Crabbing in Newport, Then Walking to the Ocean

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[0:00] I'm in Newport. I came to see Johnny. He
[0:02] was going crabbing today. And then I get
[0:04] to the pier. There's birds flying and
[0:06] pooping. I wrote it's disgusting. I'm
[0:08] never coming back here. But he's about
[0:09] to get his little crab thing. Also, my
[0:12] hat
[0:14] wanted. I had to do an intro
[0:18] first. I don't like it here, John. This
[0:21] is disgusting. This is the worst place
[0:22] I've ever been in my
[0:25] life. I have no idea. Look at those
[0:27] birds. They just sit over there.
[0:30] into [ __ ] everywhere. It's
[0:34] disgusting. Can't even touch anything,
[0:37] man.
[0:39] Oh, these birds are so gross. Filming
[0:42] stabs coming out. I'm filming. No. Guess
[0:45] what? Oh my god. What's in there?
[0:52] Oh my god. You have crabs. A bunch of
[0:55] them. Holy [ __ ]
[0:58] Heavy as hell. Oh my god. And they're
[1:01] alive. I don't even know how I feel
[1:03] about this. This is something else. Holy
[1:06] crap. I don't want to lose my phone to
[1:07] this
[1:09] river. Okay, let him just get his crabs
[1:11] up here. I guess he caught some crabs.
[1:13] Holy crap. Just like
[1:15] that. Does that mean we can leave? Oh my
[1:19] god, that thing is going to Oh, ew ew ew
[1:23] ew ew.
[1:36] Holy crap. We are looking right now.
[1:43] Good chance. That thing looks evil. I'm
[1:46] not touching that thing, man. That thing
[1:48] could kill you.
[1:50] It's getting rid of the ones we know.
[1:52] How do you decide? Yeah, there's a nice
[1:54] mail in it. Hopefully. Ew. They're not
[1:58] okay. Oh, they look so alien. Stop it,
[2:00] y'all. Oh my god. It's going to It's
[2:03] going to hurt you.
[2:06] Ew. Try. Oh, I didn't think this through
[2:09] at all. Oh my god. Oh my god. I'm
[2:13] getting away from
[2:17] you. Wait. How are you deciding you got
[2:20] so many of
[2:22] her dig?
[2:26] How do you tell?
[2:29] Oh, this is so gross. I could never do
[2:31] this. If society collapsed, I'd be dead.
[2:34] Oh my
[2:37] god.
[2:39] E. E.
[2:44] You think you are getting out, don't
[2:46] you?
[2:50] Oh my god. This is not Oh my god.
[2:54] What is even happening right now?
[3:03] It's
[3:05] alive. Oh my god. Look at his little
[3:07] eyes.
[3:17] Yeah. Uh, I can't believe people view
[3:20] this. Oh my god. Okay, John, this is
[3:23] Oh my god. Watch kill that thing.
[3:29] Oh my god. Ew. It's so gross looking.
[3:35] Doesn't look like a
[3:40] I'm going to take this out for the other
[3:42] guy. This one is definitely big enough.
[3:46] You're going to measure it.
[3:52] Biggest mail I've ever seen.
[3:55] Okay. Well, I got it on video for you.
[3:57] This is disgusting, though. This is the
[3:58] worst thing I've ever done in my life.
[4:09] Oh my god. Look at it trying to save its
[4:11] life. Oh my god.
[4:16] E serve you right now bastard.
[4:21] Oh my god. How can you tell?
[4:25] Bottom right here. Yeah, that's rounded.
[4:28] What's rounded? It's round that. See? I
[4:32] don't know what I'm looking at. That's
[4:33] that my thumb touching. Okay, that's
[4:35] round. What is it supposed to be if it's
[4:37] male? Look down there. I don't mind
[4:40] getting near this. Oh, how interesting.
[4:43] Wow. Oh, it even looks like a penis.
[4:46] What's the easy way to remember? See,
[4:48] got a female. So, we have one.
[4:51] Oh, male. Wait, why do you put the
[4:53] females back? Can't keep them. Why? It's
[4:56] illegal.
[4:59] How interesting.
[5:02] Okay.
[5:06] Oh, that was Oh my god. I mean, it's not
[5:09] terrible, I guess. It's like maybe after
[5:11] like years of tolerating this, we get
[5:15] used to
[5:16] it. Now it's all
[5:20] this
[5:21] is something we're doing it ourselves.
[5:26] I just want to catch a fish. That's
[5:29] disgusting. This This is nothing
[5:32] compared to fish. Fish is going The
[5:34] mouth is going to be open. It's
[5:38] But those things look like face
[5:40] huggers from Alien. It's so
[5:44] gross. Makes me think of the alien ones.
[5:49] Yeah, I don't want to lose my friend in
[5:50] this place. That's for sure. Again,
[5:53] that's what I warned you.
[5:56] Wait, where'd the seal go? Oh, there.
[5:58] Look, he's out
[5:59] there. That's a
[6:02] ring. Where? Right there. Seal. What's
[6:06] that thing with the red? That's That's
[6:08] most in the water. There's a seal out
[6:11] here, guys.
[6:13] There's the chicken. Okay. They can't
[6:16] get
[6:18] to a bunch of disgusting birds. These
[6:22] birds even look like
[6:27] it. Yeah, I really want to be on the
[6:29] ocean now. I don't like this place. Oh,
[6:32] by the way, this bridge is very cool.
[6:34] Let's just get a view of the bridge.
[6:37] Very cool bridge into
[6:42] Newport. Yeah, you would have seen me up
[6:48] there. You got to avoid these birds cuz
[6:50] if they fly over you, you're in
[6:55] trouble. What's going on over there?
[6:58] What's that red light?
[7:06] What they do there? It's got a ladder.
[7:12] There was a
[7:18] ceiling. Same thing. Completely
[7:21] different
[7:27] animal. It's right over where it worked.
[7:32] what it's looking for.
[7:42] Well, if you're going to sit there, I'm
[7:43] going to go walk over to that pier
[7:45] thing. Can I get out there?
[7:51] I know what you're talking about. Right
[7:52] over there. If I walk cuz I can't go on
[7:55] that side. So over there. Those rocks.
[8:00] I'm going to go explore over there.
[8:02] Yeah, but that's going to be underwater
[8:04] in about 20 minutes. So, you can't I
[8:07] don't want to be near these birds, man.
[8:09] Going to be everywhere. So, you can go
[8:11] down there.
[8:16] Birds are coming near me.
[8:20] Really? Yep. Oh, okay. Text me if you
[8:23] need me. I'm leaving. Bye. I am never
[8:26] coming to this place again.
[8:28] We're heading this way.
[8:31] Oh, so we're near the South
[8:34] Jetty. I've been here before. I came up
[8:38] here. I'm still volunteering for the
[8:40] state
[8:42] parks to check out South Beach, which is
[8:45] not far from here. There's a trail you
[8:46] can take to very close to the ocean.
[8:49] That's where we're
[8:50] heading. So, yeah, that was really
[8:53] gross. You know, I don't like for
[8:56] me when I saw those birds like as soon
[8:59] as they start flying, they start pooping
[9:01] everywhere. It's so gross. It's so
[9:04] like I don't know all
[9:07] sanitary, you know? The whole pier is
[9:09] just covered in it. So, I don't want to
[9:12] be the crab. I look
[9:16] here. I never crap in my life. I've
[9:19] never
[9:20] had a marine seafood.
[9:24] So, I thought, you know, kind of talking
[9:26] about it for a
[9:28] while
[9:30] and I knew that if I caught some, I'll
[9:34] probably cook them or whatever and
[9:36] I'd maybe try it. You know, I've never
[9:39] even had shrimp or
[9:41] anything, but I don't know. That was
[9:44] that was something
[9:46] else. So, I think I could catch a fish.
[9:49] You know, fish don't look like that.
[9:52] So maybe I don't know. We'll find out
[9:55] one
[9:56] day. I mean, it was weird, but you know,
[9:59] that
[10:00] was I was being a little dramatic. It's
[10:03] not like, you know, I shared out with AI
[10:05] and AI's got the totally wrong idea. I'm
[10:07] just being
[10:10] dramatic. Isn't that something I would
[10:12] do, you know, if I had a choice?
[10:15] So,
[10:17] yeah. Just going to go see the ocean.
[10:20] John sit there wait for more crabs on
[10:23] us and
[10:25] then when it's done I guess we'll watch
[10:29] them clean them or whatever. I don't
[10:32] know what you do with those things. I've
[10:34] seen the stations for them. I've
[10:36] actually seen them with John.
[10:39] So, you know, I guess we're doing a crab
[10:42] video
[10:43] today. Does
[10:46] my fall off a few times now.
[10:52] So,
[10:54] um, my volunteer coordinator is sick.
[10:57] She's out today, so I didn't get to do
[10:58] my orientation
[11:00] yet.
[11:02] Um, so I just asked her like what hours
[11:05] I would be working so that I
[11:11] could work around that. I'll find a job
[11:14] in town. And I think I'll probably work
[11:16] from 8:00 in the morning till noon.
[11:19] Sorry for my
[11:21] allergies. I took Suda Fed
[11:25] guess to this
[11:28] part here. It's nice. I might have been
[11:32] out here. I was fishing. Went all the
[11:34] way out as far as you could get. Um it
[11:38] was
[11:39] cool. I'd rather see the ocean. I don't
[11:42] have to care for something.
[11:44] close to me. It's right
[11:53] there. Yeah. I don't know what's up with
[11:55] my out just
[11:59] man. I don't know if he ever really
[12:01] adjusts. You know, if you happen to grow
[12:04] up here, I don't know if the body will
[12:06] like adjust or what
[12:12] months watching is decent over there. I
[12:15] was just over there. It's a state park
[12:17] over there. I think it's called Yakina
[12:19] Heat or something like that.
[12:24] Yeah, I just left John there. Whatever.
[12:26] He's already here, right?
[12:30] So, you know, if he was coming here
[12:32] today and I just saw him doing
[12:36] [Music]
[12:37] it
[12:42] later. It's a good
[12:45] day. Walk back
[12:52] here. So, I know where I'm going with my
[12:58] me watching that fisherman cuz he was
[13:00] fishing in the river pretty close to the
[13:02] ocean. So, you'd probably get him kind
[13:05] of like
[13:05] a you never know what you'd catch,
[13:08] right? Could it be a river fish or an
[13:09] ocean fish? How would you know how you
[13:12] caught it?
[13:15] I wonder if this is
[13:21] um Oh, I forgot the
[13:24] word. There's a natural area. I wonder
[13:26] if this is a national
[13:28] area. I'm telling there needs to be a
[13:31] body of water in between the
[13:34] the I don't know if that's true.
[13:46] Yeah, I'm going to go walk out on
[13:49] the out on the
[13:53] jetty. We're going to keep walking
[13:55] though. Just got to keep walking.
[13:57] Pretend we don't see what's going on
[13:59] over
[14:00] there.
[14:02] Okay. Not being
[14:06] so beautiful, dude.
[14:13] It's very
[14:17] windy. I don't remember being this windy
[14:20] last time.
[14:31] Yeah, we're good.
[14:41] So, we're a pretty good distance from
[14:42] John now. I'll show you the bridge over
[14:45] here. It's over there. That's where John
