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here it's not the wildlife it's not the
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insects it's the
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trees it's the trees and now the water
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I'm noticing a New Found Love for it
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that I didn't have in my youth
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so find that very interesting that's a
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thing that I've just been sitting with
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since I started my adventure and I'm
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just um waiting for the insights to come
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because there's I there's something
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about it that I think is valuable to me
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I just I Inuit it that I don't I don't
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have an answer to it yet but
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um I am really enjoying being around
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water these
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days and I do want to go out there I
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want to be on a boat I was thinking
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about it last
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night um it just sounds like a fun
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experience it's not a thing that I ever
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had an interest in so it's interesting
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to me that I do now I just want to chill
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on a
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boat not a big one just a little Rob
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boat or not even really a rowboat
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because I just want some just want a
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platform that just floats around just
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some 2x4s put together into like is that
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a raft probably it's probably a raft
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that's what I want I just want to chill
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on a
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raft um the nail I use when I talk about
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this is Ender's Game you know
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Ender obviously fictional but Ender
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built raft um down on Earth when he went
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back down there and just was chilling on
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the water and something about that
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moment that memory for
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me it
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just it stayed with me like I I
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just I want to experience that myself
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it's what it
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is this is nice
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nice this is how we should spend our
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days I hate being locked up in a a
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box surrounded by a bunch of
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people a bunch of noise and
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just
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um can't think of the word but basically
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the opposite of natural like these
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artificial these artificial environments
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we create even campgrounds are like that
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they they've been commoditized I've been
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thinking about it it's
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like people go there not so much for the
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nature but to socialize to change their
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their environment to just have a
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different a different View and then do
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all the things that they would do at
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home and it's
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like they've just commoditized nature
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and that's okay like that's you know
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that's what humans like doing okay but
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it's not okay for me so I'm learning
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that campgrounds may not be where I
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belong so um I have to find spaces for
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myself and it's it's not campgrounds
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because that isn't what I'm trying to do
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like that's it feels like an extension
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of the world that I'm trying to get away
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from
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so so that had kind of stressed me out
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you know and
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made me re-evaluate what I had done by
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embarking on this journey because it
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felt like I was
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not accomplishing what I had set out to
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do and then I started wondering was it
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even
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possible
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and it kept me stuck for a while you
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guys have seen it you've seen you've
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seen
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the you know the end product of that and
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I'm trying to break out of it that's why
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I'm here today I got up this morning and
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thought you know what let's just go
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hiking let's find a
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place and stumbled across this one and
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it's like wow this is a gem let's keep
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going yes I have Mountain Dew guys and I
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have two on my backpack too didn't bring
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any water I'm a terrible
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person um I do need to change that don't
