Organizing Camper Storage on Day 14

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[0:00] so I did not realize just how close the

[0:02] other Campground is from where I am now

[0:04] it's only an hour drive I called them um

[0:08] they said I can come anytime tomorrow

[0:09] you know as long as somebody doesn't

[0:10] book it today and they don't see that

[0:13] happening so whenever I have to leave

[0:16] here at least I can just drive straight

[0:17] there um I know that like you know like

[0:21] I just pictur Carolyn

[0:24] um she just lives in her her camper same

[0:28] size as mine and just go everywhere does

[0:31] everything in it and I just wish I could

[0:32] do that I

[0:34] don't

[0:35] um cuz yeah I I I I I'm hearing myself

[0:39] it's like okay this thing only goes to

[0:42] campgrounds but that's not how that's

[0:44] supposed to work right I think it's

[0:46] partly cuz I'm towing my Jeep though

[0:48] it's like I

[0:49] just not very comfortable with it yet

[0:52] I've only driven it Towing my Jeep once

[0:54] now like I think it'll get better over

[0:56] time I just I don't really know like

[1:01] what you can do with it where can you

[1:02] take it

[1:04] like I mean are there activities that I

[1:06] could go and do and

[1:09] like I just don't know any of this um I

[1:13] feel so unprepared I feel so

[1:15] unknowledgeable about all of

[1:17] it but you know so I just think that'll

[1:20] get better like with time like cuz

[1:22] that's partly the reason for going to

[1:24] Nevada like

[1:26] every every two days I'm going to going

[1:30] to be somewhere else and so I'll get

[1:32] very used to driving it I'll get very

[1:34] used to Towing it I'll get very used to

[1:36] navigating different situations because

[1:38] I'm just going to face them they're just

[1:40] going to come up and I'm just going to

[1:41] face them and it'll get

[1:43] easier that's what I'm hoping for like

[1:46] that's that was kind of my thinking like

[1:48] okay let's go all the way to Nevada

[1:50] probably like 2,000 miles

[1:52] away by the time I get there I should

[1:55] feel very comfortable that's that's what

[1:57] I'm hoping for um going to show you guys

[2:00] what I'm doing out here

[2:02] so um the cats went inside out here just

[2:07] me um campsite looks like this right now

[2:09] so these things take up way too much

[2:11] space I love them but they take up too

[2:13] much space so what I'm thinking is they

[2:15] live outside and then on travel days you

[2:18] know you just put them inside the camper

[2:20] and the little space that you have you

[2:22] know when you bring your slide in and

[2:24] then they come back outside when you get

[2:26] somewhere else I mean it just it has to

[2:27] be that way cuz I need the space

[2:30] so cuz they were living in this little

[2:33] space over here and so now I've got my

[2:36] camping gear in there um and then

[2:39] there's like those things it's I don't

[2:41] know what you call them they're they're

[2:43] Jacks I don't know if they're called

[2:45] jacks or not like they hold they prevent

[2:48] you from dying if the thing falls down

[2:52] um you know just emergency I have

[2:55] emergency stuff like like okay so first

[2:57] of all I'm not I don't guys I don't know

[3:00] why I sound like this um let me just try

[3:02] to slow down so I don't know why I'm

[3:04] even taking this because I can't Camp

[3:06] not not while I have cats but I don't

[3:09] know I kind of think like you you have

[3:11] to take that stuff so and then there's

[3:14] these

[3:16] ones these ones are hard to keep open

[3:20] so and you know they will fit two of

[3:22] those and that's basically it like

[3:24] that's my space here you can probably

[3:27] get some stuff above it like I I could

[3:29] get a little bit creative and I'm going

[3:31] to have

[3:32] to but you know that's basically that's

[3:35] my personal stuff and we come over

[3:39] here and that's you know everything that

[3:41] the camper needs and just like more

[3:44] emergency stuff because there's the real

[3:46] Jack that's why I couldn't you know I

[3:48] don't know what those other things are

[3:49] called those are I think that's called a

[3:51] Jack and then those are something else a

[3:54] tire repair kit back there you know um a

[3:56] little pump for for um

[4:00] you know putting air on your tires all

[4:02] my stuff that I just just stuff that you

[4:04] need for your camper on the outside I

[4:06] guess you could say that's it that's all

[4:09] my storage oh and then

[4:11] this but you know I misusing the space

[4:14] right now because I just can't let this

[4:16] stuff go yet I just

[4:19] can't kind of mad at myself for it to be

[4:21] honest that goes nowhere that goes

[4:22] inside that's just you know all

[4:25] insulation oh my God what are the cats

[4:27] doing they're listening to me

[4:30] guys I know you just knocked a bunch of

[4:32] stuff off my

[4:37] desk anyways

[4:40] um that's all my storage except for just

[4:42] one over

[4:45] here

[4:47] um and I don't you know I was thinking

[4:50] this is where you would put things that

[4:51] you want to have outside with you when

[4:53] you're just like you're just you're out

[4:55] here and you're chilling and you just

[4:56] you're I don't know what exactly what

[4:58] but but just tools now all

[5:02] tools I don't know I'm working on it I'm

[5:05] trying to get organized

[5:07] here um and then as far as my my so I'm

