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good morning fellow
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Hammond oh let me see if I can get that
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light out of the picture here I guess I
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sit over
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here bear with me I'm just waking up
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it's not even 5 in the morning yet it's
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almost
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5
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so oh come on Bailey seriously I'm
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trying to do something serious to here
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today's important and here's my cat
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scene no I
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guess all right I guess this is how
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we're starting
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today today I get baptized by that thing
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out there the
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ocean cuz today I Boondock for the first
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time
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here I did stay on the side of the road
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one day when I first got to Oregon but
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it wasn't here on the coast I can't deal
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with this cat right now Bailey I can't
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deal with you all right cannot deal with
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you you're going to have a fine day let
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me deal with this I need some coffee
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also all right I'm making coffee bear
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with me let's start with the basic
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truth trust in yourself is
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not the absence of
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fear you can trust yourself fully and
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still experience it you want to know how
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I know this because that thing out there
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standing on the cliff edges reminded me
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of this cuz I trust myself I've trusted
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myself all of my life at the core of me
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is pure self
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trust and it took me a long time to
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figure that out to
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realize I I last night it just hit me
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it's like you know what I can't think of
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a time when I didn't trust myself
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underneath all of it and that's why I
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can do this and this is why you can do
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anything because I promise you
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underneath all of the layers of societal
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and the doubts and everything
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else there is
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trust so
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I've got this I know I've got this I
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woke up feeling existential tear this
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morning allowed myself to feel that and
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then started planning what am I going to
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do I still did not know where I was
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going did I just last night I realized
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where I was going to go I don't know
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like just to pull off where the area and
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this place makes a whole lot of sense to
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me because it's a place I love it's a
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place that my system flagged when I saw
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it like oh that's a potential place to
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stay
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and it's a place where I first communed
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with that
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thing it's the place where I first Trac
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the waves where I would go in as the
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waves were going out where I would go
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out as the waves were coming in where I
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would run my ass off when I misjudge
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laughing my ass off getting wet down to
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my knees it's where I first saw a river
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make love to an
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ocean it's where I first saw seals
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popping their little heads up in that
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area looking like Little Submarine men
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and me going what the is that cuz
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I'd never seen anything like it in my
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life thinking maybe I was hallucinating
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like what I had no idea what I was
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looking at my brain did not know how to
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process that and then asking AI what am
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I seeing right now and then once I'm
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like okay seals sounds safe enough
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seeing how playful these things
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are I fell in love with the ocean that
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day and that's where we're going we're
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going to the place where
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or this place claim me and I claimed it
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back and I have a lot of trust in
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that
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so whatever happens today I am
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boondocking on the side of the 101 I
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will be on a pull out cu even if I get
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paid today by my client by the time that
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I am I'll probably already be on the
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road I have and why waste the money if
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I'm you know we're doing this this is
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what we're doing today it's already a
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thing this is a thing we're doing
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so just I'm not going to pretend I'm Not
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Afraid cuz I am but I've made the
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decision and I actually feel a lot more
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centered now because this is a thing
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this is what we're doing
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so um next comes all the Practical stuff
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so I got a
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shower got a breakdown Camp which that's
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not a lot for me youall know that very
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easy
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um I'd love to have breakfast but I
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don't really have anything and no money
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so I don't really know what I'm doing
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with that I'll make like lunch or dinner
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later I've got some frozen fish and um
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I've got some quarters I could get
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something in town like this is how my
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brain works I want you to hear the
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truth cuz I have nothing easy to cook
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and if it's not easy to cook I'm not
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going to be doing it
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so like I have a few things maybe
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oatmeal I can't even see myself eating
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that
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so I got it because maybe one day right
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but not no I I'd rather starve to make
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that maybe one day that's how my
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brain works so I guess it's just coffee
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and you know what I should probably plug
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the coffee maker in so that it actually
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does something right oh man I could
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really use some
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coffee
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okay now we're going
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okay
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um I do have this I'm going to be all
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right I trust myself when I get to this
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spot I pinned it on my map I I I saw
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this pull out and when I saw that pull
