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I'm
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home um I didn't stay long because I
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knew Bailey was here he's only been here
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like 36 hours know it's an adjustment
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for
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him um he needs to know this is
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permanent this time
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so and I didn't you know I left him in
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kind of a bit of chaos I guess I'll just
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show you that before Bailey's outside by
[0:20]
the way he just want
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out so this is our bed right now because
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you know I got us a new
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mattress um there's one issue that we
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might have I put that sock there just so
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he had my scent I don't
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know anything to help right is how I
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looked at it I had all this is what I
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put up yesterday and I had all this
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stuff on it but I couldn't even really
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sleep well because I was so worried
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about it falling down I used a bunch of
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these
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things and when I looked at it this
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morning they definitely shown signs that
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they just can't be fully
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trusted um I'm going to put on some
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command
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strips and I'm going to put on some duct
[0:59]
tap
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just think of I don't care if it hurts
[1:03]
the wall I truly don't it's more
[1:05]
important my safety is more important I
[1:06]
was worried about Bailey and I think
[1:07]
that might have been what caus that
[1:09]
dream like it was just a ridiculously
[1:11]
scary
[1:12]
dream so I got all my movies and some of
[1:15]
the books um Game of
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Thrones some Minecraft stuff I put it
[1:20]
all up there it looked really nice but I
[1:22]
had to take it down and I'll put it back
[1:23]
up today after I secure that better
[1:26]
going to put the bed in here um I might
[1:29]
have
[1:30]
to I think maybe the problem with the RV
[1:33]
mattress is that there's that 1in Gap
[1:36]
there you know and it's right split
[1:38]
right down the middle you know or you're
[1:40]
sleeping right the middle of your body
[1:41]
like that can't be good and I'll have
[1:43]
the same problem with this mattress
[1:45]
right so I'll just find something
[1:47]
that go to the store like a hardware
[1:50]
store or something and I'll figure
[1:51]
something
[1:53]
out so yeah um and this is this will
[1:57]
look messy but hold on let me just show
[1:58]
you this first clean up all the stuff
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that was
[2:01]
here so that Bailey had as much room as
[2:04]
possible and
[2:06]
then you know a lot of it ended up over
[2:08]
here it looks completely messy but some
[2:10]
of this stuff belongs in my Jeep um cuz
[2:13]
I had to clear that out for the mattress
[2:15]
and a lot of it's a lot more organized
[2:16]
than it might appear at first glance you
[2:19]
guys will see that cuz that's what I'm
[2:21]
doing today it's a priority um I wanted
[2:23]
Bailey to have as much space as possible
[2:25]
I had up so he could just access the
[2:27]
window over here you know he had the
[2:31]
stuff over you know this area these
[2:33]
pillars weren't here I brought these
[2:34]
with me I wanted to try different pills
[2:36]
I didn't like the ones I brought you
[2:37]
could jump up there and then up there
[2:38]
and I had all the windows
[2:40]
cracked um you know I did everything I
[2:42]
could and I knew you know I knew it
[2:45]
would be kind of rough cuz it was like 5
