Beginning Tramadol Withdrawal While Building Out RV Interior

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[0:00] good morning
[0:01] everyone so it's a bit cold today uh
[0:04] it's been raining a little bit we're
[0:06] just going to span the day inside I have
[0:09] a bunch of stuff to do in there I did a
[0:10] bunch yesterday I'm going to show that
[0:11] to you in a
[0:13] moment um because I mentioned in my
[0:16] previous video I'm going to go through
[0:17] with draw and I knew I was you know I
[0:20] just can't get the kind of meds I was
[0:21] taking on the road mostly the problem's
[0:24] going to be Tramadol it's and opiate and
[0:27] because I know I'm going to withdraw off
[0:29] of it I just decided to just start now
[0:31] so actually I'm already feeling it a
[0:34] little um it's not pleasant but I'll
[0:37] manage I have to I chose this I knew
[0:40] that when I picked this lifestyle I was
[0:42] choosing this lifestyle over that
[0:45] medication I don't regret it at all I
[0:49] just I don't know what I'm going to do
[0:50] about the pain I do
[0:52] have
[0:54] I'm I decided that I would rather have
[0:57] this
[0:58] lifestyle than and have pain pills I
[1:02] mean it's not really a choice when you
[1:05] look at it that way if you hear Bailey
[1:07] that's him at the
[1:08] door he would love to be out here I'm
[1:11] debating if I should like set their
[1:14] stuff up and let them out least right
[1:16] away because the second I do he will
[1:18] know he's allowed out here and then he
[1:20] will never stop wanting to come out here
[1:21] so I'm genuinely debating if I should do
[1:25] that or
[1:26] not um it's Pleasant I'm happy
[1:31] um just in some physical pain and that's
[1:33] making
[1:35] me well I just had to remind myself that
[1:39] it's
[1:41] it's the physical pain I'm going through
[1:44] that's making today not so great it's
[1:46] not my new home you know and I'm just
[1:49] going to keep busy and just do all the
[1:51] things I need to do so let me just get
[1:53] to that
[1:54] okay uh let's watch out for Bailey here
[1:57] is there a cat in here
[2:00] oh he's up there
[2:03] oh all right well you stay there okay
[2:06] very good boy I'm glad you did that
[2:08] that's a great place I'd rather you were
[2:10] there than the stairwell hi Oliver so
[2:13] I'm putting up these lights all the way
[2:15] across they'll go all the way across
[2:18] which is awesome put these ones up
[2:20] yesterday along with my charging
[2:22] station I put up this netting over my
[2:25] bed and then some lights in that um I
[2:28] need to it's secure I used um anchors
[2:31] you know wall anchors and everything
[2:33] like I'm so proud of myself for this it
[2:35] needs to just be tighter to the wall and
[2:37] I just don't have the screws for it I'm
[2:39] going to have to do some shopping soon
[2:42] um these are just going up with little
[2:43] command strips but I also got more of
[2:46] those Drop lights to go across this part
[2:48] of the slide and then once those are up
[2:50] I can put my baskets up I'm hoping there
[2:52] will be enough room there's one problem
[2:55] so I
[2:56] learned guys I'm so proud of myself I
[2:59] learned how to use use that and if you
[3:01] run it across the top of the slide here
[3:03] that wall there's stuff back there and
[3:07] I'm just not sure what to do so I
[3:10] reached out to my salesman at the
[3:12] dealership I bought it at to see if he
[3:13] could help me get schematics or
[3:15] something so I'll figure it out cuz I
[3:18] need them up there if this is what you
[3:20] know this is how we're living you know
[3:22] this is difficult so I'm doing my best
[3:27] like those Nets will help I'm going to
[3:28] put some over the office to they're a
[3:30] little bit bigger
[3:33] um you know like I think the one over my
[3:35] bed originally I was thinking I would
[3:37] use it to just put my journals up there
[3:39] or something like that but I don't have
[3:40] anywhere for my my towels like nowhere I
[3:44] might use that space for that I'm not
[3:46] sure I haven't figured it out you know
[3:48] moving in here you know I thought I was
[3:51] doing great in my driveway you know
[3:53] getting organized and then I moved here
[3:56] and I think once you do that then you're
[3:59] like okay you really know what you need
[4:00] to do like you start to figure out where
[4:03] your stuff needs to go cuz you're really
[4:05] living in here um and I'm loving that