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get me wrong I'm not trying to
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be 50 years old and drinking mountain
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deer
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um did I just give myself 3 years to get
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off Mountain Dew is that what I just did
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sure sounds like
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it um CU I'm 47 so I just gave myself 3
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years to taper off of Mountain Dew
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that's bad better make a new limit for
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that um I don't even like it anymore I
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don't like I'm drinking and I'm like go
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this is gross
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I got to find a
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replacement so there's somebody over
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here just chilling on their
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boat so
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cool kayak right kayak I don't know if
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that was in the screen so um I'm not
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trying to um violate other people's
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privacy I'm very big on that
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so um
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H just walked through a spider web I
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mean that implies that nobody's hiked
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this part of the trail
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today I thought I'd gotten lucky cuz
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we'd walked a pretty good distance and
[27:43]
that hadn't happen so I figured there
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must be other people on the trail by
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now guess not
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e you get used to
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it um
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some can be quite elaborate though they
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can spiders can build some pretty
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elaborate spider webs
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so you just want to keep your eyes
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peeled
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12 steep
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one I will be out of breath after this I
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know it doesn't look steep on the
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camera don't understand why cameras
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can't show
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depth I hope
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my that one camera I bought I hope hope
[28:28]
it does a better job I need to get that
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thing going and learn about it how to
[28:31]
use it and bring it out
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here okay that wasn't so
[28:37]
bad I mean I did quit smoking but I'm
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vaping
[28:41]
so don't know how much that's helping my
[28:44]
lungs if at
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all like to believe it
[28:54]
is I did smoke for 30 years
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you wen't going to repair from that
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overnight perhaps
[29:03]
never but at least I'm not making it
[29:05]
worse that's how you have to think about
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that you're just not making it
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worse it's a pretty
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Lake I like this
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Lake there a lot more water in Kentucky
[29:26]
than I realized
[29:29]
I didn't know we had so many
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lakes man this is awesome
[30:04]
hope like this gets my imagination going
[30:08]
like it just
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does that is the cutest little tree
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you're so cute oh my God I love
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you yep it's the trees trees bring me
[30:28]
out here I don't know
[30:30]
why oh I love thinking about trees they
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are
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fascinating I'm just going at a
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leisurely Pace today
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number 13 we have so many more
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bridges
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47 number
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13 I like
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Bridges which is interesting cuz I am
[31:49]
totally afraid of heights but I like
[31:54]
Bridges they got to feel sturdy to get
[31:56]
me on them though
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maybe I just need to understand the
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science behind
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them
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14 little baby
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Bridge we got to we do
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I am not in a hurry
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today that tree has a nice
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spot I'm H out
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here this is
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cool thinking how nice it would be to
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have some snacks with me cuz I'm hungry
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I didn't eat this morning and oh I
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didn't eat much
[33:07]
yesterday um I watched heart stoer heart
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throbber something like that Netflix the
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other day
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and Charlie has an eating
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disorder brought on
[33:22]
by um his very young
[33:25]
mind learning to
[33:28]
um process the difficult bullying he
[33:30]
experienced for being
[33:32]
gay and that struck a chord with me cuz
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I never really thought of myself as
[33:37]
having an eating disorder but I don't
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eat a lot
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so maybe I do
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and might have to acknowledge that and
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do something about
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it um for a long portion of my life I
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have only eaten once a day
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and eating's hard for me because I do
[34:02]
have this fear choking to death it's not
[34:04]
