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my camera came on all by itself it's
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like it detects your face it's like bam
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okay I guess we're doing this good
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morning I just woke up it's 6:00 in the
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morning it's very cold today it's in the
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30s out there and I had my window open
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so I'm just bundling up here um I'm not
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where I had intended to be I drove up to
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abandon to the beach and the campground
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there was um under construction so um
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had to Pivot figure out what am I doing
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I tried to go a little bit more North uh
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to those places I had talked about but
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there
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was um nothing available at least with
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the quick search that I had done while I
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was just kind of like okay I'm I'm you
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know I got to figure something out and
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then so I was like okay Humbug Mountain
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it is and that's where I am got here
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last night um nearly backed into a
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tree with confidence because I thought I
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was lined up perfectly so
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I I would have demolished that thing cuz
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I really thought that I was signed up
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perfectly this man yells out I a
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millimeter from the thing like it was
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close so that's a lesson to to take to
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heart like even if you think you're
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lined up well and you're
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just yeah maybe be a little more
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cautious than I was being man I was
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embarrassed but anyways I got some clips
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for that so once you know that'll be at
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the end of this so
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let me slow down cuz I can just tell I
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got nervous energy this
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morning and apparently I'm congested a
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little
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B let me just take a
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moment guess I have a lot on my mind CU
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um okay so the reason I didn't just come
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here even though I love this place I
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truly love it here is there's no
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internet there there's no sell service
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so I mean none this is just Humbug
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Mountain that mountain it's like it's
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got It's got opinions about whether you
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use internet here or not you know
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so I was like I'll come back but I'll
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wait until I have some kind of backup
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internet either my satellite or um that
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travel F service I used to have um but I
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don't have either of those right now I
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can't afford them
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so well I decided you know I'm going to
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stay here another night maybe maybe even
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two
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because
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um not having any internet access plus
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like 16 hours of Darkness has forced me
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to actually sit here and rest my core
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muscles are very
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sore um I think that it probably helped
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so I'm I think I'm going to just force
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myself to be sort of in
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this the space
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[Music]
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where the outside world's made making a
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making decisions for me that are that
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are helping me make better decisions for
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myself something like that you know so
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I'm going to stay here and um just just
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rest I mean I I literally slept for the
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past 10 hours I slept from 8:00 p.m. to
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6:00 in the morning there's times I woke
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up you know and um stayed up for a
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little while but I mostly slept and I
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really needed it I could tell like I can
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tell my eyes look better right they're
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not so those bags are my eyes not so bad
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so you know
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yeah I'm going to go into town this
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morning I got to get a couple of
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supplies that I didn't think about that
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I would need just basic stuff
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um Bailey stuff basically that cat needs
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everything um then I'm going to do
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laundry because really need to get that
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done man so much laundry and this it's
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so funny cuz I'm here in Port Orford
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Orford
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Shire which is where I was you know
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before I decided to after cap Blanco you
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know I left and you know I ended up
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right back here and this is you know I
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just this little town like is perfect
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for all my needs and so I'm going to
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just take care of that stuff this
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morning so I have internet for a short
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while I'm out there and I'll get
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everything uploaded but probably won't
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hear from me for a couple days cuz I
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really will just well you know what you
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guys have a holiday coming up we all do
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it's mine too Thanksgiving but um
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you know I don't really have anyone to
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celebrate it with without here so hope
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you guys have an awesome one though that
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I really do hope
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that um there's something I want to talk
[4:41]
about though
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so I noticed that so every once in a
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while my phone might pick up a few
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things and I saw some comments came
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through and they were all they were all
[4:54]
trolls trollish comments one person said
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um called me a hobo
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and another person um I can't remember
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their exact words but they they
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criticized me and then said something
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about Bailey being in a carrier
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outside this kind of behavior is
[5:13]
inappropriate it's hurtful I'm not going
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to lie it's a little bit
[5:18]
hurtful but it's childish and I see
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through it of
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course and it's not going to change
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anything about me because I don't get my
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Val