[4:08] experience I truly am so I'm going to
[4:11] get more netting up there and then um oh
[4:15] this was another thing some shelving
[4:17] down here I figured you know if I could
[4:19] get some shelving down there I'll double
[4:20] the space right I put that table
[4:23] together so I should have known this it
[4:25] came with venes and those benches fit
[4:28] fit squarely under underneath of that
[4:30] thing they're just sitting at my house
[4:31] two of them those are my benches you
[4:34] know and I'll strap it down
[4:36] and I just love the Ingenuity of living
[4:39] this life so I also got some other
[4:42] things I got these anti-skid things for
[4:43] the table cuz it moved a little bit but
[4:45] I think that might be because the solar
[4:47] panel collaps like or not the solar
[4:49] panel but the reason I think it's called
[4:51] an inverter I wish I just wish somebody
[4:52] could tell me what that is so I call it
[4:54] what it is um they collapsed you know
[4:57] when I backed into my site I think it
[4:59] probably moved the table the table's
[5:00] pretty everything was Secure driving
[5:02] it's just only when I tried to back into
[5:04] my site um but I'm going to strap those
[5:08] down and just everything because I won't
[5:11] let my cats roam around in here while
[5:13] I'm driving until I know everything is
[5:15] just secure and that's why the baskets
[5:17] aren't going back up with command strips
[5:20] I have to I have to screw those
[5:22] in
[5:23] um I'm loving this guys I hope you're
[5:26] having a wonderful is today Tuesday
[5:30] I've kind of lost track of time I think
[5:32] it's Tuesday have a good day
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9:15
Retracting the Slide for the First Time
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6:45
Marking 47th Birthday Before Departure
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6:40
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39:34
Day One in the Camper on His 47th Birthday
Apr 13, 2024
2:03
Closing the YouTube Channel Before Heading West
Apr 13, 2024
1:55
Clarifying the Project Is About Following Dreams
Apr 14, 2024
5:47
Reversing Channel Shutdown, Mapping Westward Route
Apr 15, 2024
3:44
Reviewing a Missed Encounter at the Park
Apr 15, 2024
5:37
First Morning Settling Into Camper Life
Apr 16, 2024
1:43
Setting Up Outdoor Site, Declaring Break From Matrix
Apr 16, 2024
5:35
Beginning Tramadol Withdrawal While Building Out RV Interior
Apr 17, 2024
4:53
First Grill Cookout at Campsite
Apr 17, 2024
3:17
Meeting Kevin and Organizing the RV Interior
Apr 18, 2024
10:03
Driving to Collect Supplies, Day Eight of RV Life
Apr 18, 2024
2:38
Settling Cats and Gaming Rig into the Camper
Apr 18, 2024
Photos · Apr 19, 2024
Apr 19, 2024
Photos · Apr 19, 2024
Apr 19, 2024
10:56
Emptying the House, Debating the Cats
Apr 20, 2024
8:33
Setting Up the Camper and Retrieving the Cats
Apr 20, 2024
2:03
Mounting Storage Baskets in the Camper
Apr 20, 2024
0:41
Recalling Firesworn Nation in EVE Online
Apr 21, 2024
4:33
Day Eleven: Cold Mornings and Neighbor Departures
Apr 21, 2024
2:38
Routing Next Stop and Deferring Dental Work
Apr 21, 2024
2:56
Managing Gray Tank Limits and Booking Tennessee Site
Apr 21, 2024
1:34
Unpacking Books and Storage Outside the Camper
Apr 21, 2024
1:35
Fixing Water Hookup and Deploying Solar Panel
Apr 21, 2024
0:44
Responding to RV Miles Video on Homelessness
Apr 22, 2024
3:15
Preparing RV Interior Before Retrieving Cats
Apr 22, 2024
2:26
Planning Route to Great Basin National Park
Apr 22, 2024
1:43
Day 12: Missing Journals and Retrieving Cats
Apr 22, 2024
46:56
Driving Cats to Camper, Documenting Family History
Apr 23, 2024
12:47
Documenting Day 13 of RV Life at Campsite
Apr 24, 2024
15:34
Recording Late-Night Before Camp Move, Day 14
Apr 24, 2024
2:40
Contemplating Platform Control and New Morning Rituals
Apr 24, 2024
15:03
Organizing Camper Storage on Day 14
Apr 24, 2024
10:22
Mapping RV Route to Great Basin National Park
Apr 24, 2024
9:37
Closing Out Day 14 Before Departure
Apr 25, 2024
37:19
Preparing Travel Day With Cats and Tapering Plan
Apr 25, 2024
2:32
Departing Solo for Tennessee with Cats and RV
Apr 25, 2024
PUBLIC
April 17, 2024 rswfire PUBLISHED
Temp 0.10
Density 0.30
Energetic Quality
steady and industrious under physical load
Journey Phase
settling in — active build-out
Directional Vector
toward habitability, building infrastructure inside a chosen life
Narrative