[5:11] thinking okay my Jeep is going to have

[5:13] to store stuff obviously it will store

[5:16] my solar

[5:18] panels This thing collapses it's a t I'm

[5:21] starting to wonder if I even need that

[5:22] because you know you've got you got

[5:24] benches over there

[5:26] and this chair was a mistake it is too

[5:29] big um I don't even know where to put

[5:31] the grill

[5:32] honestly but it's just going to go

[5:36] behind um oh I got some trash in here

[5:39] cuz I'm going to take it down to the

[5:40] trash thing but so there's just um in

[5:42] there there's just um that 10x10 that

[5:45] thing I told you about and then the

[5:47] solar panels will sit on that the chair

[5:49] will sit on that and I guess this stuff

[5:52] cuz this stuff was originally in the

[5:55] spot where I put my

[5:57] books this is what I was trying to use

[5:59] as a um a shelf under my table it just

[6:02] didn't work

[6:04] so um this is me buying a bulk and my

[6:07] mom's like you're really going to want

[6:08] your stuff and I'm was like well there's

[6:10] no room for it so I don't know um just

[6:15] guess I do sound a little bit frustrated

[6:17] I'm not as frustrated as I sound I'm

[6:20] just trying to figure it out and I think

[6:22] I'm getting close

[6:23] so um it is a little bit messy inside so

[6:27] I'm not going in there to show you um um

[6:29] it's not real bad I'm I'm getting close

[6:32] I feel like I'm getting close I feel

[6:33] like I'll be ready before we have to

[6:35] go

[6:39] um I am just really excited to get to

[6:42] the point

[6:43] where this just feels normal where I can

[6:46] just do this and not feel stressed about

[6:50] it it's so weird to be on camera when

[6:52] like somebody's driving by he's like you

[6:54] just look so dumb like I look so dumb

[6:56] right now I'm just talking to a camera

[7:00] but this is the world we live in now

[7:01] isn't

[7:02] it it's so nice out here so

[7:06] peaceful I absolutely love

[7:16] this it's kind of sad this is day 14 and

[7:19] I didn't go anywhere I didn't go hiking

[7:21] nothing but it's cuz I've been dealing

[7:22] with my house I've been dealing with my

[7:24] cats I've been dealing with my space

[7:25] like and I knew it would be like that

[7:28] like I didn't expect this to be like

[7:29] like the start of my adventure this was

[7:31] like okay I have to get out of my house

[7:33] I made a promise I would leave on my

[7:35] birthday and I wanted to I didn't want

[7:37] to be in that house it was a lot nicer

[7:39] to be here that's for sure just being

[7:42] here made a difference with with my just

[7:45] how I feel about

[7:47] everything

[7:49] so I don't regret it um it's just you

[7:53] know I just spent 2 weeks at a

[7:55] campground and didn't go anywhere except

[7:56] on my campsite didn't even build to

[7:59] fight like

[8:01] nothing but that's going to change it's

[8:03] just I just I'm trying to get

[8:05] comfortable trying really hard to get

[8:09] comfortable I don't know why it's so

[8:11] hard it kind of aggravates me that it's

[8:13] not easier for me like why does it have

[8:16] to be so hard for me like I I see people

[8:18] doing it all the time why is this so

[8:20] hard for me it's

[8:22] ridiculous um and it wasn't hard for me

[8:26] when I was younger so why is it hard now

[8:28] like what happened to

[8:30] me I used to Camp all the time by myself

[8:34] all the time I used to hike all the time

[8:37] all the time every single day for years

[8:39] and years

[8:42] like and it's not just that I'm older

[8:45] it's not that cuz

[8:48] like it's not that it's something else

[8:51] something in my head it's

[8:54] just I guess I'm a little aggravated

[8:56] about it cuz I I want this life and I'm

[8:58] just not going to let whatever is

[9:01] happening inside of this head of mine

[9:02] stop me like I'm just not anyways I'm

[9:06] going to leave it there I'm not going to

[9:08] post anything else today I'm just going

[9:10] to chill deal with this and you know

[9:13] enjoy the night I guess you know how I

[9:16] am I say that and then I end up posting

[9:17] something maybe I'll post something

[9:18] tonight I don't know um but yeah for the

[9:22] rest of the day I'm just going to chill

[9:24] and just try to have a really good day

[9:27] um it is so nice out here just being

[9:29] here is just so nice absolutely love

[9:33] this by the way I'm a big fan of trees I

[9:35] don't know if I've told you guys that

[9:36] yet I love trees like I just love them

[9:40] like they

[9:42] are they're everything to me just being

[9:45] under a tree just being in the woods

[9:47] under trees like that's what I love I'm

[9:49] not into flowers I'm not into animals

[9:52] I'm not into Birds I'm not like none of

[9:54] that none of that like I love

[9:56] trees trees just bring me life

[10:02] joy I love looking at

[10:04] trees they have such long lives compared

[10:07] to

[10:10] ours so I'm a big fan of the I don't

[10:12] know why I'm just rambling but I'm a big

[10:14] fan of the and game series if you guys

[10:16] haven't read that the the first book Is

[10:18] you know basically for kids but the

[10:19] other ones aren't they're it's more

[10:21] adult

[10:22] themed and there's this these books that

[10:27] on this planet and these people who live

[10:29] there I can never pronounce it right

[10:31] because he mixes English with another

[10:34] language and I don't know I think like