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externally it just shows me who you
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are but I'm not going to pretend it's
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not a
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thing when you leave comments like that
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you're just showing what kind of person
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you
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are and it shows me that you're not a
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good person because good people don't do
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that and that's your burden to bear not
[5:52]
mine now I got some other comments too
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one
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person was talking about how I could use
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my generator to charge my batteries this
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is true but I this is giving advice
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which you know not everyone is going to
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know that that's a thing that that kind
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of bothers me that I don't like and I
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handled it differently than I would have
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in the past but
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I'm I realized that what I really need
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to do is explain to you guys how to
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interact with me because I don't think
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you know I don't think
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you based on the fact that most people
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don't comment
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and you know I think that you guys are
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pretty cautious about it let me explain
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cuz this is what you're missing this is
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how you communicate with someone like
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me first of all no advice that I didn't
[6:38]
ask for unless that advice is going
[6:43]
to fundamentally help me was something
[6:46]
that that I just need to know like
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like like don't do this thing cuz you're
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going to cause a fire like something
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serious that I just you can see I don't
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know you got to you got to you got to
[6:58]
share that you got to help me out right
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but you
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know did you consider this
[7:06]
option I probably did I'm sorry but I
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probably did you know and it's like so
[7:14]
what am I supposed to do with that
[7:15]
comment because if you reply to me I'm
[7:18]
going to write you back but what and
[7:20]
then I have to say look I already
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thought about this and this is why I
[7:24]
don't want to do that and that sounds
[7:25]
defensive and I'm not trying to be
[7:27]
defensive I'm just trying to
[7:30]
maintain a dialogue with you that's
[7:33]
honest and truthful and you kind of set
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me up for
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that but this is how you communicate
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with me you ask
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questions because everything I say to
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you has 10 layers that you don't even
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know about because I didn't Express them
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but they're there there are 10 layers to
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every single sentence I saying so if
[7:55]
there's something that you're you didn't
[7:58]
understand or you want me to elaborate
[8:00]
on ask because I will I'll I'll enjoy
[8:03]
doing that that's how we build a
[8:05]
dialogue
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together someone like me is never just
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surface level there are interconnections
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and relationships and you know just this
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unfolding of
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things for any topic that I talk about
[8:22]
so ask
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questions that's how we do this now I'm
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going to go and and deal with my day
[8:31]
and come back take a shower and then
[8:34]
rest because that's the thing I
[8:37]
need got some bad news I got all the way
[8:41]
here into Bandon to their state park and
[8:45]
it's closed for construction I didn't
[8:49]
realize um maybe it said it on the
[8:51]
website I just didn't notice but I tried
[8:54]
to keep going so I was looking on for
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reservations like like um at Cape arago
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and some other places but actually there
[9:03]
isn't a campground there I don't know I
[9:05]
must have looked at something wrong
[9:06]
there was another one in that area but
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it
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was um it was all booked up so I have to
[9:13]
go back um 45 minutes
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south so that I can say humbug
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today um I got to get this phone
[9:24]
charging waitting for this person to
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go ex me just there with me
[9:30]
guys so I am just going to stay
[9:34]
overnight at Humbug Mountain one of my
[9:36]
favorite places but we definitely drove
[9:39]
all out of our way I really wanted to be
[9:42]
up here now that I got here but they're
[9:44]
close who knows for how long they're
[9:46]
very nice though they were nice to talk
[9:48]
to
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um figure something out cuz I do know
[9:53]
that you know Thanksgiving and all that
[9:56]
so um it just might be a little
[9:58]
difficult
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well I'll figure it out so I'll just
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once I get somewhere that I can just
[10:03]
settle in for the night cuz I got to
[10:06]
keep my batteries going and all of that
[10:08]
um need a place to shower didn't get to
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shower
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today oh I wanted to be on the beach
[10:14]
here I even got to see abandoned Beach
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cuz um I didn't put in the right place
[10:19]
um in my directions um in Google Maps so
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um it took me to Bandon beach was a
[10:25]
different place very cool like man there
[10:27]
were all these cool like I forget what
[10:30]
they call the Rocks but you know all
[10:31]
these really nice rocks and this beach
[10:34]
that looked almost
[10:36]
like it was just picturesque like you
[10:39]
would want to see this so I'm I'm coming
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back for that which way do I go I don't
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next okay there's the bridge I know
[10:46]
where I am I love this
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bridge
[10:50]
man I'll figure it out we're just going
[10:53]
to have
[10:54]
to we're pivoting today it's all I can
[10:57]
do I still haven't eat by the way man
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this is not things are going very well
[11:03]
well I'm going to be back near Port
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Orford um I guess I'll I'll figure it
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out this is this is noad life it's only
[11:12]
5:30 but it's pitch black outside I just
[11:14]
got to Humbug Mountain I'm at the dump
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station so I can detach the
[11:20]
Jeep um then I got to get into my sight
[11:22]
all this in the dark this sucks there I
[11:25]
am it's just very dark out so lesson
[11:29]
learned I knew you know I kind of knew
[11:31]
though so here we go so this is
[11:34]
embarrassing I nearly hit a tree oh my
[11:37]
God like I was like a millimeter from
[11:40]
hitting this tree but this man yelled
[11:41]
out saved me used a flashlight helped me
[11:44]
get in there it was pretty hard actually
[11:47]
um yeah I told him how embarrassed I was
[11:49]
and DED him very nice man now I'm going
[11:52]
to go into town and get some groceries
[11:55]
and
[11:58]
just yeah never go to a campsite at
[12:00]
night oh my God that was awful but you
[12:03]
know what's really funny there was an RV
[12:05]
in front of me and I used my rights to
[12:08]
help him get into his spot without him
[12:09]
asking or anything cuz I was behind him
[12:11]
he was pulling in it's like okay here's
[12:13]
some extra lights for you I had nothing
[12:15]
and then I had a flashlight thank God
[12:17]
for the flashlight in that man I'm back
[12:20]
home I went to the grocery store got
[12:22]
stuff to make
[12:24]
burgers I'm pretty good at making those
[12:27]
with my ninja foodie starving
[12:30]
so embarrassed oh my God that man is a
[12:32]
host here and this is one of my favorite
[12:34]
places
[12:35]
so every time I'm here it's like going
[12:38]
to be a thing right like that's a story
[12:40]
now that's a story the whole staff is
[12:42]
going to know I bet oh my God so
[12:44]
embarrassing but you know
[12:47]
what these are stories worth having I
[12:50]
guess I don't know
[12:53]
they're at least I didn't hit I mean it
[12:55]
was a millimeter like it was it was it
[12:58]
looked like I hit it but I didn't feel
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anything so I don't think I did but and
[13:01]
he looked his he used his flashlight to
[13:03]
check and I'll find out in the morning
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but I don't think I
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did oh man yeah time to eat