[2:47]
or 6 hours we're in here right
[2:51]
Bailey but he immediately wanted to go
[2:53]
out so I don't know brought some things
[2:56]
with me so I'll show you that got all my
[2:58]
booknook um there's one here here
[3:00]
too whole bunch of book ducks to put
[3:02]
together those will take forever it's
[3:04]
not going to happen
[3:05]
quickly um I grabb McDonald's I was so
[3:07]
hungry the strawber duckies I'll explain
[3:09]
to you later it's a deep a Jeep
[3:11]
thing and I got a new camera if that
[3:14]
camera doesn't take better pictures
[3:17]
of um nature then you know it's going
[3:20]
back but if it does take better ones in
[3:22]
my um my phone then I'm happy to have it
[3:26]
my mom gave me a bunch of nicotine
[3:27]
patches then there's my bed I have to
[3:29]
put put that thing together well you
[3:30]
know open it up hey
[3:34]
biley what's up I thought you wanted out
[3:38]
you don't want out
[3:40]
anymore
[3:41]
okay I did bring some popsicles for him
[3:44]
with me cuz he loves them but they
[3:45]
started to um melt a little
[3:48]
bit um so I put him in the freezer for a
[3:51]
while I'm going to try to get him to eat
[3:53]
wet food by mixing it in with dry food
[3:55]
he's never ate wet food he just doesn't
[3:57]
like it because of an incident from his
[3:59]
childhood he almost died
[4:01]
from um from a
[4:04]
vaccine you know very rare it just it
[4:07]
triggered a condition that he has it's I
[4:10]
forget what it's called but it has
[4:11]
something to do with
[4:12]
arthritis I think um and I've been
[4:16]
wondering if it's coming back because
[4:17]
he's been sleeping a lot more lately and
[4:20]
I don't think it's just
[4:21]
like the stress of all these
[4:24]
changes cuz it was ongoing like before
[4:27]
before I moved it's been going for on
[4:29]
for a couple months I'm going to get him
[4:30]
to a vet and have his blood checked and
[4:31]
stuff like
[4:33]
that so yeah that's all for now
[4:36]
until clean all this stuff off and get
[4:39]
that mattress on
[4:40]
there took a bit of effort but not much
[4:43]
I mean it wasn't too bad it says it'll
[4:45]
take up
[4:46]
to 3 days to fully decompress I read a
[4:49]
review that said 12 hours so you know
[4:52]
probably be all right you can't see it
[4:54]
like dipping down I think you can even
[4:56]
feel
[4:58]
it um
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yeah I don't
[5:04]
know definitely going to want to do
[5:05]
something about that but the bed
[5:12]
itself I think it might work so that's
[5:16]
good happy about
[5:19]
that definitely you know a little bit
[5:21]
tilted here
[5:22]
so you know that one inch does make a
[5:25]
difference um hopefully Bailey likes it
[5:28]
you know I'll get all the sheets and
[5:29]
stuff F here finally I hadn't been
[5:31]
sleeping with those cuz I knew I was
[5:33]
going to do this
[5:34]
and fix these shelves and then get the
[5:38]
stuff that belongs in the Jeep back in
[5:40]
there that'll clear out a lot of space
[5:42]
in here and
[5:43]
then deal with the rest of it I think I
[5:46]
might be able to do it today and
[5:47]
tomorrow and be just finally be done
[5:49]
with
[5:55]
that I think he's happy to be
[5:58]
here he didn't like being locked up all
[6:01]
day that cat does want to run around the
[6:04]
more freedom you give him the more he
[6:05]
wants
[6:07]
so it's always a challenge but he's
[6:10]
worth every
[6:22]
moment you're never leaving here without
[6:25]
me
[6:27]
okay this is our home here in
[6:36]
mine that's a good barrier from your bir
[6:40]
what do you see out
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there say hi
[6:50]
bab we need some
[6:54]
brushes doing
[7:01]
can't on my
[7:03]
hand can't see
[7:08]
anything okay he's happy I'm
[7:12]
back he doesn't want me doing anything I
[7:15]
guess all
[7:22]
right I need to make the bed
[7:25]
baby will you let me make the bed
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[Music]
[7:31]
H come on let me make the
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bag this one makes eye contact a lot I
[7:40]
don't know many cats that are like that
[7:42]
this one wants to look
[7:53]
at you lonely
[8:10]
here that's one task done now to just
[8:13]
give it time to you know get better and
[8:15]
filled out don't particularly like this
[8:17]
mat um this bed sprad my mom likes it
[8:21]
because he says it's so hard to make a
[8:22]
RV bed that it always looks like crap so
[8:25]
this actually makes it look better which
[8:28]
is kind of true but I kind of want to
[8:30]
change the color I
[8:31]
think I went I'm doing the same with
[8:34]
these
[8:34]
rugs I actually got some different