[14:49] is at. I don't know what that structure
[14:51] is. Some kind of tower, I guess. Got
[14:54] solar panels on it. We're over here.
[14:56] We're just going to take that over to
[14:58] the
[14:59] ocean. It's very close. You can see it
[15:01] in the
[15:04] distance. My phone battery is very low.
[15:06] So, I have a charging
[15:09] um portable
[15:11] battery. Been out here before. Goes on a
[15:14] different path, but really close to um
[15:17] South Beach Park, which is a nice
[15:20] place. It's a little more south of where
[15:22] we
[15:24] are. So, we're just going to head out
[15:26] here.
[15:44] quite a branching trail
[15:48] here. Oh, how
[15:51] fascinating. Hikers yield to horses.
[15:54] Horses yield to bikes. Bikes yield to
[15:56] hikers.
[15:58] It doesn't say where where that goes.
[16:01] Probably to the parking lot. Might be a
[16:05] shortcut. The route I
[16:10] took.
[16:12] Sandy. We're past the dune. So, this is
[16:15] just
[16:17] sand.
[16:19] Interesting. Cuz these aren't dunes.
[16:22] Past all the dunes. Way past them.
[16:28] Newport. Why is the sand way out
[16:39] here? See all the flowers. My
[16:44] allergies. They're very pretty.
[16:54] Start making them a tea or something.
[16:56] Maybe that'll
[17:04] help. Moving kind of slow
[17:10] today. Turn this off so my phone can
[17:13] charge. I'll just record some motion
[17:16] footage at the
[17:19] end. It's kind of a chill day.
[17:22] I'm just sitting here in front of the
[17:25] ocean. I think it's low tide right now.
[17:27] Well, it is. It's low tide. It got low
[17:29] tide out
[17:30] there. It's nice beach. A bunch of
[17:33] people out there. Bunch of
[17:35] kids. Just walked up here on top of this
[17:40] hill. Just sitting
[17:42] down. It's a nice
[17:45] beach. Nice sunny day. It's very
[17:49] sunny, pleasant.
[17:57] just soaking it in. So, I just texted
[18:00] John. He's going to be down there for
[18:02] another 45 minutes. Then, we're going to
[18:04] go to the cleaning station. He's going
[18:06] to do whatever he does to those crabs.
[18:07] So, we'll watch that, I guess. Little
[18:13] document. I
[18:16] mean, I don't know. It's life, you know.
[18:19] I feel like you got to respect it.
[18:24] This is part of it though, right?
[18:27] So maybe I'll try some crab later. I
[18:30] don't
[18:31] know what's different.
[19:19] All
[19:43] right, let's see.
[20:15] So, the wind is a little bit cold and
[20:18] got me
[20:19] thinking. When I was way younger, like
[20:22] in my 20s, I took a Greyhound bus down
[20:25] to the panhandle of
[20:27] Florida. First, I went to Kentucky
[20:30] before I lived there. I lived in
[20:31] Michigan at the time to see my best
[20:33] friend
[20:34] Nancy. She had moved down there, spent
[20:37] some time with her. And then I went down
[20:38] to the panhandle of Florida to meet a
[20:40] guy I met on the
[20:42] internet and to um spend some time with
[20:45] some clients that I had from
[20:47] Guru. Went there first. They were in
[20:49] Jacksonville. Then I went to the
[20:51] panhandle to meet this guy. And I
[20:54] remember how cold that felt. The wind
[20:56] was so cold and I never went out to see
[20:58] the ocean. I was just
[21:02] thinking 20-year-old me
[21:05] didn't didn't experience the ocean at
[21:07] all even though it was right
[21:10] there. Like this place is cold. I
[21:12] wouldn't want to live here.
[21:18] I don't want to be anywhere else. So,
[21:20] it's kind of interesting, I
[21:27] guess. He was a nice guy. We hooked up,
[21:30] of
[21:33] course, really good
[21:35] sex. He didn't think we were
[21:37] relationship material. I remember
[21:39] thinking, I don't even live here, dude.
[21:42] Like, that's not why I'm
[21:44] here. People always misunderstanding me.
[21:53] always assigning emotions to me that I
[21:55] don't have. Like, it's just [ __ ]
[21:58] ridiculous. I don't perceive or
[22:01] experience the world the way most people
[22:02] do. I have emotions, but they're
[22:06] integrated. I think most people
[22:10] have completely different [ __ ]
[22:12] operating system than
[22:15] me. always projecting their emotions
[22:18] onto me. It's [ __ ] irritating. It's
[22:20] had me
[22:21] really been in a bad mood for like a
[22:23] week
[22:24] now. Don't want to be around people.
[22:27] Came over here to get away from them
[22:37] all. It's not like them. I can't
[22:44] [ __ ] I'm tired of explaining it, you
[22:46] know? I'm just absolutely over
[22:48] that. So, I sit over here away from away
[22:52] from the fragmented consciousness that's
[22:54] around
[23:10] might walk out to the jetty. I'm not
[23:11] sure. It's very
[23:14] close. I've been out there before. Slow
[23:17] tide, so you know, it's not really not
[23:19] really walking out there cuz you're
[23:21] walking around a bunch of puddles and
[23:22] stuff like
[23:28] that. We could go out to the jetty.
[23:30] There's a there's a
[23:32] helicopter. Wow, the person hanging
[23:34] down. Must be testing or something.
[23:38] See if I can get
[23:39] that. I don't know what's
[23:44] wrong. Where are you, helicopter? I
[23:47] can't see on my phone here. It's got to
[23:50] be right there
[23:51] somewhere. There you
[23:53] are. There was a person hanging down.
[23:56] Wait a minute. Where did they go? Did
[23:59] they just drop them in the
[24:01] [Music]
[24:03] ocean? No.
[24:07] Oh, it's very hard when you're zoomed in
[24:08] this
[24:13] far. There was definitely someone on a
[24:17] stream. Guess John decided for us. He's
[24:20] calling it quits a little bit
[24:23] early. So, we got to walk back. We'll
[24:25] meet him at the cleaning station, I
[24:28] guess. Walk down here.
[24:38] Oh, these are dunes, by the way. They're
[24:39] just small dunes. That's what John
[24:42] says. They're dunes. We're just not in
[24:46] the dunes region
[24:48] anymore. We'll walk down to the jetty, I
[24:50] guess. Walk back from there. The parking
[24:52] lots that
[24:53] way. So, we're near the jetty. This is
[24:57] the
[24:58] jetty. Just hasn't got it out towards
[25:01] the ocean yet. We're walking back
[25:03] towards the bridge.
[25:05] I said it's really acting up now. It's
[25:07] very
[25:08] windy. Sand was in my
[25:12] face. I'm going to go find John now.
[25:15] There's John in the distance waiting for
[25:18] us. I am so exhausted today. I have no
[25:25] energy. That was a long walk. I guess he
[25:28] saw me.
[25:33] Oh my god, he's going to kill a
[25:42] crap. I'm back,
[25:45] Don. I'm exhausted. I need to pee. How
[25:48] long are you sitting there?
[25:53] Warning ahead of time. This is not going
[25:54] to be
[25:55] pretty. One, I don't have my Okay. Just
[25:59] a second. I've never killed this thing
[26:01] before. I had a feeling you're going to
[26:03] do a new weapon because you told me
[26:05] you're going to try.
[26:07] I was thinking about it. They live in
[26:09] water so you can't drown them and they
[26:11] can breathe air so you can't suffocate
[26:13] them.
[26:21] Okay.
[26:23] This feels so wrong.
[26:27] You have to watch it.
[26:30] Oh, there's a restroom. I need to pee so
[26:32] bad. Can you hold on? I got to pee real
[26:36] fast. Okay, I used the restrooms here.
[26:39] They are individual stalls. Okay. Oh my
[26:46] god. Oh my god. I shouldn't be watching
[26:48] this. This is wrong.
[26:52] You eat animals. What are you doing
[26:54] right now? Why are you putting water in
[26:55] there? I need to get away from this
[26:57] craziness. What is happening? The one
[27:00] that wants to Oh my
[27:02] god. Oh my
[27:04] god. Okay. Be a man, John. You got this.
[27:08] Who's the one being told to be a man
[27:11] like a girl? I'm just being dramatic cuz
[27:14] this just feels different. I've never
[27:16] This is different for me. Oh my god.
[27:18] He's going to kill
[27:21] it. Oh, is it going to be fast and
[27:24] painless? Painless. I'm just an animal.
[27:28] Yeah. Not going to be painless.
[27:31] Oh my
[27:36] god. Like I said, it's the quickest way
[27:38] to
[27:40] Oh, that felt wrong. That felt
[27:43] wrong. Um, but it's gone
[27:46] now. Gross.
[27:49] Ew. I'll be over here. That looks pretty
[27:52] disgusting.
[27:59] What do you even eat from that thing?
[28:02] Right now, there's combination. I
[28:04] thought you ate the claws. Didn't we
[28:06] hear some lady say something about
[28:07] claws?
[28:09] Claws. Claw.
[28:12] Wow, John. I can't believe you did that.
[28:14] Just like that.
[28:17] I thought that was a measuring thing. I
[28:18] didn't know it was a blade.
[28:36] Wow. It's so windy today, man. First
[28:39] time I was out here, well, there was no
[28:40] wind. So, it's not like that all the
[28:42] time. He's dead right now. It doesn't
[28:44] You see any movements? Yeah, I
[28:46] understand. Nervous system.
[28:55] Yeah, John, you really need some gloves
[28:57] for this. That's gross. Not happy about
[29:01] Well, there are bathrooms right there
[29:03] where you can wash your hands.
[29:13] That right there is their lungs. Okay.
[29:19] And you eat the white parts.
[29:25] This is much better than I used the way
[29:27] I used to kill them. Trust me, it's
[29:29] terrible to you right now, but it's much
[29:30] better. Man, there ain't a lot of meat
[29:32] in there, though. That can't feed you.
[29:36] Well, these are
[29:39] Okay. All right. This gives you an idea,
[29:42] but if you went somewhere Yeah. how much
[29:44] the how much of an animal has to die
[29:47] just for us to eat, right?
[29:50] a lot.
[29:52] I mean, ew, this is so gross. Even in
[29:56] Asia, they eat all of this. E
[30:02] disgusting. Es.
[30:14] Nope. Smells bad enough as it is.
[30:19] Yeah, I'm feeling much better. This is
[30:21] traumatic like it usually is for me.
[30:23] Okay. It's cuz you're on camera. You're
[30:26] being a man right
[30:29] now. It's the other way.
[30:37] My sinuses are killing me. I got to take
[30:39] some medicine. Zudafed mucinics. Got
[30:43] both in my pocket.
[30:47] It didn't give me a chance to get
[30:52] situated. Those things I swear to God is
[30:55] just like they clearly the alien movies
[30:58] clearly took inspiration from this. Now
[31:01] the this guy would have been $30 at the
[31:04] market. Really? Wow. That's outrageous.
[31:07] And my fishing line is allowing me to