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out just something told me that's where
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I'm going to end up and that's how I
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trust my intuition too you know that's a
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big part of me it's not just I'm got
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feeling it's a thing
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that um that helps me navigate life
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every day because I trust it
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because I've learned to trust it you can
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do that too I promise you you
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can I'm not saying it's easy none of
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this is
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easy I'm saying you can do
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it just like I
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am not bad
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man let me tell you my
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secret I don't know how I M
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this I know that you can though cuz I
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have how do I do this it's simple I hold
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space for what I'm feeling I feel fear I
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feel trust I feel excitement I feel so
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many things and I hold space for it I
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don't fight it I just let it be a part
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of my
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day you can do
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that cuz why fight it what's that going
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to do where's it going to
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go somewhere in my life I learned to
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just hold space for
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it that's my secret
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weapon and I'm giving I'm giving it to
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you it's going to be a real chaotic
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video today sorry guys but you know
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that's me
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right I got my coffee done here oh it's
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really good today even being dripped
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coffee is actually pretty damn
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good I don't know why I did different a
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little bit more creamer probably
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probably like half hazelnut creamer cuz
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I just love that
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um it's going to be a busy morning
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so being broke sucks I don't have any
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Vapes so like and this is almost gone
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and go check my Jeep and see if I've got
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any like half mostly empty cartridges to
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help me get through this
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thing I really don't want to have to
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navigate this day navigating like with
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the draw from that or whatever I don't
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know I think I'm getting close to being
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ready to quit that uh the last time I
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bought them I I even thought about not
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doing so and just seeing how it went but
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I don't think I'm there yet
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so um so practical things I know I
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mentioned the shower and breaking camp
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but I got to tidy up in here you know
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make sure that there's nothing that's
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going to go phone while we're driving
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I'm going to need to empty my tanks I'm
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just going to go to a state park on the
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way and do that I think that you can
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probably just go there and do it I don't
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think that they complain about it and
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I'm you know I just spent two weeks at
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this state campground that doesn't have
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them and they put up signs where you can
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do it so I think you can probably just
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go and do it um we'll navigate that edge
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when we get there somebody says
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something you know or
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whatever um I picked my pull out spot if
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it's busy if it's taken you know what if
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there's a person there like all these
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thoughts are going through my head but
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you know
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we'll navigate it I pick my spot so
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that's my next destination this is also
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how this works for me I don't have a
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backup plan I didn't pick a second pull
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out I picked a spot I picked my spot and
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that's where I'm going and if that
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spot's taken taken then I will
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just
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um find the next one you know this is
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how I work set a destination for
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yourself make container for your
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feelings just just let them be part of
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the day with you and move forward it's
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that simple
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guys so I think this is actually really
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important cuz I do this with everything
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I never have a backup plan you guys have
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probably seen it more clearly than I
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have I don't
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know um I mean I don't know there that's
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not hedging I I generally don't know
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um this is how I navigate
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life I pick a
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destination and I put my full force my
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full force behind that and then if I get
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to that destination and for whatever
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reason that just doesn't feel like that
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that's working then you pick the next
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one I do this with everything I've
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literally just trusted that my boss is
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going to pay me I have no money and no
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other plans and I know that a lot of you
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would think that was was is reckless I
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can't believe I can't talk today that's
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so funny this that's how nervous I am
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cuz you guys have never heard me stumble
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with my words once in 8 months
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have you over 500 videos I don't stumble
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with words but I am this
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morning
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um I get that you might think that's
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reckless but I'm 47 years old and
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somehow that's works for me here I am
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living in an RV that I bought with a
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jeep that I
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love living the life that makes me feel
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the most
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alive pick a destination and move
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towards
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it this is why it's important because I
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put my intention behind everything this
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is
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intentional backup plans are like
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saying to yourself that that first
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option it's like it's a way of
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fragmenting yourself that's what it is
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it's
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fragmentation I don't fragment anything
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I move forward as One Sovereign being
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I want to see you do that