from my dental
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situation um it's just this thing that
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happened to me when I was around 27 I
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think
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and um I had swallowed this pill it got
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stuck in my throat I had a panic attack
[34:18]
and ever since then it it just it
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destroyed me
[34:22]
mentally so but it's not so bad these
[34:24]
days I took clopin for a very long time
[34:27]
I'm taking it again I'm down to a
[34:29]
quarter of a milligram I tried stopping
[34:31]
that I'm trying to be cautious of the
[34:33]
fact that not everybody who's watching
[34:35]
me is familiar with me not going to do
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that all the time
[34:40]
because um I think that will get real
[34:43]
boring for my normal subscribers and for
[34:46]
myself like I don't want to be recapping
[34:48]
my life all the time
[34:49]
so but you know I'll try to be a little
[34:52]
more conscious of it I feel like my
[34:54]
content needs to evolve a little bit so
[34:56]
that's where my thinking is with that
[34:58]
and why I'm doing
[35:03]
it but yeah I
[35:07]
think I might have an eating disorder
[35:09]
and don't even know it so um I don't
[35:13]
know I guess I'll discuss it with AI at
[35:15]
some
[35:19]
point it's always been hard for me I
[35:23]
just it really is I think I probably do
[35:26]
now that I'm thinking about it
[35:29]
wow did not know
[35:36]
that man this is
[35:42]
peaceful I'll come out here again by
[35:45]
myself without you guys and just chill
[35:47]
all
[35:49]
day um it changes the dynamic to have a
[35:52]
camera on and it to an extent ruins the
[35:55]
experience for me um um it's not why I
[35:58]
come out here I'm not out here to to
[36:00]
share every aspect of my life with
[36:02]
people even though I share a lot um if
[36:05]
I'm coming out into the woods it's
[36:07]
because I I need the Solitude I
[36:11]
need I need the experience to myself I
[36:14]
need to be selfish about it but today I
[36:16]
wanted to bring you along so don't think
[36:18]
you know I
[36:20]
just I know that it's influencing my
[36:22]
behavior I'm going to get up in a second
[36:25]
and we're going to keep going but if it
[36:27]
was just me I could sit here for an
[36:32]
hour just think or not think sometimes
[36:35]
the reason to come out here is to turn
[36:37]
my brain
[36:42]
off what an awesome place this
[36:52]
is
[36:56]
wow so peaceful and
[37:02]
quiet I'm coming back here let's
[37:06]
go maybe I'll do some painting or
[37:09]
something here cuz I don't know how to
[37:10]
paint but I got to do something with all
[37:13]
my art stuff I was thinking about that
[37:16]
yesterday my storage Bay half of my
[37:18]
biggest storage Bay is full of art stuff
[37:21]
like that stuff either has to be used or
[37:24]
it can't be with me because and I'm
[37:27]
taking up space that I'm not using and
[37:28]
that's
[37:30]
dumb
[37:32]
so either
[37:34]
I discover if I really
[37:37]
like like doing art stuff or I give it
[37:40]
up
[37:42]
15 so the signs seem to decide that it's
[37:47]
going to tell us how far we've gone I
[37:50]
guess instead of how far we have to go
[37:54]
so maybe that first sign we saw was you
[37:57]
know the end of the trail cuz I'm sure
[37:58]
it's
[37:59]
circular but I don't think that we would
[38:01]
see that sign on the way
[38:04]
back so that's a little confusing
[38:38]
I would love to come out here and try
[38:39]
painting what I
[38:41]
see do a Bob Ross kind of
[38:44]
painting wish I had that kind of
[38:48]
skill and
[38:51]
supplies I have paints
[38:54]
but no canvases no space for canvases
[38:57]
said
[39:01]
so somebody's got a house all up
[39:05]
there Lucky
[39:15]
them number
[39:18]
16 oh a whole bunch in a row this will
[39:21]
be
[39:21]
fun it's this a wobbly one
[39:33]
17 well at least fix the wood with the
[39:35]
same kind of
[39:42]
wood
[39:45]
18 I suppose over time it'll match again
[39:49]
I don't know
[40:03]
this place is remarkable simply because
[40:06]
it is so awesome and so
[40:22]
unknown got me thinking in my head do I
[40:25]
share this
[40:27]
you know that's like a ethical
[40:29]
consideration honestly for
[40:32]
me um but people can
[40:35]
only I mean let's just save this thing
[40:37]
went w which is impossible right spider
[40:40]
web
[40:43]
um people can only there's only so many
[40:46]
people in the world so if they're if
[40:48]
they're here they're not somewhere
[40:51]
else
[40:53]
19 so a new spot becomes
[40:58]
um what this spot is
[41:00]
now it dies off maybe and I don't know
[41:03]
thinking about all the possibilities
[41:06]
that's what my brain
[41:15]
does I just wonder how a spider web up
[41:18]
there holy
[41:21]
crap you are capturing everything under
[41:24]
the
[41:25]
sun you
[41:32]
part of
[41:46]
bench I'm old I'm taking opportunity of
[41:49]
everything on this Trail cuz I am
[41:55]
old it's hot today
[41:58]
um it's not bad I like it but it's it's
[42:00]
pretty hot um it was 75 when at 10: in
[42:04]
the morning I don't let's see what it's
[42:07]
almost noon now
[42:11]
so I don't know what the temperature is
[42:14]
but
[42:16]
um you know it's hot and
[42:19]
muggy
[42:23]
peaceful those are pretty leaves wow
[42:32]
I want to see a
[42:37]
caterpillar munting on a little leaf
[42:40]
that would be
[42:45]
cool this park bench is not stable
[42:50]
and tilting forward and it's wanting to
[42:53]
tilt over
[42:55]
so yeah we keep
[42:57]
going oh come on why am I so bad at
[43:24]
that 20 I have
[43:33]
way oh my God you know what would be
[43:37]
awesome if you had a
[43:40]
kid and you brought them here every year
[43:43]
on their birthday and took their picture
[43:45]
on the bridge that matched their
[43:46]
birthday how cool would that
[43:48]
be and there's 47 of them that's my
[43:55]
age just an interesting
[44:01]
thought you know think about it
[44:03]
it's iing a trail is like progression in
[44:06]
life and it's just a way of marking time
[44:10]
that's it's just an interesting
[44:13]
idea oh I'd love to start a TR like
[44:17]
that it just would find that very
[44:20]
heartwarming
[45:55]
21 bring out a bottle of beer with you
[45:59]
or something and take a picture with
[46:01]
your 21y
[46:02]
[Music]
[46:07]
old nice we got ourselves a little path
[46:13]
here
[46:17]
through what is this
[46:24]
called this place is magical
[46:28]
have some brown
[46:30]
water I don't think you want to swim in
[46:34]
that wonder if there's fishies in
[46:46]
there some little hangout
[46:50]
spot oh thinking things get a little
[46:54]
confusing from here
[46:59]
okay boy do they
[47:03]
ever there's the beach oh look at all
[47:05]
the docks oh my
[47:08]
God and I'm all I don't really care
[47:11]
about the animals but look at those dogs
[47:14]
oh ducks are so
[47:16]
cute I like how they hang out together
[47:32]
that is just puring
[47:34]
it there's no other word to describe
[47:38]
that just
[47:44]
pure all right let's
[47:47]
see
[47:49]
duckies can't see my screen so well I
[47:51]
think the brightness is
[47:53]
low no well I don't know guys I'm
[47:57]
sorry can't trust what I'm seeing on my
[48:01]
screen
[48:04]
here so now
[48:11]
we got the barn back
[48:13]
there I love Kentucky barns they all
[48:16]
look like that
[48:17]
too that is so
[48:20]
common that is a common sight here
[48:27]
history and
[48:30]
Heritage I mean you know it looks like
[48:32]
we just head this
[48:42]
way wow that's
[48:45]
interesting
[48:49]
fascinating not even going to pretend I
[48:52]
know what I'm looking
[48:55]
at cool
[49:00]
that is a beautiful treescape right
[49:03]
there that is something I would love to
[49:07]
paint oh wait a
[49:10]
minute I have a feeling this thing's
[49:12]
telling us