[31:09] have Why are you getting the meat out?
[31:11] What are you doing?
[31:15] Meat in the hook.
[31:17] You're keeping the all of that. That's
[31:19] so edible.
[31:21] Even the claws. What did I say? I don't
[31:24] remember. It's inside the claws. Okay.
[31:29] Oh, this is disgusting, guys. Eat the
[31:31] body of the only blue
[31:34] crabs. You eat the whole thing.
[31:41] I don't know if we could hear you. We
[31:43] probably did. Very
[31:46] windy. So, the meat is inside the claws.
[31:49] Claws. So, you're going to cut the claws
[31:52] open and then eat that and then put the
[31:54] discard the
[31:55] claws. Okay, I kind of understand now.
[31:58] Very gross. I'm definitely not going to
[32:00] try
[32:02] this. Too disgusting.
[32:08] Maybe no one know I heard you scream
[32:12] away. Whatever
[32:16] those gross,
[32:18] John, I've never seen anything like this
[32:20] in my life.
[32:23] You keep saying that. I don't think of
[32:24] this as nature.
[32:30] Look at that. I would recommend your
[32:31] truck and everything,
[32:34] but behind
[32:37] it. Oh man, here
[32:45] right. We're near the aquarium. I would
[32:48] much rather have done that.
[32:54] Okay, I guess we're heading back to the
[32:57] campground.
[33:04] Yeah, I might be too, but you know,
[33:07] thank God we're not there
[33:10] yet. Oh man. But I did witness
[33:14] it. Like a very good
[33:18] man. Just cuz I said the little ew
[33:21] noises doesn't mean anything.
[33:26] Life. Yep. All right. It's gross. I
[33:29] mean, I'm just acknowledging my
[33:30] feelings, but I'm not like judging it
[33:33] or, you know, it wasn't so bad. I don't
[33:37] have emotions about it. I just think
[33:38] it's
[33:41] gross. All right, we'll head back to the
[33:43] campground. Watch it. I got my Jeep cuz
[33:47] it's so cold out. Oh my god, John's just
[33:49] fussing with stuff. I'm like, dude, I'll
[33:51] just wait for
[33:53] you. My phone not cooperating.
[33:57] Boy, look at my
[33:58] hair. I like
[34:01] it. John used to be a drag
[34:04] queen.
[34:06] What? I thought that's what I thought we
[34:09] were
[34:10] doing. All right, we're going to leave
[34:12] now. Anyways, this man used to be a drag
[34:15] queen and he's out here killing crabs.
[34:18] It's kind of remarkable. We're back at
[34:20] Beverly Beach. Don's out here. Hello,
[34:23] Don. Hello.
[34:25] There's no crab in that. You already got
[34:28] it inside. We're going to see if this
[34:30] man actually eats this.
[34:32] Are you going to eat it today? Well, do
[34:35] you have to cook it? Oh, yeah. You cook
[34:37] like you would eat anything. Okay. I
[34:40] don't know. I'm not eating raw crab now.
[34:47] Bit chilly. I don't like this wind.
[34:51] Not as windy here. True.
[34:55] Still would rather not be
[34:59] tired today.
[35:04] Didn't get enough sleep.
[35:12] It's like sucks that we're so far apart.
[35:13] I was just thinking that when I was
[35:15] driving here cuz even when you go back
[35:17] to Tuckman or Enco, you're still going
[35:19] to be an hour away from me. 45 minutes,
[35:22] right? 45 minutes. Okay. It's the way it
[35:26] is.
[35:27] I'm in the dunes. Well, you'll be in the
[35:29] dunes, too, though. No. Well, no. Sort
[35:32] of. Ligh. I call it the
[35:35] lighthouse. Lake Marine.
[35:38] Well, yeah, but the dunes are there. Oh,
[35:40] now I'm vaping around you,
[35:43] man. Move over here. I
[35:46] guess I'm such a considerate friend.
[35:49] You're the one with the nasty habit.
[35:52] It's better than smoking.
[35:55] Man, I smoked for most of my life. So,
[36:01] there was something else I was going to
[36:02] say and I
[36:07] forgot. There were two things I've done.
[36:10] forgotten.
[36:22] Trap came up with five more really big
[36:25] crabs, but they were all
[36:27] female. And then one rock crab.
[36:30] Unfortunately, it figured it can get out
[36:32] and got out the last second. Oh, and I
[36:35] didn't get to see what it looked like.
[36:38] smaller and bright
[36:41] red
[36:44] claws. Now look, you went over there and
[36:46] the smoke went that way. You sat here,
[36:48] the smoke went this way. But I'm still
[36:51] away from you. So no, I'm just saying
[36:53] the wind shifted completely when you
[36:55] moved. My hair is getting long. Mine's
[36:58] horrible.
[37:01] This is exactly what I wanted though.
[37:05] next month.
[37:07] Yeah, I'm going have to start cutting
[37:09] mine soon. That's for sure. This is
[37:11] about the length I wanted cuz I was
[37:13] going for that one look.
[37:16] I don't want to cover my hearings up
[37:18] piercings.
[37:20] I got yelled at by the the holy roller
[37:23] yesterday. Okay. Do you know? Well, let
[37:26] me Are things going good though? Oh, no.
[37:28] I'm talking about something different.
[37:29] The holy roller is the little
[37:33] char probably
[37:35] late 80s. Wow.
[37:41] She's just, you know, it's praise the
[37:42] Lord. Jesus Christ. Oh, wait. You're
[37:45] almost that age, aren't you? One of
[37:47] those times. And you know, I've been
[37:49] smiling and waving. I'm pretty sure he's
[37:51] in his 70s.
[37:56] Eating while I was driving.
[37:59] How old are you?
[38:02] In your 60s or 70s?
[38:05] I don't remember the 60s cuz you're 20
[38:07] years older. Okay. 227.
[38:11] You're getting there. You're You're
[38:12] talking about 80year-old and I'm just
[38:14] like, "Wow, that's old." But then an old
[38:15] lady.
[38:18] Okay.
[38:21] But she's one of these. She has a really
[38:23] nasty temper. No, it's going to go this
[38:25] way. As I said,
[38:28] is that to protect your um from water?
[38:32] Yeah. I'm going to move it under the
[38:35] trailer, but right now I'm going to be
[38:37] I'm more concerned about getting my
[38:38] plumbing working. Yeah.
[38:41] No. So, basically, they had done
[38:44] something on Saturday night was done
[38:45] wrong. So, the customer got a ticket
[38:49] which was not a big issue because
[38:53] pa, you know, would eliminate it, but
[38:55] the customer got upset because they gave
[38:59] she gave them wrong information. Okay.
[39:02] Okay. So, she makes it clear about that
[39:04] and I said, "Well, you don't have to
[39:05] worry about it. He's doing it and
[39:07] stuff." And then she made a comment. She
[39:10] says, "Well, I don't know what I'm
[39:12] supposed to do with what to do." I'm
[39:14] listening. I need my coat. It's
[39:17] freezing.
[39:19] It's cold, John. I need my coat. I'm
[39:23] dying. So nice in the sun,
[39:26] though. All
[39:28] right. Always having to wear my coat.
[39:31] I'm right on the coast and it's
[39:32] practically summer.
[39:36] Okay. She gave you bad information.
[39:39] She gave that information, right? So she
[39:43] asked she stated, "Oh, I'm following
[39:45] now." Okay. So she's a volunteer, but
[39:47] she gave that information to a guest.
[39:50] Guest was upset, but no biggie. So she
[39:53] when I said, "Well, yeah, you know, I
[39:55] start I just made the comment. Well, you
[39:57] know, if they don't register their
[39:59] vehicle as a tow vehicle, if they just
[40:02] drive it here, has to be paid as an
[40:05] extra vehicle. And then she said, "Well,
[40:08] I don't didn't know what to do since no
[40:09] one's ever told me." So, I said, "Well,
[40:11] you the best way to do it is you first I
[40:16] said give, you know, you refer them to
[40:18] the phone number." And then she started
[40:20] yelling at
[40:21] me. She started screaming about how
[40:24] there, you know, I've been here three
[40:26] years. You're not telling me how to
[40:27] treat my customers. And just yelled at
[40:30] me. And I'm like sitting there with
[40:32] Nancy
[40:33] and Gary were friends of mine and they
[40:36] just looked at her like, "What?" So of
[40:39] course later she came in and commented.
[40:42] She goes, "I will not put up with any
[40:45] campus telling me how to do customer
[40:48] service.
[40:49] Like I told she hasn't said anything to
[40:52] Py. If she does, I'll say it to P. She
[40:54] said, "No one told me what how to do it.
[40:57] I don't know what to do." And all I did
[40:59] was give her started to give I
[41:02] understand what you did. She never let
[41:04] me get to the part where I was going to
[41:06] say if you want to do the call yourself
[41:09] for the customer, you can. But she
[41:10] didn't let me get that far. See, so
[41:12] she's just telling. So it's like, well,
[41:15] she's friends with Kelly.
[41:19] I had a problem, which is we're doing
[41:21] fine now. We just we know our
[41:23] boundaries. She wants me to communicate
[41:25] with her directly. Like
[41:28] [ __ ] I'm only going to communicate
[41:31] on an open network where everyone sees
[41:33] what she says to
[41:36] me. It doesn't do what I want it to yet.
[41:47] It's pretty nice length,
[41:53] though. I'm just basting with you,
[41:57] John. It's very cold out here, though. I
[42:00] don't like the
[42:03] wind. Oh, you moved your grill.
[42:07] Wait, you have another one. What? Oh,
[42:09] that's the wood. Okay. Is that stain?
[42:11] Someone gave me a whole bunch of wood.
[42:13] my neighbor. But I don't have a fire
[42:15] pit. It's too close to the propane.
[42:17] Yeah. Um, so you keep it to give it to I
[42:21] got me a picnic table, though. Yeah,
[42:22] that's what I'm going to do. Somebody
[42:24] help me move it over. I'll take pictures
[42:26] later.
[42:30] And there's something else I've
[42:32] forgotten.
[42:34] I mean, you're pretty much going to be
[42:36] working most of the day, but on and off.
[42:39] I'm going to work from 8 to noon so that
[42:41] I can get a job after that. I just asked
[42:44] her today. So, she said it's fine. Did
[42:47] you already tell her that? Okay. But I
[42:49] didn't know varies on the type of job
[42:52] they have you doing for She says real
[42:55] flexible. My job's going to be real easy
[42:57] cuz um apparently one of the other ones
[42:59] is going to do all the cleaning of the
[43:00] bathrooms.
[43:02] So, all I have to do is just kind of
[43:03] clean up the fire pits and check people
[43:06] in and that's basically it. just answer
[43:09] questions
[43:11] checking people that's not like
[43:13] technically well you know
[43:16] right I guess we won't be doing that
[43:19] yeah that that's the way I understood