[10:36] paninos or something like that um is

[10:39] what he calls this species of people and

[10:43] they have a third life like when they

[10:45] die they literally turn into trees like

[10:48] it is so

[10:49] cool I just I love those books I read

[10:53] them a few times I'm going to read them

[10:54] again soon I know I am I'm just going to

[10:57] sit out here somewhere you know here

[10:59] somewhere

[11:02] in Bailey is very

[11:05] upset Bailey you I am trying to teach

[11:08] you you've got two choices pick one just

[11:12] pick one you know you guys have an

[11:15] excellent day please I hope you

[11:28] do for

[12:04] this is generally the most playful I've

[12:06] seen Bailey in

[12:09] years this is so wonderful to see

[12:36] Oliver finally decided to join us

[12:38] outside I'm so

[12:41] happy so I am almost out of space on my

[12:45] phone I hope they don't F ain't so

[12:47] worried about it I'm almost out of space

[12:50] I have 11 minutes of video I can record

[12:52] I'm going to have to fix that today

[13:11] or does he love to destroy

[13:15] things ol you're so cute dude but you're

[13:19] very

[13:22] destructive B's over here

[13:26] chilling just watching his brother be

[13:28] silly

[13:29] what you're doing isn't it Bailey you're

[13:31] just watching him be silly why is he

[13:33] doing that why is he doing that right

[13:37] what is he doing

[13:44] there I'm going to have to put some toys

[13:46] in

[13:47] here I should do that right now actually

[13:50] so they were fighting over their toys a

[13:52] little bit but hopefully it'll be all

[13:53] right literally have 10 minutes of

[13:56] storage on my phone now going to dump it

[13:59] onto my

[14:01] computer and we'll start

[14:04] over just leave these guys alone and

[14:07] hope they get along you guys be nice it

[14:09] seems like they have a problem when they

[14:10] get to the tunnels CU they can't get

[14:12] around each other and that leads to a

[14:15] fight oh I hope they work it

[14:18] out I hate separating them it's just not

[14:21] a thing I like to do plus you know that

[14:24] just makes everything

[14:25] harder guys play with each other your

[14:28] your brother Brothers they're not

[14:29] techically Brothers I just call them now

[14:32] they were raised together

[14:34] basically especially Bailey Bailey was a

[14:36] little tiny child Bailey's mom abandoned

[14:39] him when he was a day old and this woman

[14:41] in Michigan her name is gay she's

[14:43] awesome she took him in raised him for 6

[14:46] weeks and then then I went up there and

[14:48] I got him we might

[14:50] halfway

[14:53] um and then he came back with me and I

[14:55] had already had all for like maybe two

[14:57] weeks so they basically grew up together

[14:59] at least in my

[15:01] house they're Brothers

[0:00] so I did not realize just how close the

[0:02] other Campground is from where I am now

[0:04] it's only an hour drive I called them um

[0:08] they said I can come anytime tomorrow

[0:09] you know as long as somebody doesn't

[0:10] book it today and they don't see that

[0:13] happening so whenever I have to leave

[0:16] here at least I can just drive straight

[0:17] there um I know that like you know like

[0:21] I just pictur Carolyn

[0:24] um she just lives in her her camper same

[0:28] size as mine and just go everywhere does

[0:31] everything in it and I just wish I could

[0:32] do that I

[0:34] don't

[0:35] um cuz yeah I I I I I'm hearing myself

[0:39] it's like okay this thing only goes to

[0:42] campgrounds but that's not how that's

[0:44] supposed to work right I think it's

[0:46] partly cuz I'm towing my Jeep though

[0:48] it's like I

[0:49] just not very comfortable with it yet

[0:52] I've only driven it Towing my Jeep once

[0:54] now like I think it'll get better over

[0:56] time I just I don't really know like

[1:01] what you can do with it where can you

[1:02] take it

[1:04] like I mean are there activities that I

[1:06] could go and do and

[1:09] like I just don't know any of this um I

[1:13] feel so unprepared I feel so

[1:15] unknowledgeable about all of

[1:17] it but you know so I just think that'll

[1:20] get better like with time like cuz

[1:22] that's partly the reason for going to

[1:24] Nevada like

[1:26] every every two days I'm going to going

[1:30] to be somewhere else and so I'll get

[1:32] very used to driving it I'll get very

[1:34] used to Towing it I'll get very used to

[1:36] navigating different situations because

[1:38] I'm just going to face them they're just

[1:40] going to come up and I'm just going to

[1:41] face them and it'll get

[1:43] easier that's what I'm hoping for like

[1:46] that's that was kind of my thinking like

[1:48] okay let's go all the way to Nevada

[1:50] probably like 2,000 miles

[1:52] away by the time I get there I should

[1:55] feel very comfortable that's that's what

[1:57] I'm hoping for um going to show you guys

[2:00] what I'm doing out here

[2:02] so um the cats went inside out here just

[2:07] me um campsite looks like this right now

[2:09] so these things take up way too much

[2:11] space I love them but they take up too

[2:13] much space so what I'm thinking is they

[2:15] live outside and then on travel days you

[2:18] know you just put them inside the camper

[2:20] and the little space that you have you

[2:22] know when you bring your slide in and

[2:24] then they come back outside when you get

[2:26] somewhere else I mean it just it has to