[49:15]
something I almost went the wrong way
[49:27]
oh that makes sense we're supposed to
[49:29]
stay around the lake right so yeah
[49:31]
should have thought of
[49:42]
that Meadow that's the word I was
[49:45]
looking for
[49:49]
earlier we had enter day
[49:53]
Meadow that brings up memories of Bambi
[50:06]
now that's to
[50:10]
view
[50:16]
wow that's a view
[50:34]
it's
[51:12]
is
[51:36]
I mean that Barn it has a story you
[51:39]
know has
[51:42]
history it's just a it's a sentinel in
[51:45]
time it's
[51:50]
just it's out a story all its
[51:54]
own lost the time I
[51:58]
guess we can imagine it story
[52:32]
loading
[52:33]
screen it's an inside joke on my
[52:38]
channel we just went through a loading
[52:41]
screen oh my God have we only walked a
[52:44]
mile in a quarter really this is a
[52:47]
little bit difficult they haven't done
[52:49]
this in a
[52:51]
while you mean to tell me we're only a
[52:53]
third of the way
[52:59]
22 they said this this was an hour hike
[53:05]
so nope not for
[53:08]
me I'm okay with it I don't want to walk
[53:11]
at a fast pace I want to just enjoy this
[53:29]
those insect noises I don't like them
[53:33]
23 um so this it's a constant noise at
[53:37]
the campground I'm
[53:39]
at um I never really liked it I find it
[53:43]
a little irritating which you know it's
[53:45]
sad to say that but um it just sets my
[53:49]
ears off it's not a noise I like
[53:59]
but it's part of the rhythm of nature
[54:01]
you know
[54:02]
there's there's a reason for
[54:08]
it would like to know what makes those
[54:11]
noises if any of you know please tell me
[54:13]
cuz I'm guessing it's not
[54:17]
crickets I don't know what it is
[57:02]
I need to do this more
[57:12]
often get back to centering myself and
[57:16]
truly contemplating my
[57:19]
future
[57:21]
24 that board will never match
[57:43]
oh I'm sorry I might have to
[57:45]
take um I might have to put a different
[57:48]
cover on my
[57:51]
phone it's a nice spot it's looking at
[57:54]
the actual water
[58:02]
we haven't found a favorite spot for me
[58:04]
yet oh my God maybe we
[58:07]
did
[58:12]
who what's over there that's obviously a
[58:15]
dam
[58:18]
right where did we
[58:22]
start is it over there
[58:26]
I don't
[58:29]
know oh this is a nice bench
[58:34]
oh when did I get so
[58:37]
old
[58:39]
man when did I get so
[58:43]
old
[58:45]
um I should address the fact that I'm
[58:47]
not sleeping well at all and I know it's
[58:49]
affecting my internal State and making
[58:53]
me a little more negative than I'd like
[58:55]
to be
[58:57]
cranky I guess and when I get cranky
[59:01]
it's not like other people's cranky when
[59:03]
I get cranky I'm just realizing this um
[59:07]
I get even more introspective and
[59:09]
judgmental that's what happens so that
[59:12]
might explain my video from
[59:15]
yesterday I'm not sleeping well
[59:19]
and it sucks I wake up in pain every
[59:23]
single morning I don't get enough sleep
[59:26]
and it's just a challenge I started
[59:28]
taking benad dril every
[59:30]
night which doesn't really do much um
[59:33]
and it doesn't help your sleep either so
[59:36]
it
[59:38]
just it might help you
[59:40]
to well it's not helping there's no
[59:43]
point I should stop taking
[59:48]
it I need to deal with that bad the
[59:51]
reason that I don't buy one from Rari
[59:53]
mattress place is because I don't know
[59:56]
how I would have it
[59:57]
delivered and I don't like the idea of
[60:01]
spending that much money on something
[60:02]
that I haven't experienced so if I
[60:07]
can't you know if I could go to a place
[60:10]
where they have those mattresses I can
[60:12]
lay on it and just see how it feels I'll
[60:14]
know if it's right for me but there's no
[60:16]
way to know that
[60:20]
um you know online it's just there isn't
[60:23]
and I'm not like most people that I
[60:26]
think that um like soft surfaces I I
[60:30]
don't like that so I sleep much better
[60:33]
on a very firm mattress but there is a
[60:37]
level of softness and I don't know what
[60:38]
that's called so I don't know how to
[60:40]
look for that there's a very specific
[60:42]
kind of mattress that seems to work the
[60:44]
best for me and really wish I had my old
[60:47]
mattress cuz I loved my mattress
[60:53]
um so that's why I just it
[60:56]
feels impossible which is crazy it's
[61:03]
like it is very challenging to live on
[61:06]
the road there you the resources out
[61:08]
there are not geared towards that kind
[61:11]
of Lifestyle so you have all of these
[61:13]
challenges you don't think about and
[61:18]
then you feel stuck you
[61:22]
feel incompetent I feel incompetent
[61:25]
quite a lot lately and it just feels
[61:28]
like I don't know how to overcome these
[61:31]
challenges and I know that I talk a lot
[61:34]
about please stop giving me advice like
[61:37]
that you're invalidating my experience
[61:40]
when you do that you are um I'm not
[61:43]
sharing my life with you so that you can
[61:45]
turn around and tell me how to fix my
[61:47]
life that is not the purpose of this
[61:49]
channel I'm trying
[61:52]
to I'm trying to share my life with you
[61:55]
authentic Ally and an authentic response
[61:58]
to that would be to just appreciate the
[62:00]
struggle I'm going through that's all
[62:02]
you have to do you don't have
[62:04]
to I'm not asking for your advice on
[62:08]
that so don't give it but if I do ask
[62:11]
for advice on something please do and
[62:13]
you guys never give me advice on the
[62:15]
things I actually ask for advice on I'm
[62:18]
not talking about the bad because that's
[62:21]
um it's just I'm just you know these are
[62:23]
thoughts I've been having and I at some
[62:25]
point it feels natural to share them and
[62:27]
like now and then I move on and I I hope
[62:31]
that those of you who are truly
[62:32]
following my
[62:33]
journey think about that think
[62:37]
about cuz I am very deliberate with my
[62:39]
language always there's always a reason
[62:42]
for the things I say I
[62:44]
I
[62:47]
um
[62:49]
it's remember the things I say if you
[62:52]
care and
[62:54]
know that they're coming straight from
[62:56]
my heart they're authentic expressions
[62:59]
of of how I feel about things and and
[63:02]
and respect them you
[63:04]
know so it's challenging we'll figure it
[63:07]
out I understand that this Dynamic is
[63:10]
weird for me
[63:12]
so how do you strike the right balance
[63:15]
between sharing and comments and and I
[63:17]
see that when I talk about it that it
[63:19]
discourages people from commenting
[63:22]
sometimes and um and I'm not trying to
[63:24]
do that
[63:26]
it's just and I understand it you're
[63:29]
from your end thinking well I'm not
[63:31]
trying to offend this
[63:33]
person um and I don't know what to say
[63:36]
and I get that because I'm a hard person
[63:38]
to understand I've experienced that all
[63:40]
of my life
[63:44]
um I guess what I would say to that is
[63:48]
if what you are sharing is coming from
[63:50]
your
[63:51]
heart and you're trying to understand me
[63:55]
and you're trying to respect my
[63:57]
boundaries then say the
[64:00]
thing
[64:02]
because when you're genuinely
[64:06]
yourself I'll see that and that matters
[64:10]
a lot so I don't know let's try that
[64:13]
let's see what that does to
[64:16]
um the dynamic of sharing together cuz
[64:20]
that's what this is about I want I want
[64:22]
to share with you this isn't I don't
[64:24]
want this to be one side did I'm trying
[64:27]
to
[64:29]
have I realized you know all of this is
[64:32]
about connection
[64:34]
I'm I want to connect with people I've
[64:37]
spent so long by myself and but I
[64:41]
discovered that it it's just not working
[64:43]
on YouTube and I don't know if that
[64:48]
is a permanent barrier or just something
[64:51]
that needs to be worked
[64:53]
on and so let's work on it
[64:57]
together that's a
[65:05]
fishy I love
[65:13]
this I am coming back here a lot wow
[65:19]