[43:22] with the federal is you have work that
[43:24] you can do in the morning midday
[43:27] something like that but then you also do
[43:28] the well there's somebody next to me and
[43:31] they can do the like you know noon to 4
[43:33] or whatever like I said I mean but yeah
[43:35] little stuff will come in and you know
[43:36] I'll deal with it Yeah. Well, as I said,
[43:39] it's not as rigid as our job. Yeah, it
[43:43] really isn't. It really isn't. I mean,
[43:45] most of our people here do what they
[43:47] want to do. So, you know, you would have
[43:50] been fine here if you had made it here
[43:52] because it isn't very rigid here in
[43:56] general. And that's been the problem.
[43:58] I'm so bitter about it, John. Still,
[44:01] just coming here and seeing the welcome
[44:03] center just makes me bitter.
[44:06] Cuz it's some stupid people.
[44:10] It's not right. Every time I see an
[44:12] Oregon State Park anywhere going up and
[44:14] down the coast, it just really sets me
[44:16] off.
[44:18] Well, for a while, but like said, you
[44:21] probably going to be better off where
[44:22] you are, but again, you're not really I
[44:24] didn't deserve to be banished. You know,
[44:26] that was just not cool. It's not right.
[44:32] It's hurtful. Actually, I think I'm
[44:34] probably still hurt. I'll be
[44:39] honest. I'll get over
[44:43] it. Maybe one day. Probably not. I don't
[44:46] let anything go
[44:49] ever. I pre I pretend like I do and I
[44:52] kind of do, but you know, there's still
[44:54] there's like Yeah, you know how it is.
[44:58] So, I know what I was going to tell you.
[44:59] So, you remember that beeping noise?
[45:01] It's my neighbor. Yeah. And that thing
[45:03] has been going off every 20 seconds all
[45:05] week long. Thank god she's going
[45:08] somewhere else cuz Oh my god, it's so
[45:11] frustrating. All she has to do is unplug
[45:13] it or or the fuse. I was going to say
[45:15] that. Built
[45:16] in you can't unplug that, but you could
[45:19] pull the fuse off it.
[45:22] Yeah.
[45:24] But again, do you think it runs on its
[45:26] own fuse or theoretically it should
[45:29] because it's a carbon monoxide detector.
[45:32] That's all it does. It's not a smoke.
[45:34] Well, she's leaving Friday, so I just,
[45:36] you know, and she's nice. She's a nice
[45:39] person. Just
[45:42] um I've been like playing noise at
[45:45] night, you know, just to drown it
[45:51] out. more patience than I do. I would
[45:53] blow up by within a few hours of that
[45:56] would drive me crazy. It's really not
[45:58] fun. But yeah, what can you
[46:01] do? She's been living with it for
[46:03] months. She's I don't know
[46:06] how I I which could mean either she
[46:10] doesn't understand about the fuse system
[46:11] or it may be linked with more than one
[46:14] thing and she'd have to turn off
[46:15] something else. So, she may not. I don't
[46:18] think you know the fuse thing. I didn't
[46:19] think I'd tell her that. I told her
[46:21] different things and she's like, "I've
[46:22] tried everything." Well, I don't think
[46:23] you tried the fuse. I didn't think of
[46:25] that at the time.
[46:30] One thing you can muffle it by putting
[46:32] That's what she did. She put a She put a
[46:34] sleeping bag around it, but it's still
[46:36] like I mean, I hear it in mine. I
[46:38] thought it was my RV at first, you know?
[46:39] That's how loud it is.
[46:46] Did you leave Friday?
[46:55] Someone contacted me thinking this is
[46:58] their spot.
[47:00] Wow, you really need to clean your
[47:01] awning.
[47:04] Stain owners away with mud or something.
[47:11] John just reminded me what the second
[47:12] thing was. So, I was going to say that
[47:14] this is the furthest north I've been and
[47:16] I'm getting depressed about it cuz I
[47:18] haven't gone any further
[47:20] north. It's been like
[47:23] he's talking about
[47:27] you're saying stay somewhere for 6
[47:29] months. Oh my god, I might die. Why
[47:31] don't you get your finance? That's half
[47:33] a year
[47:35] at one place. A parking lot.
[47:38] Yeah, that would have been I don't know
[47:39] if you would have enjoyed that, but I'm
[47:41] at a parking lot now. Yeah, but you got
[47:43] more trees around, too. I mean, it's a
[47:45] nice spot. It is a nice spot. Looks more
[47:48] than any other place. Oh, yeah. Yeah.
[47:50] Yeah. I agree with that.
[47:53] And again, it's going to be one of those
[47:55] things
[47:56] that you got the job so quickly because
[47:59] it's a hard job for her to fill. But
[48:01] once you finish six months with her and
[48:04] she likes, you know, she will probably
[48:06] if she can find someone to take your
[48:08] place, she will probably offer you a
[48:10] better camp, you know. Well, it still be
[48:12] in a dune, so Yeah, but it would be like
[48:14] where you were. I'm as far north as I
[48:16] can get. Those camp posts that were at
[48:19] the campground you were staying at,
[48:21] there's two of them there. There used to
[48:24] be two of them there and they in those
[48:26] regular Oh, I know what you're talking
[48:27] about. But that's the same. That's the
[48:28] same That's the same spot I'm at now.
[48:31] Mhm. There's something on your
[48:33] eyebrow. Okay. It looks like an insect
[48:35] buzz now. Okay.
[48:38] Um No, no, no. You're talking about
[48:41] um lagoon. Yeah, the lagoon. Okay. Yeah,
[48:44] it's right next to me. It's in the same
[48:46] area. You're in a reg regular camps. Oh,
[48:49] right. It is a camp. Well, I don't like
[48:51] their spot, though. Oh, cuz they're
[48:53] right up front and stuff. But no, no,
[48:55] no. What I'll do is I'll just keep
[48:56] traveling north and maybe I'll keep
[48:58] volunteering for the Forest Service just
[49:00] at different places. Yeah. Well, that's
[49:02] if there I don't think there is any.
[49:04] You're federal which means that covers
[49:06] every state, right? So, if if you want
[49:09] to, right, make a move up to Washington
[49:12] State. Like I said, you might, you know,
[49:15] there's places in you might enjoy, but I
[49:17] think you're like in the ocean right
[49:19] now. So, yes, there's very, as you know,
[49:22] very few on the ocean. Yeah. So,
[49:26] man, how did my hair get so
[49:28] long? It didn't take
[49:31] long. Oh my god, that my neighbor, she
[49:34] guessed my age
[49:36] accurately. I feel so sad about it. She
[49:41] said 50 years old. I was like, Kyle, was
[49:43] it the crow's eyes? At least she at
[49:46] least she didn't add 25 years on to me
[49:50] like this. I didn't know how old that
[49:52] other guy was. He's almost 90 years old.
[49:55] Well, I never got a close look at him. I
[49:58] wasn't never really paid attention to
[49:59] him. Hobbled. He's hunched over. Yeah,
[50:02] but I only saw him at his campsite that
[50:04] one day and we talked to him and Yeah, I
[50:07] hear you. Man is very old. He's moving
[50:09] around pretty good for his 90.
[50:19] I hear the
[50:21] ocean or the wind? It's the wind. Sorry.
[50:26] Late at night, you can hear the ocean
[50:28] here. Are you sure? Cuz it's constant.
[50:32] I hear hear it dropping in tone right
[50:34] now. Yeah, that's the
[50:36] wind. The ocean doesn't alter in tone. I
[50:40] mean, you have variations in, but you
[50:42] have a background tone that's constant
[50:45] here because of the high surf that we
[50:47] have. Did you see how far out the tide
[50:49] was today on the beach? Yep. Way out
[50:51] there. Yep. That's why I didn't even
[50:54] walk out there because it was kind of
[50:55] pointless.
[50:58] Yeah. Course we've been a lot of people
[51:01] down at our beach. It's about a half
[51:03] mile down our beach since they found
[51:05] that d those dinosaur
[51:07] bones. So now the state archaeologists
[51:11] are down there trying to find it.
[51:13] pine paleontologist.
[51:16] They're trying to find it,
[51:19] but they think it's in the cliff. And if
[51:20] it's in the cliff, they can't dig at the
[51:22] cliff because the cliff is unstable. But
[51:25] people are doing it and they've got
[51:27] especially when they started finding red
[51:29] red agots. I guess red agots are hard to
[51:32] find. People went nuts between the
[51:34] dinosaur bones and the red agots. So
[51:37] they were digging into the hillside.
[51:41] They told us in our safety meeting on
[51:43] Sunday that to let the people know it's
[51:45] a federal offense. It's a felony if you
[51:48] collapse a cliff. So,
[51:53] someone was telling me it's a $5,000
[51:54] fine if you left your fire pit burning
[51:57] at the federal campground. Technically,
[51:59] if if they want to pursue it, correct?
[52:02] Because of the fire danger. That's a big
[52:05] fine. Yeah. Yep. Well, it's it's like
[52:08] here in our state littering. If you got
[52:10] caught littering, it starts at 5,000.
[52:13] Wow. Five or six. I can't be sure. It
[52:17] was either 5,000 or
[52:20] 6,000. I wish they'd go back to what
[52:22] they originally were doing started. They
[52:25] had you take photographs and if you
[52:26] could get a photograph of the person
[52:28] with their license and the garbage that
[52:32] they would take it and file charges. The
[52:34] same person warned me not to take
[52:36] pictures because my phone could get
[52:37] subpoenaed and I wouldn't have a phone.
[52:40] Yeah. I was like, "Oh, yeah." Well, it's
[52:43] same with the state. Yeah. Yeah. That's
[52:45] what they Why they Well, no. No. Federal
[52:48] is different. Federal because you're
[52:50] they can't do it to us with our phones.
[52:53] They can do it with the text, which is
[52:55] they have access to our phones. No. But
[52:58] federal that doesn't surprise me.
[53:04] Yeah, Federal has a whole gambit of
[53:07] different guidelines. I can't even come
[53:09] camping here now because now I'm stuck
[53:10] somewhere.
[53:12] Like
[53:13] that's that's a problem.
[53:17] Again, that's all. Well, you get you
[53:19] borrow my little tent.
[53:22] I have a tent.
[53:25] And take off.
[53:27] They don't make you stay in their camp
[53:29] for those two days of you're off. I
[53:31] don't even know what diesels are yet.
[53:36] Once you establish that, then basically,
[53:38] yeah, you can go north in the Jeep with
[53:40] a tent in the sink deck. All right. I
