Explaining Direct Address and Preparing to Depart

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September 18, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

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[0:00] hello

[0:02] humans so I want to talk about something

[0:04] I haven't talked about yet and that is

[0:09] first let me get comfortable this is not

[0:11] comfortable I'm trying to trying to get

[0:13] some like going in here you know what I

[0:15] can do something about that okay that's

[0:18] a little

[0:19] better

[0:21] so I'm sure you all at some point or

[0:24] another have wondered why do I say

[0:27] you whenever I'm talking about

[0:31] well anything

[0:32] really and I want you to know that this

[0:35] is something I've grappled with myself

[0:37] I've asked myself this many times like

[0:39] today I was talking about reckless

[0:42] driving which is a very big problem in

[0:44] the world at least in this country I

[0:46] don't know about the rest of world but

[0:47] definitely

[0:48] here um and of course I recognize that

[0:52] some of the people watching me are not

[0:54] part of this problem I'm not part of the

[0:57] problem therefore others are not part of

[0:59] the problem problem too but they are

[1:01] part of the system just like I am and I

[1:04] don't want to soften my messages like I

[1:07] don't want to put a layer

[1:09] of obfuscation

[1:13] between my critique of this world and

[1:18] my and the the viewer so if I were to

[1:22] say lots of people C gate and they don't

[1:25] realize how irresponsible they're being

[1:28] then every single person watching me

[1:30] right now can say oh that's not me well

[1:33] yeah it probably is

[1:35] you so I don't want to soften my

[1:38] message I want every single one of my

[1:41] viewers to just pause for a second and

[1:43] go wait am I contributing to this

[1:46] problem to just ask themselves check in

[1:49] with themselves and find out and maybe

[1:51] they come back with oh this isn't about

[1:54] me so you know don't get offended when I

[1:56] when I do this because it's not about

[1:59] you

[2:01] if you are one of those people think on

[2:03] my

[2:04] words I'm not trying to offend you

[2:07] either I'm just trying to get people to

[2:10] think because there is not enough of

[2:13] that in this world anymore there truly

[2:17] isn't everything that is happening is

[2:20] getting worse nothing in this world is

[2:22] getting

[2:24] better every major system every

[2:30] the trajectory of life itself is not

[2:34] good and everybody and this is why I say

[2:37] you needs to check in with

[2:42] themselves to make sure they're not part

[2:44] of the problem at least in that area

[2:46] that I'm

[2:47] discussing I do this all the time I live

[2:50] an ethical life because my ethics are

[2:52] tied to my cognition they are

[2:54] inseparable from my thoughts from my

[2:56] actions from my emotions this is a fact

[2:59] this is is a truth about me I get that

[3:01] most people aren't this way but there's

[3:03] no way I'm the only

[3:05] one if I'm this way others are this way

[3:08] you see how that

[3:09] works but I also

[3:14] think I genuinely believe that every

[3:17] person is capable of being like me I

[3:20] think it would be very hard at this

[3:22] point because it would require a radical

[3:26] change in the way that you identify with

[3:28] yourself and

[3:35] and well that's a complicated one I

[3:37] guess I'm not ready to talk about that

[3:39] because my head just I don't even know

[3:40] where it went

[3:43] um but the point is I do I genuinely

[3:46] believe that every single person on this

[3:48] planet is capable of being

[3:51] holistic like

[3:53] me and that is why I do what I do that

[3:56] is why I talk about the things I do

[3:58] that's why I have a YouTube channel that

[4:00] is why I say

[4:01] you because I am confronting you

[4:08] directly and I get that that's not

[4:10] always

[4:11] easy my life was never easy confronting

