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Good
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morning. It's 7 a.m.
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here. Been up for about an hour. Just
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chilling. Haven't really done much.
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Haven't
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moved a whole
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lot.
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So, I'm going to try something new here.
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Feel like I want to record my videos in
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portrait mode from now
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on. See how I'm looking up at the camera
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right now? I'm looking at you. I don't
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normally do that because when the camera
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is sideways, it's on the side of the
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screen and it doesn't feel
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natural. When I look at the screen, I
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look at myself. I look myself in the
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eyes. Actually feels a lot more natural
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look at you like that.
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So
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yeah, this settles it for me. It just
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feels feels
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aligned. I'll switch to landscape mode
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if I'm, you know, taking video of
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nature.
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the
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ocean
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landscapes. But when I'm just
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reflecting, I'm going to put it in
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portrait mode from now on. This
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feels more natural, too, for how to hold
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the phone and
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just Oh, you know,
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it's I remember my very first video over
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a year ago. My very first comment was
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from a troll who was commenting about me
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recording in this this this mode
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here. And I use that as a ongoing joke
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in my videos. Anytime I accidentally
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recorded and I would overlay it with the
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text of his
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comments and over time you could watch
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that comment get older and older and you
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know say three months old, four months
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ago, 11 months ago. You know it was
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pretty funny to me.
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Um, I'm doing that on purpose.
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So, we don't need to center some stupid
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astral,
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right? So, this is my first
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day. Um, my first morning. Well, it's
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not Okay, let me going to reframe this
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cuz Okay, I was thinking about Oh, first
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of all, let me just acknowledge that,
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you know, I've got some lights going and
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you might even hear my heater kick on.
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Um, my batteries aren't dead yet.
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They're close, though. So, um, just
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because somebody out there might think,
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you know, might say that I'm making up a
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story or something. No, I'm off grid. No
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power, no water. My house batteries just
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aren't dead yet. Last time I checked
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them, the voltage said 11.8, so they're
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close.
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I don't exactly know how that works, but
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I, you know, I uh researched this with
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AI at one point in the past, and I know
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that from 12.1 to 12.9 is kind of how
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you gauge the percentage of how charged
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these batteries are. Like 12.9 is 100%,
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12.5 is, I think, around 50%. So, you
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know, kind of it's not a bad system.
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Um, and you never wanted to let them get
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below a certain percentage. I don't
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remember what it was. cuz I think 12.1
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to 12.3. And you could even learn like
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how well they're charging based on that
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voltage. So like if you were on a
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campground and you were hooked up to
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power and they were being charged, they
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might say 14. Um if it was less than 14,
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then they might not have been charging
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the best. And mine tended to be in the
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13 range, somewhere in the 13s whenever
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they were plugged into
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somewhere. And they didn't used to be
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that way. They actually used to be in
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the 14s. And then I went to Nevada when
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I was on my way to Oregon when I was um
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traveling across the country. Ended up
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in Nevada on top of a mountain and I was
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off grid for a week there. And I didn't
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realize
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that, you know, I I just I guess I just
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assumed that my batteries were meant to
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last a long time. it's an RV. And so I
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never really checked it back then and
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didn't know that, you know, I was really
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discharging them because by the time I
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realized, I think, you know, at least
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half a week had gone by before I started
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using my generator to, you know, and um
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but after that, they never
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um they never got into the 14th again
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when they were on, you know, on a
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campground or whatever hooked up to
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power. So, you know, that's when my
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batteries basically died. And ever since
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then, you know, if I wasn't connected to
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power, then it was probably a problem.
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So, I knew when I got here that, you
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know, I was going to lose my batteries.
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I knew it this
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time.
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Um, yeah, and it's in the 11 range.
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Somewhere in 11 range. And as far as
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propane, I've got like it says 11%, but
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if it's saying that, then it really
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means somewhere between 11 and 22
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because it works in
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11% tile. 11 22 33. That's kind of how
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it measures. And so, um, if it was less
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than 11%, then, you know, it would say
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zero. So, my I have fair amount of
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propane, somewhere between 11 and
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22. And so, I might as well use that for
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heat.