[53:43] guess I could, but it's just kind of
[53:44] cool. Got a camping stove. Now, got a
[53:47] camping stove. What do you mean? The
[53:50] stove you thought was a grill? My
[53:52] propane bottle don't work though. You
[53:55] can buy the little bottles. In fact,
[53:57] take one take mine with you. I don't
[53:59] need I haven't used it
[54:01] forever. It just screws on to
[54:07] the camp stove.
[54:11] I'm just saying I want to be exploring.
[54:12] And then go into a thrift shop. There's
[54:15] several. Just want to be out there
[54:17] exploring in my RV. Soon as you get a
[54:20] little extra money, go into a thrift
[54:22] shop and buy yourself a pot. Couple
[54:24] pots. Oh, yeah. I do need pots, don't I?
[54:27] Yeah.
[54:31] is you need to be prepared. You know,
[54:33] you're in a spot now that you don't have
[54:35] to worry about it, but if the power goes
[54:36] off during a storm, you want to be able
[54:39] to heat up something. So, you always
[54:41] want to have a backup. I'll have propane
[54:43] cuz my, you know, once they hook that
[54:45] up. That's the nice part, too. That's
[54:46] going to help right there. And of
[54:48] course, my Jeep, I can always use my
[54:50] inverter. Mhm. And so, so yeah, as soon
[54:53] as you get the propane hooked up, then
[54:55] you can just use your propane water
[54:57] heater and propane heater. So then you
[55:00] free all your power. Yep. So that's
[55:03] going to help. Yeah, I'm looking forward
[55:04] to it cuz then I don't need my electric
[55:06] heater. I have to plug unplug that just
[55:07] to make coffee.
[55:08] Exactly. So it won't be in my way. I
[55:13] kind of want to fix my slide now because
[55:15] if I'm stuck there for so long, you
[55:18] should Well, go on YouTube and see what
[55:20] it says to see for manual opening. I was
[55:23] going to say I could probably manually
[55:25] open that thing and just leave it there
[55:26] for 6 months. I know you're comfortable
[55:28] with it closed, but you're going to be
[55:30] there a while. I would like a normal bed
[55:32] for a while. I'm dying. Well, not only
[55:34] that, you your interior space when it's
[55:36] a rainy cold day, you it will affect you
[55:40] by having a smaller space.
[55:42] when you know your brain knows you can
[55:44] have a bigger space. And if I have
[55:46] propane, that means I can run my heater
[55:48] all the time. Exactly. It could be nice.
[55:50] You're right.
[55:52] Well, you know, I did seal it up, so
[55:54] yeah, that part sucks. But I had to. I
[55:57] mean, I'm an Oregon. Well, I mean, when
[55:59] you take it off, it's going to do some
[56:01] damage, but hopefully not too much.
[56:06] Now you know how to I know you you're
[56:08] not real mechanical so you may not know
[56:11] how the proper way to remove tape that's
[56:13] been on for a while. No idea. Okay. It's
[56:15] called going back on itself. Okay. Let's
[56:18] say the tape
[56:20] is that's the tape. Okay. When you go to
[56:24] remove it, right away you bend it back
[56:29] completely back and then you pull slowly
[56:32] where it's pulling back on itself. Well,
[56:35] you know that it's boat tape, right?
[56:36] Like Yeah, it's going to come off. But I
[56:38] don't think that stuff was supposed to
[56:40] ever come off. If you pull like this,
[56:42] it's going to tear at your fiberglass,
[56:44] but you pull back on itself and slowly.
[56:48] That's going to be a lot of work,
[56:51] but it's going to be worth it in the
[56:52] long run.
[56:54] this time. You can also if you have a
[56:56] haird
[56:57] dryer, haird dryer will help make it
[57:00] remove on a sunny day would be better if
[57:02] the sun's on it. Will you help me one
[57:04] day? Maybe we'll do it. Very It just
[57:06] varies. Yeah, it's going to
[57:09] I'll need help to open it. Yeah, let's
[57:12] see. I mean, it's a digital box thing
[57:15] and I know that you can put it into a
[57:16] mode where it let you release it. Well,
[57:19] yeah, there's got basically, yeah,
[57:21] there's going to be a mode that you can
[57:23] manually pull it out or push from
[57:26] inside. It just varies depending on how
[57:29] how it's set up.
[57:32] Okay. Okay. But yeah, you have to
[57:34] disengage the motors is basically what
[57:36] you're doing.
[57:38] But I'm pretty sure yours is the same.
[57:41] Those inner those motors, you take them
[57:43] out. Once they're out, you can push and
[57:45] pull and push it.
[57:47] But um I mean that thing don't move at
[57:49] all. Like I'm surprised that those
[57:51] little things can keep it in the way it
[57:54] does. Yeah. Like cuz it's, you know,
[57:57] I've been driving it since Kentucky like
[57:59] that. Like I said, it was the key is now
[58:03] that you understand that once you get it
[58:05] fixed, you don't have that heavy
[58:07] equipment in there while it's opening or
[58:10] closing. And you just take move it out
[58:12] of the way. A guy lied to me. Yeah. They
[58:14] told me it was okay. Nope. That's why I
[58:17] don't trust AI. Just like it makes
[58:19] mistakes. It's Well, it's just like
[58:22] driving directions. People, humans make
[58:24] mistakes, too, you know. Yeah. But
[58:26] what's funny is that what you did today
[58:28] is so common because people rely on
[58:31] their phones navigation systems that I
[58:34] used one as well. I kind of knew I knew
[58:36] but cuz I was looking at I was like, you
[58:37] know what, that's on this side of the
[58:39] bridge. But I was like, you know what?
[58:40] Um, you wait in until she said something
[58:44] and basically I use my navigation
[58:47] system, but when I get within a half
[58:50] never been there before, I get within a
[58:52] half mile to a mile of my destination
[58:54] because it will tell me that I then
[58:58] looking at signs. Yeah, there was a sign
[59:00] that said aquarium. Yeah, it said
[59:02] aquarium bayfront and nothing that said
[59:05] crab dock or whatever. No, that's what I
[59:07] was looking for. fishing pier or no
[59:10] nothing like that. But yeah, I mean, but
[59:13] again, that's where unfortunately those
[59:15] nav systems I again I do it differently
[59:19] than you when I do my navigation and
[59:21] actually wanted me to turn off of the
[59:22] bridge. Yeah. Like in the middle of the
[59:24] bridge, I was like, "Okay, this is
[59:25] interesting." What I do when I do my
[59:28] navigation, soon as it gives me plots my
[59:30] thing, I go to the very end like Jeep
[59:33] and I look at the road names.
[59:36] So that way I know I I know you know
[59:39] I'll never do that right. Yeah. But if
[59:40] you do it solves having to worry about I
[59:44] mean but I wasn't worried so I went over
[59:45] the bridge and I went and I peed at the
[59:47] state park and I came back around and I
[59:49] just don't pee anyways. I just don't
[59:51] like going in circles. Too anal.
[59:55] I like that bridge. So I love that
[59:57] bridge. Yeah. The only one bigger is the
[60:00] Columbia Bridge. Really? That's the big
[60:02] one. There's a cross. Well, that's a
[60:04] very big river from what I've seen on
[60:05] the map. Following a big ship, big cargo
[60:08] ships go up and down that river. Oh, I
[60:10] really want to see
[60:12] it. You
[60:15] will for 6 months. Well, maybe I'll
[60:18] drive up there. Where did the white jeep
[60:20] go? Is it over there?
[60:26] You want to do this now or what?
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Apr 7, 2025
3:00
Declaring Sovereign Terms of Transmission
Apr 7, 2025
3:08
Declining to Perform After Conditional Donation
Apr 7, 2025
50:48
Running Systems Test Day Across Florence and Siltcoos
Apr 7, 2025
37:57
Establishing Off-Grid Power at Siltcoos
Apr 7, 2025
6:16
Walking to the Ocean at Siltcoos
Apr 8, 2025
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4:15
Naming the Terms of Witness and Reciprocity
Apr 8, 2025
8:03
Naming Audience Disconnection and the Demand for Presence
Apr 8, 2025
3:50
Recording Channel Introduction and Terms of Witnessing
Apr 9, 2025
1:46
Declaring Sovereign Movement Along the Coast
Apr 9, 2025
5:26
Naming Fear While Rebuilding Work Channels
Apr 9, 2025
11:53
Walking to the Ocean, Stating Terms of Witness
Apr 9, 2025
6:20
Placing Videos Behind Subscription, Applying for Work
Apr 10, 2025
3:59
Documenting Resource Inventory Two Days Before Relocation
Apr 10, 2025
19:16
Marking One Year on the Road at 48
Apr 11, 2025
4:14
Marking 48th Birthday and Requesting Bridge Support
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13:55
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Apr 12, 2025
15:22
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16:00
Recording Audit Part One: Body, Shelter, Mobility
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6:50
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Apr 13, 2025
4:13
Auditing Relational Domain: Allies, Communication, Vetting
Apr 13, 2025
1:34
Resupplying RV and Setting Up Outdoor Workstation
Apr 14, 2025
1:13
Checking Fluid Under Jeep
Apr 15, 2025
13:00
Walking to the Ocean, Stating Professional Record
Apr 17, 2025
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Apr 17, 2025
30:10
Introducing Himself and Career History from the Dunes
Apr 17, 2025
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Apr 18, 2025
8:14
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Apr 18, 2025
25:36
Building YouTube Transcript Pipeline On Camera
Apr 19, 2025
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Apr 19, 2025
Photos · Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025
60:36
Crabbing in Newport, Then Walking to the Ocean
Apr 22, 2025
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Apr 23, 2025
15:40
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Apr 23, 2025
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Apr 24, 2025
9:30
Naming the Audience Non-Response Pattern
Apr 25, 2025
8:31
Addressing the Audience on Witnessing Without Action
Apr 26, 2025
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PUBLIC
April 22, 2025 rswfire PUBLISHED
Temp 0.20
Density 0.70
Energetic Quality
vocally heightened, cognitively level
Journey Phase
traversing — mobile documentation across shifting settings
Directional Vector
toward direct contact with unfamiliar systems while holding distance from projected emotional frames
Narrative