this place is perfect wonder if there's
[65:22]
RV parks around here I am definitely
[65:25]
checking on that let's
[65:29]
go all right I will definitely think
[65:31]
through my camera situation I don't
[65:34]
think using my phone is the best plus I
[65:36]
want something that's just attached to
[65:37]
me or
[65:39]
something here we go you know I am doing
[65:42]
better
[65:43]
because not nearly out of breath like I
[65:46]
would have been on those first couple
[65:47]
hikes I
[65:49]
took so that's
[65:52]
good I hope that my body is healthy
[65:55]
inside
[65:56]
you never really know right so I'm
[65:59]
hoping I haven't completely destroyed
[66:01]
myself as I'm just now starting
[66:04]
to um Embrace who I am and make all
[66:10]
these changes in my life like it'd be so
[66:13]
tragic if I went through all this work
[66:15]
and then
[66:16]
died like is a fear I am it is I'm I'm
[66:21]
I'm vocalizing it
[66:23]
now I hope that's not the case let me
[66:26]
live to
[66:27]
be really
[66:30]
old super
[66:33]
old and active though like I'd have to
[66:36]
be active I don't want to be old and and
[66:38]
not be able to do
[66:40]
anything so hopefully I'm toning myself
[66:44]
up now and I can make that a habit for
[66:46]
the rest of my life
[66:48]
and I know that that makes a difference
[66:51]
I have seen it in others
[66:54]
so um
[66:56]
yeah let's hope it's not too late for
[67:01]
me let's just enjoy you know the nature
[67:05]
let's have a silent moment together
[67:35]
that's just a noisy bug like what's it
[67:41]
doing like it's so
[67:44]
dramatic it's the dramatic bugs of the
[67:47]
forest
[68:03]
diversity holy [ __ ] does that look like
[68:05]
a snake oh my God even down at the
[68:07]
bottom like oh my
[68:09]
God uh-uh who put that
[68:12]
there boy does that look strategically
[68:15]
St to freak the [ __ ] out of somebody
[68:25]
25 I remember that
[68:28]
Year good
[68:31]
year one day I will pull out all my
[68:34]
photos I have this photo album of me
[68:36]
every age up to like 30 something then I
[68:40]
stopped um but boy those pictures sure
[68:43]
have stories behind
[68:46]
them some of my youngest one's like 17
[68:49]
18 19 I look like I'm in my 30s I had my
[68:52]
hair grown out multiple colors of hair
[68:56]
from dying it so
[68:58]
much
[69:01]
26 probably one of my favorite years I
[69:04]
don't remember why
[69:06]
though I definitely love being
[69:14]
26 have to look at my pictures I need
[69:18]
the way my brain works I need
[69:20]
um some kind of a trigger or an
[69:22]
association that is such a tiny little
[69:24]
frog I could have showing it to you oh
[69:26]
it's
[69:32]
adorable little baby frog
[69:59]
these Bridges sure let you know how far
[70:00]
you've got to
[70:07]
go it's a nice Bridge
[70:12]
27 I love this more places to do this
[71:29]
guess I'm the one clearing all the
[71:31]
spider webs on the route today
[72:12]
E I like spider cell just not in my
[72:17]
face um they're
[72:23]
fascinating oo I heard
[72:26]
no I've actually started with
[72:40]
me 28 you realize we haven't met a
[72:44]
single person on this Trail so far how
[72:46]
cool is
[72:47]
that I shouldn't say that because you
[72:49]
know I just invited
[72:53]
it but I don't think the world works
[72:56]
that way I think that's very
[72:58]
superstitious I don't think it works
[73:00]
that way guys let's be rational
[73:05]
people oh clear water that is so
[73:13]
neat you can see something moving at the
[73:15]
water's
[73:23]
edge so cool
[73:26]
I like this
[73:28]
place man I wish I'd grown up near a
[73:30]
place like
[73:31]
this i' been out here all the time
[73:37]
29 I would have been out here all the
[73:40]
time I would have been would have known
[73:44]
this place like the back of my
[73:51]
hand yeah I'm going to start coming here
[73:54]
I think
[73:55]
it's a little out of the way for me
[73:58]
but oh man is it worth
[74:02]
it I have a month that I'm
[74:05]
here I just need to get out here as much
[74:07]
as I
[74:15]
can this is a good place to work on your
[74:19]
your um physical
[74:21]
health 30 it's not too Str or anything
[74:25]
it's you know pretty basic honestly
[74:32]
um but that's where you got to start you
[74:35]
don't want to you know you've got
[74:37]
moments like this
[74:41]
and um and then
[74:43]
fairly straight paths
[74:46]
but um I think that's exactly this is
[74:49]
exactly what you
[74:50]
need do this for a
[74:53]
month um and then and start finding some
[74:56]
more difficult places to
[75:01]
go and there is one nearby I saw it on
[75:03]
all Trails there was a much more
[75:06]
difficult Trail I knew I couldn't even
[75:08]
attempt
[75:11]
32 I might want to get some hiking
[75:16]
gear um my backpack isn't really
[75:18]
designed for this environment
[75:22]
33 33 was a good year
[75:30]
um that's going to take us off the trail
[75:32]
I
[75:33]
think
[75:35]
or yeah I expect this to be kind of you
[75:38]
know let's go look at the lake kind of
[75:42]
thing am I
[75:44]
wrong okay well we're going to take that
[75:46]
other Branch one
[75:49]
day see where that goes
[76:07]
I mean you really can't beat the views I
[76:09]
mean I suppose you could if you wanted
[76:13]
to point out thousands and thousands of
[76:15]
other places but that's a great View
[76:34]
I wonder what happened to those
[76:39]
two wonder how old they were when they
[76:49]
died older than
[76:53]
us oh it yes y that just brought us out
[76:56]
to the oh no okay
[77:00]
okay
[77:05]
um it's not a bad
[77:08]
spot could see chilling
[77:11]
here it's still not what I'm looking
[77:14]
for I'm thinking of a place at the
[77:17]
Natural Bridge beautiful
[77:20]
butterfly
[77:22]
um don't think you're going to find that
[77:24]
here but just something that that
[77:28]
that touches my soul the same way that
[77:31]
place
[77:32]
does I haven't found that here yet I
[77:35]
found it at um Lake Cumberland if you
[77:37]
watch that video we had pulled off to
[77:40]
this one spot and I was like
[77:42]
wow that spot was
[77:45]
magic looking for
[77:49]
that so the reviews did say the trail
[77:52]
started branching off and people would
[77:54]
get lost
[77:56]
I
[77:57]
think
[77:59]
um I don't
[78:02]
know said one of the signs was the wrong
[78:06]
way oh that's a steep climb
[78:10]
really and this is the way are you
[78:14]
sure oh here we
[78:16]
go what's over there though I have to
[78:21]
know
[78:23]
um yeah I'm going to keep coming back
[78:25]
here though I will find
[78:29]
out okay wait a
[78:33]
minute how can this be the way it's like
[78:36]
we're heading back the okay way we came
[78:38]
so explain
[78:45]
that this feels
[78:50]
wrong does
[79:03]
I'm skeptical
[79:05]
guys I'm skeptical I think a local did
[79:09]
that let's find
[79:14]
out I just want to get you climbing
[79:21]
uphill well now when we get to the next
[79:24]
Bridge
[79:29]
a lot of spider
[79:31]
webs
[79:36]
Springs
[79:38]
okay more oh
[79:41]
no oh
[79:43]
no up
[79:45]
that
[79:47]
no oh God kill me are you kidding
[79:52]
me oh here we go
[79:58]
okay
[80:00]
okay I know you're taking me the wrong
[80:03]
way I know you
[80:07]
are here we go
[80:29]
I am feeling
[80:34]
deceived doesn't make sense to be off
[80:38]
the
[80:50]
water well that tree's got a red ribbon
[80:53]
around it
[80:57]
all
[80:58]
right
[81:01]
wow trust me guys this
[81:05]
camera doesn't do dep well that was
[81:10]
steep that was practically a vertical
[81:12]
climb
[81:27]
we're good
[81:28]
though
[81:32]
okay all right I'm back towards the
[81:34]
water
[81:57]
hey kind of looks like a trail down
[82:10]
there oh this is
[82:13]
wonderful
[82:16]
oh hey holy
[82:18]
[ __ ]
[82:20]
awesome who did that
[82:34]
yeah we're
[82:36]
stopping oh my
[82:40]
[Music]
[82:42]
gosh am out of breath for
[82:47]
sure say as he starts fing
[82:55]
got to get the right um mixture of
[82:59]
chemicals into my bloodstream you know
[83:02]
oxygen
[83:04]
nicotine perfectly
[83:07]
normal this is
[83:11]