[4:15] myself all the time never

[4:18] easy but worthwhile and

[4:25] necessary and I need you to consider

[4:28] doing that yourself

[4:30] awesome making lots of progress today I

[4:33] got my laundry going down there um it's

[4:36] just all drying now so once that's done

[4:38] I can go pick it up fold it up get it

[4:41] put away all my laundry will be done I

[4:44] got this on my mirr now I think it's

[4:47] going to help but I do need to I just

[4:49] need to secure this somehow I haven't

[4:51] haven't thought that through yet I'm

[4:52] going to do that in a minute I think

[4:54] I've tried a couple of things this is

[4:55] not working this is going to vibrate but

[4:58] hopefully this will still be good enough

[5:00] to see out of and I got new windshield

[5:03] wipers cuz I needed those that took me

[5:06] hours I was afraid of break him little

[5:08] pieces you

[5:10] know um finally I went and I found a

[5:12] fellow camper to help me he taught me

[5:14] that you could you pull the thing off

[5:16] and then use a different adapter

[5:19] and so yeah sometimes you got to ask for

[5:22] help that's the difference you ask for

[5:24] help you don't just you don't just

[5:26] assume that

[5:27] you should give advice to people people

[5:30] want to learn stuff they want to learn

[5:33] it their own

[5:35] way you if they ask for help then

[5:38] they're open to it if you just give your

[5:40] advice when they haven't asked for it

[5:43] that's just being rude in my book

[5:47] so yeah oh that's

[5:50] weird don't look

[5:53] good that little metal piece up there

[5:56] looks like it's sticking out doesn't

[5:58] it he can't be

[6:00] normal it's always

[6:03] something yeah something's not

[6:06] right this goes to the slide though I

[6:09] don't use it anymore but still to be

[6:11] looked

[6:13] at doing very well tomorrow I go to

[6:17] Kansas I need to get

[6:19] fuel I didn't stop anywhere on the way

[6:22] here cuz I just it was such a long

[6:26] day man these spiders really just love

[6:28] to attach the themselves to your RV I

[6:30] swear to God they they waste no time we

[6:32] got one here you look pretty

[6:35] evil and I noticed one over here earlier

[6:39] there you are you built quite the web I

[6:42] see you and I see your

[6:46] web I figure he can spend the night cuz

[6:49] I leave tomorrow but he's got a home for

[6:53] tonight I

[6:55] guess so that's yeah

[6:59] go get my laundry in a minute and see

[7:01] what time it is oh I still got 30

[7:03] minutes

[7:08] so what to do around

[7:12] here feel like there's always something

[7:14] to

[7:16] do there a lot to go

[7:20] inside I could get thats side to go in

[7:22] all the

[7:24] way does bother me when I'm in the

[7:28] Pacific Northwest and raining all the

[7:30] time that could be a

[7:33] problem I knew about that

[7:38] okay yeah things are going quite well

[7:42] we're here to get some real Mexican food

[7:45] I'm

[7:46] starving

[7:48] yay this is becoming a new habit for me

[7:50] finding a Mexican restaurant wherever I

[7:52] go so I was just curious about their

[7:55] dump stations because you know I'm going

[7:58] to be driving out not they call them how

[8:01] they got a whole bunch of them they're

[8:03] on both

[8:05] sides this is the nicest one I've seen

[8:08] so far I just I'm just so impressed with

[8:10] this place this place is pretty awesome

[8:13] you should note the shower houses are

[8:14] not however those were quite bad so

[8:19] um you know I'll I'll shower tomorrow

[8:22] morning but I am not going to like

[8:24] it I wish I had water but that's my

[8:27] fault some of them do have water from

[8:29] I'm see

[8:31] so um it depends there's there's

[8:33] multiple campgrounds here each one is

[8:36] different like see this one up here this

[8:38] one's got just electric I would say oh

[8:41] no it shows water there right so the

[8:44] symbols H do these people have water let

[8:48] me just find

[8:51] out I couldn't

[8:53] tell right oh look at that hello

[8:58] [Music]