[2:27] be that way cuz I need the space

[2:30] so cuz they were living in this little

[2:33] space over here and so now I've got my

[2:36] camping gear in there um and then

[2:39] there's like those things it's I don't

[2:41] know what you call them they're they're

[2:43] Jacks I don't know if they're called

[2:45] jacks or not like they hold they prevent

[2:48] you from dying if the thing falls down

[2:52] um you know just emergency I have

[2:55] emergency stuff like like okay so first

[2:57] of all I'm not I don't guys I don't know

[3:00] why I sound like this um let me just try

[3:02] to slow down so I don't know why I'm

[3:04] even taking this because I can't Camp

[3:06] not not while I have cats but I don't

[3:09] know I kind of think like you you have

[3:11] to take that stuff so and then there's

[3:14] these

[3:16] ones these ones are hard to keep open

[3:20] so and you know they will fit two of

[3:22] those and that's basically it like

[3:24] that's my space here you can probably

[3:27] get some stuff above it like I I could

[3:29] get a little bit creative and I'm going

[3:31] to have

[3:32] to but you know that's basically that's

[3:35] my personal stuff and we come over

[3:39] here and that's you know everything that

[3:41] the camper needs and just like more

[3:44] emergency stuff because there's the real

[3:46] Jack that's why I couldn't you know I

[3:48] don't know what those other things are

[3:49] called those are I think that's called a

[3:51] Jack and then those are something else a

[3:54] tire repair kit back there you know um a

[3:56] little pump for for um

[4:00] you know putting air on your tires all

[4:02] my stuff that I just just stuff that you

[4:04] need for your camper on the outside I

[4:06] guess you could say that's it that's all

[4:09] my storage oh and then

[4:11] this but you know I misusing the space

[4:14] right now because I just can't let this

[4:16] stuff go yet I just

[4:19] can't kind of mad at myself for it to be

[4:21] honest that goes nowhere that goes

[4:22] inside that's just you know all

[4:25] insulation oh my God what are the cats

[4:27] doing they're listening to me

[4:30] guys I know you just knocked a bunch of

[4:32] stuff off my

[4:37] desk anyways

[4:40] um that's all my storage except for just

[4:42] one over

[4:45] here

[4:47] um and I don't you know I was thinking

[4:50] this is where you would put things that

[4:51] you want to have outside with you when

[4:53] you're just like you're just you're out

[4:55] here and you're chilling and you just

[4:56] you're I don't know what exactly what

[4:58] but but just tools now all

[5:02] tools I don't know I'm working on it I'm

[5:05] trying to get organized

[5:07] here um and then as far as my my so I'm

[5:11] thinking okay my Jeep is going to have

[5:13] to store stuff obviously it will store

[5:16] my solar

[5:18] panels This thing collapses it's a t I'm

[5:21] starting to wonder if I even need that

[5:22] because you know you've got you got

[5:24] benches over there

[5:26] and this chair was a mistake it is too

[5:29] big um I don't even know where to put

[5:31] the grill

[5:32] honestly but it's just going to go

[5:36] behind um oh I got some trash in here

[5:39] cuz I'm going to take it down to the

[5:40] trash thing but so there's just um in

[5:42] there there's just um that 10x10 that

[5:45] thing I told you about and then the

[5:47] solar panels will sit on that the chair

[5:49] will sit on that and I guess this stuff

[5:52] cuz this stuff was originally in the

[5:55] spot where I put my

[5:57] books this is what I was trying to use

[5:59] as a um a shelf under my table it just

[6:02] didn't work

[6:04] so um this is me buying a bulk and my

[6:07] mom's like you're really going to want

[6:08] your stuff and I'm was like well there's

[6:10] no room for it so I don't know um just

[6:15] guess I do sound a little bit frustrated

[6:17] I'm not as frustrated as I sound I'm

[6:20] just trying to figure it out and I think

[6:22] I'm getting close

[6:23] so um it is a little bit messy inside so

[6:27] I'm not going in there to show you um um

[6:29] it's not real bad I'm I'm getting close

[6:32] I feel like I'm getting close I feel

[6:33] like I'll be ready before we have to

[6:35] go

[6:39] um I am just really excited to get to

[6:42] the point

[6:43] where this just feels normal where I can

[6:46] just do this and not feel stressed about

[6:50] it it's so weird to be on camera when

[6:52] like somebody's driving by he's like you

[6:54] just look so dumb like I look so dumb

[6:56] right now I'm just talking to a camera

[7:00] but this is the world we live in now

[7:01] isn't

[7:02] it it's so nice out here so

[7:06] peaceful I absolutely love

[7:16] this it's kind of sad this is day 14 and

[7:19] I didn't go anywhere I didn't go hiking

[7:21] nothing but it's cuz I've been dealing

[7:22] with my house I've been dealing with my

[7:24] cats I've been dealing with my space

[7:25] like and I knew it would be like that

[7:28] like I didn't expect this to be like

[7:29] like the start of my adventure this was

[7:31] like okay I have to get out of my house

[7:33] I made a promise I would leave on my

[7:35] birthday and I wanted to I didn't want

[7:37] to be in that house it was a lot nicer

[7:39] to be here that's for sure just being

[7:42] here made a difference with with my just

[7:45] how I feel about

[7:47] everything

[7:49] so I don't regret it um it's just you

[7:53] know I just spent 2 weeks at a