cool oh did I just find the spot I don't
[83:16]
think so
[83:18]
because you're always going to be
[83:19]
wondering if there are other hikers
[83:21]
coming through
[83:25]
um had to give this spot a solid seven
[83:29]
and a half out of 10
[83:43]
though
[83:53]
nice this is what what life's about
[83:59]
guys you can't beat this you can't beat
[84:01]
this in a
[84:02]
city a suburb a
[84:06]
Township a mining
[84:15]
Colony this is where it's
[84:20]
at for me the one thing that can compete
[84:22]
with this are nightclubs
[84:26]
oh I miss that life sometimes I
[84:30]
do and it's not my age that keeps me
[84:32]
from going
[84:35]
just I don't know I don't know if I'll
[84:38]
do that ever
[84:42]
again I
[84:45]
might I don't
[84:47]
know you can't do nightclubs without
[84:49]
drugs and I'm not sure that I
[84:51]
really would want to so yeah that's why
[84:54]
I haven't
[84:58]
gone not a big drinker so I used to get
[85:02]
these Long Island nice teas I drink like
[85:05]
seven of them in a night I'll would be
[85:07]
so plastered I remember on my 21st
[85:10]
birthday I woke up in my bed the day
[85:13]
after no idea how I got there and I live
[85:17]
30 miles from there didn't have a car I
[85:20]
spent a large portion of my life walking
[85:22]
everywhere and somehow I woke up in my
[85:26]
bed I have no idea how that
[85:31]
happened hope I wasn't taken advantage
[85:34]
of
[85:35]
because you know I don't remember so
[85:41]
wow that's not even the that's even the
[85:44]
worst thing that's happened to me
[85:46]
like I remember one
[85:49]
time my friend Nancy she's Old Hippie
[85:52]
and she was my best friend forever and
[85:54]
she had given me these pills before a
[85:57]
bob Dyan concert that made me so tired I
[86:00]
didn't make it into the concert so sad
[86:03]
and then somehow I ended up on the side
[86:06]
of a Road halfway between there and my
[86:09]
house and I just slept on the side of
[86:11]
the
[86:12]
road someone ended up picking me up and
[86:15]
took me home that
[86:17]
time
[86:20]
um I had an adventurous youth I did I
[86:23]
needed think about it
[86:25]
more my mind needs associations in order
[86:28]
to pull that stuff out of my brain but
[86:31]
it's all in there somewhere and I had an
[86:34]
awesome
[86:36]
life and I'm I hope to have an awesome
[86:39]
life now you know it'll be different
[86:42]
but just as awesome this is
[86:47]
awesome I hear some
[86:49]
hikers we got to get
[86:51]
going nope m
[86:55]
nobody has to see no people out here
[86:58]
time to
[87:01]
go that was a nice little
[87:05]
break of course I go to the stop and let
[87:07]
them pass and then you know
[87:10]
weed um you know just being dramatic
[87:31]
I'm thinking
[87:32]
about it's a pretty long video it's
[87:34]
already an hour and a half oh I'm so
[87:36]
sorry guys I'm terrible um it's already
[87:38]
an hour and a
[87:40]
half
[87:42]
and this video so I'm going to put in
[87:46]
little milestones in it you know that
[87:48]
tell you where the dialogue is and I was
[87:50]
thinking I could even put in little like
[87:53]
arrows for or like when the dialogue
[87:55]
finally stop cuz it's not always clear
[87:57]
cuz there's moments of Silence while
[87:58]
we're still having that moment of
[88:00]
dialogue
[88:02]
um that say here skip here if you don't
[88:04]
want to watch me walk down this
[88:06]
Trail maybe I don't know that seems like
[88:09]
a lot of
[88:11]
work um if I did it on the computer
[88:14]
probably won't be so bad but I do most
[88:16]
of my editing on my phone
[88:19]
still eventually I'll get into the habit
[88:22]
of using my computer I did that with the
[88:24]
gaming stuff I was working on that was
[88:27]
fun a little challenging but fun
[88:30]
and um you
[88:33]
certainly have a lot more tools that
[88:36]
way
[88:39]
so maybe mushroom which I knew if you
[88:42]
could eat it I would like to be able to
[88:45]
identify such things I would love to be
[88:47]
able to be a person who could do
[88:50]
that now if we truly stayed on the trail
[88:53]
this should be
[88:55]
34 and it is so
[88:58]
good we have not lost our
[89:03]
way oh that tree tried to trip me you
[89:07]
tried to trip me
[89:09]
tree not very nice of
[89:13]
you
[89:17]
okay I mean that's a lot more that makes
[89:20]
sense a lot more than some of the others
[89:22]
we've seen so I'm like how are was
[89:25]
not drawn to
[89:29]
that okay here we
[89:44]
go I'm enjoying
[89:49]
this what a wonderful place that I found
[90:01]
by a
[90:02]
County water
[90:05]
department would not have expected
[90:09]
that just telling you my own ignorance
[90:11]
I'm sure there's people out there they
[90:13]
actually watch this far but I knew about
[90:15]
them they'd have to comment
[90:18]
that you didn't know about County Parks
[90:21]
oh my God so which way
[90:26]
come on what are those bugs that go
[90:28]
straight for your eyes I hate those
[90:33]
things
[90:34]
okay I just think we're supposed to stay
[90:37]
in the water
[90:38]
so um you know it's that rocket
[90:49]
science what do those bugs seem that
[90:52]
attracts them to our eyeballs
[90:54]
God mean could you imagine a more evil
[90:59]
insect that it's a inspiration for some
[91:02]
horror
[91:04]
movies I love this spot this is a nice
[91:06]
little
[91:07]
spot hello
[91:14]
sunlight very
[91:18]
nice oh it's like a little island we're
[91:21]
going to explore that one day yes we are
[91:24]
are better believe
[91:27]
it oh yes we
[91:30]
are wait how will I get over there I'll
[91:33]
figure it
[91:38]
out this is
[91:43]
wonderful
[91:49]
uh-oh hello hello excuse me yep I heard
[91:54]
you guys that have a good day did you go
[91:56]
all the way around yep how long does it
[91:58]
take so I would say we're probably maybe
[92:01]
2 miles in probably like halfway of the
[92:03]
main trail right here yeah probably
[92:05]
about 2 miles we came from that
[92:07]
direction um it's a circular Trail I'm
[92:10]
pretty sure you're about 2 miles in if
[92:12]
you keep going that way we did partway
[92:15]
one time on the other side we never have
[92:17]
done how far would you say you came in
[92:19]
we started on this side though came
[92:21]
where the park little parking area where
[92:23]
the big light is the end of the would
[92:25]
you say that you've hiked like a mile
[92:26]
and a half to 2 miles and it's a whole
[92:29]
because that would be halfway you're
[92:31]
about halfway are we yeah it's pretty
[92:33]
long it looks like it's longer than that
[92:35]
looking yeah like there's more more than
[92:38]
half like there's more than halfway left
[92:40]
from here but that's good yeah I'd say
[92:42]
well it took me an hour but I'm being
[92:44]
very casual about it so oh thank you
[92:47]
very much have a good
[92:50]
day okay that's how you do social
[92:56]
you just have to tolerate people
[92:58]
who can't you know hear an answer the
[93:00]
first time I
[93:02]
guess
[93:13]
okay
[93:21]
35 36
[93:29]
see it did take me an hour so um average
[93:32]
person W hikes you walk 4 miles an hour
[93:36]
you can hike I don't know 2 to 3 miles
[93:38]
an hour on average I think I don't
[93:40]
remember I haven't thought about that
[93:41]
statistic in a long time
[93:44]
so
[93:46]
um definitely walking pretty slow I
[93:49]
think it's 2 miles I don't know I don't
[93:52]
remember not going to pretend I remember
[94:00]
woo mean I don't want to give good
[94:02]
advice I don't want to be wrong I hope I
[94:04]
told them
[94:06]
right
[94:10]
um I remember oh you I didn't show you
[94:13]
them because you know privacy they had a
[94:15]
kid with them who was my nephew's age at
[94:18]
the time that I used to take him hiking
[94:21]
boy did he not like that
[94:24]
um so they were probably thinking that
[94:26]
too like our little kid
[94:29]
here isn't being lot fun right
[94:33]
now it depends on the kid
[94:35]
though he seemed like he was doing all
[94:39]
right
[94:44]
okay um I might have we grew into it so
[94:47]