[8:37]
colored
[8:38]
ones you happy Bailey H you like the
[8:45]
bad so this is
[8:48]
next I just realized I hadn't shown you
[8:50]
guys what's next to my bed over here on
[8:52]
this side on my game consoles my steam
[8:54]
dag Nintendo
[8:56]
switch Kindle
[8:59]
uh F game
[9:02]
controllers I think that one's for my
[9:04]
laptop which you know I haven't really
[9:05]
used much yet but I will probably end up
[9:08]
just using on my bed when I want to do
[9:09]
some gaming or something and this one's
[9:11]
for cell phones if I ever get into a
[9:13]
mobile game I probably won't because
[9:14]
they're all they're they're all designed
[9:16]
to just take as much money from you as
[9:18]
possible do have a couple of different
[9:20]
game consoles up there
[9:23]
um don't remember the names of them one
[9:25]
of them are sort of like an Android one
[9:27]
but the other one is actually really
[9:29]
good
[9:31]
I actually almost prefer it to the steam
[9:33]
dab because it natively runs Windows 11
[9:36]
oh very old PlayStation beat up
[9:39]
there look at Bailey you're so funny
[9:42]
Bailey
[9:44]
really so you know I got all my basic
[9:47]
stuff over here that you know makes
[9:48]
sense as like sort of personal
[9:50]
things yeah I'm going to have to figure
[9:52]
this out cuz not working
[9:59]
y I mean eventually I will do you know a
[10:03]
normal tour of this place once I am
[10:08]
ready basically everything in this area
[10:10]
jut told me make it feel like a home
[10:14]
because I had been struggling to do
[10:17]
normal home like things like watch TV or
[10:20]
even read a book like for some reason I
[10:25]
just sit in the space and it just
[10:27]
doesn't it's just something something
[10:29]
about it I I don't know I Jud you
[10:31]
because just make it feel like a home so
[10:32]
that's what I'm trying to do put all my
[10:34]
gaming stuff over here on that shelf put
[10:36]
my movies and books over there the few
[10:38]
books that I kept I didn't take many um
[10:42]
like I said just Minecraft books cuz
[10:44]
they were just kind of special and
[10:47]
they're pretty basic books but they're I
[10:49]
just find them interesting and then um I
[10:52]
have you know Game of Thrones on on
[10:56]
Kindle I think um but the these ones
[11:00]
are they're just they have leather like
[11:04]
you know they're Bound in leather and
[11:06]
very small PR but I've actually read
[11:08]
them up to like the fourth book or
[11:10]
something they're really good so I will
[11:12]
I do find to read them
[11:14]
again M's still sitting on my legs
[11:17]
so I've just been sitting here and I
[11:20]
started thinking have no idea where my
[11:23]
life is going I just need to be
[11:27]
patient and maybe it'll be somewhere
[11:31]
wonderful and then I started thinking
[11:34]
and I looked it up I started my my
[11:37]
YouTube Journey with you guys on
[11:38]
February 24th so it's been 2 and a half
[11:42]
months and I'm just curious have I
[11:45]
inspired any of you have you made any
[11:48]
changes in your life you know have
[11:56]
you has this channel done anything for
[11:58]
you
[12:00]
I need to know because I don't know that
[12:02]
I can keep doing it unless I know it's
[12:05]
doing something positive in the
[12:09]
world I don't think that's unre you know
[12:13]
un unreasonable of me either because you
[12:17]
know I look at my analytics and most
[12:19]
people don't really watch my videos for
[12:21]
very long
[12:24]
so and it's an average
[12:27]
so it's quite low for each videos so I
[12:30]
just you
[12:32]
know think that most people don't really
[12:34]
watch me even when they are when there's
[12:36]
you know whatever the views are it's
[12:40]
just it's a lot of effort it takes a lot
[12:43]
of really does take a lot of emotional
[12:48]
energy and it just
[12:52]
feels unnatural I mean this isn't how I
[12:55]
would normally live I keep my thoughts
[12:57]
to myself I allowed myself to do a thing
[13:02]
that does not feel normal to me I just
[13:04]
need to know it's worth
[13:09]
it just need to be patient because I do
[13:13]
believe good things are
[13:15]
coming I don't want to do this
[13:17]
forever I think that there's this I just
[13:21]
have this problem on YouTube where
[13:24]
I'm an RV Life channel which is accurate
[13:27]
but this is just the backdrop of my life
[13:29]
that's not it's not what I really share
[13:32]
with you guys really so I think that
[13:35]
that gets overlooked a lot you know and
[13:38]
not by the ones who watch me but just in
[13:41]
general you know I don't think
[13:44]
that I don't think that I've learned to
[13:47]
label and Target my content correctly
[13:49]
yet
[13:52]