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Um, that being said,
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uh, once when the batteries die, the one
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thing that I'll still be able to do in
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here is cook on my stove top with that
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propane. So,
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um, I might do that. Probably will. I
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guess I probably will because, you know,
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I'm still thinking through how am I
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going to
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um, yeah, how am I going to feed myself?
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Basically, what am I going to eat? What
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am I going to cook? How am I going to
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cook it? All of that. How am I going to
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keep things fresh? Uh, I did buy some
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ice yesterday for my um, it's not
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a what are those things called, man.
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This is how my brain
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works.
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Um, I want to say thermos, but I know
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that is not
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right. Cooler. All right, cooler. So, I
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don't have a cooler. I just have a bag
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that's insulated and it's supposed to
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act like a cooler, but I don't think
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it's probably maybe not as good. I
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probably want to get a better cooler,
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one that's
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like scientifically designed to be the
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best or whatever. If I'm going to have
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to rely on something like that, then you
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know, you want it to be as good as
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possible. Um, and I also didn't get
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enough ice. Didn't realize that how much
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it would really take. So, I bought a
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bag, like a 7B bag of ice, and that only
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put maybe a third, maybe a third into
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onto that bag. So, I'm going to want to
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get the bigger ice um bags.
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Um, they're not very cheap though. I
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think I paid $3 for that ice, which is
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just ridiculous, right? And if I have to
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do that every day,
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then yeah, I'm going to have to think
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about that,
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too. Seems a little ridiculous,
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honestly. It's
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ice. Um, so
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anyways,
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yeah, I feel like I'm going to cough.
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Give me a moment. Okay, so that reminds
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me that was one of the things I wanted
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to talk about. So, since I got back to
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the dunes, my allergies feel so much
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worse. Having a little bit of trouble
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like breathing naturally, like not in
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any unsafe kind of way, just it's, you
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know, is not fun.
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Um, I pseudafed helped for a while, but
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it feels like that doesn't really do a
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whole lot for me anymore and I'm still
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taking it. But, um, I also felt like it
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was making my face puffy and I didn't
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like that. So, you know, that's a
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problem. I don't want to be taking Sudaf
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if it makes my face puffy. Um, I took
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um um Olegra for a couple of weeks every
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morning and it didn't help at all. So,
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you know, I think that's long enough to
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say, "Okay, this is not going to help
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with my allergies." So, today I took a
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different one. I don't remember the name
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brand of it. I just have a generic
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Amazon version. It's
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cetrazine. I took
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that. I'm not confident it's going to
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help either, but I'm going to, you know,
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I'll take that for like a week every
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morning. Um, and I'll do some research
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and see what else if there, you know,
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I'll talk to AI about it and figure out
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if there's anything else I can try.
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cuz it's really, you know, my allergies
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are very much a problem. Um, I also been
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taking
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Mucinex and, you know, I just don't feel
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like those things are helping. So, the
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only thing that that helped was
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pseudafed and it's just not helping a
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great deal
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anymore. So, last thing I want to do is
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see a doctor. I don't like
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doctors. So, and I know what that sounds
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like. So, let me just acknowledge I saw
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a doctor for decades and that man when I
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first moved into my
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RV I'm just very disappointed in him.
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And, you know, I just, you know, I don't
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feel like doctors these days
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um really care about their patients,
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first of all, and all they do, they're
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just drug dealers is what they
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are. Let me just put it that way. Cuz
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that's all they do. They just give you
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prescriptions all day long. And you
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know, you before you know, you're taking
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half a dozen things every day. I'm not
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taking nothing anymore. And I haven't in
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the past year. I'm so much healthier, by
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the way. So, you know, I don't want to
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see a doctor if I don't have to. Um, but
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there is a thing I need to acknowledge.
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Maybe it's not allergies. Maybe it's
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from vaping. and I just don't feel ready
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to quit yet. I want to quit. I quit
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smoking by transitioning to
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vaping. Um, I quit Tramodol, a
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opiate, cold turkey during my journey.
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At the very beginning, I quit taking
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Clonopen,
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um, a seditive that's, you know, an
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anti-anxiety medicine, a benzoazipene.