I took him hiking at the Natural Bridge
[94:48]
once and he did a really great job we
[94:50]
had a great time it was fun um it was a
[94:53]
very bonding experience you know
[94:55]
and I'm really glad I did that with them
[94:59]
38 um in fact my natural brid shirt that
[95:02]
I have if you ever see me wearing it I
[95:05]
got that with him and it's falling apart
[95:08]
cuz I've had it for so long but that
[95:11]
isn't the kind of shirt you throw away
[95:32]
hope they'll be out right cuz
[95:35]
some there are some spots
[95:38]
where I don't know they were kind of
[95:42]
old
[95:44]
um and if they're asking me about the
[95:47]
trail then they don't know the
[95:49]
trail H almost feel like I need to H
[95:54]
it's not my
[95:56]
responsibility all right let's
[96:06]
go I those little
[96:15]
butterflying so I
[96:17]
realized not for this cuz I want to put
[96:20]
this in the little time stamps so I
[96:23]
realized
[96:24]
why I was so into astrology and
[96:25]
numerology when I was younger and it's
[96:26]
because I'm a system thinker I didn't
[96:28]
even didn't know that back then in
[96:31]
astrology and numerology know you know
[96:33]
there's pseud of science you put the
[96:34]
word science in them
[96:37]
um had had intricate systems so they
[96:41]
were a way of explaining the world that
[96:43]
my systems thinking
[96:45]
brain found value in I really got into
[96:48]
it it's
[96:49]
fascinating
[96:51]
um but at some point I just became way
[96:54]
more logical and you know my system
[96:57]
thinking brain started making
[96:59]
associations and said no no no no that's
[97:02]
not real and what made me think of that
[97:03]
is we're on bridge 39 now
[97:08]
39 which is a numerological number for
[97:12]
me and just made me think of
[97:17]
it what a lovely time guys thanks for
[97:21]
joining me here we go
[97:33]
man this is so
[97:34]
cool
[97:36]
uhoh hold on guys we have a
[97:41]
traveler
[97:45]
hello how are you I'm good good thank
[97:48]
you have
[97:51]
fun okay
[97:57]
here we
[98:02]
go what's that oh it's a bridge okay
[98:05]
wait what is
[98:07]
that what is that it is a bridge
[98:10]
okay okay I thought maybe over here I
[98:13]
just thought maybe it was from a
[98:16]
distance it looked like old train tracks
[98:18]
or
[98:20]
something I was wrong
[98:23]
I love train tracks
[98:26]
40 used to walk them all the time oh God
[98:29]
no
[98:30]
no I don't want to climb you you look
[98:35]
evil you look
[98:38]
evil there we
[98:47]
go up we
[98:51]
go okay
[98:55]
[Music]
[98:56]
okay you killed me I am
[99:03]
dead
[99:06]
okay we
[99:08]
survived we
[99:11]
survived oh we're going over
[99:15]
there
[99:17]
oh
[99:18]
resit from the evil Hill
[99:24]
oh man this is making me think of a
[99:26]
bunch of video games like Horizon
[99:28]
forbidden West or
[99:31]
um you know little spots where you save
[99:34]
your game at oh my God that's what this
[99:37]
feels like let's go save my
[99:44]
game someone left a cool walking
[99:50]
think somebody picked some flowers and
[99:52]
it didn't take
[99:55]
Bo this is not it could have at least
[99:58]
made it level is bad at me is they're as
[100:02]
bad as me at
[100:04]
loveling nobody's chilling here for long
[100:09]
wow really
[100:12]
why why would you do that this is not
[100:18]
pleasant I've ruined it
[100:24]
oh it's so
[100:29]
pretty my God it's so
[100:46]
peaceful you can't beat
[100:51]
this I mean you can but
[100:58]
it's up
[101:06]
there I just know how people
[101:10]
are I say you can't beat this and they
[101:13]
comment oh yeah I can [ __ ] people
[101:19]
man so disrespectful
[101:24]
why don't you just honor people's
[101:25]
experiences you can't do
[101:29]
that I'm talking to all of
[101:35]
you when I say you I'm thinking Humanity
[101:38]
I'm not thinking any individual you know
[101:40]
when I'm on camera I'm not thinking
[101:42]
about the you know somebody's looking at
[101:45]
this on their phone and I'm saying you
[101:48]
and you're like oh I feel attacked I get
[101:50]
that so try not to do that but I don't
[101:53]
you know this is my language this how I
[101:54]
talk and um I'm just
[102:00]
thinking when I make videos I'm not
[102:03]
thinking about anybody I'm thinking
[102:07]
about it's like I'm posting into this
[102:10]
void
[102:12]
that
[102:14]
um represents an archetype for Humanity
[102:18]
you know and it's just
[102:20]
um that's what makes it possible for me
[102:22]
to make these videos is the fact that
[102:24]
I'm just thinking about
[102:26]
this um an idea of a person
[102:30]
not anyone in
[102:33]
particular so please don't take offense
[102:36]
you know if something doesn't apply to
[102:37]
you there's no reason to if it does
[102:40]
apply to you maybe take offense I don't
[102:42]
know maybe think on it you know maybe
[102:45]
gain some
[102:46]
perspective you maybe I'm wrong too I'm
[102:49]
not right about everything and I don't
[102:51]
pretend to be I make mistakes all the
[102:53]
time and I update my thinking on I have
[102:57]
a completely open mind if if I'm
[102:59]
presented with information that
[103:00]
resonates with me it it will Cascade
[103:03]
through my system thinking brain and
[103:06]
just update it just like a computer and
[103:09]
that will be my new um my new Baseline
[103:13]
that's just how that works I don't know
[103:15]
if everyone is that way I'm you know
[103:17]
during my personal growth journey I have
[103:19]
discovered I actually have a very unique
[103:21]
cognitive Style
[103:23]
and I didn't
[103:25]
know I we as humans have a tendency
[103:30]
to um think that people everybody thinks
[103:33]
the same right
[103:35]
so I didn't know it took me 47 years to
[103:38]
figure that out let's
[103:41]
go I think we're about there
[103:45]
41 think I might have Miss guided those
[103:47]
people a little
[103:49]
bit it felt like 2 miles I don't know
[103:55]
[Music]
[103:57]
42 what's that expression for
[104:00]
that everything blah blah blah something
[104:03]
from a
[104:08]
book it's not a very good book I've read
[104:11]
it I know lot of people like it but I'm
[104:14]
kind of you know you got to have a
[104:17]
certain cognitive style for that book I
[104:21]
guess see diversity it's a good
[104:25]
thing
[104:27]
um I do feel like we're probably getting
[104:31]
there which will make me sad I actually
[104:34]
don't want to get there
[104:38]
43 very good number
[105:01]
44 I think that's the last one right oh
[105:04]
no it's
[105:06]
47 right
[105:20]
okay yeah must be 47
[105:24]
oh this is so peaceful
[105:29]
wow
[105:32]
45 let's not talk about that
[105:36]
number
[105:46]
um actually don't know which number was
[105:49]
Trump I don't
[105:51]
remember h could be
[105:54]
wrong and then you'll be like what's he
[105:56]
talking
[105:58]
about
[106:00]
[Music]
[106:16]
46 very pleasant
[106:29]
oh we made
[106:30]
in we're back at the parking
[106:34]
lot I think it's not our parking lot
[106:37]
though that's
[106:38]
interesting not a circular
[106:42]
Trail o what is
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that what are you
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where have we
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emerged a nature
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preserve okay I have no idea what this
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thing is
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none Spillway something in my brain says
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to say that it's next to a dam they can
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put water through it or something if it
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gets too high I don't
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know assuming that's a damn I don't know
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is it a dam I guess I mean cuz it looks
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natural to me kind of I see my Jeep it's