so but this is a self-improvement
[13:55]
channel this is about being vulnerable
[14:00]
and finding strength in it because there
[14:02]
is a lot of strength in doing and being
[14:04]
vulnerable there really
[14:06]
is you know I'm still sad about Oliver
[14:09]
but I I do feel better like still sad
[14:12]
about it I love that cat a lot I'm going
[14:15]
to miss the hell out of
[14:18]
him but you know I've I think I've found
[14:24]
acceptance It's for now there's always a
[14:26]
part of me that will have hope it's
[14:27]
impossible for they not
[14:30]
and like I was saying I don't want to do
[14:33]
this forever I might you know I want
[14:36]
some land and I might live in this on
[14:37]
that
[14:39]
land but I don't know that I like the
[14:41]
whole traveling part I mean that dream
[14:43]
tells you a lot about how I feel about
[14:45]
it maybe it gets better I guess we'll
[14:48]
find
[14:49]
out I did learn that my propane can last
[14:52]
a very long time even if I were cooking
[14:54]
with it um cuz it's just me and because
[14:59]
last me many months that's pretty
[15:02]
cool I mean that is really
[15:07]
cool I just more time you know I
[15:11]
can't can't judge the situation yet I
[15:13]
have to give it more time so in theory
[15:17]
all those command strips should add 60
[15:20]
lbs capacity to that show a I'm finding
[15:25]
the silence
[15:27]
difficult it's all I heard for over a
[15:29]
month now you know and but I can't
[15:33]
handle heavy emotions right now so I
[15:35]
just needed
[15:36]
something just to play in the background
[15:41]
that i' had never seen this boy there
[15:44]
are a lot of adult references in this
[15:46]
thing
[15:48]
um just thought you know what set that
[15:50]
thing up and and just play something
[15:52]
real casual
[15:55]
that's just for the background noise I
[15:57]
guess it's an adjustment
[16:00]
M's over here he is an expert
[16:04]
sleeper always so
[16:08]
adorable all the work on these shelves
[16:10]
is just to keep that cat right there
[16:12]
safe because I love him so
[16:15]
much yes I
[16:19]
do hell no I do not want that song stuck
[16:24]
in my head I will be screaming in my
[16:25]
head until it's
[16:27]
over ready to go
[16:29]
[Applause]
[16:31]
60 lbs for each one plus you know
[16:34]
whatever I don't know what those
[16:36]
see-through ones but I'm probably going
[16:39]
to put duct tape on it still probably on
[16:42]
those see-through things cuz it just
[16:43]
feels like there's air bubbles in them
[16:47]
eventually they'll just stop working I
[16:50]
actually think it's probably safe
[16:53]
now it's a lot of command strips two
[16:55]
boxes of
[16:57]
them CH GB so to make this place feel
[17:00]
like a home that's what I've tried to
[17:04]
do nothing's more like home than my cat
[17:07]
of
[17:07]
course my game consoles that I showed
[17:10]
you I'm going to do some work on these
[17:12]
baskets try to put some up here all the
[17:14]
way up to the ceiling but they fell down
[17:17]
it's why I'm so concerned about this
[17:20]
stuff but I did do feel this is
[17:23]
good feels like that feels like
[17:27]
home yeah it's mostly movies a few books
[17:32]
all my peter Hamilton books are gone
[17:34]
very sad about that I love Peter
[17:36]
Hamilton's books I love owning his whole
[17:39]
collection
[17:41]
um real sad about that but you got to
[17:45]
make sacrifices and these were the
[17:47]
things I could not part with so this
[17:50]
kind of gives you a window into the kind
[17:52]
of entertainment I like I
[17:54]
guess this is all Battle Star Galactica
[17:56]
stuff Target
[17:58]
I didn't like Universe of course I do
[18:01]
have it in this collection somewhere but
[18:03]
it's kind of hidden because I don't care
[18:04]
for it that much I all I love all star
[18:08]
track you'll find lots of that Mr
[18:12]
Robot Harry Potter fantastic Beast The
[18:16]
Hobbit Lord of the Rings all of Game of
[18:18]
Thrones and the books The Land Before
[18:21]
Time that is like a
[18:23]
childhood the first movie anyways I've
[18:26]
not seen all of them but when I
[18:28]
discovered there was a collection they
[18:29]
had to get it my Minecraft
[18:33]
books Hunger Games more Minecraft books
[18:37]
back there Iron Will is one of my
[18:38]
all-time favorite
[18:40]
movies True Blood that's something my
[18:42]
mom and I share
[18:44]
together Lo of the Flies The Matrix fan
[18:48]
and the City of a thousand planets
[18:50]
Fringe the
[18:51]
expanse there's some random stuff back
[18:54]
there that some is you know less
[18:56]
important than others land of mine is an
[18:59]
excellent movie if you can find
[19:01]
it um it's a very powerful
[19:06]