[9:02] um I don't know I don't see no water

[9:07] hookups they have like these little

[9:09] here's one right here or these little

[9:12] water spigots if you want to use

[9:16] them they could have done

[9:20] that I'm back pretty far but I I haven't

[9:23] been that way I really should go that

[9:25] way I think that takes you down to the

[9:28] lake

[9:31] love this place this place is so

[9:36] wonderful um I go straight cuz I go down

[9:38] to my shower

[9:42] house

[9:44] yep usually get lost you

[9:47] remember these things back and forth so

[9:50] you remember for those of you who've

[9:52] been following me a long time you might

[9:53] remember my first Campground how lost I

[9:55] got in that place and it's small I was

[9:58] driving around all over the place

[10:00] couldn't find my RV gotten way better at

[10:02] this that's for

[10:04] sure just always noting you know I'm

[10:07] always wanting to grow so I'm always

[10:08] noting what I

[10:10] do um just meta cognition it's just how

[10:14] I it's how I roll how I wish everybody

[10:19] rolled so I'm just heading back cuz I

[10:23] had to go get me some

[10:25] Mexican someone on a golf cart up here

[10:28] but I think they're part of the part oh

[10:30] yep I know him

[10:32] hello that's when of the um hosts

[10:35] there's a each Campground has its own

[10:36] host which that's

[10:38] interesting I mean it's just the same

[10:40] park so I don't know why they call them

[10:42] different camgrounds really they're just

[10:45] different Loops is how I would think of

[10:47] them stay there

[10:50] squirrel got to watch out for the

[10:51] squirrels and the wild turkeys I've seen

[10:53] some wild tur I've seen them a couple

[10:55] times now

[10:56] actually and was pretty cool when I was

[11:00] leaving here to go get Mexican food

[11:02] there was two wild turkeys one on each

[11:04] side of the road as they started to

[11:06] approach the one on the right side saw

[11:09] me coming ran across to get to its

[11:12] partner you know or whoever you know

[11:15] their their relationship is and I just

[11:17] thought that was so

[11:20] cool oh I love my

[11:23] life it's not an easy one but it is a

[11:27] wonderfully wonderfully

[11:30] I keep using the same words like um

[11:35] rewarding it's very rewarding but it's a

[11:37] lot more than that maybe one day I'll

[11:40] put it into words

[11:42] better I'm learning that you know for me

[11:45] I don't like the presence of other

[11:47] humans like there's an RV right here

[11:49] they came last night and that just were

[11:51] my

[11:52] mood uh most people don't do well in

[11:55] isolation but I actually do it's my

[11:57] preference that's what I prefer I want

[12:00] to be

[12:01] alone that is when I am most at peace

[12:05] because I don't have to think about

[12:07] other people they're not in my line of

[12:09] sight you know and just not a thing that

[12:12] I like at all this is not good for a

[12:14] holistic person I guess or at least for

[12:16] me I'm back at my site go check out

[12:21] Bailey so I just learned something

[12:23] really interesting I don't know if I'll

[12:25] be able to show you on

[12:28] camera they're very tiny insects so if

[12:31] you look way in the

[12:35] distance yeah I don't think I can get

[12:37] them on camera this is glue from some

[12:39] tape that was on my

[12:41] window deal with

[12:45] that anyway there

[12:48] are tons of insects over there just

[12:51] flying around Nets or whatever and they

[12:54] used to be near my RV at other places

[12:57] I've been I didn't understand why and I

[13:00] just figured it out they are in the

[13:04] direct sunlight you know they're the Sun

[13:07] is setting and they're like directly in

[13:10] it so they're attracted to the

[13:13] Sun and just congregating there and they

[13:17] were doing that near my RV because it

[13:20] was in direct sunlight and because my RV

[13:23] was in direct sunlight all day long it

[13:25] was dissipating

[13:27] heat so multiple

[13:30] factors

[13:32] that's that's helpful wisdom there

[13:37] because knowing what attracts

[13:40] them that can do something about it also

[13:43] it's just fascinating to watch them

[13:45] there are just so many Bailey is over I

[13:48] get on the camera and here he comes hi

[13:50] Bailey you all

[13:52] know we all know how you are okay we

[13:56] know how you are

[14:01] you look awfully pretty today

[0:00] hello

[0:02] humans so I want to talk about something

[0:04] I haven't talked about yet and that is

[0:09] first let me get comfortable this is not

[0:11] comfortable I'm trying to trying to get

[0:13] some like going in here you know what I

[0:15] can do something about that okay that's

[0:18] a little

[0:19] better

[0:21] so I'm sure you all at some point or

[0:24] another have wondered why do I say

[0:27] you whenever I'm talking about

[0:31] well anything

[0:32] really and I want you to know that this

[0:35] is something I've grappled with myself

[0:37] I've asked myself this many times like

[0:39] today I was talking about reckless

[0:42] driving which is a very big problem in

[0:44] the world at least in this country I

[0:46] don't know about the rest of world but

[0:47] definitely

[0:48] here um and of course I recognize that

[0:52] some of the people watching me are not

[0:54] part of this problem I'm not part of the

[0:57] problem therefore others are not part of

[0:59] the problem problem too but they are

[1:01] part of the system just like I am and I

[1:04] don't want to soften my messages like I

[1:07] don't want to put a layer

[1:09] of obfuscation

[1:13] between my critique of this world and

[1:18] my and the the viewer so if I were to

[1:22] say lots of people C gate and they don't

[1:25] realize how irresponsible they're being

[1:28] then every single person watching me

[1:30] right now can say oh that's not me well

[1:33] yeah it probably is

[1:35] you so I don't want to soften my

[1:38] message I want every single one of my

[1:41] viewers to just pause for a second and

[1:43] go wait am I contributing to this

[1:46] problem to just ask themselves check in