[7:55] campground and didn't go anywhere except

[7:56] on my campsite didn't even build to

[7:59] fight like

[8:01] nothing but that's going to change it's

[8:03] just I just I'm trying to get

[8:05] comfortable trying really hard to get

[8:09] comfortable I don't know why it's so

[8:11] hard it kind of aggravates me that it's

[8:13] not easier for me like why does it have

[8:16] to be so hard for me like I I see people

[8:18] doing it all the time why is this so

[8:20] hard for me it's

[8:22] ridiculous um and it wasn't hard for me

[8:26] when I was younger so why is it hard now

[8:28] like what happened to

[8:30] me I used to Camp all the time by myself

[8:34] all the time I used to hike all the time

[8:37] all the time every single day for years

[8:39] and years

[8:42] like and it's not just that I'm older

[8:45] it's not that cuz

[8:48] like it's not that it's something else

[8:51] something in my head it's

[8:54] just I guess I'm a little aggravated

[8:56] about it cuz I I want this life and I'm

[8:58] just not going to let whatever is

[9:01] happening inside of this head of mine

[9:02] stop me like I'm just not anyways I'm

[9:06] going to leave it there I'm not going to

[9:08] post anything else today I'm just going

[9:10] to chill deal with this and you know

[9:13] enjoy the night I guess you know how I

[9:16] am I say that and then I end up posting

[9:17] something maybe I'll post something

[9:18] tonight I don't know um but yeah for the

[9:22] rest of the day I'm just going to chill

[9:24] and just try to have a really good day

[9:27] um it is so nice out here just being

[9:29] here is just so nice absolutely love

[9:33] this by the way I'm a big fan of trees I

[9:35] don't know if I've told you guys that

[9:36] yet I love trees like I just love them

[9:40] like they

[9:42] are they're everything to me just being

[9:45] under a tree just being in the woods

[9:47] under trees like that's what I love I'm

[9:49] not into flowers I'm not into animals

[9:52] I'm not into Birds I'm not like none of

[9:54] that none of that like I love

[9:56] trees trees just bring me life

[10:02] joy I love looking at

[10:04] trees they have such long lives compared

[10:07] to

[10:10] ours so I'm a big fan of the I don't

[10:12] know why I'm just rambling but I'm a big

[10:14] fan of the and game series if you guys

[10:16] haven't read that the the first book Is

[10:18] you know basically for kids but the

[10:19] other ones aren't they're it's more

[10:21] adult

[10:22] themed and there's this these books that

[10:27] on this planet and these people who live

[10:29] there I can never pronounce it right

[10:31] because he mixes English with another

[10:34] language and I don't know I think like

[10:36] paninos or something like that um is

[10:39] what he calls this species of people and

[10:43] they have a third life like when they

[10:45] die they literally turn into trees like

[10:48] it is so

[10:49] cool I just I love those books I read

[10:53] them a few times I'm going to read them

[10:54] again soon I know I am I'm just going to

[10:57] sit out here somewhere you know here

[10:59] somewhere

[11:02] in Bailey is very

[11:05] upset Bailey you I am trying to teach

[11:08] you you've got two choices pick one just

[11:12] pick one you know you guys have an

[11:15] excellent day please I hope you

[11:28] do for

[12:04] this is generally the most playful I've

[12:06] seen Bailey in

[12:09] years this is so wonderful to see

[12:36] Oliver finally decided to join us

[12:38] outside I'm so

[12:41] happy so I am almost out of space on my

[12:45] phone I hope they don't F ain't so

[12:47] worried about it I'm almost out of space

[12:50] I have 11 minutes of video I can record

[12:52] I'm going to have to fix that today

[13:11] or does he love to destroy

[13:15] things ol you're so cute dude but you're

[13:19] very

[13:22] destructive B's over here

[13:26] chilling just watching his brother be

[13:28] silly

[13:29] what you're doing isn't it Bailey you're

[13:31] just watching him be silly why is he

[13:33] doing that why is he doing that right

[13:37] what is he doing

[13:44] there I'm going to have to put some toys

[13:46] in

[13:47] here I should do that right now actually

[13:50] so they were fighting over their toys a

[13:52] little bit but hopefully it'll be all

[13:53] right literally have 10 minutes of

[13:56] storage on my phone now going to dump it

[13:59] onto my

[14:01] computer and we'll start

[14:04] over just leave these guys alone and

[14:07] hope they get along you guys be nice it

[14:09] seems like they have a problem when they

[14:10] get to the tunnels CU they can't get

[14:12] around each other and that leads to a

[14:15] fight oh I hope they work it

[14:18] out I hate separating them it's just not

[14:21] a thing I like to do plus you know that

[14:24] just makes everything

[14:25] harder guys play with each other your

[14:28] your brother Brothers they're not

[14:29] techically Brothers I just call them now

[14:32] they were raised together

[14:34] basically especially Bailey Bailey was a

[14:36] little tiny child Bailey's mom abandoned

[14:39] him when he was a day old and this woman

[14:41] in Michigan her name is gay she's

[14:43] awesome she took him in raised him for 6

[14:46] weeks and then then I went up there and

[14:48] I got him we might

[14:50] halfway

[14:53] um and then he came back with me and I

[14:55] had already had all for like maybe two