On the morning of April 22, rswfire drove into Newport and found that the navigation system wanted him off the Yaquina Bay Bridge in the middle of the span. He crossed anyway, stopped to use the restroom at the state park on the far side, looped back, and came at the crabbing pier the second time by reading signs instead of the phone — aquarium, bayfront, nothing that said fishing pier. John was already there, trap in the water, when rswfire arrived with the camera running and his hat coming off in the wind. He announced the place immediately and repeatedly: the birds, the fouled decking, the impossibility of touching anything. This is the worst place I've ever been in my life. The seabirds owned the pier. A seal surfaced out in the channel and he tracked it, then turned the lens up at the bridge, which he liked, and said so.

Then the trap came up heavy and full and the day changed register. rswfire had never crabbed, had never eaten crab, had never eaten any marine seafood at all. He watched John lift the crabs out one at a time and narrated a running stream of ew and oh my god while asking, underneath it, the questions of someone learning a system in real time: how do you tell, what's rounded, why do the females go back, what makes it illegal. He learned the apron. He compared the animals to face huggers from Alien and meant it as observation. He said aloud that if society collapsed he'd be dead, and he said the noises were dramatics — that he shares this material with AI and the AI gets the wrong idea from the sounds. He recorded the whole thing for John anyway, and for whoever watches later.