[1:49] with themselves and find out and maybe

[1:51] they come back with oh this isn't about

[1:54] me so you know don't get offended when I

[1:56] when I do this because it's not about

[1:59] you

[2:01] if you are one of those people think on

[2:03] my

[2:04] words I'm not trying to offend you

[2:07] either I'm just trying to get people to

[2:10] think because there is not enough of

[2:13] that in this world anymore there truly

[2:17] isn't everything that is happening is

[2:20] getting worse nothing in this world is

[2:22] getting

[2:24] better every major system every

[2:30] the trajectory of life itself is not

[2:34] good and everybody and this is why I say

[2:37] you needs to check in with

[2:42] themselves to make sure they're not part

[2:44] of the problem at least in that area

[2:46] that I'm

[2:47] discussing I do this all the time I live

[2:50] an ethical life because my ethics are

[2:52] tied to my cognition they are

[2:54] inseparable from my thoughts from my

[2:56] actions from my emotions this is a fact

[2:59] this is is a truth about me I get that

[3:01] most people aren't this way but there's

[3:03] no way I'm the only

[3:05] one if I'm this way others are this way

[3:08] you see how that

[3:09] works but I also

[3:14] think I genuinely believe that every

[3:17] person is capable of being like me I

[3:20] think it would be very hard at this

[3:22] point because it would require a radical

[3:26] change in the way that you identify with

[3:28] yourself and

[3:35] and well that's a complicated one I

[3:37] guess I'm not ready to talk about that

[3:39] because my head just I don't even know

[3:40] where it went

[3:43] um but the point is I do I genuinely

[3:46] believe that every single person on this

[3:48] planet is capable of being

[3:51] holistic like

[3:53] me and that is why I do what I do that

[3:56] is why I talk about the things I do

[3:58] that's why I have a YouTube channel that

[4:00] is why I say

[4:01] you because I am confronting you

[4:08] directly and I get that that's not

[4:10] always

[4:11] easy my life was never easy confronting

[4:15] myself all the time never

[4:18] easy but worthwhile and

[4:25] necessary and I need you to consider

[4:28] doing that yourself

[4:30] awesome making lots of progress today I

[4:33] got my laundry going down there um it's

[4:36] just all drying now so once that's done

[4:38] I can go pick it up fold it up get it

[4:41] put away all my laundry will be done I

[4:44] got this on my mirr now I think it's

[4:47] going to help but I do need to I just

[4:49] need to secure this somehow I haven't

[4:51] haven't thought that through yet I'm

[4:52] going to do that in a minute I think

[4:54] I've tried a couple of things this is

[4:55] not working this is going to vibrate but

[4:58] hopefully this will still be good enough

[5:00] to see out of and I got new windshield

[5:03] wipers cuz I needed those that took me

[5:06] hours I was afraid of break him little

[5:08] pieces you

[5:10] know um finally I went and I found a

[5:12] fellow camper to help me he taught me

[5:14] that you could you pull the thing off

[5:16] and then use a different adapter

[5:19] and so yeah sometimes you got to ask for

[5:22] help that's the difference you ask for

[5:24] help you don't just you don't just

[5:26] assume that

[5:27] you should give advice to people people

[5:30] want to learn stuff they want to learn

[5:33] it their own

[5:35] way you if they ask for help then

[5:38] they're open to it if you just give your

[5:40] advice when they haven't asked for it

[5:43] that's just being rude in my book

[5:47] so yeah oh that's

[5:50] weird don't look

[5:53] good that little metal piece up there

[5:56] looks like it's sticking out doesn't

[5:58] it he can't be

[6:00] normal it's always

[6:03] something yeah something's not

[6:06] right this goes to the slide though I

[6:09] don't use it anymore but still to be

[6:11] looked

[6:13] at doing very well tomorrow I go to

[6:17] Kansas I need to get

[6:19] fuel I didn't stop anywhere on the way

[6:22] here cuz I just it was such a long

[6:26] day man these spiders really just love

[6:28] to attach the themselves to your RV I

[6:30] swear to God they they waste no time we

[6:32] got one here you look pretty

[6:35] evil and I noticed one over here earlier

[6:39] there you are you built quite the web I

[6:42] see you and I see your

[6:46] web I figure he can spend the night cuz

[6:49] I leave tomorrow but he's got a home for

[6:53] tonight I

[6:55] guess so that's yeah

[6:59] go get my laundry in a minute and see

[7:01] what time it is oh I still got 30

[7:03] minutes

[7:08] so what to do around

[7:12] here feel like there's always something

[7:14] to

[7:16] do there a lot to go

[7:20] inside I could get thats side to go in

[7:22] all the

[7:24] way does bother me when I'm in the

[7:28] Pacific Northwest and raining all the

[7:30] time that could be a

[7:33] problem I knew about that

[7:38] okay yeah things are going quite well

[7:42] we're here to get some real Mexican food

[7:45] I'm

[7:46] starving

[7:48] yay this is becoming a new habit for me

[7:50] finding a Mexican restaurant wherever I

[7:52] go so I was just curious about their

[7:55] dump stations because you know I'm going

[7:58] to be driving out not they call them how

[8:01] they got a whole bunch of them they're

[8:03] on both

[8:05] sides this is the nicest one I've seen

[8:08] so far I just I'm just so impressed with

[8:10] this place this place is pretty awesome

[8:13] you should note the shower houses are

[8:14] not however those were quite bad so

[8:19] um you know I'll I'll shower tomorrow

[8:22] morning but I am not going to like

[8:24] it I wish I had water but that's my

[8:27] fault some of them do have water from

[8:29] I'm see

[8:31] so um it depends there's there's

[8:33] multiple campgrounds here each one is

[8:36] different like see this one up here this

[8:38] one's got just electric I would say oh

[8:41] no it shows water there right so the

[8:44] symbols H do these people have water let

[8:48] me just find

[8:51] out I couldn't

[8:53] tell right oh look at that hello

[8:58] [Music]