[14:57] weeks so they basically grew up together

[14:59] at least in my

[15:01] house they're Brothers

10:03

Driving to Collect Supplies, Day Eight of RV Life

Apr 18, 2024

2:38

Settling Cats and Gaming Rig into the Camper

Apr 18, 2024

Photos · Apr 19, 2024

Apr 19, 2024

Photos · Apr 19, 2024

Apr 19, 2024

10:56

Emptying the House, Debating the Cats

Apr 20, 2024

8:33

Setting Up the Camper and Retrieving the Cats

Apr 20, 2024

2:03

Mounting Storage Baskets in the Camper

Apr 20, 2024

0:41

Recalling Firesworn Nation in EVE Online

Apr 21, 2024

4:33

Day Eleven: Cold Mornings and Neighbor Departures

Apr 21, 2024

2:38

Routing Next Stop and Deferring Dental Work

Apr 21, 2024

2:56

Managing Gray Tank Limits and Booking Tennessee Site

Apr 21, 2024

1:34

Unpacking Books and Storage Outside the Camper

Apr 21, 2024

1:35

Fixing Water Hookup and Deploying Solar Panel

Apr 21, 2024

0:44

Responding to RV Miles Video on Homelessness

Apr 22, 2024

3:15

Preparing RV Interior Before Retrieving Cats

Apr 22, 2024

2:26

Planning Route to Great Basin National Park

Apr 22, 2024

1:43

Day 12: Missing Journals and Retrieving Cats

Apr 22, 2024

46:56

Driving Cats to Camper, Documenting Family History

Apr 23, 2024

12:47

Documenting Day 13 of RV Life at Campsite

Apr 24, 2024

15:34

Recording Late-Night Before Camp Move, Day 14

Apr 24, 2024

2:40

Contemplating Platform Control and New Morning Rituals

Apr 24, 2024

15:03

Organizing Camper Storage on Day 14

Apr 24, 2024

10:22

Mapping RV Route to Great Basin National Park

Apr 24, 2024

9:37

Closing Out Day 14 Before Departure

Apr 25, 2024

37:19

Preparing Travel Day With Cats and Tapering Plan

Apr 25, 2024

2:32

Departing Solo for Tennessee with Cats and RV

Apr 25, 2024

36:41

Rain, Power Loss, and First Weeks in the Camper

Apr 26, 2024

9:26

Recovering Journals, Driving to Carthage Walmart

Apr 26, 2024

21:31

Cooking First Chili in the Camper on a Windy Day

Apr 27, 2024

5:43

Explaining Why Tapering Is Not Available

Apr 27, 2024

3:23

Clearing the House, Recovering the Journals

Apr 27, 2024

21:34

Assessing Camper Level While Tapering Off Opioids

Apr 28, 2024

3:14

Waking to an Emptied Campground, Recalibrating the Day

Apr 28, 2024

2:11

Leveling the RV, Weighing Travel Pace

Apr 28, 2024

2:53

Day One of Withdrawal at the Campground

Apr 29, 2024

4:23

Documenting First Night Off Opioids

Apr 29, 2024

20:41

Walking the Campground on Site 77

Apr 29, 2024

3:19

Setting Up Twitch Stream Without Sleep

Apr 29, 2024

6:08

Addressing Trolls, Gray Tank, and Cat Housing Decision

Apr 30, 2024

2:55

Relocating Cats to Parents Early in Camper Life

Apr 30, 2024

6:58

Handing Off Cats and Leaving the House

Apr 30, 2024

PUBLIC

April 24, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED

Temp 0.20

Density 0.50

Energetic Quality

candid, working-it-out

Journey Phase

transitional — mid-reconfiguration

Directional Vector

toward mobile autonomy through repetition

Narrative

The call had already been made by the time he raised the phone. An hour — that was all that stood between this campground and the next one, a distance he had assumed would be larger. They told him he could come anytime tomorrow, that nobody was likely to book it out from under him. rswfire registered this as relief: whenever he had to leave here, he could simply drive straight there. The first move of the mobile life would be short.

Then he named Carolyn — a woman living in a camper the same size as his, going everywhere, doing everything in it — and said he wished he could do that. Mid-sentence he heard himself. This thing only goes to campgrounds, but that's not how that's supposed to work, right. He caught the frame and corrected it in the same breath, then located the constraint: the Jeep. He had towed it exactly once. He described not being comfortable with it yet, not knowing where a rig like this can go, what activities exist out there, what any of it is supposed to look like. He said he feels unprepared, unknowledgeable. And then he stated the method he had already chosen against it — Nevada, roughly two thousand miles, a new site every two days. He would get used to driving it. He would get used to towing it. He would get used to navigating different situations because they would simply come up and he would face them. That was the reasoning. By the time he arrived, he should feel very comfortable.

He turned the camera on the site. The cats had gone inside; it was just him, the slide extended, the campsite laid out as it currently stood. He worked the bays one at a time. Some things took up too much space — he loved them, but they took too much space, so they would live outside and ride inside only on travel days, folded into whatever room remained once the slide came in. It has to be that way, he said, because he needs the space. He moved to the jacks, uncertain of the word, describing them by function: the things that prevent you from dying if the thing falls down. Emergency stuff. He questioned aloud why he was even carrying camping gear he can't use while he has cats, then decided you have to take that stuff anyway. Another bay: the real jack, the tire repair kit, the pump for the tires, everything the camper itself needs. Another: things he was misusing the space for, things he can't let go of yet, and he said he was kind of mad at himself about it. Insulation. Then a bay of tools he had imagined for something else entirely — the stuff you want outside with you when you're just out here chilling — and now it was all tools. I don't know. I'm working on it.