He left the pier while John waited for another pull. Alone now, he crossed toward the South Jetty and picked up the branching multi-use trail through South Beach — hikers yield to horses, horses yield to bikes, bikes yield to hikers — walking out past the dunes onto flat open sand studded with flowers he suspected of his allergies. Sudafed and Mucinex were in his pocket. His phone battery was low; he had the portable brick. He was moving slowly, exhausted, and the wind was cold enough that it stayed on his mind. He climbed a low hill above the beach at low tide, sat down in the sun, and stopped filming so the phone could charge. Kids and families were scattered across a beach that had pulled itself far out.

Sitting there, the cold wind put him back in his twenties — a Greyhound south to Kentucky, then Michigan behind him, then Florida: Nancy in the panhandle, clients in Jacksonville, a man he'd met on the internet. He remembered the cold wind there and that he never once walked out to see the ocean, though it was right there. The man had told him they weren't relationship material; rswfire remembered thinking he didn't even live there. From that he moved directly into the statement the whole day turns on. People misunderstand him, he says. They assign him emotions he does not have. He has emotions, but they're integrated. He states that he does not perceive or experience the world the way most people do, that most people are running a different operating system, that the projection is irritating and has kept him in a bad mood for a week, and that coming out here was a way to sit apart from the fragmented consciousness around him. He considered walking the jetty and didn't. A helicopter passed with a person suspended below it; he zoomed in, lost them, tried to find them again.

John texted that he was quitting early, so rswfire walked back — sand in his face now, the wind fully up — past the jetty toward the bridge, and found John waiting. At the public cleaning station he asked for a minute, used the restroom, came back, and watched John kill a crab with a blade rswfire had assumed was a measuring tool. He'd been warned it wouldn't be pretty. He said this feels so wrong and I shouldn't be watching this and stayed. He asked whether it would be fast, whether it would be painless. He watched the nervous system twitch afterward and understood what he was seeing. He asked what part you actually eat, learned it was the claws and the white meat, learned the crab would have cost thirty dollars at market, told John he needed gloves. Somewhere in it he said what the day kept circling: that it made him think about how much of an animal has to die just for someone to eat. He noted he wasn't judging it. I don't have emotions about it. I just think it's gross. On the way out he pointed out that this man killing crabs at a public sink used to be a drag queen, and let that stand as remarkable.

Back at Beverly Beach they sat outside John's trailer in high wind with Don nearby, and the conversation opened into everything at once: hair getting long, piercings he doesn't want covered, a neighbor who guessed his age at fifty, an old man in the campground nearly ninety and still moving well. Don told the story of the volunteer who'd screamed at him over customer service. Dinosaur bones half a mile down the beach and red agates and people digging into an unstable cliff — a federal felony, they'd been told in Sunday's safety meeting. Rules stacked on rules, state and federal, five-thousand-dollar fines, warnings about subpoenaed phones. And through it, the forward planning: the volunteer coordinator out sick so no orientation yet, but eight to noon confirmed so he can take a job in town; fire pits and check-ins and no bathrooms; propane getting hooked up so the electric heater stops competing with the coffee; the inverter in the Jeep; a camp stove and John's spare propane bottle pressed on him; pots from a thrift shop, because you want to be able to heat something when the power goes out in a storm. The slide-out came up next — sealed with boat tape since Kentucky, driven closed the whole way. John walked him through pulling tape back on itself slowly, a hair dryer or a sunny day, disengaging the motors. rswfire asked him for help doing it. Six months in one place, and he'd like a normal bed for some of it.

Twice in the afternoon the OPRD thread surfaced without ceremony. Seeing the welcome center made him bitter, he said; seeing any Oregon State Park up or down the coast sets him off. He said he didn't deserve to be banished, that it wasn't right, that it was hurtful — and then, precisely, that he thinks he's probably still hurt. He said he'd get over it maybe one day, probably not, that he doesn't let anything go ever, that he pretends to and sort of does. He left it there. The other standing pressure was direction: this is the furthest north he's been, and staying put for six months registers against a stated intention to keep moving. John offered a tent, pointed out he'd have days off, told him federal service covers every state and Washington is right there. rswfire said what he wanted was to be out exploring in his RV. Then the talk turned to the Columbia bridge, bigger than the one he'd crossed twice that morning, cargo ships running under it. He said he really wanted to see it. John said he would, for six months. rswfire said maybe he'd drive up.

Tags

crabbing Newport coastal walk John Forest Service volunteering RV logistics OPRD thread

Summary

rswfire drives to Newport to meet John, who is crabbing off a pier near the bridge. He narrates the pier's bird activity as disgusting, then documents John pulling a trap of live Dungeness, sorting male from female by shell shape, and returning females as legally required. rswfire states he has never eaten crab or any seafood, and repeatedly notes he is being dramatic rather than distressed.

He leaves John at the pier and walks the South Jetty trail toward the ocean at South Beach, passing dunes, flowers, and trail-yield signage. Sitting above low tide, he recalls a Greyhound trip in his twenties — Kentucky to see his friend Nancy, then Jacksonville for Guru clients, then the Florida panhandle to meet a man from the internet — noting he never went to see the ocean then. He states people project emotions onto him that he doesn't have, that his emotions are integrated, and that he has kept away from people for about a week.

Back at the cleaning station he films John killing and cleaning a crab, then follows him to Beverly Beach. Their conversation covers:

  • His new Forest Service volunteer schedule — 8 to noon, orientation delayed, plans for a town job
  • Standing bitterness toward Oregon State Parks and the banishment
  • RV logistics: propane, slide-out repair, tape removal, camp stove, a neighbor's constant CO detector beeping
  • Campground governance, fines, dinosaur bones and red agates drawing diggers, and possible travel north toward Washington

Environment

Filmed on the Oregon Coast at Newport, beginning on the crabbing pier near the Yaquina Bay Bridge where rswfire meets his friend John, who is running a crab trap from the dock. The pier is heavily occupied by seabirds; a seal is visible in the water.

The recording then moves south across the bridge to the South Jetty area near South Beach, along a branching multi-use trail through dunes and flowering sand flats to a low hill overlooking the ocean at low tide. It returns to a public cleaning station with restrooms for the crab processing, then relocates to Beverly Beach, John's campground site, where the two sit outside the trailer in high wind and continue talking with Don nearby. Conditions: sunny, cold, very windy; rswfire is managing allergies with Sudafed and Mucinex and running low phone battery.

Substrate

rswfire holds a stance of exposure-without-conversion: he places himself inside an unfamiliar material process (trapping, sexing, killing, cleaning a crab) and documents his own vocal reaction while explicitly refusing the interpretation that reaction implies emotion, judgment, or distress. The load-bearing statement is his correction of external frames — 'always assigning emotions to me that I don't have,' 'I have emotions, but they're integrated,' 'I don't have emotions about it, I just think it's gross' — which reframes performative recoil as chosen dramatics rather than internal state. Underneath the day's surface is a second architecture: forward operational planning for the Forest Service post (hours, propane, slide-out, camp stove, pots, northward movement) and a stated, unresolved position on the OPRD dismissal that he names precisely as hurt and declines to release.

Actions

Performed

  • •filmed the crab dock and the seabirds
  • •narrated aversion to the birds and the pier
  • •watched John pull the crab trap and sort catch
  • •learned male/female crab identification by abdomen shape
  • •learned that females must be returned by law
  • •walked away from the pier toward the South Jetty
  • •crossed a branching hiker/horse/bike trail through dunes and sand
  • •sat on a hill above the beach at low tide
  • •filmed a helicopter with a person suspended below it
  • •stated that people project emotions onto him that he does not have
  • •stated he has been in a bad mood for a week and came out to be away from people
  • •walked back to meet John at the cleaning station
  • •used the restroom
  • •filmed John killing and cleaning the crab
  • •filmed and questioned the cleaning process — lungs, claw meat, edible parts
  • •declined to eat or try the crab
  • •drove to Beverly Beach and continued filming at John's site
  • •vaped and moved position relative to the wind
  • •discussed his hair length and piercings
  • •stated he is still hurt by the OPRD removal and does not let things go
  • •received instruction on removing long-set tape and manually releasing an RV slide

Referenced

  • •took a Greyhound to Kentucky and the Florida panhandle in his twenties
  • •visited best friend Nancy in Kentucky; met Guru clients in Jacksonville
  • •met and hooked up with a man in the Florida panhandle
  • •never went out to see the ocean on that trip despite proximity
  • •volunteered for Oregon State Parks; describes being banished
  • •drove over the Yaquina Bay Bridge past the destination following navigation
  • •sealed the RV slide-out with boat tape and drove it closed since Kentucky
  • •was told by AI that driving with heavy equipment in the slide was okay
  • •was given wrong hours/orientation timing — coordinator out sick
  • •neighbor's carbon monoxide detector beeping every 20 seconds for a week
  • •played noise at night to mask the beeping
  • •a neighbor guessed his age at 50
  • •John's account of being yelled at by a long-term volunteer over customer-service instruction
  • •John's past as a drag queen
  • •safety meeting on cliff collapse as a federal felony; agate and dinosaur bone digging
  • •was warned not to photograph litterers because his phone could be subpoenaed

Planned

  • •work the Forest Service post 8am to noon
  • •find a paid job in town for afternoons
  • •get propane hooked up to run heater and water heater
  • •manually open the RV slide and use a normal bed for six months
  • •remove the boat tape with John's help
  • •buy pots at a thrift shop; take John's propane bottle for the camp stove
  • •camp north in the Jeep with a tent on days off
  • •continue volunteering for the Forest Service at successive northward posts
  • •possibly move to Washington State
  • •see the Columbia River bridge
  • •possibly try crab or catch a fish some day