The morning came in cold with a little rain on it, and rswfire made the call early: the day would be spent inside. There was work enough in there. He had done a good amount the day before and there was more to do, and the weather simply decided which walls the work would happen behind. He picked up the camera the way he had the day before, continuing a thread he had already started with whoever was watching, and began by naming the thing that would shape the hours ahead. He could not get the medication he had been taking out here on the road. Tramadol was the one that mattered — an opiate, and he knew a withdrawal was coming either way, so he had decided to start it now rather than wait for the road to start it for him. He was already feeling it a little. He described it as not pleasant. He said he would manage, because he had to, because he chose this. He said he had known when he picked this lifestyle that he was choosing it over that medication, and that he did not regret it at all. What remained open, he stated plainly, was what he was going to do about the pain he does have.

Bailey was at the door. rswfire heard him and named him for the camera — that's him, he would love to be out here — and then turned the moment over in the open: whether to set their things up and let the cats into the space right away, knowing that the second he did, Bailey would understand he was allowed out here and would never stop wanting to come. He left the question genuinely undecided. A little later he said he was happy, that the day was pleasant, that he was just in some physical pain, and then he corrected the frame in real time for himself and for anyone listening — it was the physical pain making today not so great, not the new home. Having separated the two, he said he was going to keep busy and do all the things he needed to do, and he went to do them.

Moving through the interior, he checked Bailey's whereabouts and found him up somewhere high — a good place, better than the stairwell, and he told him so. He greeted Oliver. Then he began the tour of what already existed. Lights going up along one run, to eventually span the whole length. Lights he had put up the day before alongside the charging station. Netting anchored over his bed with more lights strung inside it. He had used wall anchors for that, real ones, and he said he was so proud of himself for it. It needed to sit tighter to the wall and he did not have the right screws yet, which meant a shopping trip soon. The current lights were going up on command strips, temporary by nature, with more drop lights planned across the slide so the baskets could follow — if there turned out to be enough room.

There was one problem, and it sat behind a wall. He had learned to use a stud finder — another thing he named as a point of pride — and running it across the top of the slide told him there was something back there. He did not know what, and did not know what to do about it, so he reached out to his salesman at the dealership where he bought the rig to see whether schematics could be had. He said he would figure it out, because he needed the baskets up there. This is how we're living, he said. This is difficult. I'm doing my best.

From there the logic of the space kept unfolding as he talked through it. More netting over the office area, slightly larger. The bed netting had originally been imagined for journals, but he had nowhere at all for his towels, so it might become that instead — undetermined. He described the shift honestly: he had thought he was doing great getting organized in the driveway, and then he moved here, and only once you are really living in a space do you start to figure out where your things actually need to go. He said he was loving that experience, truly. Then shelving below, to double the storage under the table. The table itself had come with benches that fit squarely underneath it, two of them still sitting at his house, and he named that as something he should have known. He would strap it all down. He said he loved the Ingenuity of living this life.

The last of it was about motion. He had picked up anti-skid pads for the table, which had shifted a little — his read was that it happened when the collapsible unit on the roof came down, the one he thinks is called an inverter, and he said he wished somebody would just tell him what it is so he could call it what it is. Everything had been secure for the drive itself; it was backing into the site that moved things. So the table gets strapped, and the baskets get screwed in rather than taped, because he will not let the cats roam the interior while he is driving until he knows everything is genuinely secure. He signed off wishing everyone a good day, then paused over which day it was — Tuesday, he thought, though he had kind of lost track of time.

Tags

RV build-out medication discontinuation physical pain mobile living logistics storage systems cats dealership contact

Summary

rswfire records a morning signal from inside the RV during cold, rainy weather, stating he will spend the day working indoors.

He states he is discontinuing Tramadol by choice, describing it as an opiate he cannot reliably obtain on the road. He states he decided to start withdrawal now rather than later, says he is already feeling it, and states he does not regret choosing this lifestyle over the medication. He notes he has not determined what he will do about his physical pain, and distinguishes that the day's difficulty is the physical pain, not the new home.