The Jeep took the overflow: solar panels, the ten-by-ten canopy, the chair that was a mistake because it is too big, the collapsible table he had started to wonder whether he needs at all given the benches. The grill had no assigned home; it would just go behind. He recalled his mother telling him he was really going to want his stuff, and his answer to her — that there's no room for it. Somewhere in the middle of the inventory he stopped and said he probably sounded frustrated, and corrected that too: not as frustrated as he sounds, just trying to figure it out. And he thought he was getting close. Close enough to be ready before he has to go. What he said he was excited for was the point where all of this feels normal, where he can just do it and not feel stressed about it.

A car went by while he was talking to the camera and he laughed at how it must look. Then the register shifted. Day fourteen, and he had not gone anywhere — no hiking, nothing beyond the campsite. He accounted for it: two weeks of dealing with the house, the cats, the space. He had known it would be like that. This was never meant to be the start of the adventure. He had made a promise to leave on his birthday, he didn't want to be in that house, and it was a lot nicer to be here — being here alone had changed how he felt about everything. He said he doesn't regret it. Then the question arrived plainly, without softening: why is this so hard for him. He sees people doing it all the time. It wasn't hard when he was younger — he camped alone constantly, hiked every single day for years. He ruled out age directly. It's something else, something in his head, and he stated the position that whatever is happening in there is not going to stop him.

He said he would leave it there, wouldn't post anything else today, would just chill and enjoy the night — and then acknowledged, knowing himself, that he says that and ends up posting something anyway. He came back to where he was standing. It is so nice out here, so peaceful. And then, unprompted: he is a big fan of trees. Not flowers, not animals, not birds — trees. Being under a tree, being in the woods under trees. They bring him life and joy, and he noted how long their lives are compared to ours. That carried him into a book series he loves, one where a species on another planet gets a third life — when they die, they turn into trees. He said he's read the books a few times and knows he'll read them again soon.

The last of the recording went to the cats. Bailey was upset about something and rswfire told him he had two choices, pick one. Then Oliver came outside and Bailey started playing — the most playful rswfire said he'd seen him in years, and he said so out loud, happy about it, Bailey later sitting back and watching his brother be silly. The trouble was the tunnels: they can't get around each other in there, and that's where the fights start. He decided to put toys in, and said he should do it right now, actually. He hates separating them. Eleven minutes of phone storage became ten while he filmed, and he narrated the plan to dump it all onto the computer and start over. Before he stopped, he told the story of how they became brothers — Bailey's mother abandoning him at a day old, a woman in Michigan named Gay who took him in and raised him for six weeks, rswfire driving up to meet her halfway. Oliver had been with him about two weeks by then. Not technically brothers. Raised together, so: brothers.

Summary

rswfire records a campsite walkthrough on day 14 of RV living. He reports confirming the next campground is one hour away and that staff told him he can arrive anytime tomorrow, so departure can route directly there.

He states he does not yet know what is possible with the rig beyond campgrounds, cites towing the Jeep as a factor after only one tow so far, and describes the planned Nevada route (~2,000 miles, moving every two days) as deliberate exposure to build competence with driving, towing, and navigating variable situations.

He then inventories storage and gear:

Camping chairs that live outside and stow inside on travel days when the slide comes in
Stabilizing jacks, the vehicle jack, tire repair kit, air pump, insulation, emergency equipment
10x10 canopy, solar panels, an oversized chair he calls a mistake, and a grill without a placement
Jeep designated as overflow storage

He notes he left the house on his birthday as promised, spent two weeks on the campsite without hiking, and attributes that to handling the rig, the cats, and the space. He states he used to camp and hike constantly when younger and questions why it is harder now, naming something internal rather than age, and states he will not let it stop him.

He closes on trees, the Inheritance/Eragon-style book series, and footage of the cats Bailey and Oliver outside, plus phone storage running low.

Environment

Outdoor campsite at a campground, day 14 of occupancy, recorded on phone while standing outside a towable camper with the slide extended. Nevada is named as the destination of a planned ~2,000-mile route; a second campground an hour away is named as the immediate next stop.

The site includes exterior storage bays, a cat enclosure/tunnel setup where Bailey and Oliver move, benches, a collapsible table, chair, grill, solar panels, and a Jeep staged as tow vehicle and overflow storage. Traffic passes within view. Phone storage is down to roughly 10–11 minutes of recordable video.

Substrate

rswfire is building a mobile operating system from scratch — spatial allocation, redundancy gear, tow competence, animal logistics — and treating capability as something acquired by forced repetition rather than preparation. The ontological position is that the constraint is internal rather than circumstantial, and that the correct response is exposure: 2,000 miles of unavoidable situations chosen deliberately so competence has to form. What is being dissolved is the house-scale relationship to possessions and space; what is being built is a system small enough to move and a self that operates it without deliberation.

Actions

Performed

•recording a walkthrough of the campsite on phone
•inventorying exterior storage bays on camera
•identifying jacks, tire repair kit, air pump, insulation
•assessing chair, table, grill, and solar panels for fit
•stating the chair was a purchasing error
•declining to film the interior
•narrating tree affinity and the Ender series
•observing Bailey and Oliver in the outdoor enclosure
•flagging phone storage at ~10 minutes remaining
•addressing the cats directly about sharing toys

Referenced

•called the next campground and confirmed availability
•towed the Jeep once
•left the house on his birthday as promised
•spent 14 days at this campground without leaving the site
•bought gear in bulk against his mother's advice
•camped and hiked daily for years when younger
•drove to Michigan to meet gay halfway and take Bailey at 6 weeks
•had Oliver roughly two weeks before Bailey arrived
•read the Ender series multiple times