[9:02] um I don't know I don't see no water

[9:07] hookups they have like these little

[9:09] here's one right here or these little

[9:12] water spigots if you want to use

[9:16] them they could have done

[9:20] that I'm back pretty far but I I haven't

[9:23] been that way I really should go that

[9:25] way I think that takes you down to the

[9:28] lake

[9:31] love this place this place is so

[9:36] wonderful um I go straight cuz I go down

[9:38] to my shower

[9:42] house

[9:44] yep usually get lost you

[9:47] remember these things back and forth so

[9:50] you remember for those of you who've

[9:52] been following me a long time you might

[9:53] remember my first Campground how lost I

[9:55] got in that place and it's small I was

[9:58] driving around all over the place

[10:00] couldn't find my RV gotten way better at

[10:02] this that's for

[10:04] sure just always noting you know I'm

[10:07] always wanting to grow so I'm always

[10:08] noting what I

[10:10] do um just meta cognition it's just how

[10:14] I it's how I roll how I wish everybody

[10:19] rolled so I'm just heading back cuz I

[10:23] had to go get me some

[10:25] Mexican someone on a golf cart up here

[10:28] but I think they're part of the part oh

[10:30] yep I know him

[10:32] hello that's when of the um hosts

[10:35] there's a each Campground has its own

[10:36] host which that's

[10:38] interesting I mean it's just the same

[10:40] park so I don't know why they call them

[10:42] different camgrounds really they're just

[10:45] different Loops is how I would think of

[10:47] them stay there

[10:50] squirrel got to watch out for the

[10:51] squirrels and the wild turkeys I've seen

[10:53] some wild tur I've seen them a couple

[10:55] times now

[10:56] actually and was pretty cool when I was

[11:00] leaving here to go get Mexican food

[11:02] there was two wild turkeys one on each

[11:04] side of the road as they started to

[11:06] approach the one on the right side saw

[11:09] me coming ran across to get to its

[11:12] partner you know or whoever you know

[11:15] their their relationship is and I just

[11:17] thought that was so

[11:20] cool oh I love my

[11:23] life it's not an easy one but it is a

[11:27] wonderfully wonderfully

[11:30] I keep using the same words like um

[11:35] rewarding it's very rewarding but it's a

[11:37] lot more than that maybe one day I'll

[11:40] put it into words

[11:42] better I'm learning that you know for me

[11:45] I don't like the presence of other

[11:47] humans like there's an RV right here

[11:49] they came last night and that just were

[11:51] my

[11:52] mood uh most people don't do well in

[11:55] isolation but I actually do it's my

[11:57] preference that's what I prefer I want

[12:00] to be

[12:01] alone that is when I am most at peace

[12:05] because I don't have to think about

[12:07] other people they're not in my line of

[12:09] sight you know and just not a thing that

[12:12] I like at all this is not good for a

[12:14] holistic person I guess or at least for

[12:16] me I'm back at my site go check out

[12:21] Bailey so I just learned something

[12:23] really interesting I don't know if I'll

[12:25] be able to show you on

[12:28] camera they're very tiny insects so if

[12:31] you look way in the

[12:35] distance yeah I don't think I can get

[12:37] them on camera this is glue from some

[12:39] tape that was on my

[12:41] window deal with

[12:45] that anyway there

[12:48] are tons of insects over there just

[12:51] flying around Nets or whatever and they

[12:54] used to be near my RV at other places

[12:57] I've been I didn't understand why and I

[13:00] just figured it out they are in the

[13:04] direct sunlight you know they're the Sun

[13:07] is setting and they're like directly in

[13:10] it so they're attracted to the

[13:13] Sun and just congregating there and they

[13:17] were doing that near my RV because it

[13:20] was in direct sunlight and because my RV

[13:23] was in direct sunlight all day long it

[13:25] was dissipating

[13:27] heat so multiple

[13:30] factors

[13:32] that's that's helpful wisdom there

[13:37] because knowing what attracts

[13:40] them that can do something about it also

[13:43] it's just fascinating to watch them

[13:45] there are just so many Bailey is over I

[13:48] get on the camera and here he comes hi

[13:50] Bailey you all

[13:52] know we all know how you are okay we

[13:56] know how you are

[14:01] you look awfully pretty today

3:24

Showing Bailey's Carrier Setup and Rejecting Compromise

Sep 4, 2024

1:19

Ending the Onus of Being Understood

Sep 5, 2024

3:53

Declaring an End to Adjusting His Language

Sep 5, 2024

4:44

Duck Drops, RV Repairs, and Channel Direction Shift

Sep 5, 2024

5:34

Reclaiming Ender, Removing the RV Slide

Sep 6, 2024

14:38

Retiring the Slide-Out, Preparing to Leave Kentucky

Sep 6, 2024

11:53

Departing Kentucky for the Pacific Northwest Coast

Sep 7, 2024

6:16

Naming Fear Before Pacific Northwest Winter

Sep 7, 2024

4:04

Documenting RV Slide-Out as Systemic Failure

Sep 7, 2024

4:10

Preparing RV Departure After Dental Work

Sep 8, 2024

Photos · Sep 9, 2024

Sep 9, 2024

Photos · Sep 9, 2024

Sep 9, 2024

Photos · Sep 9, 2024