He documents interior build-out completed and planned:

  • String lights running across the interior, with more drop lights planned along the slide
  • A charging station and netting over the bed, installed with wall anchors
  • Baskets to be screwed in rather than mounted with command strips, for travel security
  • Shelving planned under the table, plus two benches still at his house
  • Anti-skid pads for the table, which shifted while backing into the site

He states he learned to use a stud finder and found obstruction inside the slide wall, and has contacted his salesman at the dealership to request schematics. He mentions the cats, Bailey and Oliver, and debates whether to let Bailey outside. He states he is loving the experience of living this way and closes uncertain of the day of the week.

Environment

Interior of a newly occupied RV, recorded on a cold, lightly raining morning during the first days of full-time residence at a parked site. The camera moves through the living space — bed area, slide-out, dinette table, stairwell — while two cats, Bailey and Oliver, move through the frame.

The environment is mid-build: string lights partially run, netting anchored over the bed, a charging station installed, baskets staged for mounting, benches still stored at the prior house. Weather keeps the day's work indoors, so the signal is entirely interior fit-out under active use.

Substrate

rswfire holds a chosen tradeoff as fixed architecture: the mobile life is retained and the opiate medication is released, with the withdrawal initiated on his own schedule rather than imposed by circumstance. The signal's structural work is spatial — converting a purchased vehicle into a functioning dwelling by anchoring, netting, shelving, and securing every surface against motion. Physical pain is named and located as the day's condition, explicitly separated from the home itself, so the build continues without the discomfort being attributed to the decision.

Actions

Performed

  • •recording a walkthrough of the interior
  • •reporting the cold, rainy weather and the decision to work inside
  • •stating current withdrawal symptoms and physical pain
  • •separating the pain from any judgment of the new home
  • •deliberating whether to let the cats into the front cab space
  • •checking on Bailey and directing him away from the stairwell
  • •showing the lights, netting, charging station, and table
  • •identifying obstruction behind the slide-out wall
  • •naming an unknown component as the inverter

Referenced

  • •mentioned withdrawal in a previous video
  • •stopped taking Tramadol, began withdrawal on own timing
  • •chose the mobile lifestyle over continued pain medication
  • •installed lights and charging station the previous day
  • •installed netting over the bed using wall anchors
  • •assembled the dinette table
  • •organized the rig while parked in the driveway
  • •backed the rig into the site; inverter collapsed and shifted the table
  • •reached out to the dealership salesman for schematics
  • •learned to use a stud finder
  • •purchased anti-skid pads and additional drop lights

Planned

  • •run lights all the way across the slide
  • •buy screws and do a supply run
  • •mount baskets with screws rather than command strips
  • •obtain schematics to locate what sits behind the slide wall
  • •add larger netting over the office area
  • •possibly repurpose bed netting for towel storage
  • •install shelving beneath the table to double storage
  • •retrieve the two benches from the house
  • •strap down the table and other loose items
  • •keep the cats confined while driving until everything is secured
  • •keep busy and complete the day's task list

Entities

beings
rswfire — Author of the signal, documenting the interior build-out of his RV and the first day of intentional withdrawal from Tramadol.
Bailey — Cat at the door wanting access to the cab area; subject of an access-precedent deliberation.
Oliver — Second cat, greeted during the walkthrough.
the dealership salesman — Contacted to source schematics identifying what sits behind the slide-out wall.
places
the RV — Primary dwelling and the object of the build — bed, slide-out, dinette, stairwell, office area.
the house — Prior residence where the two benches remain, and where the driveway staging occurred.
the driveway — Pre-move staging ground; contrasted with the different organizational knowledge produced by actually living in the rig.
systems
Tramadol — Opiate pain medication he states he cannot obtain on the road; he initiated withdrawal on his own timing rather than waiting for supply to end.
the inverter — Component he names provisionally, noting he wants correct terminology; its collapse during backing in likely shifted the table.
stud finder — Tool he states he learned to use, which surfaced the obstruction above the slide.