Entities

beings
rswfire — Records and narrates the signal; documents a first encounter with crabbing.
John — Friend, state park camp host, runs the crab trap and does the killing and cleaning; source of RV and preparedness instruction.
Don — Present at the Beverly Beach campground site; briefly greeted.
Nancy — Best friend from the Michigan/Kentucky period, referenced in the Greyhound trip account. A second Nancy is named as John's campground friend.
Kelly — Named in John's account of campground volunteer alliances.
places
Newport — Oregon coastal town; site of the crab dock and bridge.
Yaquina Bay Bridge — Bridge into Newport; repeatedly noted as a structure he likes.
South Jetty / South Beach — Trail and beach area he walks to after leaving the pier.
Beverly Beach — State park campground where John is hosted; second half of the recording.
Siltcoos — Referenced as the dunes-area Forest Service post he is taking, roughly 45 minutes from John.
Columbia River bridge — Named as a larger bridge he wants to see if he moves north.
Florida panhandle / Jacksonville / Kentucky / Michigan — Locations in the referenced twenties-era Greyhound trip.
systems
Oregon State Parks — The institution he states banished him; seeing its facilities is named as a recurring trigger.
US Forest Service — Federal agency he is now volunteering for; different rules, hours, and jurisdiction than the state.
Oregon crab regulations — Legal frame requiring release of female crabs and size measurement.
Guru — Freelance platform through which he had the Jacksonville clients.
AI — Named twice: as a listener that misread his dramatics, and as a source that gave wrong RV slide advice.
carbon monoxide detector — Neighbor's malfunctioning unit; subject of a fuse-pull troubleshooting exchange.
RV slide-out — Sealed shut with boat tape since Kentucky; target of a planned manual repair.
media
Alien (film) — Referenced twice — crabs compared to face huggers.

Symbolic Elements

Represented archetypes or recurring motifs.

ocean
wind
bridge
jetty
threshold
tide
dune
blade
trap
alien
north
contamination
shell

Ontological States

Expressed modes of being or awareness.

sovereign (states directly that others assign him emotions he does not have and that his emotions are integrated)
observant-exterior (positions himself as documentarian of a process he declines to participate in)
transitional (between state and federal volunteer structures, between coastal posts, oriented northward)
non-releasing (states plainly that he does not let things go and is still hurt by the OPRD removal, without resolving it)
embedded-in-friendship (sustained peer exchange with John across logistics, repair, and institutional grievance)

Engaged Subsystems

Architecture engaged in this transmission.

somatic (allergies, sinuses, Sudafed and Mucinex, cold, exhaustion, aversion responses)
cognitive (real-time distinction between vocalized reaction and internal state)
ethical (respect for the animal, questions about how much has to die, refusal to judge the killing)
infrastructural (propane, slide-out, camp stove, inverter, pots, tape removal, detector fuse)
institutional (OPRD dismissal, Forest Service scheduling, federal vs state jurisdiction, volunteer conflict)
relational (friendship with John, distance in miles, projected-emotion friction with people generally)
navigational (nav system error, bridge crossing, trail branching, tide timing)
documentary (continuous filming, narration for future viewers, low battery management)

Dominant Language

Core motifs or linguistic fields.

disgusting / gross / ew
I'm just being dramatic
they're integrated / assigning emotions to me that I don't have
fragmented consciousness
banished / still hurt / I don't let anything go
male, female, illegal, put back
further north / six months / stuck somewhere
Narrative

On the morning of April 22, rswfire drove into Newport and found that the navigation system wanted him off the Yaquina Bay Bridge in the middle of the span. He crossed anyway, stopped to use the restroom at the state park on the far side, looped back, and came at the crabbing pier the second time by reading signs instead of the phone — aquarium, bayfront, nothing that said fishing pier. John was already there, trap in the water, when rswfire arrived with the camera running and his hat coming off in the wind. He announced the place immediately and repeatedly: the birds, the fouled decking, the impossibility of touching anything. This is the worst place I've ever been in my life. The seabirds owned the pier. A seal surfaced out in the channel and he tracked it, then turned the lens up at the bridge, which he liked, and said so.

Then the trap came up heavy and full and the day changed register. rswfire had never crabbed, had never eaten crab, had never eaten any marine seafood at all. He watched John lift the crabs out one at a time and narrated a running stream of ew and oh my god while asking, underneath it, the questions of someone learning a system in real time: how do you tell, what's rounded, why do the females go back, what makes it illegal. He learned the apron. He compared the animals to face huggers from Alien and meant it as observation. He said aloud that if society collapsed he'd be dead, and he said the noises were dramatics — that he shares this material with AI and the AI gets the wrong idea from the sounds. He recorded the whole thing for John anyway, and for whoever watches later.

He left the pier while John waited for another pull. Alone now, he crossed toward the South Jetty and picked up the branching multi-use trail through South Beach — hikers yield to horses, horses yield to bikes, bikes yield to hikers — walking out past the dunes onto flat open sand studded with flowers he suspected of his allergies. Sudafed and Mucinex were in his pocket. His phone battery was low; he had the portable brick. He was moving slowly, exhausted, and the wind was cold enough that it stayed on his mind. He climbed a low hill above the beach at low tide, sat down in the sun, and stopped filming so the phone could charge. Kids and families were scattered across a beach that had pulled itself far out.

Sitting there, the cold wind put him back in his twenties — a Greyhound south to Kentucky, then Michigan behind him, then Florida: Nancy in the panhandle, clients in Jacksonville, a man he'd met on the internet. He remembered the cold wind there and that he never once walked out to see the ocean, though it was right there. The man had told him they weren't relationship material; rswfire remembered thinking he didn't even live there. From that he moved directly into the statement the whole day turns on. People misunderstand him, he says. They assign him emotions he does not have. He has emotions, but they're integrated. He states that he does not perceive or experience the world the way most people do, that most people are running a different operating system, that the projection is irritating and has kept him in a bad mood for a week, and that coming out here was a way to sit apart from the fragmented consciousness around him. He considered walking the jetty and didn't. A helicopter passed with a person suspended below it; he zoomed in, lost them, tried to find them again.

John texted that he was quitting early, so rswfire walked back — sand in his face now, the wind fully up — past the jetty toward the bridge, and found John waiting. At the public cleaning station he asked for a minute, used the restroom, came back, and watched John kill a crab with a blade rswfire had assumed was a measuring tool. He'd been warned it wouldn't be pretty. He said this feels so wrong and I shouldn't be watching this and stayed. He asked whether it would be fast, whether it would be painless. He watched the nervous system twitch afterward and understood what he was seeing. He asked what part you actually eat, learned it was the claws and the white meat, learned the crab would have cost thirty dollars at market, told John he needed gloves. Somewhere in it he said what the day kept circling: that it made him think about how much of an animal has to die just for someone to eat. He noted he wasn't judging it. I don't have emotions about it. I just think it's gross. On the way out he pointed out that this man killing crabs at a public sink used to be a drag queen, and let that stand as remarkable.

Back at Beverly Beach they sat outside John's trailer in high wind with Don nearby, and the conversation opened into everything at once: hair getting long, piercings he doesn't want covered, a neighbor who guessed his age at fifty, an old man in the campground nearly ninety and still moving well. Don told the story of the volunteer who'd screamed at him over customer service. Dinosaur bones half a mile down the beach and red agates and people digging into an unstable cliff — a federal felony, they'd been told in Sunday's safety meeting. Rules stacked on rules, state and federal, five-thousand-dollar fines, warnings about subpoenaed phones. And through it, the forward planning: the volunteer coordinator out sick so no orientation yet, but eight to noon confirmed so he can take a job in town; fire pits and check-ins and no bathrooms; propane getting hooked up so the electric heater stops competing with the coffee; the inverter in the Jeep; a camp stove and John's spare propane bottle pressed on him; pots from a thrift shop, because you want to be able to heat something when the power goes out in a storm. The slide-out came up next — sealed with boat tape since Kentucky, driven closed the whole way. John walked him through pulling tape back on itself slowly, a hair dryer or a sunny day, disengaging the motors. rswfire asked him for help doing it. Six months in one place, and he'd like a normal bed for some of it.

Twice in the afternoon the OPRD thread surfaced without ceremony. Seeing the welcome center made him bitter, he said; seeing any Oregon State Park up or down the coast sets him off. He said he didn't deserve to be banished, that it wasn't right, that it was hurtful — and then, precisely, that he thinks he's probably still hurt. He said he'd get over it maybe one day, probably not, that he doesn't let anything go ever, that he pretends to and sort of does. He left it there. The other standing pressure was direction: this is the furthest north he's been, and staying put for six months registers against a stated intention to keep moving. John offered a tent, pointed out he'd have days off, told him federal service covers every state and Washington is right there. rswfire said what he wanted was to be out exploring in his RV. Then the talk turned to the Columbia bridge, bigger than the one he'd crossed twice that morning, cargo ships running under it. He said he really wanted to see it. John said he would, for six months. rswfire said maybe he'd drive up.

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