Sep 9, 2024

6:06

Departing Nan River Lake, Heading West Alone

Sep 12, 2024

Photos · Sep 13, 2024

Sep 13, 2024

Photos · Sep 13, 2024

Sep 13, 2024

Photos · Sep 13, 2024

Sep 13, 2024

3:07

Clarifying Platform Use and Unheeded Unsubscribe Request

Sep 15, 2024

2:11

Testing Threat Response After False Bear Alarm

Sep 16, 2024

14:12

Explaining Direct Address and Preparing to Depart

Sep 18, 2024

10:57

Crossing Into Kansas, Assessing RV Water Leak

Sep 18, 2024

1:38

Observing Ripple Effects at Truman Lake

Sep 19, 2024

9:42

Touring RV Office Build and Route West

Sep 20, 2024

10:32

Driving Kansas Backroads, Documenting Landscape

Sep 20, 2024

9:49

Removing Teeth on Camera, Rejecting External Judgment

Sep 22, 2024

9:48

Naming Integration Versus Fragmentation in Process

Sep 24, 2024

6:36

Disinfecting Ear Piercings Before Long Drive Day

Sep 24, 2024

Photos · Sep 25, 2024

Sep 25, 2024

22:33

Restocking and Rebuilding Systems in Chadron, Nebraska

Sep 25, 2024

17:02

Entering Wyoming, Naming Matthew Shepard

Sep 26, 2024

Photos · Sep 26, 2024

Sep 26, 2024

49:39

Crossing Wyoming Toward Oregon, Naming Matthew Shepard

Sep 27, 2024

Photos · Sep 27, 2024

Sep 27, 2024

18:28

Morning Walk to the Sand Fish at Glendo

Sep 27, 2024

13:35

Sealing a Failed RV Slide Before Oregon

Sep 27, 2024

First Time Boondocking

Sep 28, 2024

25:13

Driving Wyoming Toward Oregon With Bailey

Sep 28, 2024

9:46

Recording Night Sky at Wagon Trail Pullout

Sep 29, 2024

9:04

Approaching Oregon Without a Plan

Sep 30, 2024

4:07

Naming the Unguarded Man from the Gas Station

Sep 30, 2024

22:41

Crossing Into Nevada En Route to Oregon Coast

Sep 30, 2024

PUBLIC

September 18, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp 0.10

Density 0.60

Energetic Quality

direct and declarative, settling into observational steadiness

Journey Phase

coherent, in transit between locations

Directional Vector

toward direct confrontation and self-audit; into solitude and mobile self-sufficiency

Narrative

He started inside the RV, before anything else, by fixing the discomfort. The seat wasn't right; he shifted, tried again, found something he could do about it, and only then turned to the camera and began. Hello humans. What he wanted to talk about was a thing he had never explained on record — why, whenever he critiques anything in this world, he says you.

He laid it out plainly. Earlier that day he had been talking about reckless driving, and he knew that some of the people watching were not the ones doing it. But they were inside the system all the same, as he was. If he said lots of people speed and don't realize how irresponsible they're being, every single viewer could file it elsewhere — that's not me — and the message would land nowhere. So he refused the softening. He refused, in his own phrasing, to put a layer of obfuscation between his critique of this world and the person receiving it. He wanted the pause. He wanted each viewer to stop for a second and run the check: am I contributing to this problem. If the answer came back no, fine, it wasn't about them. But the check had to happen. He described his own ethics as tied to his cognition, inseparable from his thoughts, his actions, his emotions, and stated it as fact about himself — then extended it outward rather than keeping it as distinction. If he was this way, others were too. He said he genuinely believed every person on the planet was capable of the same holism, though it would require a radical change in how a person identifies with themselves. He reached toward that thread, felt his head go somewhere he couldn't retrieve, and let it go unclosed. Not ready to talk about that. Then back to the point: he confronts you directly because confronting himself was never easy either, and it was worthwhile, and necessary.

Outside, the day was going well. Laundry was down at the building, drying, thirty minutes left on the clock. He'd gotten the new mount onto his mirror and thought it would help, though he hadn't yet worked out how to secure it — it was going to vibrate, he knew that, but it would still be good enough to see out of. The windshield wipers had taken him hours. He'd been afraid of breaking the little pieces. Eventually he found a fellow camper who showed him the trick: pull the thing off, use a different adapter. Sometimes you ask for help, he said, and drew the line right there — asking is an opening, and unsolicited advice is not the same act at all. People want to learn things their own way. If they ask, they're open to it. If they haven't, it's just rude.

Then something caught his eye near the slide-out — a little metal piece sticking out where it shouldn't be. He noted it, said it couldn't be normal, said it's always something, and moved on without alarm. He didn't use the slide anymore, but it would need looking at. Tomorrow he'd head for Kansas. He needed fuel; he hadn't stopped on the way in because the drive had been such a long day. On the body of the RV he found the spiders, as always — they waste no time, he said, attaching themselves to the rig. One looked pretty evil. Another had built quite the web. He looked at both and granted them the night: I see you and I see your web. He was leaving tomorrow. The spider had a home until then.