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

threshold
anchor
net
light strung across a span
wall with unknown contents behind it
rain
cold
load secured against motion
shelter

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (withdrawal timing self-initiated; the tradeoff stated as chosen, with regret explicitly declined)
embodied (physical pain and withdrawal symptoms tracked and located precisely as the day's condition)
transitional (first days of full-time occupancy; systems partially installed, storage logic still being determined)
coherent (the discomfort is separated from the decision, keeping the frame intact while the body registers load)
constructive (space actively converted from vehicle to dwelling through anchoring, netting, and securing)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

somatic (withdrawal onset and physical pain tracked in real time and named as the day's variable)
infrastructural (lights, charging station, netting, shelving, anchors, strapping — the build itself)
technical (stud finder use, schematics request, inverter identification, terminology precision)
spatial-logistical (storage allocation, doubling space under the table, retrieving benches)
relational-domestic (cat access decisions, safety protocol for travel with animals)
ethical (holding the medication tradeoff as a chosen commitment rather than a loss)
documentary (walkthrough recorded and addressed to viewers, continuous with a prior video)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

I chose this / I don't regret it
secure / strap down / anchor
withdraw
this is how we're living
I'm so proud of myself
figure out where your stuff needs to go
the Ingenuity of living this life
Narrative

The morning came in cold with a little rain on it, and rswfire made the call early: the day would be spent inside. There was work enough in there. He had done a good amount the day before and there was more to do, and the weather simply decided which walls the work would happen behind. He picked up the camera the way he had the day before, continuing a thread he had already started with whoever was watching, and began by naming the thing that would shape the hours ahead. He could not get the medication he had been taking out here on the road. Tramadol was the one that mattered — an opiate, and he knew a withdrawal was coming either way, so he had decided to start it now rather than wait for the road to start it for him. He was already feeling it a little. He described it as not pleasant. He said he would manage, because he had to, because he chose this. He said he had known when he picked this lifestyle that he was choosing it over that medication, and that he did not regret it at all. What remained open, he stated plainly, was what he was going to do about the pain he does have.

Bailey was at the door. rswfire heard him and named him for the camera — that's him, he would love to be out here — and then turned the moment over in the open: whether to set their things up and let the cats into the space right away, knowing that the second he did, Bailey would understand he was allowed out here and would never stop wanting to come. He left the question genuinely undecided. A little later he said he was happy, that the day was pleasant, that he was just in some physical pain, and then he corrected the frame in real time for himself and for anyone listening — it was the physical pain making today not so great, not the new home. Having separated the two, he said he was going to keep busy and do all the things he needed to do, and he went to do them.

Moving through the interior, he checked Bailey's whereabouts and found him up somewhere high — a good place, better than the stairwell, and he told him so. He greeted Oliver. Then he began the tour of what already existed. Lights going up along one run, to eventually span the whole length. Lights he had put up the day before alongside the charging station. Netting anchored over his bed with more lights strung inside it. He had used wall anchors for that, real ones, and he said he was so proud of himself for it. It needed to sit tighter to the wall and he did not have the right screws yet, which meant a shopping trip soon. The current lights were going up on command strips, temporary by nature, with more drop lights planned across the slide so the baskets could follow — if there turned out to be enough room.

There was one problem, and it sat behind a wall. He had learned to use a stud finder — another thing he named as a point of pride — and running it across the top of the slide told him there was something back there. He did not know what, and did not know what to do about it, so he reached out to his salesman at the dealership where he bought the rig to see whether schematics could be had. He said he would figure it out, because he needed the baskets up there. This is how we're living, he said. This is difficult. I'm doing my best.

From there the logic of the space kept unfolding as he talked through it. More netting over the office area, slightly larger. The bed netting had originally been imagined for journals, but he had nowhere at all for his towels, so it might become that instead — undetermined. He described the shift honestly: he had thought he was doing great getting organized in the driveway, and then he moved here, and only once you are really living in a space do you start to figure out where your things actually need to go. He said he was loving that experience, truly. Then shelving below, to double the storage under the table. The table itself had come with benches that fit squarely underneath it, two of them still sitting at his house, and he named that as something he should have known. He would strap it all down. He said he loved the Ingenuity of living this life.

The last of it was about motion. He had picked up anti-skid pads for the table, which had shifted a little — his read was that it happened when the collapsible unit on the roof came down, the one he thinks is called an inverter, and he said he wished somebody would just tell him what it is so he could call it what it is. Everything had been secure for the drive itself; it was backing into the site that moved things. So the table gets strapped, and the baskets get screwed in rather than taped, because he will not let the cats roam the interior while he is driving until he knows everything is genuinely secure. He signed off wishing everyone a good day, then paused over which day it was — Tuesday, he thought, though he had kind of lost track of time.

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