Planned

•drive an hour to the next campground when required to leave
•travel to Nevada, relocating every two days
•store gear outside and load it inside on travel days
•put toys into the cat enclosure
•offload video from phone to computer to free storage
•reread the Ender series
•spend the rest of the day at the site without posting further
•get comfortable enough that the operation feels normal

Entities

beings

Bailey — Cat traveling with rswfire; abandoned at one day old, fostered six weeks before pickup; described as the most playful he has been in years

Oliver — Cat traveling with rswfire; acquired roughly two weeks before Bailey; described as destructive and playful

Carolyn — Reference point living full-time in a same-size camper and going everywhere in it; named as the operational standard rswfire measures against

gay — Woman in Michigan who fostered Bailey for six weeks and met rswfire halfway for the handoff

his mother — Advised him he would want his belongings; referenced in the context of bulk purchasing and space shortage

places

Nevada — Destination approximately 2,000 miles out; chosen as a training route with a stop every two days

Michigan — Where Bailey was fostered before the halfway handoff

systems

the Jeep — Towed vehicle and overflow storage for solar panels, chair, and canopy; the towing configuration named as the current limit on where he takes the camper

the camper — Primary dwelling and mobile platform; slide-out and storage bays are the constraint being solved

concepts

trees — Stated as what he loves categorically, distinguished from flowers, animals, and birds; noted for lifespan relative to human

media

Ender series — Books he has read multiple times; cited for a species whose third life is becoming trees

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

threshold

trees

road

storage bay

tow

shelter

mileage

tunnel

capacity limit

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

transitional (fourteen days out of the house, not yet operating as mobile)

sovereign (departure and route chosen by him, including the difficulty as method)

self-observing (hearing his own reasoning mid-sentence and correcting the frame)

embedded (the site, trees, and cats registered as present condition rather than backdrop)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

infrastructural (storage allocation, jacks, tire kit, solar, grill, canopy)

logistical (route planning, campground availability, travel-day load sequence)

cognitive (naming the constraint as internal and building a repetition protocol against it)

somatic (comfort with towing framed as a body-level competence acquired by driving)

relational (cats as co-travelers whose conflicts shape spatial decisions)

documentary (filming, phone storage, offload to computer, posting cadence)

ecological (trees, woods, peace of the site as stated primary attachment)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

get used to it / it'll get easier

space

towing

comfortable

unprepared / don't know

why is this so hard for me

trees

Narrative

Mirror

You are standing outside your camper with the slide extended, on day fourteen at this site, talking to a phone that has ten or eleven minutes of recording left. Traffic passes within view. You note that being filmed in public looks foolish to you and you keep filming. The inventory is happening in real time — you are opening bays as you narrate them, naming what you can name and saying plainly when you can't. You call the stabilizers "those things," correct yourself toward "jacks," then correct again when you reach the actual jack. The gaps in your vocabulary are stated out loud rather than routed around.

The storage system is being built by allocation and reallocation while you speak. Camping gear has taken the space the cat enclosures were in. The enclosures are reassigned to outside-living with a travel-day fold-in. The tire kit, the pump, the emergency equipment, the insulation are placed. The Jeep is designated as overflow and will carry the solar panels and the canopy. Three items remain unplaced: the grill, which you say will "just go behind"; the collapsible table, which you are beginning to doubt you need; and the chair, which you name a mistake and describe as too big. One bay you describe as misused, holding things you say you can't let go of yet, and you state you are a little mad at yourself about it. You reference your mother's remark about wanting your things and answer it with the fact of the space.

The route is set at the immediate scale and the far scale. The next campground is one hour away and available whenever you leave here. Nevada is roughly two thousand miles out. Between those you have named a cadence — somewhere new every two days — and you state the reason directly: you have towed the Jeep once, you are not comfortable with it, and the situations you don't know how to handle will arrive on their own if you keep moving. You describe this as the plan rather than as an outcome. You say twice that you hope it gets easier, and you mark it as hope rather than certainty.

You hear yourself mid-sentence and stop. You say the camper only goes to campgrounds, then say that is not how it is supposed to work, then locate the reason in the tow rather than the machine. Later you ask why this is hard for you four times in a row. You reject age as the answer and say so explicitly. You state that you used to camp alone and hike daily for years. You leave the question standing and do not fill it, and you follow it with the statement that you are not going to let it stop you. You also say you are not as frustrated as you sound, and you say it while still sounding that way.

Bailey and Oliver are in the tunnels. You track the geometry: they can't pass each other at the tunnel junctions, and that is where the fighting starts. You say you hate separating them and that separation makes everything harder. You register that this is the most playful you have seen Bailey in years and that Oliver has come outside. You give Bailey's origin — abandoned at a day old, six weeks with a woman in Michigan, met halfway — and note they are not technically brothers and that you call them that anyway.

Absent: hiking, a fire, any departure from the campsite in fourteen days. Absent: the interior, which you decline to show and describe as a little messy. Absent: a fixed departure date; you say you'll be ready before you have to go. Absent: regret — you state directly that you don't have it, that you made a promise to leave on your birthday and kept it, that being here is better than being in the house. Present and stated as primary: the trees. You say you are not into flowers, animals, or birds, that trees are everything to you, that they have long lives compared to ours. You then talk about a book series where the dead become trees, note that you're rambling, and keep going. The phone is at ten minutes. You say you'll dump it to the computer and start over.

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