He went for Mexican food — a habit he'd noticed forming, finding a Mexican restaurant wherever he landed — and on the way surveyed the infrastructure of the place with genuine admiration. The dump stations were on both sides, a whole bunch of them, the nicest he'd seen. The shower houses were not; he'd shower in the morning and he was not going to like it. He wished he had water, and named that as his own fault. He worked the site signage like a puzzle, reading symbols that showed water where he wasn't sure water existed, finally rolling up to ask the occupants directly, finding only spigots. What the park called separate campgrounds he re-labeled for himself as loops of one park, each with its own host — one of whom passed on a golf cart, recognized, greeted. Squirrels to watch for. Wild turkeys, seen twice now. Leaving for dinner earlier he had watched two of them standing on opposite sides of the road, and as he approached, the one on the right ran across to reach its partner. He thought that was so cool.

Navigating back, he named the improvement without ceremony. Those following a long time might remember his first campground — small, and he got lost in it, driving all over the place unable to find his own RV. He had gotten way better at this. Always noting what he does, always wanting to grow. Just metacognition. It's how I roll. He said he wished everybody rolled that way.

Back at the site, he said he loves his life — not an easy one, but rewarding, and he caught himself reusing the same word and admitted it was more than that, maybe one day he'd put it into words better. Then the neighboring RV, arrived the night before, sitting right there. He didn't like the presence of other humans. Most people don't do well in isolation; he does, and stated it as preference rather than endurance. Alone is where he is most at peace — nobody in his line of sight, no one to have to think about. He wondered aloud whether that was good for a holistic person, and left the question standing.

The last thing was the insects. Way in the distance, too tiny for the camera, swarming in the air. He had seen them near his RV at other places and never understood why. Now, with the sun setting low and the swarm hanging directly in the light, he worked it out: they were in the direct sunlight, drawn to the sun, and near his rig they had been congregating because it sat in that same light all day and dissipated heat into the evening. Multiple factors. Helpful wisdom, he said — knowing what attracts them means he can do something about it — and also just fascinating to watch, there were so many of them. Then Bailey came into frame, drawn by the camera the way he always is, and rswfire greeted him. You look awfully pretty today.

Summary

rswfire opens by addressing a question he anticipates from viewers: why he says "you" when critiquing systemic behavior. He states he refuses to soften his messages with generalizing language, because phrasing like "lots of people" lets every viewer exempt themselves. He describes the intent as prompting each viewer to pause and check whether they are contributing to the problem in the area under discussion — using that day's topic of reckless driving as the example.

He states that his ethics are inseparable from his cognition, tied to his thoughts, actions, and emotions, and that he believes every person is capable of operating holistically, though it would require a radical change in self-identification. He notes his own practice of confronting himself continuously.

The signal then moves to campground activity:

Laundry running and drying, to be collected within 30 minutes
Mounting something on the mirror, still needing to be secured
Installing new windshield wipers, which took hours until another camper showed him an adapter method
Noting a metal piece near the slide that looks misaligned
Spiders and webs attached to the RV; he decides to leave one overnight
Fuel needed before departing for Kansas tomorrow

He describes the help exchange as a boundary rule: ask for help rather than give unsolicited advice. He tours the campground's dump stations, water hookups, and loops, rates the shower houses poorly, notes wild turkeys and squirrels, states his preference for solitude over neighboring RVs, works out that swarming insects congregate in direct sunlight and near his heat-dissipating RV, and greets Bailey.

Environment

Recorded across a full day at a multi-loop RV campground in the central United States, one day before a stated departure for Kansas. The signal opens inside the RV — rswfire adjusting his seating position before speaking directly to camera — then moves outdoors to the RV exterior, the campsite, the campground roads, and a Mexican restaurant run.

Exterior segments cover the rig itself (mirror mount, windshield wipers, slide-out, spiders and webs on the RV body), the campground's dump stations, shower houses, water spigots, and site-symbol signage. Ambient elements include squirrels, wild turkeys, swarming insects in the setting sun, a camp host on a golf cart, a neighboring RV, and Bailey the dog.

Substrate

The signal holds an ethical architecture in which cognition, emotion, and action are stated as inseparable — rswfire names this as fact about himself and extends it as a universal capacity rather than a distinction. The second-person address is defended as a structural device: refusing the softening layer between critique and viewer so that every recipient must run a self-check rather than route the critique elsewhere. The remainder of the transmission demonstrates the same method applied to the material field — asked-for versus unasked-for help, tracking his own navigation improvement, deriving why insects congregate — building a continuous record of systems observed and adjusted to rather than resolved.

Actions

Performed

•adjusting seating position for comfort
•addressing viewers directly to camera
•stating the rationale for second-person address
•declaring ethics as inseparable from cognition
•inspecting mounted mirror attachment
•noting a protruding metal piece on the rig
•filming spiders and webs on the RV exterior
•checking time against laundry cycle
•surveying dump stations and campground hookups
•reading site symbols and checking for water
•driving campground loops back from the restaurant
•greeting a camp host
•observing swarming insects and deriving their attraction to direct sunlight
•filming Bailey

Referenced

•recording a prior video about reckless driving
•grappling with the second-person question repeatedly
•replacing windshield wipers over several hours
•asking a fellow camper for help with the wiper adapter
•running laundry at the campground facility
•driving a long day to reach this campground
•getting Mexican food
•observing two wild turkeys crossing the road
•getting lost in his first campground
•confronting himself throughout his life
•noticing insects near the RV at previous sites