movie that's from Rainbow briti a
[19:08]
childhood thing that I'll maybe tell you
[19:10]
about
[19:11]
someday and those are you know B EO F
[19:16]
EOS for my Nintendo
[19:18]
switch so there we
[19:22]
are I feel pretty confident that's not
[19:25]
going
[19:27]
anywhere and this face is starting to
[19:29]
feel like Cal right
[19:31]
Bailey yep it
[19:38]
is I've noticed my camera does not
[19:41]
really reflect what I look like it's
[19:44]
like I don't get phone cameras I look at
[19:46]
myself in the mirror I look I'm way
[19:48]
hotter than this I just
[19:51]
am so did get my camera I put it
[19:55]
together and
[19:58]
I don't have a memory card for it so
[20:01]
can't use it yet but
[20:04]
um looks interesting I'll show it to you
[20:06]
guys later still a lot to do around here
[20:09]
but this is
[20:12]
progress there is a spot up there for a
[20:14]
television and I thought maybe one day I
[20:16]
might get one but there's definitely not
[20:18]
room now and honestly I think a tablet
[20:22]
is good enough I really do I don't know
[20:25]
if I can hook my Blu-ray player up to
[20:28]
I'm going to try this I'm just curious
[20:29]
if that would work or not but if it
[20:31]
doesn't that's what my laptop's for I
[20:34]
guess but yeah we've made progress in
[20:37]
here and it might not look like it but
[20:39]
if you compare it to earlier got a bunch
[20:41]
of stuff out of here that's all art
[20:43]
supplies just got to figure out what I'm
[20:45]
going to do with
[20:47]
that um most things are in baskets now
[20:52]
um or really not like some of the
[20:54]
baskets are pretty empty
[20:57]
so um I really feel like I can get
[21:01]
organized it looks messy it's just
[21:06]
because it's just not organized yet and
[21:09]
I feel like I can do it I feel like it
[21:11]
is possible now I feel like I'm getting
[21:13]
so
[21:14]
close so I'm really happy about that I
[21:17]
just I need it it will help I know it
[21:20]
will help I think that's one of the
[21:22]
reasons why this feels so hard it's
[21:25]
just you you really need to
[21:29]
you really need to be organized oh I
[21:33]
when I first put those shelves up I had
[21:34]
on my George Carlin I don't know you
[21:36]
know a lot of you guys might know great
[21:38]
comedian I got all of his DVDs recently
[21:42]
so I could not part with those I mean I
[21:44]
got all of them but I was thinking you
[21:46]
know what they don't really need to be
[21:47]
in those boxes I can just you
[21:50]
know there's eight of them right so you
[21:54]
know just ate this and put them in um
[21:57]
you know back here I've got I've got
[21:59]
lots of
[22:01]
discs you know you want to save space
[22:04]
like maybe some of the things over there
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belong that way too um maybe some of the
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randomness or you know a lot of them I
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wouldn't want to do that I mean I
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actually like to expain them it's one of
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the reason I bought them that way CU of
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course you could stream any of these
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things I had so many DVDs going back
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decades and I really wanted to keep them
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because I thought maybe one day I'll go
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to aaska going to comp parter with them
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I just sounded like a fun idea but
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that's not going to happen I don't even
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know what happened to him
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actually no idea it's raining and pretty
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tired it was a long day didn't get
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enough sleep then they have that weird
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nightm and then I had to leave I had to
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go you know get our new mattress and all
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that
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and got back and immediately got to work
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and yeah I think it's time to chill hope
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you guys have a good night is