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over there it's so pretty it's so
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pretty imagine walking up that
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uh-uh that is a skill level
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100 oh
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okay this doesn't feel
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sturdy oh my
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God we're up too
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high we're going to take this one
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slow pretty freaking cool oh my God I
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love
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this wow
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what a Hidden Gem in the
[108:25]
world look at all those mountains in the
[108:29]
background this is a nice
[108:37]
place oh I'm going to be here a
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bunch hell
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yeah I needed
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this I needed to find this place
[108:56]
what is that thing over there like what
[108:58]
is that thing doing I don't get it
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what's its
[109:10]
purpose H I bet this is man-made isn't
[109:13]
it just a man-made lake how do we do
[109:17]
that just make Lakes wherever we want
[109:27]
wonder what's that
[109:29]
way oh that's the
[109:31]
road yeah okay that's that's the
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road back I want to go
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back I don't want
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to I don't want to I hate that place
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I ain't going back I don't want
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to people chilling over there
[110:19]
fishing I could come here someday and be
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like will you teach me please
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somebody would say
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yes I need to know how to fish and I
[110:29]
need to know how to need to see if I can
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do it
[110:34]
like God help me if I do catch a
[110:38]
fish but I need to learn you need to
[110:44]
learn I mean
[110:46]
honestly need some skills so that I'm
[110:50]
prepared if something happens I'm I'm
[110:52]
not saying it well I'm just saying there
[110:54]
are strong
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indicators
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oh I want to be
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prepared I
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do I don't know if I could do that
[111:09]
I I don't
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know I saw when I was driving back
[111:19]
yesterday I saw um I got behind this
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vehicle that had a trailer on it that
[111:24]
was Towing some
[111:25]
cows and there was this little cow in
[111:28]
the
[111:29]
back and I got close to it because it
[111:33]
was a merging situation and you could
[111:35]
tell it it scared the cow I didn't know
[111:37]
they were back
[111:38]
there and I just felt so bad for that
[111:41]
cow like I just kept looking at it it
[111:43]
was looking me in the
[111:45]
eyes and I just was
[111:48]
like I felt so bad for that c
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so
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um yeah me fishing I I don't
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know could I I don't
[112:04]
know I doubt it I doubt it it have to
[112:10]
be an absolute
[112:13]
necessity you
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know I don't
[112:20]
know it's not my nature to go around
[112:23]
killing things
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so
[112:29]
um it's a cognitive dissonance you know
[112:32]
I eat meat but it don't look like that
[112:35]
cow does and it don't look like those
[112:38]
fish that come out of the
[112:40]
water you know so that's a different
[112:43]
thing to you know what is that thing why
[112:47]
do they have that platform out there all
[112:49]
these
[112:50]
little pipes sticking out
[112:53]
um what do you do what is your
[112:57]
purpose I must find
[113:00]
out I will ask you
[113:05]
gu what a nice view up here like just
[113:09]
wow I like these kinds of Vantage
[113:13]
points so awesome
[113:29]
so some people park over there and take
[113:30]
the tra
[113:32]
backwards um I did that a lot I used to
[113:35]
go um you know
[113:38]
counterclockwise
[113:40]
um sometime yeah especially if you take
[113:43]
a TR all the time you want to mix it up
[113:46]
um different kind of a
[113:48]
workout depends which way you're going
[114:05]
hope I'm not stepping on
[114:07]
anything you can hear
[114:17]
them they have a right to live too
[114:20]
they're in their environment right now
[114:22]
not
[114:36]
mine it's easy for us to ignore stuff
[114:39]
like that but we
[114:43]
shouldn't not saying you have to be
[114:45]
perfect just be
[114:50]
mindful what is your purpose
[114:54]
what do you
[114:55]
do it has a purpose I wonder if there's
[114:58]
a structure under here like an lost or
[115:02]
something there could be a big old
[115:04]
tunnel under
[115:13]
here maybe this
[115:17]
where some government people come in in
[115:19]
the world
[115:20]
ends and they got got a water
[115:24]
source man listen to me I I might not
[115:27]
even be wrong okay like
[115:31]
wow solar panel for their little
[115:34]
whatever that
[115:46]
is very cool place
[115:54]
place for the locals to come it's County
[115:57]
and give them a place
[116:00]
to find peace from
[116:03]
their you know other obligations in
[116:11]
life yeah I'm not going to walk down
[116:14]
that Hill I'm I'm
[116:16]
old I'm tired
[116:21]
now so we're just going to walk
[116:24]
around you know 10 years ago I had
[116:27]
definitely gone down that
[116:30]
Hill not
[116:33]
today maybe one
[116:36]
day let's find out if that
[116:39]
happens I definitely have to come
[116:46]
back
[116:48]
hello you like what they're doing over
[116:51]
there Day fishing
[116:53]
very
[116:57]
cool I wonder what they kind of fish do
[116:59]
they find in
[117:01]
there
[117:04]
hi oh there's a chain
[117:09]
there I got to walk
[117:13]
around
[117:18]
okay I was going to make a joke when we
[117:20]
got back and say let's do it again
[117:22]
and then actually do it but
[117:25]
no nope that last mile got me I
[117:29]
think we are
[117:33]
done maybe one
[117:35]
day that was so fun I don't want to go
[117:42]
back we shall see like look at that two
[117:45]
hours perfect timing hope you all had
[117:49]
fun on my little Adventure
[117:53]
oh yeah it's a good day
[118:35]
something about this spot right here is
[118:37]
just magical to me the way that that
[118:40]
down and gray mix together especially
[118:43]
when the sun is shining on it just is so
[118:46]
beautiful every time I come past this
[118:48]
spot right here I am just blown away at
[118:49]
its beauty and it has something to do
[118:52]
with the
[119:05]
colors this is a nice little
[119:07]
spot we're getting out in the boonies I
[119:10]
don't even know where we are Maran
[119:14]
County not familiar with that
[119:18]
one I absolutely love Kentucky it is
[119:21]
just so beautiful
[119:22]
roads like these
[119:24]
just are so fun to be on and I know my
[119:29]
camera doesn't do it justice I should
[119:30]
have brought my other camera I didn't
[119:32]
think about it it would have been a good
[119:34]
day for trying that out cuz I haven't
[119:36]
ever used it yet