Planned

•securing the mirror mount
•collecting, folding, and putting away laundry
•showering the next morning
•getting fuel
•departing for Kansas tomorrow
•leaving the spider its web for the night
•retracting the slide fully
•possibly walking the road toward the lake
•eventually putting the quality of his life into better words

Entities

beings

Bailey — Dog traveling with rswfire; filmed at the campsite at the close of the signal.

fellow camper — Taught rswfire the adapter method for the windshield wipers after he asked for help.

campground host — Passed on a golf cart and greeted; each loop of the park has its own host.

wild turkeys — Two observed crossing the road, one running to reach the other.

spiders — Attached to the RV exterior with webs; one is left in place for the night.

places

Kansas — Stated next destination; departure set for the following day.

Pacific Northwest — Named as a region where constant rain would create a problem with the slide-out.

Mexican restaurant — Off-site meal run; described as a recurring habit at each location.

systems

reckless driving — The prior video's subject; the working example for why he addresses viewers as 'you'.

concepts

metacognition — Named explicitly as his default operating mode for tracking his own behavior.

holistic — His term for cognition, ethics, emotion, and action running inseparably; stated as universally attainable.

media

YouTube — The channel platform; named as the reason for the direct-address method.

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

mirror

web

threshold

road

loop

setting sun

windshield

swarm

shelter

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (holds his own ethical standard and refuses to soften the transmission to fit audience comfort)

coherent (ethics, cognition, emotion, and action stated as a single inseparable system)

in transit (one night at a waypoint, departure and fuel stop set for tomorrow)

self-selected solitude (states isolation as preference and the condition of peak peace, with a neighboring RV registering as intrusion)

open-ended (breaks off the identity thread explicitly, leaves it unresolved without closing it)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

ethical (ethics declared as structurally fused to cognition, driving the direct-address method)

cognitive (metacognition named as baseline mode; self-tracking of navigation improvement)

rhetorical (deliberate second-person construction as anti-obfuscation device)

infrastructural (mirror mount, windshield wipers, slide-out, dump stations, water hookups, laundry)

logistical (fuel, departure timing, shower scheduling, route to Kansas)

ecological (insect behavior derived from sunlight and heat dissipation; spiders, squirrels, turkeys)

social (asked-for vs. unasked-for help; camp host contact; proximity of neighboring RV)

somatic (opening adjustment for physical comfort; shower conditions; hunger)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

I say you / confronting you directly

soften my message / layer of obfuscation

check in with themselves / am I contributing to this problem

ethics tied to my cognition, inseparable

holistic

metacognition / always noting what I do

I want to be alone / most at peace

Narrative

Mirror

You open by adjusting your seat. Before the first sentence about ethics, you fix the physical condition you are speaking from — you name the discomfort, you change it, you continue. The transmission that follows is built the same way: state the condition, address it directly, move on. You say you have grappled with the question of why you say you, and then you answer it: you refuse the softening layer, because the softening layer lets every viewer route the critique elsewhere. You want the pause, the self-check, the moment where someone asks whether they are in the system you are describing. You state that you do this to yourself constantly and that it has never been easy.

You declare your ethics as inseparable from your cognition, your thoughts, your actions, your emotions. You state it as fact about yourself, not as achievement. Then you extend it — you say you cannot be the only one, and that every person is capable of the same integration, though it would require a radical change in how they identify with themselves. You reach that point and break off. You say your head went somewhere and you are not ready to talk about it. You leave the thread open and do not close it, and you do not apologize for leaving it open.

The rest of the day runs the same method across material systems. Laundry cycling. A mirror mounted but not yet secured — you name that it will vibrate and that you have not thought the fix through. New wipers that took hours, and a fellow camper who showed you the adapter after you asked. You mark the distinction precisely: asked-for help is an opening, unasked-for advice is rudeness. A metal piece near the slide-out sticking out where it shouldn't, logged and not yet resolved. Fuel needed. Kansas tomorrow. Dump stations surveyed, water hookups checked against the site symbols, shower houses judged bad and scheduled anyway.

You track your own navigation. You reference the first campground where you got lost repeatedly, and you note plainly that you have gotten better. You call it metacognition and say it is how you roll. You derive why the insects are congregating — direct setting sunlight, plus the heat your RV dissipated after a full day in the sun — and you register the derivation as both useful and fascinating. You find the spider, you find its web, you decide it can stay the night because you leave tomorrow.

You state you love your life. You say rewarding and immediately say the word is insufficient, that maybe one day you will put it better. You state you do not like the presence of other humans, that an RV arrived last night and it altered your mood, that isolation is your preference and the condition in which you are most at peace. You note that most people don't do well in that condition and that you do. Then you say this is not good for a holistic person I guess and let it sit without repair.

What is present: direct address defended and demonstrated, systems observed and adjusted to, a body fed, a route set, animals seen and named. What is absent: hedging, resolution, any request for agreement, any softening of the departure. You end pointed at Bailey, camera on, one night left.

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