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Um, I wasn't taking a lot of it, but I
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used to in the past I used to have a
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panic attack disorder. Um, probably just
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fragmentation. And um, honestly, that's
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really what I think. You know, once I
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integrated enough of my consciousness,
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um, I don't have those panic attacks
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anymore. I don't have anxiety or, you
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know, generalized anxiety disorder or
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whatever. just I truly don't, you know,
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I
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um yeah, that's generally what I think
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about that now. Anyways, I quit lots of
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things. I'm not ready to quit this
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yet. But I'm going to keep thinking
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about it. I think about it every day
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because someday at some point I will
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quit.
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So, you know, but if that's what's
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causing this, then that's very
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concerning. I hope it's not. So, I can
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say to that.
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Um, I want you to notice that I'm
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acknowledging reality and I'm not like
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there's no spiritual bypass here.
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There's no um reframing it as
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um I'm acknowledging it as a possibility
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and not making it bigger or smaller than
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it is. I don't think most people do
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that.
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So, and that's important. That's what
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how I am about everything.
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So, I still lean towards probably
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allergies.
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Um, you know, I didn't grow up on the
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Oregon coast. I'm nearly half a century
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old, you know, and I always lived, you
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know, inland. I always lived um in the
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Midwest
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basically. Um, well, I lived in Arizona
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as a kid for a couple of years, but you
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know, there Kentucky, Michigan, those
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are the places that I lived. And we
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don't have the same nature. We don't
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have these coastal trees and
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um, you know, they're yellow flowers,
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whatever those are called, or you know,
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if that's what it is, I don't know.
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And you know, so there's a there's a
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very good possibility that's what's
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causing my
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issues. I don't know how you solve that.
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There's no easy way as far as I know.
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Well, find the right medication.
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Hopefully something over the counter is
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all I'm saying. So, so anyways, if you
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ever hear me um you know, my nose runny
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and I'm just sniffling, that's why. And
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um you know, I'm not editing that
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out or anything like that. I'm just
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being myself and it is what it is. But
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it's something I want to try to solve if
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I can.
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So, all right. So, what else? Um, you
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know, it's early. It's 7 in the morning
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sometimes. Maybe 7:30 by now. Yeah, 7:40
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now. I want to go out to the ocean this
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morning. high tide was right now this
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hour. So, we give it a couple hours and
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then, you know, the ocean's going to be
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kind of at its
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um you know, its regular rhythm and that
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could be very nice to see. We're going
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to I'm going to walk around um the
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campground, figure out which campsites
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are the nicest here. Just make a note of
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that because I think I'll be here quite
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a bit on and
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off. Um and then I'll just walk down to
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the ocean because I don't think it's
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very far. I think it's very close. So,
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we'll just walk down there. Um, I want
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some coffee, but I don't want to pull
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out my inverter. I haven't done that
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yet. You know, my hook up my inverter to
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my Jeep. That's only something I can do
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temporary. It's not some kind of
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permanent installation. So, if I do it,
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I got to be intentional about it. I have
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to really want to be using that
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inverter. And I'm not going to pull it
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out for some
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coffee. But, you know, it's that or
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going to town to get some coffee and
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spend, you know, money on it. And I
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don't have a lot of money. So, I don't
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feel compelled to do it, even though I
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would really love to have some coffee
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this morning.
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So, no
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coffee.
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Um, I'm just going to head out to the
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ocean this morning.
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And got quite a lot on my mind. There's
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a lot that I want to figure out. like I
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was, you know, some of the things I said
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already in this video, like what my diet
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is going to look like and um
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um some plans like I was looking at some
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new solar setup that I would like to get
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that would allow me to have actual
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energy in this place and it doesn't feel
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like a terribly expensive couple
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thousand dollar. Um, I don't need solar
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panels because you can just charge them
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in in many different ways. You can
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charge the batteries for your solar
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setup. Doesn't have to be through solar.
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Um, and that would give me what I need
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cuz I need to be able to power my
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computers a lot easier than I can right
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now. What else was there? I'll just
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think about it and I'm sure I'll post
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something else later. Going to leave it
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at that.
